Grace

self-loathing poet

[paper-wounds]

“If I Am Killed For Simply Living” — Althea Davis

[slayciegracie]

My fingers bleed

The guitar can be such a violent instrument

Born bored

[slayciegracie]

Desperately trying, attempting how can it be

Just scratching the surface but it’s getting hard to breathe

Cleaved apart our souls like there was nothing left

Suffice the depths of my life through something heft

Empty. What more can there come upon me

For I am dreaming nothing more this world attacks thee

Through my soul I freight things will once come to an end

Through my soul I freight things will always come again

[slayciegracie]

i fell asleep kindly

enjoying the day

my older sister loves me

and everything will be okay

Born bored

[slayciegracie]

Why has the world drained me of all I am

Why am I sitting like an open door waiting to be closed

I feel so worthless like all I am is just a napkin

My purpose is to just be used then thrown away

I am exhausted isnt that confusing? I’m only a teenager shouldn’t I be ready to take on the world

No one told me the bitterness and emptiness of standing still

- born bored

[slayciegracie]

I’m sorry I never called u back

Or that I never read ur texts

I’m sorry ur voicemails are still sitting

In the box above my bed

I hate the fact that when I cry

I sing songs late at night

Sing songs that remind me of u

And pretend that they all were once the truth

I’m sorry I ditched u like it was easy to do

But I cant get close to people who don’t know me like you

I know how this ends

I’ve seen this once again

I will leave a foot note

And ask us to start again

- born bored

[listlesslemonade-deactivated202]

10.14.2023

Even if everything was normal again

could I really forgive you?

You took and degraded me

until I broke in two.

[thepersonalquotes]

““I want to leave, I’ll probably stay another year. It’s hard to leave when absolutely nothing’s clear.” - Lana Del Rey”

—

[sunkissed-summerdaze]

Hey there, it's me.

Hey there,  It's me,  Yeah,  Your over obsessed never enough train wreck.  I've been out of my mind again,  But you already knew that. Never too insane, but just sane enough To keep trudging through day by day.  Constantly depressed,  Lonely,  Always tired,  I sleep 19 hours a day,  Damn,  I think that's more than a cat sleeps.  This poem doesn't rhyme,  Not like I really tried,  Yet, I feel it has a certain pizazz  That I just can't quite explain.  See you next time I have another mental break down, Douses. -E.S.

Mon, Feb. 6th / 2023 3:52 a.m.

[chanstopher]

thank you for every sunday, see you someday!

[slayciegracie]

Hope and grief are funny things

Your heart tells you they’re still right there

But your brain yells out “this isn’t fair”

Born bored

[slayciegracie]

Constantly giving

never receiving

If I gave you my whole heart

I would have nothing left

the bare minimum

Always makes me feel untouchable

But I could give you the whole world

And you would sit and say

“She gives me more”

Born bored

[listlesslemonade-deactivated202]

8.28.2023

Family pains instead of family gains.

The trip went as soon as it came.

I spent it dazed, all too phased,

thinking of a girl

who was enjoying her solo days.

Can I rewind and get it back?

I regret being distant,

getting off track.

I missed some of my life at home,

but my family missed me

while I suffered on my own.

[hollylight-deactivated20231118]

It goes without saying but it's still never said. What I'd give for you to say the thoughts in your head.

[slayciegracie]

I could live almost completely in imagination

Louise glück, from Poems 1962-2012

[slayciegracie]

You won’t remember me at my worst

so please forget me at my best