Iluvbeingskinni

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I ate 1 walnut today

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If u want an Ana buddy for the autumn diet ❤️ just message me luvs

[skiinilife]

Yea u f****r who are you to say my anorexia is something I can just stop, like overnight..???

Don’t talk to me and look at urself first, keep trying to do “fad diets” to shed all of that fat while lecturing me??

At least I’m fucking losing more fat than you ever will dumbfuck

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What I’ve been following (I made the plan for u guys 🧡)

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A week in a life of me

Monday: fast

Tuesday: fast

Wednesday: fast

Thursday: fast

Friday: fast

Saturday: 3 rice cakes

Sunday: 3 rice cakes

This is is my life now, this is how I choose to live it.

[skiinilife]

Okay so you can watch eating disorder movies like to the bone OR watch movies where the main characters are put in a situation where they have to starve- I have to say, life of Pi rlly helped me to not binge these past few months

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Fall is coming so I hope 3dtumblr blesses me with fall pics and aesthetics.

Last year I couldn’t do this bcs I was a fatass but this fall I can’t wait to wake up on a holiday with fuzzy socks on, light sweats and a red flannel

I’ll be in my love chair with cozy blankets and a pumpkin spice latte watching the leaves change colour through my lacy curtains

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I wanna be so skinny that when people touch my shoulders they can feel the little ridges and bumps.

At that point in my life I will be at my best

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I….forgot how long it’s been since I had food that isn’t rice cakes.

But I feel happy inside.

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I’m excited for school, not because I can stave all day and yadayada, it’s because I take a bus with this girl in my grade who my personal motivation. She was full of bull and cocky with me a few years ago…now I get to watch her on the bus.. she’s grown big and healthy and it’s making me feel invincible

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Just threw up and now I’m exercising… this is life

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Life right now is a blur.

I am an anorexic. This is too easy to pull off with a family that just doesn’t care.

Am I happy or sad? I don’t know, for once I don’t know how I feel about a situation I’m living through.

I will just shrivel here and starve, no one seems to notice and I can’t stop

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Feeling full makes me feel fat and actually hurts my stomach to the point that a few bites will satisfy me

So

Starving and feeling hunger>> feeling full

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I love looking at fat girls instagrams that go to my school, u girls will be fat while I slay skinny

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I tried to heal, I really did….. but this way of life is so Goddamn addicting

[skiinilife]

What gives me comfort:

Growling is actually satisfying

Feeling hunger in general

Feeling cold while everyone else is sweating like a pig

The numbers going down

The fact that I keep on needing to get smaller sized pants

Button up flannels are loose on me

[skiinilife]

The ultimate Christmas present is -14 pounds on the scale ❤️