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[slippingthrewthecracks-blog]

Three am thoughts

Wanting to go out and do things at 3 am then when the sun comes out I don’t wanna leave my room

[st-a-y]

[booksandcows]

[x-impulsive-x-deactivated202012]

[bitchycode]

Name a more iconic duo than my fear of abandonment and instinct to self isolate, I’ll wait

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[itsbpdmydarlings-deactivated202]

No one really talks about the discomfort of bpd.

What feels like a... swollen throat because I can’t open up even though I want too, as well as wanting to cry all the time, but I will never allow myself to do so in front of others.

What feels like a... constantly itchy heart and brain, very psychologically irritable. Intrusive thoughts that I cannot control, the feeling of sadness applies intense pressure on my chest and messes up my thought process so bad that I can’t decipher between reality and fantasy.

What feels like a... numb stomach but even to touch is very sensitive. I feel like I could vomit everything up JUST by thinking about my past. I get butterflies from my own thoughts, but not nice, exciting butterflies- more like 1000 moths being let loose in a fabric shop, ‘infesting and tearing’ feelings.

What feels like a... 10kg weight beneath my eyes, look similar to 2 blue mussel shells on my face. You see, I’m not sleeping or hydrating nearly enough as what I should be but I guess that’s what happens when you have no self-love.

[thepersonalquotes]

[8rujaa]

[slippingthrewthecracks-blog]

You ever have a dream about someone in your life that was so good to you and you loved them but you never really knew how much they did for you in life till after they are gone and it’s to late. Well tonight I had a dream about the only teacher I ever had in school that cared if I learned anything and in my dream she saved me from one of the worst things that ever happened to me in life and I just wish she was still here she became family and still to this day she visits me in dreams and makes me feel better. I just hope she knows she was so much more then a teacher she was family.

[slippingthrewthecracks-blog]

Tell me things about you you wouldn’t tell anyone els

Go anon tell me anything

[knowing]

[foreverscarredteen]

i don’t think there’s a worse feeling than not knowing how you’re feeling

[thepartsyoullneversee]

Too weak to live...too weak to end it

[foreverscarredteen]

being depressed is my only personality trait at this point, i literally say the most depressing shit all the time & nobody even thinks twice about it anymore...they don’t care, they never did & they never will.

[emptyshadesofblue]

why am i so hard to love?

[thepartsyoullneversee]

Me: *Goes outside for 1 hour*

Also me: *spends the next 15 days isolated in bed recovering*