there was nothing in this world you loved more than bouncing on changbinās cock.
should you have dared actually admit it he would never let you live it down but a part of you figured he mustāve known. especially considering how you looked riding him.
eyes rolled to the back of your head, drool seeping out of the corners of your mouth while you babbled on and on about how full you felt. yeah, changbin definitely knew.
āgod, look how fucked out you are.ā he rasped out a small chuckle, his tongue peeking out to swipe over his lower lip. āscreaminā out for me like that, iām not even doing anything.ā you whined in response, wrapping your arms around him and burying your face in the crook of his neck. you were so unbearably needy, it was like nothing was enough.
as deep inside you he was, you needed him further. as close as he was to you, you needed him even closer.
changbin cooed at you and your heart fluttered because you knew it was fake sympathy. curling his own large arms around you, he pushed a hand through your hair before grabbing a fistful of it. when you threw your head back, he was quick to attack your neck with licks and bites.
āsuch a whore,ā he growled. ācanāt even stop moving for a second.ā you were far too out of it to respond thoughtfully, instead clutching tighter to him and desperately grinding into him as if your life depended on it. āplease...please...!ā your nails dug into the skin of his back, making changbin hiss.
suddenly you were being lifted from your spot on his lap and being carried the short distance from your desk to your bed. āhungry cunt just cant get enough, yeah?ā changbin plopped you down on the bed, easily pushing your legs apart before shoving himself inside of you with a low groan.
seungminās usually so quiet during sex. and not because he isnāt enjoying himself, heās just not the vocal type. save for a few whispers of how good youāre doing and how good you feel; heās the āloudestā just as heās about to cum. heavy pants turn into groans, his grip gets tighter and tighter.
but listen to meā¦when seungminās absolutely drunk on you? heās an entirely new person. and heās so embarrassed at the hold you have on him but it feels so fucking good heād never have it any other way.
itās the sounds of your pussy, the obscene squelching and the way your juices overflow; coating his cock in your essence. itās the way your back arches off the bed, the way you scream and squeal for him, the way your nails dig into his biceps and how desperate you sound. itās so much, he canāt even catch himself before he starts slipping under your spell.
his mouth falls open and his eyes go cross, head falling back and god everything just feels so fucking good he swears heās losing his fucking mind. āa-ahhā¦holy fuckā¦ā he pants, blinking a few times as if to shake himself from this dizzy feeling.
but the second his eyes meet yours heās falling all over again. āminnie, mmph. yāfeel so good.ā the look in your eyes, the bounce of your titsā¦fuck, he wants to absolutely wreck you. mark his name all over you, make sure everyone knows.
āyouāre so fuckinā pretty, baby. oh, goddamn. pussy so fuckinā good.ā heās rambling, wetting his dry lips, and his gaze has focused solely on where you two are connected. mesmerized by the sounds, the way your tight cunt sucks him in. oh, heās so fucked. heād bring down an entire crowd of men just for this pussy. all youād need to do is bat your pretty eyelashes and tell him and heād do it in a heartbeat.
before you know it, your shared moans are filling the room. your headboard is banging against the wall, youāve lost the ability to speak anything at all aside from begs of seungminās name. and seungmin canāt stop himself from pistoning in and out of your slippery wet hole over and over again.
never mind that youāve cum three times already and seungminās somehow still hard after youāre almost positive heās filled you twice already.
Sorry but I think saying āit feels like yāall only interact w me when I post a ficā is kind of purposefully short sightedš
if you donāt post anything, how are people going to interact with you? It would make sense if you posted personal content often along with writings that would have people more engaged but if you donāt do anything consistently youāre not going to get interactions itās the same with most other social media platforms you have to keep people engaged with some kind of content
no yea i know exactly where ur coming from trust me š
itās weird bc iām aware of the fact i havenāt been posting any writings consistently so i know itās unfair of me to like be wholly upset that i donāt get a lot of interaction. i think what got to me was when the comeback mv dropped and i was posting abt my pc pulls from the album and my thoughts and whatnot and i had gotten a few asks just asking me when i was gonna write again so i guess i felt a way
then i started deleting personal posts, then caught myself and was like āwtf itās not that serious calm downā (again my healing brain fighting my toxic sad bitch brain)
IDK BASICALLY. my point is i hear u but i also feel like even when i post writings i donāt get a lot of feedback on it which is discouraging too :/ but Also ,,, consistency leads to growth. that i know too. idk man this aināt makin a lick of sense anymore
i do want to start pushing myself to write more, mainly just to continue to push my creative brain. bc my life is deadass becoming engulfed by constant work stress and itās not very funky fresh
I saw your post and I just want you to know that your feelings are valid. Itās hard especially when you enjoy writing so much but get little from it sometimes. Interaction is always exciting but it seems like people just care more about the work than the writer who puts out the stuff. Youāve done enough and if you write that piece then write it and if you wanna write something else then do it. If you donāt at all then thatās okay too, this is your blog and itās up to you to do whatever you want on YOUR blog. Youāre only being honest about how you feel and itās good that youāre even speaking about it! I hope youāre okay though! Itās hard but just know you always got support somewhere. ā¤ļø
i honestly miss you and your writing š i hope you don't close this account and keep it as an archive, as selfish as it sounds... you're extremely talented and i love seeing you post things that you work hard on. yiu deserve all the praise and i'm sorry that it doesn't feel as good as it used to :( do what makes you happy regardless of what i say ofc!! i just wanted to let you know that there is a silent reader in your corner rooting for you and checking your account everyday!! <3
(i miss my writing too man sometimes i look back at my own stuff like damn i rlly wrote this ??? i wrote that ??)
hey! i got a notification for your post and although i donāt send a lot of asks i am also a writer here and i wanted to say i get what you mean. thereās a pressure to continue posting so that people will have something to say - be it about the work or anything at all, honestly. i have also been struggling with that and worries that my newest post isnāt interesting enough to do as well as others. but i wanted to say that as discouraging as this is, there are still people who lurk in the shadows and thoroughly enjoy whenever a post is made. please donāt let this disappointment muddle your love of writing (for lack of a better wordage) donāt mind what anyone else wants, write what you want and let it come to you in your own time.
sorry if this is too forward or pushy!! i just wanted to offer a hand. take care of yourself <3
it wasnāt pushy at all thank you so much :( i really do appreciate it
iām sure u get it (a lot of u probably do) when ur a ācreatorā (for lack of a better term) of any kind and you get rlly frustrated n sad when either the product doesnāt come out the way you want it to or people arenāt responding to said product at all and it just makes u feel like fuck it š
I feel like ficblr has gotten very transactional and demanding, especially lately, it's really hard to tell what happened too. Maybe lots of readers from other social media sites got their hands on tumblr and don't understand how important community and feedback is. It can definitely feel like readers don't actually care anymore and just expect writers to be essentially machines... :/ I hope whatever you choose to do, you feel like it's the right decision
yea :/ i was kinda thinkin that but i didnāt know if it was just me. like iām not rlly as involved w ficblr as much as i used to be i just donāt have the time to anymore but yea
i dunno. i miss writing, but i also miss the days when people like didnāt pressure me to post things and actually interacted with me. it feels like yāall only care if iām posting a fic or smth like that š iāve gotten sum asks w people just straight up saying āwhen are u gonna post something? are you ever gonna write again?ā
it feels so dramatic of me to be like āyāall no care meā but in comparison to a year or so ago ,, ://
maybe i fucked smth up at some point, idk. idk iām just venting iām sad lol. i miss the days when i was more of a consistent writer, when posting things didnāt feel so transactional. atp i might just leave this blog up as an archive and close it altogether
my first thought for changbin was seeing you in your element. maybe he comes to pick you up from work, or youāre just working on a hobby or something youāre interested in. just seeing you so comfortable, so confident in whatever youāre doing is enough to get him going honestly (but that could also be me being a sub!binnie enthusiast š). but on that same note, coming home to you lounging about in nothing but your underwear and one of his shirts? yeah, thatāll get you fucked too.
chan kinda likes it when youāre a little bratty. like when you kind of have an attitude and youāre just arms crossed and huffing, having a smart ass answer to everything he asks you. he just thinks itās so fucking cute. especially enjoys you standing up for him, snapping at anyone who dares try to sneak some sort of underhanded insult at him; it makes his heart and his dick grow. as an ass man, seeing you in some short skirts or shorts will get him too. when youāre bending over at the waist and he can see the curve of your ass, he canāt help but smack it š (wowwww the thought of him having you bent over a counter, holding you up by your arms and heās just fixated on the way your ass jiggles with every thrust . oof)
okay itās hard for me to resist hentai lover jisung. he loves your legs, loves seeing you in thigh high socks, garters, tights, fishnets, the lot. if you have thick thighs, GOD does he just love the way high socks squeeze them. just wants to bury himself between them, use your thighs as ear muffs. what also gets him is (and hopefully yāall understand what iām tryna get at here) when you start using producer terminology. this is SO specific but hear me out. heās definitely brought you to the studio before while working on a song and when you start commenting on said song using the words that youāve learned from him? his heart melts. like it just means a lot to him that youāve taken the time to learn it and it makes him want to eat you out until you cry.