"You're a light...my ray of hope!"

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[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. “You don’t have therapy today. You’re more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?” He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

“I’ve got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?” He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Hmm… yea, I may go hang out with Ringabel. He said we could paint together. I would like that.” William decided after a moment of thought. He sipped his coffee, enjoying how nice and hot it was. “No, don’t go…” he said quickly, almost like a little kid would. He just always felt more secure when Yew was with him.

He crawled out of the bed, and started taking off his pyjama, changing into the clothes Yew brought for him. Soft fabrics. Everything felt so nice today. “And later…” William spoke, pulling on a nice soft cardigan. “In the evening… can you stay for a bit and cuddle me in my new bed in new room?” he asked hopefully.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew remained in the room, taking a seat on the bed while William dressed himself. He didn’t mind sticking around in the afternoon either. Maybe he could stick around after he’s clocked out for the day?

“Of course!” Yew replied cheerfully. I don’t mind staying a little longer. I’ve got nothing to go home to anyway.“ He was actually much happier staying with William. He wished he could spend the night. “And I’ll bring some tea for us later too. To keep us warm.”

He wrapped his scarf around his neck, standing up and taking William by the hand. “Ready to go?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled at this perspective. A nice evening with Yew and nice hot tea. This sounded perfect. A little bit of normal in his life was always much cherished by him. 

Once he was dressed, he happily took Yew’s hand, and was eager to go out. “Yes, I’m ready! Let’s go!” Finally some time outside…

As they left the hospital building, William already felt a little better. The fresh air, the smell of grass, and rain, since it was raining last night… everything seemed wonderful. He started walking further into the hospital grounds, towards where the chestnut trees were growing, closer to the fence in the back. “This is so nice… I like autumn. What is your favourite season?” he asked Yew. He wanted to wrap his arm around his shoulders and walk like this, hugging, but they couldn’t. Someone might see, and he didn’t want Yew to get in trouble because of him. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣}             Yew sighed, breathing in the crisp autumn air. “Hmm…that’s a tough one. I do like fall. It’s the season of cuddles, getting together…it’s got some of the best weather and holidays. But, I also like spring too…” He wished he could be closer. Maybe rest his head on his shoulder…but he couldn’t. Not out here. He had to remain content with just holding hands for now.

He glanced over at another tree and stopped. There were a few other patients in the yard this morning too, but they were all having fun in the leaves and throwing fistfuls of them at each other. However, there was one patient sitting quietly under a tree alone. He rested with his back against the trunk of the tree, and a walking staff at his side. He looked…familiar? His face…

“Don’t look now, William. But I think that’s Tiz over by the other tree…”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Mhm… I like spring too. But autumn the most.” William hummed, happily walking around, enjoying fresh air, and how the leaves were crunchy underneath his feet. It was such a lovely day, he had some time off from the therapy, was going to have new nice room, and got to spend time with Yew. It seemed that everything was perfect today.

Until Yew brought William’s attention to another patient sitting by the tree nearby. William literally froze, and couldn’t turn to look even if he wanted to. “What?” his voice seemed strangled. “No, no, let’s not go there. If he sees me he will get scared, I don’t want to…” he panicked a little, and literally just walked away into the opposite direction.

The image of Tiz from his dreams was still fresh in his mind, even though those dreams weren’t haunting him for a while now.

He walked off, to be as far away from Tiz as he could. There was a big chestnut tree at the other edge of the hospital grounds, and William went over there, starting to pick green, spiky chestnut shells from the ground to distract himself.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew stayed close to William following him while also keeping an eye on Tiz to make sure they didn’t spook him. Though, it seemed William was the one who had been spooked. He seemed nervous and antsy, wanting to stay as far away from Tiz as possible.

Tiz looked up from his book, glancing over at the two people nearby. He recognized Yew immediately, and thought it would be nice to say hello. The company of another was always welcome. He used his staff to help him off the ground, then he began making his way over to Yew.

Yew didn’t panic, but he did alert William. “Will…Tiz is coming this way. Act natural. I won’t let anything happen, okay?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William just picked a chestnut shell from the ground, and began carefully opening it to take out the nice, shiny chestnut from inside. When Yew told him Tiz was coming towards them, William looked over, and got so anxious that he squeezed his hand too tight, and the spikes from the chestnut shell pierced his skin.

“Keep him away from me.” William spoke only, and turned around again. He was trembling, but tried not to act on edge. He needed to seem calm, and non-threatening. He hoped Tiz will just speak with Yew for a second and then go away again. Surely, Tiz won’t want to be around him for longer either…

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “What?” Yew was definitely surprised when he heard William tell him to keep Tiz away. “But…I thought you’d like to see him?” Of course it may not be the same feelings on Tiz’s end. He thought maybe Tiz would go away or stay where he was if he saw William. Maybe he hadn’t noticed William yet.

Tiz was getting closer, so Yew walked toward him to keep him at least a few feet away from William. “Hello, Tiz. Beautiful morning isn’t it?” Tiz smiled softly and nodded. “It’s lovely. The leaves changed colors…autumn always reminds me of home.” He sighed, knowing those days were far behind him now. “Who’s the new patient? I’ve never seen him out here before.” Yew swallowed. Oh God what the hell was he supposed to say?!

“Now…don’t panic. It’s William.”

William? The same bastard that stalked him through Mount Massive? The same William that took advantage of him over and over again? At first, Tiz froze. Should he run? Should he beat William to death with his staff? No….he had to calm down. Suddenly Tiz closed his eyes and started counting aloud.

He stopped at twenty, taking a deep breath. Surely if William was out in the gardens then he must not be a threat anymore right? At least, he hoped he wasn’t. “May I…see him?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William really didn’t like this. He kept to himself, standing on the side, playing with the chestnut in his hands, but he still observed Yew and Tiz with the corner of his eye. And he didn’t like one bit that it was taking so long. What were they talking about? Why wouldn’t Tiz just walk away?

He cracked the spiky chestnut shell with his fingers gently, and took out the nice, round and shiny brown chestnut. He smiled a little as he saw it, and ran a finger over it smooth surface.

And then he overheard what Tiz said. He wanted to see him? William already knew this is not a good idea.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew stiffened a bit. “Are…are you sure, Sir?” Was Tiz really certain about wanting to see him? Wouldn’t he panic? He had to be sure that both of them were ready, otherwise this meeting could be a disaster.

“Give me one second, okay? I’ll ask William if he’s okay with it.” He stepped away from Tiz and joined William at his side, gently touching his shoulder. “William…I know you said you didn’t want to see Tiz because you don’t want to scare him…But he seems calm now. Do you want to let him see you?” Tiz seemed harmless now. He was even tempered and level headed. Yew doubted things could go wrong between them. “If not, I can send him away…”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William played with the chestnut, moving it between his fingers, staring down at it, how shiny and smooth it was. He was nervous, and wasn’t sure if it was a good idea to see Tiz. But on the other hand… maybe he would get some kind of closure? Yew said that Tiz seemed calm, maybe… maybe if he will see that he is indeed feeling better, then the nightmares would stop too?

“Fine…” William said eventually, agreeing a little hesitantly. “But you don’t go away. Stay with me. I don’t want to be alone…” he hummed, looking at Yew with begging eyes. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew waited for William to think things over for a moment. He could see he was a bit tense and nervous. He couldn't blame him, with all the nightmares he'd been having recently. He was certain the last thing William would ever want to do would be to hurt Tiz in some way. Once he agreed, Yew nodded. "I won't be going anywhere. I'll even hold your hand." He held William's hand, interlacing their fingers as he led William over to Tiz.

Tiz gazed up at the taller man with his one brown eye. His hair had been cut away, revealing his face. He nearly looked how he did in William's nightmares and visions, minus the blood. He even still had some of the old scars. Tiz almost immediately seemed to cower. It was as if William was towering over him. He had always found the other's height to be intimidating. Tiz quickly averted his gaze, unable to look up at him without recognizing him as that beast that hunted him down. "H-hi...I see you're out and about now..."

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. “You don’t have therapy today. You’re more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?” He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

“I’ve got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?” He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Hmm… yea, I may go hang out with Ringabel. He said we could paint together. I would like that.” William decided after a moment of thought. He sipped his coffee, enjoying how nice and hot it was. “No, don’t go…” he said quickly, almost like a little kid would. He just always felt more secure when Yew was with him.

He crawled out of the bed, and started taking off his pyjama, changing into the clothes Yew brought for him. Soft fabrics. Everything felt so nice today. “And later…” William spoke, pulling on a nice soft cardigan. “In the evening… can you stay for a bit and cuddle me in my new bed in new room?” he asked hopefully.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew remained in the room, taking a seat on the bed while William dressed himself. He didn’t mind sticking around in the afternoon either. Maybe he could stick around after he’s clocked out for the day?

“Of course!” Yew replied cheerfully. I don’t mind staying a little longer. I’ve got nothing to go home to anyway.“ He was actually much happier staying with William. He wished he could spend the night. “And I’ll bring some tea for us later too. To keep us warm.”

He wrapped his scarf around his neck, standing up and taking William by the hand. “Ready to go?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled at this perspective. A nice evening with Yew and nice hot tea. This sounded perfect. A little bit of normal in his life was always much cherished by him. 

Once he was dressed, he happily took Yew’s hand, and was eager to go out. “Yes, I’m ready! Let’s go!” Finally some time outside…

As they left the hospital building, William already felt a little better. The fresh air, the smell of grass, and rain, since it was raining last night… everything seemed wonderful. He started walking further into the hospital grounds, towards where the chestnut trees were growing, closer to the fence in the back. “This is so nice… I like autumn. What is your favourite season?” he asked Yew. He wanted to wrap his arm around his shoulders and walk like this, hugging, but they couldn’t. Someone might see, and he didn’t want Yew to get in trouble because of him. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣}             Yew sighed, breathing in the crisp autumn air. “Hmm…that’s a tough one. I do like fall. It’s the season of cuddles, getting together…it’s got some of the best weather and holidays. But, I also like spring too…” He wished he could be closer. Maybe rest his head on his shoulder…but he couldn’t. Not out here. He had to remain content with just holding hands for now.

He glanced over at another tree and stopped. There were a few other patients in the yard this morning too, but they were all having fun in the leaves and throwing fistfuls of them at each other. However, there was one patient sitting quietly under a tree alone. He rested with his back against the trunk of the tree, and a walking staff at his side. He looked…familiar? His face…

“Don’t look now, William. But I think that’s Tiz over by the other tree…”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Mhm… I like spring too. But autumn the most.” William hummed, happily walking around, enjoying fresh air, and how the leaves were crunchy underneath his feet. It was such a lovely day, he had some time off from the therapy, was going to have new nice room, and got to spend time with Yew. It seemed that everything was perfect today.

Until Yew brought William’s attention to another patient sitting by the tree nearby. William literally froze, and couldn’t turn to look even if he wanted to. “What?” his voice seemed strangled. “No, no, let’s not go there. If he sees me he will get scared, I don’t want to…” he panicked a little, and literally just walked away into the opposite direction.

The image of Tiz from his dreams was still fresh in his mind, even though those dreams weren’t haunting him for a while now.

He walked off, to be as far away from Tiz as he could. There was a big chestnut tree at the other edge of the hospital grounds, and William went over there, starting to pick green, spiky chestnut shells from the ground to distract himself.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew stayed close to William following him while also keeping an eye on Tiz to make sure they didn’t spook him. Though, it seemed William was the one who had been spooked. He seemed nervous and antsy, wanting to stay as far away from Tiz as possible.

Tiz looked up from his book, glancing over at the two people nearby. He recognized Yew immediately, and thought it would be nice to say hello. The company of another was always welcome. He used his staff to help him off the ground, then he began making his way over to Yew.

Yew didn’t panic, but he did alert William. “Will…Tiz is coming this way. Act natural. I won’t let anything happen, okay?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William just picked a chestnut shell from the ground, and began carefully opening it to take out the nice, shiny chestnut from inside. When Yew told him Tiz was coming towards them, William looked over, and got so anxious that he squeezed his hand too tight, and the spikes from the chestnut shell pierced his skin.

“Keep him away from me.” William spoke only, and turned around again. He was trembling, but tried not to act on edge. He needed to seem calm, and non-threatening. He hoped Tiz will just speak with Yew for a second and then go away again. Surely, Tiz won’t want to be around him for longer either…

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “What?” Yew was definitely surprised when he heard William tell him to keep Tiz away. “But…I thought you’d like to see him?” Of course it may not be the same feelings on Tiz’s end. He thought maybe Tiz would go away or stay where he was if he saw William. Maybe he hadn’t noticed William yet.

Tiz was getting closer, so Yew walked toward him to keep him at least a few feet away from William. “Hello, Tiz. Beautiful morning isn’t it?” Tiz smiled softly and nodded. “It’s lovely. The leaves changed colors…autumn always reminds me of home.” He sighed, knowing those days were far behind him now. “Who’s the new patient? I’ve never seen him out here before.” Yew swallowed. Oh God what the hell was he supposed to say?!

“Now…don’t panic. It’s William.”

William? The same bastard that stalked him through Mount Massive? The same William that took advantage of him over and over again? At first, Tiz froze. Should he run? Should he beat William to death with his staff? No….he had to calm down. Suddenly Tiz closed his eyes and started counting aloud.

He stopped at twenty, taking a deep breath. Surely if William was out in the gardens then he must not be a threat anymore right? At least, he hoped he wasn’t. “May I…see him?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William really didn’t like this. He kept to himself, standing on the side, playing with the chestnut in his hands, but he still observed Yew and Tiz with the corner of his eye. And he didn’t like one bit that it was taking so long. What were they talking about? Why wouldn’t Tiz just walk away?

He cracked the spiky chestnut shell with his fingers gently, and took out the nice, round and shiny brown chestnut. He smiled a little as he saw it, and ran a finger over it smooth surface.

And then he overheard what Tiz said. He wanted to see him? William already knew this is not a good idea.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew stiffened a bit. "Are...are you sure, Sir?" Was Tiz really certain about wanting to see him? Wouldn't he panic? He had to be sure that both of them were ready, otherwise this meeting could be a disaster.

"Give me one second, okay? I'll ask William if he's okay with it." He stepped away from Tiz and joined William at his side, gently touching his shoulder. "William...I know you said you didn't want to see Tiz because you don't want to scare him...But he seems calm now. Do you want to let him see you?" Tiz seemed harmless now. He was even tempered and level headed. Yew doubted things could go wrong between them. "If not, I can send him away..."

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. “You don’t have therapy today. You’re more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?” He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

“I’ve got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?” He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Hmm… yea, I may go hang out with Ringabel. He said we could paint together. I would like that.” William decided after a moment of thought. He sipped his coffee, enjoying how nice and hot it was. “No, don’t go…” he said quickly, almost like a little kid would. He just always felt more secure when Yew was with him.

He crawled out of the bed, and started taking off his pyjama, changing into the clothes Yew brought for him. Soft fabrics. Everything felt so nice today. “And later…” William spoke, pulling on a nice soft cardigan. “In the evening… can you stay for a bit and cuddle me in my new bed in new room?” he asked hopefully.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew remained in the room, taking a seat on the bed while William dressed himself. He didn’t mind sticking around in the afternoon either. Maybe he could stick around after he’s clocked out for the day?

“Of course!” Yew replied cheerfully. I don’t mind staying a little longer. I’ve got nothing to go home to anyway.“ He was actually much happier staying with William. He wished he could spend the night. “And I’ll bring some tea for us later too. To keep us warm.”

He wrapped his scarf around his neck, standing up and taking William by the hand. “Ready to go?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled at this perspective. A nice evening with Yew and nice hot tea. This sounded perfect. A little bit of normal in his life was always much cherished by him. 

Once he was dressed, he happily took Yew’s hand, and was eager to go out. “Yes, I’m ready! Let’s go!” Finally some time outside…

As they left the hospital building, William already felt a little better. The fresh air, the smell of grass, and rain, since it was raining last night… everything seemed wonderful. He started walking further into the hospital grounds, towards where the chestnut trees were growing, closer to the fence in the back. “This is so nice… I like autumn. What is your favourite season?” he asked Yew. He wanted to wrap his arm around his shoulders and walk like this, hugging, but they couldn’t. Someone might see, and he didn’t want Yew to get in trouble because of him. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣}             Yew sighed, breathing in the crisp autumn air. “Hmm…that’s a tough one. I do like fall. It’s the season of cuddles, getting together…it’s got some of the best weather and holidays. But, I also like spring too…” He wished he could be closer. Maybe rest his head on his shoulder…but he couldn’t. Not out here. He had to remain content with just holding hands for now.

He glanced over at another tree and stopped. There were a few other patients in the yard this morning too, but they were all having fun in the leaves and throwing fistfuls of them at each other. However, there was one patient sitting quietly under a tree alone. He rested with his back against the trunk of the tree, and a walking staff at his side. He looked…familiar? His face…

“Don’t look now, William. But I think that’s Tiz over by the other tree…”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Mhm… I like spring too. But autumn the most.” William hummed, happily walking around, enjoying fresh air, and how the leaves were crunchy underneath his feet. It was such a lovely day, he had some time off from the therapy, was going to have new nice room, and got to spend time with Yew. It seemed that everything was perfect today.

Until Yew brought William’s attention to another patient sitting by the tree nearby. William literally froze, and couldn’t turn to look even if he wanted to. “What?” his voice seemed strangled. “No, no, let’s not go there. If he sees me he will get scared, I don’t want to…” he panicked a little, and literally just walked away into the opposite direction.

The image of Tiz from his dreams was still fresh in his mind, even though those dreams weren’t haunting him for a while now.

He walked off, to be as far away from Tiz as he could. There was a big chestnut tree at the other edge of the hospital grounds, and William went over there, starting to pick green, spiky chestnut shells from the ground to distract himself.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew stayed close to William following him while also keeping an eye on Tiz to make sure they didn’t spook him. Though, it seemed William was the one who had been spooked. He seemed nervous and antsy, wanting to stay as far away from Tiz as possible.

Tiz looked up from his book, glancing over at the two people nearby. He recognized Yew immediately, and thought it would be nice to say hello. The company of another was always welcome. He used his staff to help him off the ground, then he began making his way over to Yew.

Yew didn’t panic, but he did alert William. “Will…Tiz is coming this way. Act natural. I won’t let anything happen, okay?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William just picked a chestnut shell from the ground, and began carefully opening it to take out the nice, shiny chestnut from inside. When Yew told him Tiz was coming towards them, William looked over, and got so anxious that he squeezed his hand too tight, and the spikes from the chestnut shell pierced his skin.

“Keep him away from me.” William spoke only, and turned around again. He was trembling, but tried not to act on edge. He needed to seem calm, and non-threatening. He hoped Tiz will just speak with Yew for a second and then go away again. Surely, Tiz won’t want to be around him for longer either…

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} "What?" Yew was definitely surprised when he heard William tell him to keep Tiz away. "But...I thought you'd like to see him?" Of course it may not be the same feelings on Tiz's end. He thought maybe Tiz would go away or stay where he was if he saw William. Maybe he hadn't noticed William yet.

Tiz was getting closer, so Yew walked toward him to keep him at least a few feet away from William. "Hello, Tiz. Beautiful morning isn't it?" Tiz smiled softly and nodded. "It's lovely. The leaves changed colors...autumn always reminds me of home." He sighed, knowing those days were far behind him now. "Who's the new patient? I've never seen him out here before." Yew swallowed. Oh God what the hell was he supposed to say?!

"Now...don't panic. It's William."

William? The same bastard that stalked him through Mount Massive? The same William that took advantage of him over and over again? At first, Tiz froze. Should he run? Should he beat William to death with his staff? No....he had to calm down. Suddenly Tiz closed his eyes and started counting aloud.

He stopped at twenty, taking a deep breath. Surely if William was out in the gardens then he must not be a threat anymore right? At least, he hoped he wasn't. "May I...see him?"

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. “You don’t have therapy today. You’re more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?” He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

“I’ve got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?” He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Hmm… yea, I may go hang out with Ringabel. He said we could paint together. I would like that.” William decided after a moment of thought. He sipped his coffee, enjoying how nice and hot it was. “No, don’t go…” he said quickly, almost like a little kid would. He just always felt more secure when Yew was with him.

He crawled out of the bed, and started taking off his pyjama, changing into the clothes Yew brought for him. Soft fabrics. Everything felt so nice today. “And later…” William spoke, pulling on a nice soft cardigan. “In the evening… can you stay for a bit and cuddle me in my new bed in new room?” he asked hopefully.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew remained in the room, taking a seat on the bed while William dressed himself. He didn’t mind sticking around in the afternoon either. Maybe he could stick around after he’s clocked out for the day?

“Of course!” Yew replied cheerfully. I don’t mind staying a little longer. I’ve got nothing to go home to anyway.“ He was actually much happier staying with William. He wished he could spend the night. “And I’ll bring some tea for us later too. To keep us warm.”

He wrapped his scarf around his neck, standing up and taking William by the hand. “Ready to go?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled at this perspective. A nice evening with Yew and nice hot tea. This sounded perfect. A little bit of normal in his life was always much cherished by him. 

Once he was dressed, he happily took Yew’s hand, and was eager to go out. “Yes, I’m ready! Let’s go!” Finally some time outside…

As they left the hospital building, William already felt a little better. The fresh air, the smell of grass, and rain, since it was raining last night… everything seemed wonderful. He started walking further into the hospital grounds, towards where the chestnut trees were growing, closer to the fence in the back. “This is so nice… I like autumn. What is your favourite season?” he asked Yew. He wanted to wrap his arm around his shoulders and walk like this, hugging, but they couldn’t. Someone might see, and he didn’t want Yew to get in trouble because of him. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣}             Yew sighed, breathing in the crisp autumn air. “Hmm…that’s a tough one. I do like fall. It’s the season of cuddles, getting together…it’s got some of the best weather and holidays. But, I also like spring too…” He wished he could be closer. Maybe rest his head on his shoulder…but he couldn’t. Not out here. He had to remain content with just holding hands for now.

He glanced over at another tree and stopped. There were a few other patients in the yard this morning too, but they were all having fun in the leaves and throwing fistfuls of them at each other. However, there was one patient sitting quietly under a tree alone. He rested with his back against the trunk of the tree, and a walking staff at his side. He looked…familiar? His face…

“Don’t look now, William. But I think that’s Tiz over by the other tree…”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Mhm… I like spring too. But autumn the most.” William hummed, happily walking around, enjoying fresh air, and how the leaves were crunchy underneath his feet. It was such a lovely day, he had some time off from the therapy, was going to have new nice room, and got to spend time with Yew. It seemed that everything was perfect today.

Until Yew brought William’s attention to another patient sitting by the tree nearby. William literally froze, and couldn’t turn to look even if he wanted to. “What?” his voice seemed strangled. “No, no, let’s not go there. If he sees me he will get scared, I don’t want to…” he panicked a little, and literally just walked away into the opposite direction.

The image of Tiz from his dreams was still fresh in his mind, even though those dreams weren’t haunting him for a while now.

He walked off, to be as far away from Tiz as he could. There was a big chestnut tree at the other edge of the hospital grounds, and William went over there, starting to pick green, spiky chestnut shells from the ground to distract himself.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew stayed close to William following him while also keeping an eye on Tiz to make sure they didn't spook him. Though, it seemed William was the one who had been spooked. He seemed nervous and antsy, wanting to stay as far away from Tiz as possible.

Tiz looked up from his book, glancing over at the two people nearby. He recognized Yew immediately, and thought it would be nice to say hello. The company of another was always welcome. He used his staff to help him off the ground, then he began making his way over to Yew.

Yew didn't panic, but he did alert William. "Will...Tiz is coming this way. Act natural. I won't let anything happen, okay?"

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. “You don’t have therapy today. You’re more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?” He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

“I’ve got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?” He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Hmm… yea, I may go hang out with Ringabel. He said we could paint together. I would like that.” William decided after a moment of thought. He sipped his coffee, enjoying how nice and hot it was. “No, don’t go…” he said quickly, almost like a little kid would. He just always felt more secure when Yew was with him.

He crawled out of the bed, and started taking off his pyjama, changing into the clothes Yew brought for him. Soft fabrics. Everything felt so nice today. “And later…” William spoke, pulling on a nice soft cardigan. “In the evening… can you stay for a bit and cuddle me in my new bed in new room?” he asked hopefully.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew remained in the room, taking a seat on the bed while William dressed himself. He didn’t mind sticking around in the afternoon either. Maybe he could stick around after he’s clocked out for the day?

“Of course!” Yew replied cheerfully. I don’t mind staying a little longer. I’ve got nothing to go home to anyway.“ He was actually much happier staying with William. He wished he could spend the night. “And I’ll bring some tea for us later too. To keep us warm.”

He wrapped his scarf around his neck, standing up and taking William by the hand. “Ready to go?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled at this perspective. A nice evening with Yew and nice hot tea. This sounded perfect. A little bit of normal in his life was always much cherished by him. 

Once he was dressed, he happily took Yew’s hand, and was eager to go out. “Yes, I’m ready! Let’s go!” Finally some time outside…

As they left the hospital building, William already felt a little better. The fresh air, the smell of grass, and rain, since it was raining last night… everything seemed wonderful. He started walking further into the hospital grounds, towards where the chestnut trees were growing, closer to the fence in the back. “This is so nice… I like autumn. What is your favourite season?” he asked Yew. He wanted to wrap his arm around his shoulders and walk like this, hugging, but they couldn’t. Someone might see, and he didn’t want Yew to get in trouble because of him. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣}             Yew sighed, breathing in the crisp autumn air. "Hmm...that's a tough one. I do like fall. It's the season of cuddles, getting together...it's got some of the best weather and holidays. But, I also like spring too..." He wished he could be closer. Maybe rest his head on his shoulder...but he couldn't. Not out here. He had to remain content with just holding hands for now.

He glanced over at another tree and stopped. There were a few other patients in the yard this morning too, but they were all having fun in the leaves and throwing fistfuls of them at each other. However, there was one patient sitting quietly under a tree alone. He rested with his back against the trunk of the tree, and a walking staff at his side. He looked...familiar? His face...

"Don't look now, William. But I think that's Tiz over by the other tree..."

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. “You don’t have therapy today. You’re more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?” He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

“I’ve got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?” He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Hmm… yea, I may go hang out with Ringabel. He said we could paint together. I would like that.” William decided after a moment of thought. He sipped his coffee, enjoying how nice and hot it was. “No, don’t go…” he said quickly, almost like a little kid would. He just always felt more secure when Yew was with him.

He crawled out of the bed, and started taking off his pyjama, changing into the clothes Yew brought for him. Soft fabrics. Everything felt so nice today. “And later…” William spoke, pulling on a nice soft cardigan. “In the evening… can you stay for a bit and cuddle me in my new bed in new room?” he asked hopefully.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew remained in the room, taking a seat on the bed while William dressed himself. He didn't mind sticking around in the afternoon either. Maybe he could stick around after he's clocked out for the day?

"Of course!" Yew replied cheerfully. I don't mind staying a little longer. I've got nothing to go home to anyway." He was actually much happier staying with William. He wished he could spend the night. "And I'll bring some tea for us later too. To keep us warm."

He wrapped his scarf around his neck, standing up and taking William by the hand. "Ready to go?"

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a bit chilly though. You’ll probably have to wear a coat and scarf.” It wasn’t quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. “We’ll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all.” They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He’s been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William’s breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. “Big things are happening today. Are you excited?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William got excited already. Yes, he loved autumn. He wanted to go look for chestnuts with Yew. Outside of the hospita building… it will maybe feel like a little date. A little… normal.

“Mhm, bubble bath sounds great. I would like that very much.” he agreed, taking a sip of coffee. It was so nice and warm. He smiled immediately. He started eating, looking up at Yew happily. “I’m excited for the new room. It will be nicer than here.” he hummed, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He had good appetite, so he finished his breakfast quickly.

“And what after bath…? Do I have therapy today?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It made Yew feel so happy, knowing that William was not only doing better, but feeling better. "You don't have therapy today. You're more or less free to do anything you like. Did you want to hang out with Ringabel today?" He was sure Ringabel would love to spend some time with him. They always got along so well. And who knows? Maybe he could help William make more friends too.

"I've got your clothes all ready for you. Did you want me to assist you? Or would you prefer if I gave you a little more privacy?" He asked, setting the clean and neatly folded clothing down on the end of the bed.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

In the following months, William was working really hard. He was diligently attending therapy, taking his meds. He tried to eat properly to be healthy too. He worked so hard to show Yew, and everyone, that he can get better. He even started to believe it himself.

He mostly kept to himself, but was friendly with a few patients. Ringabel mostly. They weren’t letting Tiz out at all, even though he was hearing rumours that he was getting better too. But if they weren’t letting him out, sometimes William suspected they’re just saying so to keep him calmer.

Autumn came then, William’s favourite season. When Yew came to wake him up this morning, William sat up on the bed, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his pyjama. “Is it nice outside?” he mumbled sleepily. “Yea, I want to go out. Through my window, I can see that there are chestnut trees growing on the hospital grounds. I want to go look for chestnuts…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} "It's beautiful out there. It's a bit chilly though. You'll probably have to wear a coat and scarf." It wasn't quite freezing, but it was definitely cold enough to wear a sweater and gloves. "We'll go look for chestnuts then. And what do you want to do after? Do you want to take a nice, hot bubble bath? You are moving into your new room today after all." They decided it was time to upgrade his surroundings a bit. He's been doing so well that they decided it was time to take the next step in reintroducing him to society and being more independent. His new room would be more like a small studio apartment with his own personal bathroom.

Yew set down William's breakfast on a tray in front of him and he poured him a cup of hot coffee. "Big things are happening today. Are you excited?"

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William thought that nightmares only existed in dreams, but there was one right in front of him now. What was this?! Was he hallucinating? He was on meds, this shouldn’t be happening! William sat on the bed and scooted back against the wall. He couldn’t say a word, he was so scared…

“No… please… please go away, please… this isn’t real, this isn’t real!” William whimpered, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He screamed as bodies of all his victims hung from the ceiling of his room. “I’m taking my meds! They make me better! I’m getting better! I shouldn’t be seeing you! You had operations and you’re recovering in your room! This is not real!” he clung to his sanity desperately.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Tiz came closer, stepping onto the bed. “You did this to me…These wounds will stay with me forever…just as your sins will stay with you…” Blood dripped onto the bed as he now hovered over William. “Why? You took everything from me! Why didn’t you just end me?!”

And just like that, he was gone. Like he never was standing before him. Yew had come back into the room to check up on William. He didn’t know something was wrong until he saw how terrified he was. “William? What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?” He came over and sat by him on the bed. He wasn’t sure how he should comfort him or if it was okay to touch him right now. He didn’t look so good.

“Do you want me to stay with you?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William squealed when Tiz got closer, dripping blood right onto his bed. He shook his head. “I’m so sorry… I don’t know… I don’t know why I did this… I’m not that person anymore…”

But then, Tiz just disappeared. And moments later Yew came into his room. William was still crying.

“Mhm, yeah… a nightmare.” he nodded, sniffing. He scooted a bit, closer to Yew as he sat down on his bed.

“But… I wasn’t asleep. I was seeing things… but I wasn’t asleep. Why? I’m taking my meds, this shouldn’t be happening. Am I… going crazy again? Will I turn back into The Groom?” his voice was trembling as he spoke.

“Tiz will never get better… he will never fully recover. It’s my fault. He will suffer forever. And I will too… maybe it’s a punishment for thinking that I could have a normal life… with you. I don’t deserve it. He won’t have a chance for a normal life anymore, so I shouldn’t have as well.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It was going to take a while for him to go into remission it seemed. “William…it’s okay. You’re going to experience hallucinations every once in a while. You just barely started the medications. It may be a while before the hallucinations actually stop.” The effects of the engine wouldn’t just go away overnight or after two weeks. This was a long process they would have to go through.

“Don’t worry, you aren’t the only one having similar problems. It’s not your fault. The engine did most of the damage.” William’s brain was all messed up because of those awful people.

“You had another nightmare about Tiz, didn’t you?” These dreams and hallucinations must have terrified him so much for him to come to this conclusion. “William, Tiz is going to be fine. He’s recovering nicely. The doctors think he’ll be walking around after next week.”

“And…even if he is suffering, that doesn’t mean you should too. His suffering isn’t yours.”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“R-Really?” William sniffled again and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. “He will be walking around? He… he is better?” he asked, seeming a little bit hopeful. “But… I mutilated him. And this will never get better. Those wounds will stay with him forever. And it’s because of me. I will never forgive myself. I should have killed him. Instead… I made him my experiment. And let him live like that.”

There was true pain in his voice, true regret, and hopelessness.

“I love you… but what if… I can’t get normal? What if I will be insane forever? If I hurt you… I would die.” he cried softly. “Yew I… I’m not the same as I was in Mount Massive. But what if it changed me forever?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} That was a tough question to answer. Mount Massive changed all of their patients in some permanent way, but he didn’t see any signs of William’s aggressive behaviors coming back. “You can’t take back what you did, but you can wish him the best. It’s all you can do. And I know the idea of him hating you hurts, but you have to accept that even if you do apologize he may not accept.”

“You’ve changed, but for the better I think. Your disposition now is far different from the you I saw in the footage and when we first met.” He still remembered William sinking his teeth into his bottom lip and drinking his blood. He was terrified of him that day, but once his softer side came out he realized the aggression was more like a side effect of the engine. Even Tiz was affected by it and was now showing some signs of aggression. “Don’t worry. You’re doing great so far. I don’t think you have to worry about it.” He held William’s hand and gave it a light squeeze.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William nodded slowly, trying to accept what Yew said. He needed to trust him. When Yew squeezed his hand, he looked over at him and smiles softly. “Thank you… at least you believe in me.” he hummed. “I never want to hurt you… but since I can’t completely trust myself, I think we should have a safe word.” he decided after giving it some thought. “Let’s say… buttercup. Even if I will seem like I am not myself, you say the word to me and… if I will still be somewhere there, even with last bits of my consciousness, I will say it back. Then you will know that you’re safe with me no matter what. But… if I won’t say it back… run.”

William hated to do something like this, but he needed to be honest with himself. Despite how much he loved Yew, he couldn’t be sure if he won’t lose control at some point.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}            Yew might have laughed at his request if he wasn’t so serious about it. He had to remember he knew his own mind better than any of the doctors there. But, then again, if he was on the medications, wouldn’t the likelihood of that happening be almost little to nothing?

He nodded, agreeing simply to put William’s mind at ease. He didn’t feel he would ever have to say that word though. He was doing so well these past few weeks that it was hard to imagine that the man in those Murkoff tapes was the same man sitting next to him and wanting to come up with a safe word so he doesn’t get hurt. “I’ll remember that, but I don’t think I’ll ever need to say it. You’re doing great!”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled weakly. Yew really believed in him. He wished he could believe in himself just as much. He squeezed Yew’s hand, then brought it up to his lips to press a kiss to his palm. “Thank you.” he whispered. He felt much calmer now.

“I think I’m ready to go back to sleep.” he mumbled eventually. He felt a little bit guilty that he always makes Yew to spend so much time with him, he hoped this won’t mean neglecting other patients. William didn’t even notice that these thoughts alone means he learnt empathy, and wasn’t so egoistic anymore. 

“Maybe… just stay with me until I fall asleep? Just for a little bit…” 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew hated that William doubted himself so. He was more than capable of change, and he’s proved it in the last few weeks that they’ve spent together. He was making great progress. There were guaranteed to be bumps in the road, thanks to Murkoff’s meddling. However, recovery wasn’t entirely impossible.

“You’re ready?” He was expecting William to ask him to stay. These nightmares, plus the hallucinations, had to be terrifying for him. He didn’t mind setting aside a few extra minutes just to keep him company. It was his job after all. “Of course I’ll stay with you. Just relax okay? I’m here.” Yew whispered in a soothing tone as he rubbed William’s back. “I won’t let anything happen to you, okay?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William curled up in bed, pulling the covers over himself. He sniffled a little, pressing his head against tears-stained pillow. But when Yew rubbed his back, it felt relaxing and soothing. It felt good. He wished that Yew could be with him always, every day. But for this, William would have to get better.

And he didn’t believe it was ever possible.

It took him a while, a bit over half an hour, but William eventually dozed off to sleep. He held Yew’s hand as he fell asleep, and cried a little bit through his sleep. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew sat with William, rubbing his back until he fell asleep. The poor man...he was under so much stress...he wished there was some way he could truly help him and stay by his side. But, this would all be up to William. He would have to get better if he ever wanted to be discharged.

A few months had passed, and the leaves on the trees around the hospital had changed colors, signaling the change of season. The air outside had become cool and crisp. Yew walked into William’s room, preparing to get him up and dressed for the day. He opened the curtains, letting the morning light shine into his room and gently called out to him. “William...it’s time to get up. You do want to eat breakfast don’t you? And it’s a pretty lovely day today...maybe we can get you outside for some exercise?” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William thought that nightmares only existed in dreams, but there was one right in front of him now. What was this?! Was he hallucinating? He was on meds, this shouldn’t be happening! William sat on the bed and scooted back against the wall. He couldn’t say a word, he was so scared…

“No… please… please go away, please… this isn’t real, this isn’t real!” William whimpered, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He screamed as bodies of all his victims hung from the ceiling of his room. “I’m taking my meds! They make me better! I’m getting better! I shouldn’t be seeing you! You had operations and you’re recovering in your room! This is not real!” he clung to his sanity desperately.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Tiz came closer, stepping onto the bed. “You did this to me…These wounds will stay with me forever…just as your sins will stay with you…” Blood dripped onto the bed as he now hovered over William. “Why? You took everything from me! Why didn’t you just end me?!”

And just like that, he was gone. Like he never was standing before him. Yew had come back into the room to check up on William. He didn’t know something was wrong until he saw how terrified he was. “William? What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?” He came over and sat by him on the bed. He wasn’t sure how he should comfort him or if it was okay to touch him right now. He didn’t look so good.

“Do you want me to stay with you?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William squealed when Tiz got closer, dripping blood right onto his bed. He shook his head. “I’m so sorry… I don’t know… I don’t know why I did this… I’m not that person anymore…”

But then, Tiz just disappeared. And moments later Yew came into his room. William was still crying.

“Mhm, yeah… a nightmare.” he nodded, sniffing. He scooted a bit, closer to Yew as he sat down on his bed.

“But… I wasn’t asleep. I was seeing things… but I wasn’t asleep. Why? I’m taking my meds, this shouldn’t be happening. Am I… going crazy again? Will I turn back into The Groom?” his voice was trembling as he spoke.

“Tiz will never get better… he will never fully recover. It’s my fault. He will suffer forever. And I will too… maybe it’s a punishment for thinking that I could have a normal life… with you. I don’t deserve it. He won’t have a chance for a normal life anymore, so I shouldn’t have as well.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It was going to take a while for him to go into remission it seemed. “William…it’s okay. You’re going to experience hallucinations every once in a while. You just barely started the medications. It may be a while before the hallucinations actually stop.” The effects of the engine wouldn’t just go away overnight or after two weeks. This was a long process they would have to go through.

“Don’t worry, you aren’t the only one having similar problems. It’s not your fault. The engine did most of the damage.” William’s brain was all messed up because of those awful people.

“You had another nightmare about Tiz, didn’t you?” These dreams and hallucinations must have terrified him so much for him to come to this conclusion. “William, Tiz is going to be fine. He’s recovering nicely. The doctors think he’ll be walking around after next week.”

“And…even if he is suffering, that doesn’t mean you should too. His suffering isn’t yours.”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“R-Really?” William sniffled again and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. “He will be walking around? He… he is better?” he asked, seeming a little bit hopeful. “But… I mutilated him. And this will never get better. Those wounds will stay with him forever. And it’s because of me. I will never forgive myself. I should have killed him. Instead… I made him my experiment. And let him live like that.”

There was true pain in his voice, true regret, and hopelessness.

“I love you… but what if… I can’t get normal? What if I will be insane forever? If I hurt you… I would die.” he cried softly. “Yew I… I’m not the same as I was in Mount Massive. But what if it changed me forever?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} That was a tough question to answer. Mount Massive changed all of their patients in some permanent way, but he didn’t see any signs of William’s aggressive behaviors coming back. “You can’t take back what you did, but you can wish him the best. It’s all you can do. And I know the idea of him hating you hurts, but you have to accept that even if you do apologize he may not accept.”

“You’ve changed, but for the better I think. Your disposition now is far different from the you I saw in the footage and when we first met.” He still remembered William sinking his teeth into his bottom lip and drinking his blood. He was terrified of him that day, but once his softer side came out he realized the aggression was more like a side effect of the engine. Even Tiz was affected by it and was now showing some signs of aggression. “Don’t worry. You’re doing great so far. I don’t think you have to worry about it.” He held William’s hand and gave it a light squeeze.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William nodded slowly, trying to accept what Yew said. He needed to trust him. When Yew squeezed his hand, he looked over at him and smiles softly. “Thank you… at least you believe in me.” he hummed. “I never want to hurt you… but since I can’t completely trust myself, I think we should have a safe word.” he decided after giving it some thought. “Let’s say… buttercup. Even if I will seem like I am not myself, you say the word to me and… if I will still be somewhere there, even with last bits of my consciousness, I will say it back. Then you will know that you’re safe with me no matter what. But… if I won’t say it back… run.”

William hated to do something like this, but he needed to be honest with himself. Despite how much he loved Yew, he couldn’t be sure if he won’t lose control at some point.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}            Yew might have laughed at his request if he wasn’t so serious about it. He had to remember he knew his own mind better than any of the doctors there. But, then again, if he was on the medications, wouldn’t the likelihood of that happening be almost little to nothing?

He nodded, agreeing simply to put William’s mind at ease. He didn’t feel he would ever have to say that word though. He was doing so well these past few weeks that it was hard to imagine that the man in those Murkoff tapes was the same man sitting next to him and wanting to come up with a safe word so he doesn’t get hurt. “I’ll remember that, but I don’t think I’ll ever need to say it. You’re doing great!”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William smiled weakly. Yew really believed in him. He wished he could believe in himself just as much. He squeezed Yew’s hand, then brought it up to his lips to press a kiss to his palm. “Thank you.” he whispered. He felt much calmer now.

“I think I’m ready to go back to sleep.” he mumbled eventually. He felt a little bit guilty that he always makes Yew to spend so much time with him, he hoped this won’t mean neglecting other patients. William didn’t even notice that these thoughts alone means he learnt empathy, and wasn’t so egoistic anymore. 

“Maybe… just stay with me until I fall asleep? Just for a little bit…” 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew hated that William doubted himself so. He was more than capable of change, and he's proved it in the last few weeks that they've spent together. He was making great progress. There were guaranteed to be bumps in the road, thanks to Murkoff's meddling. However, recovery wasn't entirely impossible.

"You're ready?" He was expecting William to ask him to stay. These nightmares, plus the hallucinations, had to be terrifying for him. He didn't mind setting aside a few extra minutes just to keep him company. It was his job after all. "Of course I'll stay with you. Just relax okay? I'm here." Yew whispered in a soothing tone as he rubbed William's back. "I won't let anything happen to you, okay?"

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William thought that nightmares only existed in dreams, but there was one right in front of him now. What was this?! Was he hallucinating? He was on meds, this shouldn’t be happening! William sat on the bed and scooted back against the wall. He couldn’t say a word, he was so scared…

“No… please… please go away, please… this isn’t real, this isn’t real!” William whimpered, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He screamed as bodies of all his victims hung from the ceiling of his room. “I’m taking my meds! They make me better! I’m getting better! I shouldn’t be seeing you! You had operations and you’re recovering in your room! This is not real!” he clung to his sanity desperately.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Tiz came closer, stepping onto the bed. “You did this to me…These wounds will stay with me forever…just as your sins will stay with you…” Blood dripped onto the bed as he now hovered over William. “Why? You took everything from me! Why didn’t you just end me?!”

And just like that, he was gone. Like he never was standing before him. Yew had come back into the room to check up on William. He didn’t know something was wrong until he saw how terrified he was. “William? What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?” He came over and sat by him on the bed. He wasn’t sure how he should comfort him or if it was okay to touch him right now. He didn’t look so good.

“Do you want me to stay with you?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William squealed when Tiz got closer, dripping blood right onto his bed. He shook his head. “I’m so sorry… I don’t know… I don’t know why I did this… I’m not that person anymore…”

But then, Tiz just disappeared. And moments later Yew came into his room. William was still crying.

“Mhm, yeah… a nightmare.” he nodded, sniffing. He scooted a bit, closer to Yew as he sat down on his bed.

“But… I wasn’t asleep. I was seeing things… but I wasn’t asleep. Why? I’m taking my meds, this shouldn’t be happening. Am I… going crazy again? Will I turn back into The Groom?” his voice was trembling as he spoke.

“Tiz will never get better… he will never fully recover. It’s my fault. He will suffer forever. And I will too… maybe it’s a punishment for thinking that I could have a normal life… with you. I don’t deserve it. He won’t have a chance for a normal life anymore, so I shouldn’t have as well.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It was going to take a while for him to go into remission it seemed. “William…it’s okay. You’re going to experience hallucinations every once in a while. You just barely started the medications. It may be a while before the hallucinations actually stop.” The effects of the engine wouldn’t just go away overnight or after two weeks. This was a long process they would have to go through.

“Don’t worry, you aren’t the only one having similar problems. It’s not your fault. The engine did most of the damage.” William’s brain was all messed up because of those awful people.

“You had another nightmare about Tiz, didn’t you?” These dreams and hallucinations must have terrified him so much for him to come to this conclusion. “William, Tiz is going to be fine. He’s recovering nicely. The doctors think he’ll be walking around after next week.”

“And…even if he is suffering, that doesn’t mean you should too. His suffering isn’t yours.”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“R-Really?” William sniffled again and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. “He will be walking around? He… he is better?” he asked, seeming a little bit hopeful. “But… I mutilated him. And this will never get better. Those wounds will stay with him forever. And it’s because of me. I will never forgive myself. I should have killed him. Instead… I made him my experiment. And let him live like that.”

There was true pain in his voice, true regret, and hopelessness.

“I love you… but what if… I can’t get normal? What if I will be insane forever? If I hurt you… I would die.” he cried softly. “Yew I… I’m not the same as I was in Mount Massive. But what if it changed me forever?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} That was a tough question to answer. Mount Massive changed all of their patients in some permanent way, but he didn’t see any signs of William’s aggressive behaviors coming back. “You can’t take back what you did, but you can wish him the best. It’s all you can do. And I know the idea of him hating you hurts, but you have to accept that even if you do apologize he may not accept.”

“You’ve changed, but for the better I think. Your disposition now is far different from the you I saw in the footage and when we first met.” He still remembered William sinking his teeth into his bottom lip and drinking his blood. He was terrified of him that day, but once his softer side came out he realized the aggression was more like a side effect of the engine. Even Tiz was affected by it and was now showing some signs of aggression. “Don’t worry. You’re doing great so far. I don’t think you have to worry about it.” He held William’s hand and gave it a light squeeze.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William nodded slowly, trying to accept what Yew said. He needed to trust him. When Yew squeezed his hand, he looked over at him and smiles softly. “Thank you… at least you believe in me.” he hummed. “I never want to hurt you… but since I can’t completely trust myself, I think we should have a safe word.” he decided after giving it some thought. “Let’s say… buttercup. Even if I will seem like I am not myself, you say the word to me and… if I will still be somewhere there, even with last bits of my consciousness, I will say it back. Then you will know that you’re safe with me no matter what. But… if I won’t say it back… run.”

William hated to do something like this, but he needed to be honest with himself. Despite how much he loved Yew, he couldn’t be sure if he won’t lose control at some point.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}            Yew might have laughed at his request if he wasn’t so serious about it. He had to remember he knew his own mind better than any of the doctors there. But, then again, if he was on the medications, wouldn’t the likelihood of that happening be almost little to nothing?

He nodded, agreeing simply to put William’s mind at ease. He didn’t feel he would ever have to say that word though. He was doing so well these past few weeks that it was hard to imagine that the man in those Murkoff tapes was the same man sitting next to him and wanting to come up with a safe word so he doesn’t get hurt. “I’ll remember that, but I don’t think I’ll ever need to say it. You’re doing great!”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William thought that nightmares only existed in dreams, but there was one right in front of him now. What was this?! Was he hallucinating? He was on meds, this shouldn’t be happening! William sat on the bed and scooted back against the wall. He couldn’t say a word, he was so scared…

“No… please… please go away, please… this isn’t real, this isn’t real!” William whimpered, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He screamed as bodies of all his victims hung from the ceiling of his room. “I’m taking my meds! They make me better! I’m getting better! I shouldn’t be seeing you! You had operations and you’re recovering in your room! This is not real!” he clung to his sanity desperately.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Tiz came closer, stepping onto the bed. “You did this to me…These wounds will stay with me forever…just as your sins will stay with you…” Blood dripped onto the bed as he now hovered over William. “Why? You took everything from me! Why didn’t you just end me?!”

And just like that, he was gone. Like he never was standing before him. Yew had come back into the room to check up on William. He didn’t know something was wrong until he saw how terrified he was. “William? What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?” He came over and sat by him on the bed. He wasn’t sure how he should comfort him or if it was okay to touch him right now. He didn’t look so good.

“Do you want me to stay with you?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William squealed when Tiz got closer, dripping blood right onto his bed. He shook his head. “I’m so sorry… I don’t know… I don’t know why I did this… I’m not that person anymore…”

But then, Tiz just disappeared. And moments later Yew came into his room. William was still crying.

“Mhm, yeah… a nightmare.” he nodded, sniffing. He scooted a bit, closer to Yew as he sat down on his bed.

“But… I wasn’t asleep. I was seeing things… but I wasn’t asleep. Why? I’m taking my meds, this shouldn’t be happening. Am I… going crazy again? Will I turn back into The Groom?” his voice was trembling as he spoke.

“Tiz will never get better… he will never fully recover. It’s my fault. He will suffer forever. And I will too… maybe it’s a punishment for thinking that I could have a normal life… with you. I don’t deserve it. He won’t have a chance for a normal life anymore, so I shouldn’t have as well.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It was going to take a while for him to go into remission it seemed. “William…it’s okay. You’re going to experience hallucinations every once in a while. You just barely started the medications. It may be a while before the hallucinations actually stop.” The effects of the engine wouldn’t just go away overnight or after two weeks. This was a long process they would have to go through.

“Don’t worry, you aren’t the only one having similar problems. It’s not your fault. The engine did most of the damage.” William’s brain was all messed up because of those awful people.

“You had another nightmare about Tiz, didn’t you?” These dreams and hallucinations must have terrified him so much for him to come to this conclusion. “William, Tiz is going to be fine. He’s recovering nicely. The doctors think he’ll be walking around after next week.”

“And…even if he is suffering, that doesn’t mean you should too. His suffering isn’t yours.”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“R-Really?” William sniffled again and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. “He will be walking around? He… he is better?” he asked, seeming a little bit hopeful. “But… I mutilated him. And this will never get better. Those wounds will stay with him forever. And it’s because of me. I will never forgive myself. I should have killed him. Instead… I made him my experiment. And let him live like that.”

There was true pain in his voice, true regret, and hopelessness.

“I love you… but what if… I can’t get normal? What if I will be insane forever? If I hurt you… I would die.” he cried softly. “Yew I… I’m not the same as I was in Mount Massive. But what if it changed me forever?”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} That was a tough question to answer. Mount Massive changed all of their patients in some permanent way, but he didn't see any signs of William's aggressive behaviors coming back. "You can't take back what you did, but you can wish him the best. It's all you can do. And I know the idea of him hating you hurts, but you have to accept that even if you do apologize he may not accept."

"You've changed, but for the better I think. Your disposition now is far different from the you I saw in the footage and when we first met." He still remembered William sinking his teeth into his bottom lip and drinking his blood. He was terrified of him that day, but once his softer side came out he realized the aggression was more like a side effect of the engine. Even Tiz was affected by it and was now showing some signs of aggression. "Don't worry. You're doing great so far. I don't think you have to worry about it." He held William's hand and gave it a light squeeze.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William thought that nightmares only existed in dreams, but there was one right in front of him now. What was this?! Was he hallucinating? He was on meds, this shouldn’t be happening! William sat on the bed and scooted back against the wall. He couldn’t say a word, he was so scared…

“No… please… please go away, please… this isn’t real, this isn’t real!” William whimpered, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He screamed as bodies of all his victims hung from the ceiling of his room. “I’m taking my meds! They make me better! I’m getting better! I shouldn’t be seeing you! You had operations and you’re recovering in your room! This is not real!” he clung to his sanity desperately.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Tiz came closer, stepping onto the bed. “You did this to me…These wounds will stay with me forever…just as your sins will stay with you…” Blood dripped onto the bed as he now hovered over William. “Why? You took everything from me! Why didn’t you just end me?!”

And just like that, he was gone. Like he never was standing before him. Yew had come back into the room to check up on William. He didn’t know something was wrong until he saw how terrified he was. “William? What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?” He came over and sat by him on the bed. He wasn’t sure how he should comfort him or if it was okay to touch him right now. He didn’t look so good.

“Do you want me to stay with you?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William squealed when Tiz got closer, dripping blood right onto his bed. He shook his head. “I’m so sorry… I don’t know… I don’t know why I did this… I’m not that person anymore…”

But then, Tiz just disappeared. And moments later Yew came into his room. William was still crying.

“Mhm, yeah… a nightmare.” he nodded, sniffing. He scooted a bit, closer to Yew as he sat down on his bed.

“But… I wasn’t asleep. I was seeing things… but I wasn’t asleep. Why? I’m taking my meds, this shouldn’t be happening. Am I… going crazy again? Will I turn back into The Groom?” his voice was trembling as he spoke.

“Tiz will never get better… he will never fully recover. It’s my fault. He will suffer forever. And I will too… maybe it’s a punishment for thinking that I could have a normal life… with you. I don’t deserve it. He won’t have a chance for a normal life anymore, so I shouldn’t have as well.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} It was going to take a while for him to go into remission it seemed. "William...it's okay. You're going to experience hallucinations every once in a while. You just barely started the medications. It may be a while before the hallucinations actually stop." The effects of the engine wouldn't just go away overnight or after two weeks. This was a long process they would have to go through.

"Don't worry, you aren't the only one having similar problems. It's not your fault. The engine did most of the damage." William's brain was all messed up because of those awful people.

"You had another nightmare about Tiz, didn't you?" These dreams and hallucinations must have terrified him so much for him to come to this conclusion. "William, Tiz is going to be fine. He's recovering nicely. The doctors think he'll be walking around after next week."

"And...even if he is suffering, that doesn't mean you should too. His suffering isn't yours."

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William thought that nightmares only existed in dreams, but there was one right in front of him now. What was this?! Was he hallucinating? He was on meds, this shouldn’t be happening! William sat on the bed and scooted back against the wall. He couldn’t say a word, he was so scared…

“No… please… please go away, please… this isn’t real, this isn’t real!” William whimpered, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He screamed as bodies of all his victims hung from the ceiling of his room. “I’m taking my meds! They make me better! I’m getting better! I shouldn’t be seeing you! You had operations and you’re recovering in your room! This is not real!” he clung to his sanity desperately.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Tiz came closer, stepping onto the bed. "You did this to me...These wounds will stay with me forever...just as your sins will stay with you..." Blood dripped onto the bed as he now hovered over William. "Why? You took everything from me! Why didn't you just end me?!"

And just like that, he was gone. Like he never was standing before him. Yew had come back into the room to check up on William. He didn't know something was wrong until he saw how terrified he was. "William? What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?" He came over and sat by him on the bed. He wasn't sure how he should comfort him or if it was okay to touch him right now. He didn't look so good.

"Do you want me to stay with you?"

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

It was amazing. It felt absolutely perfect. When Yew whispered into his ear, and wrapped his legs around him, William felt wanted. He felt accepted. Finally someone wanted to be close to him, someone trusted him and loved him. It was a dream come true. He slowly kissed Yew’s neck, rolling his hips gently at the same time. He wanted to give Yew a wonderful, sweet and intense orgasm.

Then Yew told him to come inside him.

For a split second, memories washed over his mind. They flashed through him, making him shudder. Yes… cum inside him… fill him up with his seed, make his belly swell with his baby…

No! No! Yew cannot get pregnant. William knew that. Yes, he understood that. No matter what he tried, this was impossible, and only resulted in pain…

Tiz…

William hurt him, ruined him.

He never wanted to do that to Yew. No… he loved him so much, he loved him more than he cared for his own delusions. Because they were delusions, and he knew that now.

These thoughts disappeared as fast as they came. William shook out of it, and was once again here and now, with Yew.

“I love you…” he whispered, kissing Yew deeply. His whole body trembled. With Yew’s legs around him, William could feel himself deeply inside his beloved. A few more thrusts and suddenly he felt a jolt of tingling electricity exploding in his stomach. He gasped, pressing his forehead against the pillow next to Yew’s head. It was so intense… Breathing heavily, he came inside Yew, releasing his seed in long bursts. “Oh God… oh yes…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew loved being kissed and held like this. It made him feel like he was truly being loved and cherished. He hoped that he made William feel the same, leaving behind soft kisses on his neck and jawline. “I love you so much. My only wish is that I can ease your pain…I’m here for you.”

It was such a slow pace, and yet he could feel this amazing pressure building up in his belly. His release wasn’t sudden or violent in any way. It was almost lazy, his release seemed to last and last as he gasped quietly into William’s ear. He held William tightly, whispering sweet words to him. “I love you, William. ”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

Yew’s words came to him, and they completely pulled him out of his delusional thoughts now. He was back to clarity of mind, as much as possible in such emotional state. He was back to here and now, focusing on Yew. 

And Yew’s words were so wonderful, and they were making him so happy. He knew that they were sincere too… he could feel it, feel this love… 

He held Yew close, moving inside him slowly still as they both reached their release. He smiled softly when Yew told him that he wants to ease his pain… that he’s here for him. William trusted this… he knew that Yew was on his side, and that he will help him get better. Finally he truly believed that he can change, and have normal life one day…

Shuddering, William felt that his body became overly sensitive. He rocked his hips in more lazy pace now, so slowly and gently. With Yew in his arms, he felt the happiest in the world. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}                If Yew ignored the fact that they were in a hospital for the mentally ill, he would say that this felt normal, healthy even. How William held him, cherished him, and loved him…it felt so genuine in that moment. Yew truly believed that he meant it, blissfully unaware of William’s earlier violent thoughts. 

It felt warm, with William moving inside of him still at a slow and lazy pace. Yew held him tight, humming softly against his ear. This man wasn’t to be feared…he was so soft now. He like a giant teddy. Soft, sensitive, and very needy. “I wish we could stay like this…but…” Yew didn’t want to get caught. He would get fired over something like this. And who knew if he would ever be able to visit William if he did get caught? “We need to get cleaned up.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“I know… but I want to hold you like this forever.” William mumbled. He was still in this blissful haze of his orgasm, and letting go of Yew now seemed almost impossible. He kissed his cheeks, and then started slowly kissing down his neck and chest. “I will clean you up…” he whispered. His now soft cock slipped out of Yew as William moved down his body, and started licking Yew’s sperm off his belly. “Mmm….”

He licked all over him, cleaning his skin with his tongue. He licked Yew’s flaccid cute cock too, cleaing it up.

But time was passing and William knew that Yew has to go soon, so eventually he sat up, and cleaned the rest with a little towel that he had in his room next to a tiny sink. “You’re good to go.” he smiled gently. “Hey… tonight was perfect. Thank you for trusting me.” he caressed Yew’s thigh lightly. “I want you to know that you can always trust me and I would never hurt you. Let’s agree… on like some secret word that will be just between us. Okay? Because you know… I’m sick. I’m fine now, but what if something happens, and I get worse? We should have a password of sorts, so that when we say it, you will be sure that no matter what, the William you are with now is always somewhere inside me, and always loves you.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}                “I know…but it’s too risky…” Doing this here in general was risky, but he would jump through hoops just to make sure William stayed happy and was healing. “Maybe if I can get permission to take you home, we can stay this way longer.” In order for him to do this, he would have to be on his best behavior and go on a few outings first. But it couldn’t be that hard.

Yew sighed softly, feeling the warmth of William’s kisses. “Of course I’d always trust you, silly. You haven’t given me a reason not to.” Why would he think that something might happen? He was perfectly fine now, and showed no signs of going off the deep end. “But…If it makes you feel secure, we can come up with a word together. Okay?”  He kissed William’s cheek before beginning to put his scrubs back on. “Do you think you’ll be able to be alone for a little while? At least until I check on the other patients?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

While Yew was getting dressed, William sat on his bed, still naked, but he was left speechless and wasn’t really able to get up and get dressed now. Take you home… that was what Yew said…? He would want to take him home? Away from the hospital, and to his… home…? Yew said it so casually, but for William those were such powerful words. He would absolutely love this, it would be the dream… But at the same time, he knew this probably won’t be allowed. After all that he has done, no one will possibly assess this as safe enough for Yew to take him home.

He sighed, then nodded. “Yeah, I think we should come up with a safe word. Let me know if you think of something.” he hummed. Of course he hated that Yew had to go, but he understood that he had his duties, and other patients to take care of. This was his job. Yew was such a good person… should William really poison this lovely, amazing person with his own damaged self?

“I will be alright. You have things to do, I understand. I think… I will try to go to sleep. It’s late, and… making love to you really got me spent.” he chuckled quietly. “Go, I will be fine.” he gave Yew a quick kiss before letting go of him. “I love you…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}               “Of course. I doubt we’ll ever have to use a safe word though.” Yew was so naive. Maybe it was wishful thinking or the hope that William would stay like this forever. But he had no idea what sort of thoughts had been running around in the groom’s head. If he had known, he might not have said anything about taking him home. It might have even scared him off. 

Yew stood on his toes to kiss William’s cheek. “You probably should get some rest. And who knows? Maybe when I come back to check on you, I can stay a while. I could also bring you a snack if you’d like. Don’t forget to call me if you need anything.”

“I love you too.” He pecked William’s lips before hurrying out into the hallway. There were a lot of patients to catch up on, and he wouldn’t be back for a while.   

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Okay… I will be fine, so do your job and don’t worry about me. After tonight… I know I will be alright.” William smiled warmly. He truly felt at ease, content and happy. All the bad thoughts that he might have had earlier were now once again pushed back and locked in the darkest corners of his mind. He was sure that he can control this, that he won’t give into them. He was sure that now, as he knew how real love feels, and how it is to be gentle with someone, and give them pleasure, he won’t ever again go back to being violent.

Once Yew left, William put on his pyjamas, and crawled onto his small hospital bed. He curled on his side, facing the wall, and closed his eyes. But he didn’t fall asleep right away, he had some many thoughts running around in his head.

Most of them were happy thoughts, about how he loved Yew, and how wonderful it felt to be with him tonight. These thoughts led to some other - about visiting Yew’s home in the future. William really wanted that! But he got a bit upset, because he knew this probably won’t happen. They won’t let him…

And he wished to… have a home one day. A real home. Will this ever be possible for him?

William fell asleep, with cheeks slightly damp with tears. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}               The sound of pained cries echoed in the distance, and mount massive stood as tall as ever. Once again, Tiz stood before him, big tears slipping down his cheeks as he cried and cried. Sliced right down the middle and covered in blood…just like before. 

“Was it worth it?” 

The question rings through the silence once more. “You finally got what you wanted. Was it worth it?” He held the gash on his belly and began to turn away, crying once again. He walked somberly toward the old run down asylum, his weeping and wailing could probably heard for miles.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

The dream again. As usual, Tiz was there, crying and all bloody, with his stomach slashed open. William looked at it, and it felt as if some stranger did it to Tiz, and not him. He couldn’t comprehend now why he would hurt Tiz like that. Back then… it made sense? There was a purpose to it…? But now, William couldn’t understand it anymore.

He shook his head.

“I’m so sorry… don’t… don’t go back there. Don’t go back there!” he tried to call for Tiz, tried to run towards him, but he couldn’t move.

William woke up with a scream, and sat up on the bed. He looked around. This wasn’t Mount Massive… no… he was no longer there. He was safe. Was Tiz safe? He didn’t know…will he ever recover?

Obviously William was an idiot for thinking he could ever go out of here, ever have a normal home… they won’t let him. Not after all that he had done…

He lied back down and cried softly, for Tiz, and for himself.

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}            “Why did you do this to me, William?” A voice sounded through the seemingly empty room. A figure stepped forward out of the darkness, blood dripped from him and onto the tile. 

“Why?” It was Tiz, covered in blood from head to toe, just like in the nightmares. He stepped forward, coming closer and closer to William’s bed and crying softly. His guts hung slightly out of his body from the gash that William had left behind. “You lied to me...said you cared...You didn’t care about me. You didn’t care about them either!” Blood dripped from the ceiling, the old bodies of his victims hung there. “I’m not dead...but you may as well have strung me up with the others...”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

It was amazing. It felt absolutely perfect. When Yew whispered into his ear, and wrapped his legs around him, William felt wanted. He felt accepted. Finally someone wanted to be close to him, someone trusted him and loved him. It was a dream come true. He slowly kissed Yew’s neck, rolling his hips gently at the same time. He wanted to give Yew a wonderful, sweet and intense orgasm.

Then Yew told him to come inside him.

For a split second, memories washed over his mind. They flashed through him, making him shudder. Yes… cum inside him… fill him up with his seed, make his belly swell with his baby…

No! No! Yew cannot get pregnant. William knew that. Yes, he understood that. No matter what he tried, this was impossible, and only resulted in pain…

Tiz…

William hurt him, ruined him.

He never wanted to do that to Yew. No… he loved him so much, he loved him more than he cared for his own delusions. Because they were delusions, and he knew that now.

These thoughts disappeared as fast as they came. William shook out of it, and was once again here and now, with Yew.

“I love you…” he whispered, kissing Yew deeply. His whole body trembled. With Yew’s legs around him, William could feel himself deeply inside his beloved. A few more thrusts and suddenly he felt a jolt of tingling electricity exploding in his stomach. He gasped, pressing his forehead against the pillow next to Yew’s head. It was so intense… Breathing heavily, he came inside Yew, releasing his seed in long bursts. “Oh God… oh yes…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew loved being kissed and held like this. It made him feel like he was truly being loved and cherished. He hoped that he made William feel the same, leaving behind soft kisses on his neck and jawline. “I love you so much. My only wish is that I can ease your pain…I’m here for you.”

It was such a slow pace, and yet he could feel this amazing pressure building up in his belly. His release wasn’t sudden or violent in any way. It was almost lazy, his release seemed to last and last as he gasped quietly into William’s ear. He held William tightly, whispering sweet words to him. “I love you, William. ”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

Yew’s words came to him, and they completely pulled him out of his delusional thoughts now. He was back to clarity of mind, as much as possible in such emotional state. He was back to here and now, focusing on Yew. 

And Yew’s words were so wonderful, and they were making him so happy. He knew that they were sincere too… he could feel it, feel this love… 

He held Yew close, moving inside him slowly still as they both reached their release. He smiled softly when Yew told him that he wants to ease his pain… that he’s here for him. William trusted this… he knew that Yew was on his side, and that he will help him get better. Finally he truly believed that he can change, and have normal life one day…

Shuddering, William felt that his body became overly sensitive. He rocked his hips in more lazy pace now, so slowly and gently. With Yew in his arms, he felt the happiest in the world. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}                If Yew ignored the fact that they were in a hospital for the mentally ill, he would say that this felt normal, healthy even. How William held him, cherished him, and loved him…it felt so genuine in that moment. Yew truly believed that he meant it, blissfully unaware of William’s earlier violent thoughts. 

It felt warm, with William moving inside of him still at a slow and lazy pace. Yew held him tight, humming softly against his ear. This man wasn’t to be feared…he was so soft now. He like a giant teddy. Soft, sensitive, and very needy. “I wish we could stay like this…but…” Yew didn’t want to get caught. He would get fired over something like this. And who knew if he would ever be able to visit William if he did get caught? “We need to get cleaned up.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“I know… but I want to hold you like this forever.” William mumbled. He was still in this blissful haze of his orgasm, and letting go of Yew now seemed almost impossible. He kissed his cheeks, and then started slowly kissing down his neck and chest. “I will clean you up…” he whispered. His now soft cock slipped out of Yew as William moved down his body, and started licking Yew’s sperm off his belly. “Mmm….”

He licked all over him, cleaning his skin with his tongue. He licked Yew’s flaccid cute cock too, cleaing it up.

But time was passing and William knew that Yew has to go soon, so eventually he sat up, and cleaned the rest with a little towel that he had in his room next to a tiny sink. “You’re good to go.” he smiled gently. “Hey… tonight was perfect. Thank you for trusting me.” he caressed Yew’s thigh lightly. “I want you to know that you can always trust me and I would never hurt you. Let’s agree… on like some secret word that will be just between us. Okay? Because you know… I’m sick. I’m fine now, but what if something happens, and I get worse? We should have a password of sorts, so that when we say it, you will be sure that no matter what, the William you are with now is always somewhere inside me, and always loves you.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}                “I know…but it’s too risky…” Doing this here in general was risky, but he would jump through hoops just to make sure William stayed happy and was healing. “Maybe if I can get permission to take you home, we can stay this way longer.” In order for him to do this, he would have to be on his best behavior and go on a few outings first. But it couldn’t be that hard.

Yew sighed softly, feeling the warmth of William’s kisses. “Of course I’d always trust you, silly. You haven’t given me a reason not to.” Why would he think that something might happen? He was perfectly fine now, and showed no signs of going off the deep end. “But…If it makes you feel secure, we can come up with a word together. Okay?”  He kissed William’s cheek before beginning to put his scrubs back on. “Do you think you’ll be able to be alone for a little while? At least until I check on the other patients?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

While Yew was getting dressed, William sat on his bed, still naked, but he was left speechless and wasn’t really able to get up and get dressed now. Take you home… that was what Yew said…? He would want to take him home? Away from the hospital, and to his… home…? Yew said it so casually, but for William those were such powerful words. He would absolutely love this, it would be the dream… But at the same time, he knew this probably won’t be allowed. After all that he has done, no one will possibly assess this as safe enough for Yew to take him home.

He sighed, then nodded. “Yeah, I think we should come up with a safe word. Let me know if you think of something.” he hummed. Of course he hated that Yew had to go, but he understood that he had his duties, and other patients to take care of. This was his job. Yew was such a good person… should William really poison this lovely, amazing person with his own damaged self?

“I will be alright. You have things to do, I understand. I think… I will try to go to sleep. It’s late, and… making love to you really got me spent.” he chuckled quietly. “Go, I will be fine.” he gave Yew a quick kiss before letting go of him. “I love you…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}               “Of course. I doubt we’ll ever have to use a safe word though.” Yew was so naive. Maybe it was wishful thinking or the hope that William would stay like this forever. But he had no idea what sort of thoughts had been running around in the groom’s head. If he had known, he might not have said anything about taking him home. It might have even scared him off. 

Yew stood on his toes to kiss William’s cheek. “You probably should get some rest. And who knows? Maybe when I come back to check on you, I can stay a while. I could also bring you a snack if you’d like. Don’t forget to call me if you need anything.”

“I love you too.” He pecked William’s lips before hurrying out into the hallway. There were a lot of patients to catch up on, and he wouldn’t be back for a while.   

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“Okay… I will be fine, so do your job and don’t worry about me. After tonight… I know I will be alright.” William smiled warmly. He truly felt at ease, content and happy. All the bad thoughts that he might have had earlier were now once again pushed back and locked in the darkest corners of his mind. He was sure that he can control this, that he won’t give into them. He was sure that now, as he knew how real love feels, and how it is to be gentle with someone, and give them pleasure, he won’t ever again go back to being violent.

Once Yew left, William put on his pyjamas, and crawled onto his small hospital bed. He curled on his side, facing the wall, and closed his eyes. But he didn’t fall asleep right away, he had some many thoughts running around in his head.

Most of them were happy thoughts, about how he loved Yew, and how wonderful it felt to be with him tonight. These thoughts led to some other - about visiting Yew’s home in the future. William really wanted that! But he got a bit upset, because he knew this probably won’t happen. They won’t let him…

And he wished to… have a home one day. A real home. Will this ever be possible for him?

William fell asleep, with cheeks slightly damp with tears. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}               The sound of pained cries echoed in the distance, and mount massive stood as tall as ever. Once again, Tiz stood before him, big tears slipping down his cheeks as he cried and cried. Sliced right down the middle and covered in blood...just like before. 

“Was it worth it?” 

The question rings through the silence once more. “You finally got what you wanted. Was it worth it?” He held the gash on his belly and began to turn away, crying once again. He walked somberly toward the old run down asylum, his weeping and wailing could probably heard for miles.

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

William’s eyes filled with tears of relief. Yew wasn’t upset with him. It made William very happy. “It’s alright, I understand. I will try to be better.” he promised. He really cared for Yew and wanted them to be close. He never meant to hurt him in any way, neither physical or emotional, and he was very serious about that. He wanted to protect Yew, even from himself.

When Yew crawled into the bed with him, William scooted over to make some space for him, and pulled the covers over them both. He hugged the nurse back, holding him in a gentle embrace. His face nuzzled into Yew’s hair, he closed his eyes and inhaled his scent. It was soothing and relaxing. “I do want to be gentle with you. Never want to hurt you. I want to protect you, and give you affection.” William murmured softly. “I like this feeling… being with you makes me feel good and safe. And I want to make you feel the same.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

It was amazing. It felt absolutely perfect. When Yew whispered into his ear, and wrapped his legs around him, William felt wanted. He felt accepted. Finally someone wanted to be close to him, someone trusted him and loved him. It was a dream come true. He slowly kissed Yew’s neck, rolling his hips gently at the same time. He wanted to give Yew a wonderful, sweet and intense orgasm.

Then Yew told him to come inside him.

For a split second, memories washed over his mind. They flashed through him, making him shudder. Yes… cum inside him… fill him up with his seed, make his belly swell with his baby…

No! No! Yew cannot get pregnant. William knew that. Yes, he understood that. No matter what he tried, this was impossible, and only resulted in pain…

Tiz…

William hurt him, ruined him.

He never wanted to do that to Yew. No… he loved him so much, he loved him more than he cared for his own delusions. Because they were delusions, and he knew that now.

These thoughts disappeared as fast as they came. William shook out of it, and was once again here and now, with Yew.

“I love you…” he whispered, kissing Yew deeply. His whole body trembled. With Yew’s legs around him, William could feel himself deeply inside his beloved. A few more thrusts and suddenly he felt a jolt of tingling electricity exploding in his stomach. He gasped, pressing his forehead against the pillow next to Yew’s head. It was so intense… Breathing heavily, he came inside Yew, releasing his seed in long bursts. “Oh God… oh yes…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣} Yew loved being kissed and held like this. It made him feel like he was truly being loved and cherished. He hoped that he made William feel the same, leaving behind soft kisses on his neck and jawline. “I love you so much. My only wish is that I can ease your pain…I’m here for you.”

It was such a slow pace, and yet he could feel this amazing pressure building up in his belly. His release wasn’t sudden or violent in any way. It was almost lazy, his release seemed to last and last as he gasped quietly into William’s ear. He held William tightly, whispering sweet words to him. “I love you, William. ”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

Yew’s words came to him, and they completely pulled him out of his delusional thoughts now. He was back to clarity of mind, as much as possible in such emotional state. He was back to here and now, focusing on Yew. 

And Yew’s words were so wonderful, and they were making him so happy. He knew that they were sincere too… he could feel it, feel this love… 

He held Yew close, moving inside him slowly still as they both reached their release. He smiled softly when Yew told him that he wants to ease his pain… that he’s here for him. William trusted this… he knew that Yew was on his side, and that he will help him get better. Finally he truly believed that he can change, and have normal life one day…

Shuddering, William felt that his body became overly sensitive. He rocked his hips in more lazy pace now, so slowly and gently. With Yew in his arms, he felt the happiest in the world. 

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}                If Yew ignored the fact that they were in a hospital for the mentally ill, he would say that this felt normal, healthy even. How William held him, cherished him, and loved him…it felt so genuine in that moment. Yew truly believed that he meant it, blissfully unaware of William’s earlier violent thoughts. 

It felt warm, with William moving inside of him still at a slow and lazy pace. Yew held him tight, humming softly against his ear. This man wasn’t to be feared…he was so soft now. He like a giant teddy. Soft, sensitive, and very needy. “I wish we could stay like this…but…” Yew didn’t want to get caught. He would get fired over something like this. And who knew if he would ever be able to visit William if he did get caught? “We need to get cleaned up.” 

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

“I know… but I want to hold you like this forever.” William mumbled. He was still in this blissful haze of his orgasm, and letting go of Yew now seemed almost impossible. He kissed his cheeks, and then started slowly kissing down his neck and chest. “I will clean you up…” he whispered. His now soft cock slipped out of Yew as William moved down his body, and started licking Yew’s sperm off his belly. “Mmm….”

He licked all over him, cleaning his skin with his tongue. He licked Yew’s flaccid cute cock too, cleaing it up.

But time was passing and William knew that Yew has to go soon, so eventually he sat up, and cleaned the rest with a little towel that he had in his room next to a tiny sink. “You’re good to go.” he smiled gently. “Hey… tonight was perfect. Thank you for trusting me.” he caressed Yew’s thigh lightly. “I want you to know that you can always trust me and I would never hurt you. Let’s agree… on like some secret word that will be just between us. Okay? Because you know… I’m sick. I’m fine now, but what if something happens, and I get worse? We should have a password of sorts, so that when we say it, you will be sure that no matter what, the William you are with now is always somewhere inside me, and always loves you.”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}                “I know…but it’s too risky…” Doing this here in general was risky, but he would jump through hoops just to make sure William stayed happy and was healing. “Maybe if I can get permission to take you home, we can stay this way longer.” In order for him to do this, he would have to be on his best behavior and go on a few outings first. But it couldn’t be that hard.

Yew sighed softly, feeling the warmth of William’s kisses. “Of course I’d always trust you, silly. You haven’t given me a reason not to.” Why would he think that something might happen? He was perfectly fine now, and showed no signs of going off the deep end. “But…If it makes you feel secure, we can come up with a word together. Okay?”  He kissed William’s cheek before beginning to put his scrubs back on. “Do you think you’ll be able to be alone for a little while? At least until I check on the other patients?”

[william-t-sickofyourshit]

While Yew was getting dressed, William sat on his bed, still naked, but he was left speechless and wasn’t really able to get up and get dressed now. Take you home… that was what Yew said…? He would want to take him home? Away from the hospital, and to his… home…? Yew said it so casually, but for William those were such powerful words. He would absolutely love this, it would be the dream… But at the same time, he knew this probably won’t be allowed. After all that he has done, no one will possibly assess this as safe enough for Yew to take him home.

He sighed, then nodded. “Yeah, I think we should come up with a safe word. Let me know if you think of something.” he hummed. Of course he hated that Yew had to go, but he understood that he had his duties, and other patients to take care of. This was his job. Yew was such a good person… should William really poison this lovely, amazing person with his own damaged self?

“I will be alright. You have things to do, I understand. I think… I will try to go to sleep. It’s late, and… making love to you really got me spent.” he chuckled quietly. “Go, I will be fine.” he gave Yew a quick kiss before letting go of him. “I love you…”

[sleepyxshepherd]

{☣️}               “Of course. I doubt we’ll ever have to use a safe word though.” Yew was so naive. Maybe it was wishful thinking or the hope that William would stay like this forever. But he had no idea what sort of thoughts had been running around in the groom’s head. If he had known, he might not have said anything about taking him home. It might have even scared him off. 

Yew stood on his toes to kiss William’s cheek. “You probably should get some rest. And who knows? Maybe when I come back to check on you, I can stay a while. I could also bring you a snack if you’d like. Don’t forget to call me if you need anything.”

“I love you too.” He pecked William’s lips before hurrying out into the hallway. There were a lot of patients to catch up on, and he wouldn’t be back for a while.