The calm within the storm...

📍London, U.K. 🏳️‍🌈 Aqua HD Projector

[expressions-of-nature]

by Noah Grossenbacher

[unusual-suspects]

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[starrynightkittenn]

Happy Halloween!🎃🦇🖤

[skatingbuddha]

Sometimes my brain full on refuses to comprehend WHY can’t I wake up tomorrow and have the life I desire.

[this-is-good-bye]

[allthingshalloweenn]

[04k96]

[raveezus]

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[skatingbuddha]

How can the same person be jealous over girls’ night in plans and play COD all weekend. It’s hard to be a fly on the wall and be mad

[niechou]

watercolor painting，sweep snow❄️

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[bohemiansthings]

Just Between Us

[skatingbuddha]

gworls

[niechou]

watercolor painting，window🪟

[charnel-grounds]

Willem van Schaik (1874–1938), “Hunger”

pen and ink on paper, 1917

source

[skatingbuddha]

Apparently my s.o. does not think I am a particularly brave person.

I moved countries alone at the age of 18, I have successfully pursued my childhood dream career in a foreign country, even though no one in my family had the slightest clue on how one succeeds in that field, I had shaved my head bald and dyed my hair crazy colours, I have tattoos/piercings, I have my own style and I never follow trends, I have powered through being misdiagnosed as mentally unwell, when my body was breaking down and shortly after - being bullied for becoming physically disabled, I am never afraid to speak up for what's right.

But I also learned that when I crush and burn no-one will pick me up and clean me up, so I take risks that I know I can bear the consequences of.

My weakest, most scared part is the one that has to rely on and trust other people, because it really has not worked out that way for me. And still I keep doing just that every day for over 10 years, with no safety net in place, free falling, with no assurance I would ever be caught.

So with all that said, what is bravery to you?

[blaqueonblck]

“Safe Sex Is Hot Sex” By Steven Meisel commissioned by the Red Hot Organization during the 1990s.

[skatingbuddha]

wow can you tell I have a lot of extra thoughts lately ay O.o

but yea sometimes I think if I knew where I would land later on life, there are a few things that I would have done differently or maybe even not at all.

for example plastic surgery. If I knew then what I know and feel now, I could have embraced my NB body, I could have saved myself so much heartache and effort and probably sped up this whole process by a good 10 years.

but the box that housed my spirit then did not allow that and I did a great job at pleasing the box, outgrowing it however took much longer time-wise and much much more courage-wise.

now I guess I need to find more courage to accept the paths my younger self chose and what it means for present-day me.

but it's hard to do, when I am haunted by an ever growing feeling that I keep taking the wrong turns, just because they masqueraded as right convincingly enough many many moons ago.

[feefal]

You died! Choose your next reincarnation.

Remember, amount of karma farmed during lifetime will vary depending on chosen form.

[skatingbuddha]

I can't help it.. When I see a pretty face or even more so when I see a pretty but sad face, I feel like sitting on it.