Vicky

Since '94

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Okkkiiiii dokkkieeee this is the post for today, i am NOT okay #sicktomystomach

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Chamomile Field by Elena Kolesneva

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Dear Dollie | Part thirty six

TW: nothing, little bedroom moment between gator & miss but nothing bad. Tara I guess.

Tara turns to face you, Mouth slightly open as you stand in front of them both.

"Tara?"

"I was just.." She turns towards Gator who's also wearing a guilty expression before he walks over to you, Hand resting on your cheek.

"She's jus goin"

"I wanted to see Dollie" Tara smiled at you, quickly walking towards Dollie. You watched as she crouched down in front of her, The grin on Dollies face making your stomach turn. Something wasn't right, You could see it in the guilty expressions on both of their faces. You could see it in the way Dollie had a new found strong connection with her, sure Dollie always liked her. Dollie liked everyone but this? It was different and it made you feel sick, You looked down at Teddy sleeping peacefully in your arms. The only one left untouched by the bitch you thought was your best friend if the thoughts racing through your head were right.

"I'll come back soon, Meet Teddy properly" Tara smiled, her hand squeezing at your shoulder. Even that felt strange, Where was the hug she usually gave you? Her arms thrown around you holding onto you like if she let go you'd disappear? Your mind was racing, You couldn't answer her. You just stared as her with a blank expression, Her eyebrows furrowed as she looked at you.

"But Dollie was with me, She told me she'd already seen you" You replied, Gator looking down at the floor making your stomach turn, You look towards him "Gator?"

"Was just chattin" He mumbled, Telling you everything you needed to know.

You looked down at Dollie whose eyes were flicking between everyone, Way too young to hear what you were about to say.

"Come on, you" You smile down at her before guiding her out of the stables, Heart racing as you made your way back towards the house with her.

"Happy?" Gator hissed as he looked at Tara, His own heart racing.

"Oh please, You think she knows? Ive known her forever Gator" Tara scoffed "She's.."

"Let me fuckin stop ya there" Gator spat out leaning down into Taras face "Ten times better than you"

Tara laughed rolling her eyes, Hand gripping his shirt pulling him closer as Gator turned his face away from her.

"You'll learn otherwise" Tara shrugged "You just dont know me yet"

“Don’t fuckin wanna know ya, want ya as far away from us all as fuckin possible!”

“That’s never gonna happen, you know that right?”

He did. Gator knew nothing he could say would ever change how you felt about Tara, you’d never belive him over her. She was the family you never had, the family you chose.

~

The house was silent when Gator made his way back inside, You'd cleaned up and put both the kids to bed while he was somewhere you had no idea. Was he still with Tara all that time? You left them both alone and he didn't come back for two hours, Your stomach turned when you looked at him.

"Where were you?" You asked walking towards him, Gators chest tightened. He could see the hurt in your eyes, He knew you knew something and he wanted to make it right but honestly he didn't know where to start.

"Baby"

"Please dont" You half smile "Just be honest with me" You could feel the lump in your throat, but you'd cried too many tears over Gator Tillman. You wouldn't let him see any more.

You watched as Gator exhaled, Eyes filled with something you couldn't make out.

"Kids ok?"

"Gator" You almost sobbed as you stepped closer, Regaining your composure as you look up at him. "Do you love her?"

Gators eyes closed, Like your words physically hurt him.

"No" He opened his eyes, Letting them search yours to see if you believed him. "Fuckin course I don't" Your heart was racing, but his words did let some form of relief wash over you.

"What happened?" You whispered, Gators body filled with guilt. He should have told you the minute it happened but how could he do that after everything you'd just been through? Was he just meant to walk into the hospital and confess he'd had your best friend living in the house? That she'd taken your place while you were gone? She read Dollie stories and he'd caught her smelling of your shampoo a few times? "Im not mad, I get it" You shrug.

Gators eyebrows raised as he looked at you, A chill washing over him.

"Get what?" He asked barely above a whisper, stepping closer resting his hand on your cheek.

"That you needed someone to fuck, She was there" The words hurt as they came out, You didn't get it. You'd never do that to him, But Tara was right. She'd told you all along the type of man Gator was and you chose not to believe her. Maybe she was mad at you, Wanted to prove a point just how easy he was.

"What, Fuck! No" Gators heart was racing in his chest, Stepping forward resting his hands on your shoulders to get you to look at him "Ya really think id do tha to ya?"

"Yes" You whisper, looking him straight in the eyes "I do"

Gator felt like he'd been winded, The calm expression on your face confirming that you really did believe it. You thought he'd fucked her, You thought he'd do that to you after everything you'd been through together.

"She's..shes fuckin crazy!" Gator stuttered, Voice raised as he watched you for anything. "She come onta me!"

"Gator, Ive known her my whole life!" You matched his tone, Finger pressed into his chest "I knew it wouldn't be long before you fucked up again, I just didnt think it would be this soon" You exhaled before turning away from his to walk to the kitchen, Gators hand catching your wrist to stop you as he pulled you in close to him and then it hit you, You knew exactly where he'd been for the last two hours as the smell of alcohol hit you. "You've been drinking?"

"Needed some fuckin courage" He sighed, grip on your wrist loosening now he had your attention again "I didnt wanna be tha one ta break yer heart"

"again" You scoffed "Should be used to it"

"Jus..Just listen ta me this once" Gators eyes pleaded with yours, Something settled in your stomach. "Please, pretty girl"

~

You sat opposite him at the kitchen table, Gators fingers were tapping the wood nervously like he didnt know what to say now he had you here.

"She offered ta help when ya were gone, I stupidly said yeah" Gator laughed breathlessly "She moved in"

"For the whole time?"

"Pretty much" Your stomach turned, Heart racing as you looked at him. "She cooked, Cleaned, Put Doll ta bed"

You shake your head as you look down at the table, Mind spinning with everything that could have happened.

"Tommy?"

"Stayed with his dad, listen I fucked up"

"Damn right you did" You sighed letting your face fall against your hand, Hoping you'd wake up and all of this would just be another nightmare. You thought you'd feel more hurt but truthfully it had been fuck up after fuck up from Gator so eventually you knew cheating would make its way onto the table.

"Not in tha way yer thinkin, I think I let her think things were..different. Shouldn't have let her help"

No,no, no he was just trying to lie his way out of it, he was trying to blame her. There is no way that Tara would ever do this to you, he had to have instigated this. You looked up at him, You couldn't tell if he was lying yet.

"Was one night I was..emotional" He looked down like he was embarrassed and honestly he probably was, never being one to give much away. "We was sat on tha sofa an she hugged me, like she always does but I dunno.."

You felt like you could be sick, You didn't want to hear what he was about to say next but you needed to. Maybe this would be the final thing to make you realise what a dick Gator really was, Maybe this would be the wake up call you needed. Letting you walk away from this whole mess without feeling guilty, Maybe Tara would move in and replace you. The thought of them hugging on the sofa, was it a quick good night hug or were they cuddling? Did it even matter anymore?

"Maybe it was tha stress of everythin an she leaned in a tried ta y'know?" Gator looked at you with an awkward expression, Rage flooded your body at the thought of her betraying you like this. No, She wouldn't do that.

"She what?" You replied bluntly, eyes burning into him.

"Tried ta kiss me, Pulled away mama I wouldn't do tha.."

"You must have..You must have made her feel like you wanted it!" You tried to shout but it came out weak, Your eyes wide as they pleaded with him to confirm you were right. That she wasn't the one that initiated the betrayal.

"No..Fuck, said I loved ya!" Gators hand reached across the table for yours, You pulled away quickly. "I fuckin meant everythin I said ta ya! She fuckin came onta me an I backed away kicked her the fuck out"

You started at him, Breathing rapidly as it hit you in the moment. She wasn't trying to get you away from him to protect you, She wanted him for herself.

"An now she wont back off, Keeps saying we should be together an shit" You tried to hear him, You really did but your head was spinning "Tha's what she was in tha barn fer, told her no again" He shrugged "She aint gonna stop tryin"

Your skin was prickling, Heart broken worse than any way he could ever break it.

"Fuckin meant it mama, M'all in with ya" Gator reached for your hand again, this time you let him. Thumb brushing over your skin softly. You looked up at him and swear you could see the relief in his eyes that you believed him.

"You shouldn't have had her in the house, But I get why you trusted her" You sighed "Id have trusted her with you too"

"M'jus irresistible" Gator smiled trying to lighten the mood, You scoffed shaking your head.

"Not the time"

"Sorry"

"You should have told me when it happened"

"Didnt wanna break ya heart, Thought if she jus backed off wouldn't have ta"

Your heart hurt, he wasn't being secretive he was trying to protect you.

"Can we go to bed?" You asked, mind still racing with what to do next. How to confront her, How to end the friendship that had kept you alive your whole life. Fuck, how could she?

"C'mon" Gator smiled, Pulling you up from the table with your hand. Wrapping his arm around your shoulders as he guided you to the stairs, Kissing the top of your head.

"Ya know id never do tha ta ya right?" He whispered as you reached the top of the stairs, You looked at him before nodding.

"I know"

Gator exhaled before pulling you into the bedroom, You both peered over Teddy's crib to make sure he was still sleeping.

"Hes so perfect" You whispered turning towards Gator who was wearing a smirk.

"Takes after his daddy"

You scoff playfully slapping his arm, Gators hand catches your wrist bringing your hand to his mouth placing a kiss to it.

"Missin ya mama" He whispered against the skin, Kissing down your arm slowly "How long left?"

"A week" You reply breathlessly as the feeling of his lips on your skin sent a shiver through you, Gator groaned pulling you flush against his body.

"S'ok a weeks nothin, a week early won’t hurt" He laughed quietly before pushing his lips against yours and you swear you could feel him melting into you, Like it was the best thing he'd ever felt.

"Hmm I think you're right" You teased as you bit down on his bottom lip making him groan, His hands finding your hips as he rolled against you again.

"Cant mama, Dont wanna hurt ya but.." He rolled them against you again, The perfect pressure against you making you gasp as you wrap your arms around his neck "Want ya so bad" He kissed your ear before pulling your thighs round him so he could lift you up, Walking you to the bed before placing you down softly.

Crawling on top of you on the bed, Pressing warm open mouth kisses against your neck.

"Gator" You whisper, moving your head to the side to give him more access to you.

"Shhhh, baby" He whispered, Hand moving up your thigh squeezing the flesh before pushing it down to the bed so he could get closer to you "Ya dont know how hard it is fer me not ta fuck this pretty pussy" He groaned rolling his hips against you again, You cant help the soft moan that falls from you, His words going straight to your core. "Tha's it baby, let me hear ya"

You pull his face back down to yours, lips crashing into his as you breathed into each others mouth's like you'd never been kissed before. Gators hard length dragging perfectly over you, Wrapping your legs around his waist to pull him closer to you.

"Fuck, Aint gonna be able ta stop soon pretty" He mumbled into your mouth, Tongue brushing over yours as you moan into his mouth.

~

You stoke your hand down his cheek, So pretty when he's sleeping. You couldn't sleep, A deep hatred for someone you'd have died for now buried in your chest, The man you loved? The only man you'd ever loved and she couldn't just stay away? She couldn't let you have this one thing?

YOU: Hey, im sorry if I seemed a little idk off earlier. are you still up? Id love to talk?

TARA: Im up.

YOU: I think it's the hormones, I have wine. Wanna come over? I miss you!

TARA: omw bitch.

You smiled down at your phone, placing it down on the bedside table before kissing Gators cheek climbing out of the bed.

You didnt know what you wanted from this, Didnt know how it was going to go but you knew if you wanted to ever sleep again you needed to confront her.

You filled two wine glasses placing them on the table before you heard the sound of her car pulling into the drive way. You quickly pushed the bottle onto the side, hands shaking as you walked towards the door.

"Hey" You forced a smile to your face, Skin burning as tara threw her arms around you.

"Girl. You dont know how much I need this wine." Tara scoffed walking towards the kitchen.

"I can imagine" You reply bluntly making Tara turn to you with an uneasy expression on her face before you smile at her, Picking up your own glass clinking it against hers "Tell me all about it, bestie"

Tara looked at you, unsure for a moment. The smile on your face looked way too happy for the time of night it was, She watched as you downed your glass of wine before refilling it.

"Drink up" You smiled pushing her glass towards her lips "We have a lot to talk about"

"We do?" Tara asked with a breathless laugh, You nod watching as she downs her wine this time. You top it up again quickly. "You're being weird"

"Dont you always say im weird?"

"Guess so" Tara shrugged "Girl things are so bad at home, He does nothing around the house. He does nothing with Tommy!"

"Didnt he have him the whole month you were here?" You asked bluntly, Watching the colour drain from her face "Oh" You smile "Thank you so so much for all of the help you gave Gator! He would have been lost without you"

Tara looked like she'd seen a ghost, not knowing what you knew but knowing something was off.

"Oh, he told you?"

"Mhm, Said you were amazing actually"

Tara grinned as she looked at you, a pink flush spreading across her cheeks.

"You know me, love to help" She beamed, turning your stomach as you looked at her. Not seeing your best friend anymore when you looked at her, Seeing a stranger. A rage bubbling away in you as you watched her get bashful thinking Gator spoke so highly of her, wanting to slap it straight off her face.

"So how was he with you? I know he can be a little.. you know" You shrugged.

"Oh he was also amazing" Tara smiled, Making the grip on your wine glass tighten as you looked at her. "Hes such a good dad, Almost too good"

"Im lucky, aren't I?" You smiled, Watching the smile drop off her face at the realisation she wasn't talking about someone she had a crush on. She was talking about your person, Her best friends person.

"I mean, Yeah" Tara shrugged acting coy, Drinking the last of her wine from the glass.

"Hes been talking about us getting married" You smiled sweetly, placing your glass down on the table. "Says that's our next step"

"You'd be stupid to do it" Tara scoffed, Making you laugh.

"But he's amazing? You said so yourself" You reply tilting your head as you look at her "Hes a good daddy, remember?" You whisper as you let your gaze burn into her skin.

"Exactly, good daddy but shit boyfriend" Tara shrugged "Any more of this?" Tara asked pushing her glass across the table to you, Frowning when you shake your head.

"No, Dont want you too drunk. Needs to be fair" You mumble walking her glass over to the sink.

"What?" Tara laughed, You turn back around to her smiling softly.

"Nothing"

"Bitch, You're so fucking weird" Tara giggled.

"Oh shit, I think Dollies bunny is still in the stables from earlier" You sigh "Come grab it with me? If she wakes up she'll want it"

"Ugh, That bunny will be the death of me" Tara groaned, Walking towards the door.

You smile, picking your wine glass up following her out of the door.

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Vetheuil (1879) by Claude Monet

[sunshinereaderx]

Best friend Steve

You struggle with Steve backing away as he grows closer to Anna, you meet someone to fill the time that you used to spend with Steve, causing upset.

Bad language, drinking alcohol, angst.

Part two.

You walked towards Steves door, Heavy feeling in your chest as you knocked. You missed him, Wanted to see him after not hearing from him in a few days. It wasn't like this wasn't normal because it was, When he had someone important in his life he always disappeared.

Steve grins as he opens the door, Stepping aside to let you come in.

“Hey you" He grins as he closes the door, He looked happy to see you at least. Maybe he'd just been busy, Maybe this time it would be different and he wasn't shutting you out.

"Where have you dissapeared too?" You teased, but there was something behind it. You wanted Steve to know that you'd noticed he was pushing you away again. You pulled your jacket off as you held his eye contact, His big eyes burning down into yours.

"Uh, Just..here" He shrugged but the smile was still on his face, Clearly oblivious to the digs you were throwing at him. He took your jacket from your hands, hanging it up before turning back towards you. "Coming up?" He asked as he walked up the stairs leaving you to follow behind just like you always did.

Throwing yourself back onto his bed dramatically making Steve laugh before he did the same thing, Landing next to you on the bed.

"Soooo" You draw out dramatically, Waiting for him to fill you in on whats been happening in the time you hadn't seen him or even had a phone call from him.

"Uh, I spent a few days with Anna. Y'know, Just trying to work through things..Well not really more like building it all up from scratch again" He smiled at you, You nod urging him to carry on "I met her family, They're really nice! I like them". He turned to face you, soft smile on his lips.

"Surprising that anyone is nice from that family" You say as you roll your eyes at him, Jealousy eating away at your insides. Steve half smiled, It hurt your heart that you were making him feel awkward but sometimes you couldn't pretend.

"And she met my family too" Your stomach turned, You were the only girl to meet his family. Granted, that was only because your families were friends but it still counted. Right? "They, Well they really like her" Her Steve scoffed as he shook his head like even he couldn't believe it.

Your chest tightened at his words, Body feeling like it was on fire as you looked at him. His eyes searching yours for anything, You smiled softly not wanting to hurt him anymore. Not to hurt him like he was hurting you, The thought of his family liking her made you feel physically sick. They'd always loved you and Steve together, Hoping one day you'd both realise and get together.

"Hey, that's great" You smile sweetly, Rolling onto your side so you were facing him as you looked at him.

"Somethings on your mind" Steve said as he pushed himself up on his elbows, Looking down at you with furrowed brows.

"Im fine" You replied barely above a whisper, Steve studied you for a moment before nodding slowly.

"You sure? You know im here right?" Steve asked as he leaned over your body, His face in line with yours making you smile "RIGHT" He shouted making you laugh and slap at his shoulder gently. "There she is" He grinned moving back to his position next to you on the bed, Facing you with a smile on his face. Butterflies flooded through your body as you looked at him, He was perfect. Everything you wanted in someone.

"Im sure" You smiled, Right now that wasn't exactly a lie. As long as you were with him, You were always okay.

"So, I need to talk to you about something" He said barely above a whisper, Turning your stomach. "Anna wants me to go on a break with her and her family this weekend.." Steves hand rested on top of yours, Thumb brushing over the skin softly "I know weekends are kind of our thing..but id really like to go"

"What?! Dont you dare not go because of me! I'll be fine, it's just one weekend Steve" You smiled softly, Watching the relief physically wash over him. His expression softening as he looked at you, You could feel the lump in your throat starting to form. Honestly? You weren't upset with him, You could never be upset with him.

"Sure?" He asked as his hand gave yours a little squeeze "You know I wont go if you need me here" Did he really think you'd ever do anything that would hold him back? You knew all you had to do was say that you needed him here and he wouldn't go, it would be east to do. But you couldn't do that to him.

"Of course" You whispered giving his hand a reassuring squeeze back.

"Moving on.. There's this party tonight and I was wondering if you wanted to come? Just me and you like..old times?" He scoffed as he said it, Realisation settling in that yeah, maybe he was starting to push you away. He stared at you waiting for your reply, Biting down on his lip. Fuck, What you'd do to bite down on his lip like that.

"Let me think about that" You pretended to take your time thinking it over, Making him laugh as he watched you "I think, That's a stupid question Harrington!" You jumped up off the bed as Steve grinned watching you "What time shall I be ready?"

"Eight okay?" Steve stood up off the bed walking towards you, You nod butterflies swirling in your stomach the closer he got "Now go get all pretty and shit"

"Okay" You grinned and fuck thats exactly what you'd do. It's what you always did when Steve took you out with him, Hoping that eventually he'd notice you as more than a friend.

~

You heard the horn of steves car as you reached the bottom of the stairs, quickly pulling your heels onto your feet before getting one last look at yourself in the mirror.

You walk towards his car noticing how his gaze followed you, not his usual grin but kind of dazed.

“Let’s go Harrington!” You shout as you get into the car next to him, Steves mouth hanging slightly open as he looks at you.

"Wow..You look.." Steve spoke softly, The way his eyes worked over your body made you feel seen by him for once. Exactly what you wanted. "Cool"

You scoffed, Heart sinking in your chest as you looked away from him. Steves hands moving to quickly start the car.

"Cool?" You repeated shaking your head, Steve didnt answer you keeping his eyes on the road.

"You- you uh drinking tonight?" Steve looked over at you before quickly looking back at the road "Just wanna make sure im sober if you choose to drink"

"I think ill just see where the night takes me, But ill be with you anyway so I guess you'll find out" You shrug.

~

Inside the party the rooms dark, People dancing everywhere and alcohol flowing freely. You link your arm through Steves as you smile up at him, He returns the smile before pulling you through the crowd to the kitchen.

"Here" Steve turns towards you pushing a drink into your hand, You look down at it. Alcohol. Steve knew you well enough to know this was a bad idea, But who were you to turn it down. You knock it back quickly before pushing the cup back into his hand "Shit, Dont do that you'll be falling over!"

"Im a big girl Steve" You bite down on your lip as you look at him "Plus, You'll carry me home wont you" You bump your hip into him making him laugh. "Let's dance!" You shout as you grab onto his arm, Pulling him into the room surrounded by people doing the same thing.

Steve groaned as people continued to bump into him. "You know I hate dancing" He whined as he looked at you but he'd never tell you no, Partly because of the people pleaser In you.

Steve stood still behind you as you danced in front of him, Your ass brushing against him every so often. Smile pressed to his lips every time you looked over your shoulder to check he was still there.

"You okay?" You asked as you turned to face him, Grinning up at him as you throw your arms around his neck still dancing.

"As good as I can be in the situation im in" He laughed. You smiled softly, You were pretty sure he'd walk through fire if it made you happy. But that wasn't what you wanted, You wanted something much easier to give you. Him.

"Youre the best you know" You say as you lean in close to his ear, The smell of lavender radiating from his hair as the stray strands tickled your nose.

"I know" Steve teased "You dont need to tell me"

"No..Youre literally the best person in my life Steve" One of your hands moved from his neck to rest against his cheek, His big eyes staring down into yours as a soft smile started to spread across his lips. "I lov-"

"Anna! Hey!" Steves eyes weren't on you anymore, They were looking straight past you towards the door. "Baby!" He called out as he pulled away from you like you weren't even there anymore. Your stomach turned as you looked up at him, The grin on his face as he walked towards her.

"Steve, Wait" You grab at his arm stopping him, Steves eyes moved back to you slowly guilt clawing away at him as realised he'd just zoned out from you.

"Annas here..im just gonna.."

"You said just us!" You tightened your grip on his arm, Steves eyes looked down to your hand before back up to your eyes.

"Its gonna be just us, I cant just ignore her" He scoffed as he looked down at you, eyes pleading that you'd understand "Ill be five minutes, tops" You sigh, letting your grip fall from his arm as you nod.

You stood where he left you, Watching as he walked over to her. Big arms wrapping around her, pulling her into a kiss. Your stomach was turning, Jealousy raging deep inside you. You knew you shouldn't but right now alcohol seemed like the best thing this party had to offer you, You grabbed another drink hoping that eventually it would help you to feel numb.

An hour passed and Steve still hasn't come back to you, You watched as he laughed with her. Kissing her the way you wish he'd kiss you, His hands all over her body in a way you could only imagine.

"Hey" You smiled softly as you approached him, Anna instantly stepped closer to him "Im gonna head home"

"Cool, Let me just grab my jacket" Steve said as he stepped away from Anna.

"Steve?" Anna asked as she gripped onto his arm holding him in place "Were having such a good time! Dont leave yet baby" She pouted her lips as she looked at him.

"I- I cant. im her ride I kind of have to" Steve shrugged before looking over at you, You could see the sadness in his eyes. He didnt want to leave, he was clearly regretting bringing you here but he was doing what was right, like he always did.

"No, Im fine" You shrugged, You wasn't. You hated the idea of walking yourself home so late at night, you wanted him to take you home.

"See! She's fine Steve!" Anna grinned as she got onto her tiptoes to press a kiss into steves neck, Smile instantly returning to steves face.

~

You were hurt. Really hurt, this was the first time ever Steve had chose someone else over you. Maybe it was the alcohol but you just couldn’t stop the tears from falling.

You lay back against the pillows on your bed, not trying to hold yourself together this time. Letting it all out, it wasn’t his fault. You couldn’t force him to love you, but you could force yourself not to love him.

The weekend came quicker than expected, you hadn’t heard off Steve since that night. He hadn’t even called to check you got home safely. You knew his plans to go away with Tammy and her family, so you made some of your own. You’d arranged to meet Alex at the movies, it was about time you opened yourself up to others, you couldn’t keep waiting around for Steve.

The movie was nice, you enjoyed having the company and someone to laugh with, so much so that you’d planned a walk around the park with him today, the day you unusually did this walk with Steve. You wasn’t really sure what time Steve would get back today, and he didn’t bother speaking to you so you thought why not.

“Hey” you smiled sweetly as you walked up to Alex who was sitting on the bench at the entrance of the park.

“Here she is” he grinned before standing up and pulling you into him, strong arms wrapping around you “nice to see you again so soon” You smiled at his words, It felt good to have someone who was happy to see you.

You smiled at him as you pulled away from the hug, Heart fluttering in your chest as you looked at him.

"Nice to see you too" You smiled as Alex held his hand out towards you, Butterflies fluttering around in your stomach as you took it. The walk was fine, A little boring listening to Alex talk not really giving you chance to get a word in.

After about an hour you reached the point you first started your walk, Steve was sat on the bench alone. Your heart was racing in your chest as you approached him, Hand still holding onto Alex's.

"What are you doing here?" You asked, confused expression on your face as you looked at him. Steves head turned round to face you, He looked pissed. His eyes moving from your face following your arm down to your hand where it was connected to Alex's.

"You maybe?" Steve replied with his usual bitchy expression on his face "Its Sunday, we always go for a walk?"

You scoff before looking round at Alex who was now also confused at what was going on, Looking between you both.

"You said you were going away with Anna, If I remember correctly" You shrug.

"I made it back in time, Didnt think you'd replace me this quickly" He shot you a look that you didnt understand, A mix between hurt and anger. Alex quickly let go of your hand, You turned to face him with furrowed brows.

“I’ll let you guys sort.. this” he smiled down at you, but you could tell it was because he was feeling awkward.

"You dont have to!" Your tone was a lot sharper than you intended, but honestly you wanted him to stay. To let Steve feel what it was like to be pushed away as soon as someone else comes into your life.

"Good idea" Steve scoffed shaking his head.

"I'll see you soon" Alex mumbled as he looked between the two of you again, You sighed before leaning forward and placing a kiss to his cheek. Anger bubbling away inside you as you watched him walk away.

Steve pushed himself up off the bench, Hands formed into fists at his side. Jealousy raging away inside him after seeing you kiss him, You only ever kissed Steve, What made Alex so special?

You turn back towards Steve seeing the expression on his face before he turned walking away from you.

"Steve!" You called as you followed behind him "You dont get to just make someone feel uncomfortable then walk away!" You spat out as you continued to follow him. "Harrington!"

"What!" Steve shouted back, Finally stopping and turning towards you. The lines on his forehead letting you know he was tense.

"You're acting.."

“Acting what? Annoyed! Well yeah, I am I get back here to find my best friend trying to replace me!” his tone was flat, Sarcastic even as he stared at you.

“Steve, I don’t want him as a best friend. No one will ever take your place on that! I like him in a different way” you sighed as you stepped closer to him, the last thing you wanted to do was argue with him right now.

"You like him?" Steve raised his eyebrows as he looked at you, The realisation that you weren't trying to replace him as a best friend setting in.

"I think so" You half smiled as you took a step closer again, Letting your hand rest against his arm "You're.. disappearing again" You sighed.

"Life happens, I was never gonna be just yours forever" Steve replied, His words cutting like a knife as he looked down at you "But it doesn't mean I've forgot about you"

"It feels that way sometimes"

"Dont ever say that" Steve exhaled rubbing a hand over his face "Youre literally the best friend ive ever had" He pulls you into him, You wrap your arms around his waist as your head rests against his chest.

"I just.. I dont ever want to lose you Steve" You whisper as tears start to fill your eyes, The terrifying thought of a life without Steve making you feel sick.

"Have I ever broke a promise to you?" Steve asks as his finger loops under your chin, Pulling you to look up at him.

He was right, For the most part. He'd never broken a promise to you, Except for the night of the party.

“But the party?” You asked. You knew you shouldn't bring it up, All of the years of friendship and not once had he broken a promise.

“I fucked up, I shouldn’t have let you go alone. I regret it, I just get so caught up in.. her” his hand still holding your face in place.

“You said it was a night just for us” you’d already started the conversation about the night, so you may as well finish it “you said it would be our time before you went away”

“I know.. I didn’t know she was coming I swear” his hand fell away from your face now as he ran his fingers through his hair exhaling.

“But she did, and you made a choice! You picked her over me!” You pushed your hands into his chest knocking him back slightly, Brows furrowing as you look at him.

“Hey! Don’t do that!” His voice was soft, generally stunned by your actions but it was all coming out now. He knew you well enough to know once it started it wasn't going to end so quickly.

“Don’t tell me what to do! Right now your words mean nothing to me Steve! Just broken promises!” You pushed into his chest again “you’ve changed and all over some girl who’s already broke your heart once!”

“Baby, stop what’s wrong” Steve stepped forward, hands cupping your cheeks, letting his thumb wipe away the tears that started to spill.

“And don’t call me that! I’m not your baby!” Rage building inside you now, you were angry he was trying to comfort you. He wouldn’t need to if he treated you how he used to, If he just for once listened to you.

“Okay, I’m sorry” he held both of his hands up in surrender “I just wanna make sure you’re okay”

“Why? You didn’t care when you let me leave the party alone, drunk. Where was my best friend then Steve?” Your eyes were starting to fill up again, you knew you were hurting him. But he’d hurt you. “Can I even say you’re my best friend anymore? Are you even a friend at this point?” You spat out.

Steve’s face dropped, his big eyes filled with sadness, hurt slapped right across his face

“You don’t mean that” he sighed “you know you don’t”

“I mean it Steve, you drop me every chance you get. I’m alone all of the time!” Your hand wiped at the tears rolling down your face angrily.

“It’s not my job to be glued to your side, I told you..” he points his finger towards your face “I told you that when we were in bed, that you needed to find someone! I told you I didn’t want you alone. You can’t keep holding me back from moving on with my life just because you can’t!” His voice was raised, you weren't used to it.

Your heart had basically fallen out and Steve was stamping all over it in front of you.

“Fine” you shot back at him, he looked down at you. The tears falling down your cheeks made his heart hurt, he wanted to scoop you up and make it all better for you, but he also felt the rage inside him and he couldn’t bring himself to do it.

“Fine!” He shot back at you

You both stood in silence staring at each other, neither of you willing to make the move to make it right. Neither of you walking away either.

“So what now?” Steve asked as he closed his eyes rubbing his face in frustration, His heart broken as much as yours was.

“What else is there to do Steve?”

“I don’t know! that's why I asked!” He had his bitty face on again, you knew there was no winning this “let’s just.. talk about this later” he replied softly.

You nodded your head slowly before leaning forward to kiss his cheek just like you always did when you left each other. Steve backed away before you could do it, Heart breaking once again.

“Oh..” you scrunched your nose up, not in the way you usually did to tease him, but with embarrassment and hurt.

Steve shook his head as he looked at you, slowly stepping back before turning and walking away from you.

Leaving you stood with your heart crushed on the floor and tears streaming down your face.

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Best friend Steve.

Part one

Summary: You and Steve have always been best friends, You and him against the world but your feelings towards him are starting to get harder to hide and he has no clue.

TW: mentions of sex that’s about it.

Guys I re wrote it, the storyline will stay the same but I’ve bulked it out with more. If you’ve already read this I’m sorry it was so bad, I tried to make it flow a lot better this time. I’ll be adding the other parts back on over the next few days. 🤍

Being best friends with one of the most popular boys in school always came with its pros and cons, The pros were simple really. You always had something to do, He was always hosting parties or attending them and as his best friend you were always guaranteed an invite. You got to be the one to help mend his broken heart when the girl he'd fallen in love with broke through his cocky ego and realised he was actually quite soft and got bored of him. The cons came in the form of having to watch him bounce around from girl to girl, New relationships all of the time meaning that you had to keep introducing yourself and defending your title of best friend to them. He constantly had rumours following him around, That the two of you were an item. Watching Steve laugh and joke when he set them straight did nothing but hurt you. When he was in a relationship that lasted over a week he would disappear only reappearing once things started to fizzle out.

You'd grown up together, Best friends through school and into young adulthood. Your families were always close, Your dad working for Mr. Harrington was always tough. You weren't as well off as the Harringtons and honestly you thought that they pitted your family but Steve was never like that, He always saw you as a friend no matter how different your life styles were. You'd known him since you were both toddlers, Your families loved how close you both were often looking about how one day you'd get married and the families would be pulled together officially. You'd both laugh it off and get bashful but something always flickered away deep in your chest, Hope maybe.

But now school was done with, Just a distant memory you and Steve stayed close. Keeping the friendship going often wondering if it was because you genuinely were the best of friends or just because it had become the normal after doing it for most of your life. Always being gravitating towards each other when something went wrong, No need for anyone else to be involved when you had each other. Secrets shared between you both that never got out, Crisis's avoided when you both got together to defuse it before it got to that point. You didnt need anyone else in your life, You never felt the need to show other boys any interest. He covered all bases, He was your person. Your best friend, Until he wasn't.

"Hey can you help me?" Steve asked as he stood in front of you, You lowered the book down from your face to look at him "Light or dark?" He asked as he held a pair of jeans up in each hand towards you. Honestly he could put either on and look unreal but that wasn't the right thing to tell him, Not something a best friend would say.

You looked between both pairs before closing your book and putting it down next to you on his bed, Pushing yourself up on your elbows to look at him properly. You noticed the lines against his forehead a tell tale sign that he was feeling tense.

"Hmm, Light" You smiled softly.

"Yeah, Yeah that's what I thought" He replied before throwing the dark pair onto the desk in his room, Pulling his pyjama bottoms down his legs before kicking them away. You shouldn't look, You know it's wrong but his thick hairy thighs did something to you that they shouldn't. You quickly picked your book back up staring down at the cover, Trying everything to try and keep your eyes from looking back at him as he shuffled into the tight light pair that clung to him perfectly in all of the right places.

"So, Where are we going?" You asked eyes still glued to the book in your hands, It was Friday and that was usually movie night and he hadn't mentioned taking you anywhere.

"You're going home" He Scoffed shooting you a teasing smile "I have a date" before looking away form you to start his hair routine in the mirror.

"What? Since when?" You asked, Heart racing in your chest as you placed the book back down onto the bed besides you, Sitting up giving him your full attention now.

"Since Anna said I can have another chance" He grinned over at you, Like he expected you to be as happy for him as he clearly was for himself. Anna, the girl who absolutely broke his heart last time they were together. It took you weeks to bring Steve back out of his shell, To get him confident enough to get back out there again.

"Steve! You have to be joking me!" You replied tone sharp as you got up off the bed, His eyebrows furrowing as he watched you walk towards him "You know how it ended last time, How hurt you were" You sighed shaking your head at him.

"It's different this time y'know? She seems different this time" He shook his head as he said it, Like he didnt really believe it himself either but he couldn't not try.

"Heard it all before, Harrington" You exhaled turning back towards the bed to grab your book, Steves hand catching your wrist gently to turn you back towards him.

"Hey, I know you want the best for me but you have to let me make my own decisions. Im gonna be okay, I have a good feeling about it this time" He smiled, Big eyes trying to reassure you as he looked down into yours. He always did this, Tried to convince you things were going to be okay so he didnt have to listen to your lecture. So he could keep you sweet while he did what he wanted to anyway while you sat at home waiting for him to call telling you that he needed you and of course, you ran to him straight away. Letting him fall straight into your arms, Stroking his hair as he cried against your chest. Your own chest tightening at seeing him in pain, Relieved that he was single and back in your life again selfishly. "Let me take you home, Yeah?" Steves hand moved to rest against your lower back, Guiding you towards his bedroom door.

"Wait, So you're telling me you're ditching movie night for another girl?" You asked digging your heels into the carpet of his floor so he couldn't push you any further.

"Ill pick you up after, We can just do it a bit later" He smiled down at you softly, You stayed facing away from him letting a dramatic sigh fall from you teasingly as you turned to face him giving him your best puppy eyes. "Dont do thattttt" Steve groaned as he wrapped his arm around your waist pulling you into him, Letting his head rest on the top of yours.

"Its fine, I guess I should just start looking for a new best friend" You continued knowing exactly what you were doing, Pushing back from his chest to meet his eyes as you pout your bottom lip out.

"Dont even joke about that" Steve rolled his eyes as he noticed the smirk tugging at your lips, relief washing over him that you weren't serious. "Pain in my ass" He scoffed letting go of you.

"Take me home then" You laughed as you spun around walking out of his door, Steve smiled to himself as he watched you race down the stairs.

"Hey, You know you're always number one right?" Steve asked as he watched you kneel down to put your shoes on in front of his front door "Nothings gonna change that"

You look up at him, He looks worried. Like he really thinks that anything he could do to you would ever push you away from him, Sometimes you liked the fact that he worried so much about losing you. It made you feel important, That you'd always have someone in your life that loved you.

"Until you disappear again" You mutter as you tie the laces of your shoes, Standing back up in front of him.

The thing is the friendship was never really complicated, You never told Steve that things had started to change for you and that your heart physically hurt every time he spoke about another girl. Sometimes you wondered how he would take it if you did meet someone, Would he be jealous like you were? Would he get offended when you introduced him as your best friend just like you did? You would never find out anyway because you were that in love with him that you couldn't open yourself up to other people, Your interest in people that wasn't Steve was zero.

The drive back home to yours was quiet, You could see that Steve was nervous but you weren't sure why. He was the kindest, most attractive man you'd ever known. He was usually filled with confidence but today he seemed different, You softly rest your hand against his knee as he drove. Steves eyes flicked down to your hand before returning to the road, Exhaling.

"Everything okay?" You ask softly, Steve bites down on his lower lip as he nods his head. "You seem..Nervous"

"I guess I am" He scoffed softly "I dont usually give second chances" He mumbled, And he was right. He didnt, That's what made it all hurt you more. The fact that she really must be important to him for him to let her back in, Maybe she really was his 'the one'.

"King Steve is still inside somewhere" You joke, Letting a soft laugh fall from you as you look at him, He smirked but you could tell it was forced. He pulled into the driveway of your house turning off the car before turning to face you.

"Doesn't feel like it sometimes" He muttered before letting a smile creep onto his lips "I'll call you later?"

"Have the best time" You smile softly at him, Wrapping your arm around his neck to pull him into a hug pressing a kiss against his cheek. Something you'd done since you were little when your parents would pick you up from a playdate and make you kiss everyone goodbye that just stuck. "Dont do anything I wouldn't do" You teased before climbing out of the car, Slamming the door behind you.

"I'll try" He grinned as he hung his head out of the window, Watching you go into the house just like he always did. You gave him a wave before walking into your house closing the door behind you.

It was rare for you to be home on a Friday evening, Your mom shocked as she watched you close the door.

"Honey? Everything okay? Where's Steve?" Her eyebrows were worried as she looked at you, You weren't surprised she was shocked you normally spent Friday to Sunday at the Harringtons every week.

"Steve has a date" You smile over at her, Avoiding eye contact so she couldn't see how you really felt about the whole situation.

"Its about time that boy settled down with someone nice" She replied as she walked back towards the kitchen to continue cooking "Maybe he just doesn't realise the right ones in front of him" She continued from the kitchen making your heart flip. She knew, she always knew.

"Were just friends mom" You sighed as you walked up the stairs towards your room "Hey, im gonna take a shower" you called down to her.

"Okay honey"

Your phone started to ring in your room as you walked back into the room after dinner with your family, it was nice to spend some time with them both after always being away from home. You'd also spent some time doing some self care, Shaved everywhere so you were dolphin soft, Hair washed and conditioned before pulled up into a messy bun on the top of your head, Old cosy pyjamas on that consisted of cotton shorts and one of Steves old shirts you'd stolen from him one weekend.

You throw yourself down onto the bed as you pick it up, pressing it to your ear.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Its me, Steve" He sounded happy, Confirming your fears that she had wormed her way back in and he had fell for it straight away. "The date went well, She's changed"

You rolled your eyes as you listened to him but the sound of happiness in his voice did send a spark of happiness through your chest. You wanted to tell him that she couldn't have changed that much, It had only been a few weeks since she last broke his heart. That he was clearly just running out of girls to chase, That he needed to slow down and just be alone for a moment but you didnt.

"See, I told you king Steve was still in you" You let out a breathy laugh, Playing the role of best friend perfectly.

"You did..You always do" Steve chuckled lowly "Wanna come over? I can tell you more"

"Sure" You sighed and before he could respond you slammed the phone down with a huff, Rolling onto your back on your bed grabbing the pink pillow from next to you holding it against your face before screaming into it.

When you arrived at Steves you hadn't bothered getting changed into anything else, He didnt deserve that priverledge right now of seeing you in anything nice you told yourself. Truthfully it was because you were that comfortable with him that he'd seen you at your best and worst, So seeing you in pyjamas wasn't going to hurt anyone. He'd seen you in these exact ones a thousand times.

You lay back against his bed on your side, Well the side that had become yours over the years. You smiled as he told you all about his date, Laughing every so often just to see the way his eyes lit up when he got to talk about her.

Your head rested against the pillow that still carried his scent, Steve was opposite you eyes searching yours as he noticed the sadness in them.

"Dont you think you y'know, Need someone?" He asked softly as he looked at you, Making a shiver run through your body "I just hate the thought of you not having someone to love, To love you back" He whispered, Trying his best to be gentle with you.

"I have you, Dont I?" You smile softly at him, Truly believing that along as you had him you didnt need anyone else.

"Yeah, of course" He smiled "But like, You need someone to be..intimate with?"

"Steve!" You gasped as you scrunched your nose up looking away from him.

"What? Who doesn't like sex" He teased as he laughed at how bashful you looked. "It's like, The best" He grinned as he looked at you.

"Well, I wouldn't know would I" You replied sarcastically rolling your eyes.

"W-what? You've never..WHAT?" He asked shocked expression on his face.

"Steve, You know ive never even had a boyfriend" You shrugged as you look at him, Confussion settling in your chest as to why he thought you'd had sex. You told each other everything, Did he think you'd just leave that major bit of information out?

Steve rolled onto his back, Eyes looking un at the ceiling as thoughts raced through his mind. The main question being why? You were the most beautiful girl he'd ever known, You were kind, Funny amongst other things.

"Why?" His tone was blunt, More blunt then he intended it to come out.

Your chest tightened a little from the tone he used, A warm flush spreading across your cheeks as you sat in silence as he waited for you to reply.

"I just, I havent trusted anyone yet" You trusted him, You wanted him.

Steve rolled back towards you, Finding your hand under the covers as he linked his fingers through yours just like he always did.

"Yeah, Makes sense" He whispered "But we cant do this forever, Eventually we need to grow up. We will have families" He gave your hand a soft squeeze smiling at you "I dont want you to be alone"

You returned the smile but your heart raced at the thought of not being able to do this with him forever, He was your forever.

"I know" You whispered "But for now we can, Right?"

Steve nodded as his eyes locked with yours, Soft smile on his lips as he pulled you closer into him, One are wrapped around your waist the other holding onto your hand still.

"Yeah, Get some sleep" Steve whispered as your words settled in his chest, You wanted this forever and he couldn't give you that. He knew that when things started to get serious with Anna this would all have to stop. It would be her on your side of the bed, He let his eyes close exhaling as he imagined you alone in your bed at home while she was in his bed. A sick feeling washing over his as he placed a kiss to the top of your head, Letting sleep take him.

The next morning the sound of the phone ringing in Steves room pulled you from your sleep, Steves arm was heavy against your waist still in the exact place it was when you both fell asleep last night. You noticed his eyes starting to flicker open, Trying his best to ignore the sound of the phone calling as he groaned.

"Steve" You pushed against the arm that was wrapped around you but it only made him tighten his grip on you more, Groaning once again "The phone" You pushed back harder making his eyes finally open.

"Shit" He said as he pulled his arm away from you, Rolling towards his bedside table before grabbing the phone and placing It to his ear.

"Hello?"

You watched as he spoke on the phone, You couldn't focus on what he was saying too mesmerised by the way the muscles in his back were flexing, The moles dotted against his skin that you wanted to drag your fingertips over, The messy bed hair he was sporting. Fuck, He was perfect.

"Sorry, Must have been in a really deep sleep" He groaned as he rolled back towards you pulling you from your lust filled trance.

"Who was it?" You asked as you yawned, Stretching your arms above your head.

"Uh, Anna" Steve awkwardly smiled at you, Knowing exactly how you were going to take this "She's, She's coming over in an hour" He closed his eyes running a hand through hid hair as he waited for you to blow up. You didnt get on with Anna, You never had but you especially didnt get on with her since she last broke Steves heart.

"STEVE!" You shout as you sit up in the bed, Eyebrows furrowed as you looked down at him "That's not a good idea!" You groan as you climb out of the bed huffing.

"It could be good!" He replied as he climbed out of the bed following behind you "It could break the ice!"

"| think the ice was truly broken when I thew my drink in her face, Dont you?" You scoff turning to look at Steve, Breath catching in your throat as you look at the way the sun was peeking through a gap in the curtain making his skin look golden.

"You cant avoid each other forever! Plus, You're my best friend..Youre kind of important"

"If you make it past a month this time, I'll consider it" You sigh, He looked deflated. Like you were being unreasonable.

"No, You're staying. We're doing this!" Steve smiled down at you, Knowing full well you weren't going to argue with him "Just.. Get changed"

"What's wrong with what im wearing?" You frowned looking down at yourself.

"You're wearing my shirt" Steve sighed, Knowing he was being unreasonable and starting a relationship built on secrets would never work out but he couldn't help it, He didn't want the sleepovers to ever stop just like you didnt. "She would notice" Steve mumbled under his breath.

"Fine"

You slammed the cupboard door open making Steve wince, Luckily you had your own section here that you'd slowly built up over time full of everything you could need. You pulled out some denim shorts and a white tank top, Pushing past Steve as you stormed towards the bathroom to change.

"fuck" You exhaled as you pulled your pyjamas off, You didnt wear a bra when you came over last night and apparently that was the only thing you hadn't decided to build up a supply of here. You pull all of your clothes on before grabbing some of Steves moisturiser from his cabinet, It wasn't your usual choice but it would do. You cringed as you looked at your reflection in the mirror. You could see the colour of your nipples prominently through the thin white fabric. You exhaled before continuing to get ready, Using Steves brush to tame your bed hair before scooping it up into a high pony.

"Hey, does this look okay? I forgot my..y'know" You shrugged as you walked back into the room, Gesturing towards your chest.

Steves eyes snapped towards you before slowly moving down to your chest, Eyes lingering on the way the fabric clung to you, The way the cold air made your nipples hard.

"Oh, Y-yeah" Steve swallowed hard, The image going straight to his dick "You look great, Cant even tell" He lied as his eyes moved back up to yours smiling sweetly.

You nod, Believing him was you walk over to him wrapping your arms around his neck.

"Im sorry" You whisper as you kiss his cheek "I just hate that she hurt you so much and you let her back in so easily"

Steves arms settle around your waist as he looks down at you, Clear view straight down your shirt.

"I get it" He smiled, Heart racing in his chest.

"I promise I'll be nice" You smiled softly and this time it was your words that went to his dick, God he needed to get laid.

"Mmm doesn't sound very convincing" He mumbled but he was smiling, The door of the room pushed open and you and Steve quickly stepped apart both turning towards the door eyes wide like you'd been caught doing something you shouldn't have.

"Oh, Your here" Anna spoke as she walked towards you both, Brows furrowed. Steve looked between you both quickly realising that he should have just let you leave earlier, Anna wasn't one to sugar coat how she feels and neither were you.

"Stevie, I thought it would just be us" Anna pouted as she looked over at you, Steves eyes basically turned to hearts as he looked at her making your own eyes rolled. You hated how he looked as a love sick puppy, But maybe it was because he didnt look at you like that.

"I just thought we could break the ice, You're both in my life so.." He looked between you both, The unimpressed expressions you both wore turning his stomach. "You're both important to me" Steve spoke softly as he wrapped an arm around her pulling her closer "Cmere" He whispered as he pulled her into a kiss, Turning your stomach.

"Cant we do that another time? I just REALLY wanted it to be us" She smiled biting down on her bottom lip and you swear you saw Steve melting right in front of you. Steve turned towards you with his eyebrows raised, A look you knew all to well that meant you need to leave. You looked towards Anna who was smirking over at you, Fuck she should be grateful you didnt have another drink to hand.

"I can go" You smile turning your attention back to Steve, Everything in you wanting to stay and cockblock them both. But deep down you knew you couldn't, You'd only be hurting Steve.

"You'd do that?" Anna gasped as she looked at you smiling, Steve smiled down at her not seeing through her fake sweetness like you were. "You're such an angel! Isn't that right Stevie?"

Steve nods frantically as he looks at her.

"Of course! So happy to see you again Anna!" You beam at her, Steves attention snapping straight back towards you knowing you well enough to know that you were being sarcastic.

"Laters, Harrington" You place a kiss against his cheek, Like you always did before turning towards Anna giving her a grin. "Call me" You smiled at Steve as you walked out of the door.

"What the hell was that?" You heard Anna hiss as you closed the door behind you.

"What?" Steve sounded genuinely confused, He probably was confused you'd been doing this for so long that he thought it was normal.

"Did she just kiss you right in front of my face?”

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by Anita Austvika

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アイスランド

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アイスランド

[rosieandthemoon]

[suffer-rosa]

Teatro San Martín y Atelier de artistas por Bonet

Modernismo porteño

Buenos Aires, Argentina

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Peonies, a dragonfly and two butterflies. Plate from the obon kyoka album Picture Book of Selected Insects (昆虫図鑑), signed Kitagawa Utamaro, published by Tsutaya Jusaburo, 1788.

[chikurevo]

クマバチの仕事場

[maureen2musings]

Evening light, Mt. Rainier

tano_films

[djournal-s]

he’s so fucking pretty

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