—sky

i'll hold on to the uncertain even if it means i'll break

[skylinesxtea]

Day Five: Six things I wish I never done.

First, I wish I never sent those messages.

Second, I wish I saved that friendship.

Third, I wish I didn’t bought unnecessary things.

Fourth, I wish I never lied about those things before.

Fifth, I wish I didn’t involved myself to that zone.

Sixth, I wish I never ignored people who approached me.

[skylinesxtea]

Day Four: Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. H

2. Stories and Kdramas.

3. My best friend.

4. My mom.

5. That person.

6. Plots. Poems. Anything I wanna write.

7. My past.

[skylinesxtea]

Day Three: Eight ways to win my heart.

This is so simple! If a man has or does these, then my heart’s yours.

1. If he buys me doughnuts, iced coffee vanilla, ice cream or pizza.

2. If he’s intelligent and has humor at the same time.

3. If he’ll write me letters/tumblr drabbles/anything that is from his heart.

4. If he’s a gentleman.

5. If he’ll read what I read and watch what i watch.

6. If he supports me in my dreams.

7. If he understand the twist and quirks of my being..

8. If he loves genuinely.

[skylinesxtea]

Day Two: Nine Things about Myself.

1. I can last a day in my bed, just reading or doing absolutely nothing.

2. I like listening to music during long drive.

3. I prefer nights over mornings.

4. I’m afraid of dogs. It sucks, I know.

5. I don’t like being kissed by my sisters.

6. I watched Korean dramas and English TV Series a LOT.

7. It’s my dream to go to Finland to watch the northern lights and stay the night at Kakslauttanen Artic Resort.

8. I’m a hopeless romantic.

9. I recently learned how to drive.

[skylinesxtea]

Day One: Ten Things I want to say to ten different people.

To myself:

“Stop being afraid and just do it. Believe in yourself. You’re going to be successful.”

To my mom:

“I’ll spoil you, someday.”

To my dad:

“I’ll make you proud.”

To my eldest sister:

“I hope you realize your wrongs.”

To my youngest sister:

“Stay happy as you are. I love you.”

To my best friend:

“I’ll forever be grateful for you. Let’s not part.”

To that friend who lost someone:

“You’re very brave. I admire you for it.”

To H:

“Let’s not do it again. I’m tired.”

To my future someone:

“I’m waiting for you. I hope you know that.”

To God:

“I trust everything in You.”

[skylinesxtea]

so, i came across this and thought of doing it... in one sitting? i hope.

[skylinesxtea]

word vomit

i’m not really the type of person who opens up a lot. to be completely honest, i don’t really do that.

i don’t know why.

maybe i’m not comfortable with the thought of someone knowing my feelings about things and judging it absurdly. maybe i don’t wanna add up to other people’s problems and be a burden. maybe i just really don’t want to do that, that it’s not me, that it’s not my nature.

though, sometimes i really wanna try it. to be not the listener this time, but be the one who they listen to. this time, i wanna be heard. this time, it’s all about me, finally...

i wonder if i’ll ever do it. i wonder if someone cares to what i am thinking, to what bugs me at night, to why i cry sometimes, to what is the reason why i’m so quiet at times... to what are my problems..

no one dare asked.

maybe, that’s why i never answered.

because there were no questions anyway. so why bother, right?

[wnq-music]

Here comes a feeling you thought you’d forgotten.

Vampire Weekend, “Horchata,” Album: Contra  (via wnq-music)

#hassle

[wnq-movies]

Would I rather be feared or loved? …Easy. Both. I want people to be afraid of how much they love me.

Michael Scott, The Office (via wnq-movies)

[skylinesxtea]

another tb

I hate our timezone differences. I hate waking up knowing that you're still sleeping. I held such great honor to those who have keen patience... 'cause waiting isn't my game. I get irritated easily and overthink every single minute of the time you're away. "I wish I could talk to you all the damn time.", you said. Well me too, babe. So much.

[skylinesxtea]

tb to my feelings

I talked to you almost everyday

Our conversations consist of you

teasing and me punching you

through the small screen

between us.

Your little message kept me up

at night or makes me smile

even at day, anytime

anywhere,

no matter what i'm doing.

But, sometimes

I also feel so left out,

unaware and uninformed

of what you're doing

as well as your whereabouts.

I don't even know your friends.

Or your family.

How many siblings you have.

Or if your parents are still together.

I don't even know you.

The whole of you.

I deeply want to.

But, every time I try to asked...

I feel so rejected.

Like I don't have the right.

No matter how many times you tell me that I can ask anything.

I just can't.

'Cause it feels like I'm crossing a line that I shouldn't and wasn't allowed to.

Gone are the days when I felt so comfortable asking you anything under the sun since you rejected me, that dreaded day.

[thelovewhisperer]

I needed to know that I meant something, anything to you. But what I got was nothing, absolutely nothing. And it’s funny the things you realize when someone walks away. At first you feel as though it’s your fault. Feeling like nothing, so close to falling apart. and then, in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. That it’s his loss, that you are so much better without that one boy who didn’t ever care. You live and you learn, that’s how it is.

More quotes about love and relationship here (via thelovewhisperer)

[skylinesxtea]

make up my mind

i don’t know how many times had I pushed someone away. maybe twice, thrice… maybe more. for every time that i felt their affection towards me. i back out. i refuse to believe that it’s the truth. i battle with my mind… no, it can’t be. he can’t be like that. he didn’t mean that. he’s just saying that.

it’s complicated. it’s not that easy. don’t force yourself. no, you don’t. don’t go there. don’t say that.

i might have so many other reasons just to stop them. for them just to not go there. but the truth is, it was for myself. to spare me.

am i that scared? am i that of a coward? maybe, i am.

i am never a fan of complications. of pain and brokenness. i hate people who break hearts. i think they’re heartless. i never see myself going through hard times because of a boy. whatever happens, i swore i won’t be like them girls who couldn't live by themselves. whose happiness depend on someone else.

yes, i didn’t became one of them. but on the process… i am slowly becoming the contrary.

hurting someone because i’m scared. hurting someone because i’m such a coward. i’m sorry. that i can’t risk. i’m sorry. that you have to know me.

i’m deeply sorry.

[skylinesxtea]

no idea

i’m so fed up with all your lies with all the stupid things that you have to do i’m so tired of feeling empty pained and broken.

yes it’s all your fault you’re the one who should be blamed for what’s happening with us with me entirely.

but still, why? why can’t i unlove you? why can’t i let you go? why do i miss you all the damn time?

can you please stop? stop making me feel feelings stop working your way through me stop saving yourself and start saving me.

cause i can’t.

[skylinesxtea]

good in my life

walking through the street at night, makes me feel free. not giving a glance back at the past, not caring at all. it’s when good music feels liberating, adding up to the excitement of this little adventure of mine.

oh, how good it is to live by this moment.

i wish you were here with me.

i wish you’re not.

but, the former is winning.

city lights. tall buildings. the moon. and the stars. everything reminds me of you. you’re that one thing that’s good in my life. and more.

[skylinesxtea]

a love like this

you look at me like i’m some kind of a gem, when you’re the one who is. you make me feel like i’m your only one, your only love, your greatest love. and, baby, i hope i am.

i wish to never leave your arms, cause you feel like home. my home. i look up to you and see you smiling sweetly, your dimples showing, it seems like it feels the happiness you and i share. i want to kiss you right then and there. i don’t care about anybody else, just you and me. only us. together.

as the sun set right through our eyes, i know it wasn’t an ending, instead it was a new start, for a life with you.

[skylinesxtea]

uncertainty

you hit me up at 2AM asking me what happened i said, “i’m sorry” you ask, “why?” i don’t have to explain though ‘cause we’re nothing but a lie.

you keep asking how my day was i said, “i’ll always be fine for you, i’ll always be fine” but you said you’re not because i’m so far away and my heart is beating right where you are.

i’d like to know how far can you get,

i’d like to believe that you can stay,

i’d like you to be worthy,

but, deep down deep inside, you and i know we will never be.