I am a car crash, I am a disaster.

[justavpdthings]

Shout out to kids with personality disorders whose disorder wasn’t caused by any specific event or a traumatic childhood. Disorders don’t need a specific reason to exist, sometimes they just appear.

[ravenzoe]

this post is for anyone who feels a little lost right now. maybe you don’t know what your path in life is yet. maybe you hate your job. maybe you’re still in school and you’ve changed your major three times. maybe you’re confused about what it is that you want. maybe you know exactly what you want but have no idea how to get it. 

you will figure it out. you are not dead yet. you are going to figure your shit out. i believe in you. 

[demisnowflake-deactivated201408]

[faunmoss]

[Self Care When You Don’t Have the Spoons for Showering

1. Keep face wipes and deodorant by your bed. They’re easy and can make a huge difference in how you feel

2. Take sink showers. Washing your hair and face in the sink quickly works especially well if you’re a survivor having anxiety about being naked (yes, that’s totally normal)

3. Invest in a dry shampoo. You can use it in bed or sitting down on days when you can’t get up, it’s super easy, and it gets rid of oily hair really quickly

4. Use scented body lotion to make yourself smell nice- it’s grounding and makes you feel soft and clean without much effort

5. Air fresheners and scented candles can make your room smell nice and make you feel more fresh and together

6. Wear your favorite cozy clothes

7. Spray your favorite perfume on your clothes if you can’t handle changing out of pajamas

8. Sometimes if you use easy makeup products tinted lip balms can help you trick yourself into thinking you feel better]

[nebet-ren]

These “no rinse” products, including the shampoo cap and the no-rinse shampoo and body wash, are also helpful:

Shampoo cap

Other products

They have both rinses/shampoos/washes which you dilute in warm water (and then use a washcloth to clean yourself) as well as wipes and the shower cap linked above which can be warmed up in the microwave.

I have moderately sensitive skin, and the shower cap and body wash we used for my partner after his surgery did not irritate my skin. YMMV, of course.

[ihavehadnocourage-deactivated20]

If someone is mentally, emotionally or physically exhausting me, I have every right to withdraw myself from the situation. I need to look after myself and doing so does not make me selfish.

From my journal. (via ihavehadnocourage)

[sleepyentrailles]

I drink vodka like water I swallow my words and they feel like broken glass I smoke because I need something to cling to Your words hit me like a freight train Your touch soothes my soul Someday we will meet again But I'll pretend not to know your name You're a stranger to me now

[sleepyentrailles]

One foot in the doorway rusty drain that is your throat it's running down blood spattering coughing up another lung You forgot I own these bones I can break my own falls I might be black, and blue but those marks flesh bones they are mine. I could cut a pretty heart into my skin Just to spite you but that's too easy I want it to flood from the inside

[sleepyentrailles]

five letters five hearts five people torn apart

five plans that were made five hands on the grenade

five lives five deaths

five bodies were only left

[sleepyentrailles]

contemplating herself and her near future she smiles and thinks of all that has happened before when she was someone else whom she wouldn't recognize anymore that girl had turned into dust leaving no remains though her milky white skin still bear the scars those scars are a map a map that is now unreadable to even her a new map is already being written but it will be a long time before it's completed

[sleepyentrailles]

Sugar sugar Where did your head go? Down the river or in the depths of the ocean. It didn't come to shore, there was no message in a bottle. And ever since nothing has been real, just swirls of smoke and shattered glass. We tightly wrapped our limbs together. You would think nothing would slip through the knots and ties, but blood has been showing, dripping through. You'll notice soon enough.

[sleepyentrailles]

Muddy water between my legs, All I can think of is you. Lady in scarlet, with green envy eyes. I was in a coma while you built your castle of lies, and once I awoke. You weren't the person I loved anymore, A scratched painting that was once a work of art. The moon in my heart said stay, But the sun in my mind said go, go, go.

[sleepyentrailles]

solemn boy stands in the garden he still stands melancholic no words, no laughter for his heart has no beat he has no soul like humans do. he has no name loveless he stands as times moves sadly on he is still there silent, alone marked with vines wrapped around his legs the seasons pass from winter to summer that solemn boy is still stuck there the cracks show his true age until one day he falls the boy is no longer solemn his sad face is gone

[sleepyentrailles]

In between reality and dreams, I was half awake when I felt your touch. I turned to see only the shadow of my window curtains draped behind me. I didn't plan this, but now you're trapped in my unconscious and there's now way out. We are opposites, but all the planets and stars say we are one. The twins follow the centaur, through the Valley of the Elah. Where even David or Goliath could not touch us, we are the untouchable. We are the dreamers.

[sleepyentrailles]

though my body is battered and broken and my bones are decaying my loneliness gives me peace the ash tray in my bedroom has burnt out cigarettes stacked like dominoes my record player spins madly on with songs I cannot erase from my memory but this loneliness isn't part of the solution it's part of the problem everyone is moving forward but i stay here stuck and chained...

[sleepyentrailles]

I was thrown into this world, thrust out from my mothers womb. No apologies were made, No explanations. Flashing lights, blank stares and first glances. Childhood is a forgotten memory, adolescence something I'll never miss. Yet I am still a child, I retreat to my dreams when everything seems to real. I am Ophelia reborn, I am anything I want to be.

But with you, I'm a woman, I'm needed. We both have broken hearts, yours was torn. Mine just crumbled.

[sleepyentrailles]

I was Alice, falling down the rabbit hole. Down, down, down I go, Nowhere to be found. My blackened lungs, rotting inside spread bile and disease. No one dare goes near me, Locusts and black cats only venture the unknown. The rabbit hole has swallowed me hole, I'm not coming back.

[sleepyentrailles]

I never let a man touch me, until my loneliness overwhelmed my body. From then on, Each kiss, each touch, each linger consumed my being. False happiness gave me hope. Once or twice wasn't enough, The more I got, the more I needed. Day or night, inside or outside. In a park, alleyway, toilet, in the backseat of a car. There were no limits, no barriers to this need of mine. It had slowly grown into a tumor, While my heart still remained empty as it was before. Those strangers weren't my friends, nor lovers. Their affections were temporary, and their was no way to convince myself otherwise.

[sleepyentrailles]

Skin to skin, I don't dare move. Your caress fills me like warm honey, And I feel beautiful in that moment. I lay naked, bearing my soul for only you to see. Each cut and bruise visible, I'm not a beauty. My skins is full of cracks, I am pale faced and solemn. But I give it all to you, If you'd take me. My entrails are yours, Take my heart if you wish. I only ask that you savour it.