Can you write an image in which Benedict is obsessed with Y/N and is always looking for reasons to touch her. However, Y/N knows that when it comes to women, Benedict quickly gets what he wants... sex. She keeps him waiting and doesnât sleep with him until the wedding day.
Obsessed with you | I
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Pairing: Benedict bridgerton x afab!reader
Synopsis: Ton's most eligible bachelor is obsessed with the mystery lady in silver, and would do anything to have her
Warning: Reader's mother has issues, scandalous family, last name Rose for convience, Benedict being a smug bastard, some regency class differences, cute Polin, cute kathony, minor non-con touching, smoking cigar, lots of teasing and ofcourse obsessive and possession behaviour. Might be toxic! Benedict but please he's a cutie.
Dearest gentle readers,
While for sure we have seen former Rake now Kate's beloved whipped husband, and Colin bridgerton who is so smitten with his dearest wife that it will not come forward a surprise if he hasn't set foot out in all these days, but Benedict bridgerton is neither whipped nor smitten, he is, as the poets would whisper, obsessed. It will be amusing to know who this mystery lady is, with her dazzling silver gown and piercing eyes, sharp enough as she carved the gentleman's heart out.
Benedict was a man for art and muse so forgive him if he got so obsessed with you, the real question was, how could he not ? You were the most gorgeous woman he had ever seen, clad in your most dazzling blue dress that he wanted nothing but to take off.
" She exaggerates." Anthony pouted, he shouldn't know that he had but he's been pouting a lot lately, it's called 'kateffect'
" No, you've been domesticated brother, just admit it, Kate has tamed you." Colin peppered, sprawling down next to Anthony who greeted him with the most glaring glare.
" Like you're any better." Anthony smirked, setting his gaze on Benedict who read the index again.
" Penelope doesn't know her name ? " Benedict worried his jaw, looking between his brothers.
" I take that back, Penelope didn't exaggerate, you're really very much obsessed." Anthony remarked, Colin nodded.
" Oi, she would've known your mystery lady's full name and history butâ"
" Don't complete that, I'll duel you."
" In the middle of a ball ? " Benedict laughed, eyes amused, Colin turned a crimson red.
" Rather temptingâ"
" Oi! " Anthony raised his brow, his mouth curving in disdain, as Colin staggered away, leaving Anthony praying to lord behind like he was any better.
" Oh dear." Benedict smiled when once alone, thumb caressing the index, as if it was the mystery lady in silver blue gown, accused of taking away the gentleman's heart.
" Who are you ? " He whispered.
_
" Ma'am, would you like something else ? " Mrs. Turner asked once you were seated on your dressing, playing with several glassy bottles with colourful scenty substances.
" In yesterday's masquerade ball, I was dancing with a Bridgertonâ" Mrs. Turner tutted softly," He's Benedict bridgerton, i assume."
" Yes, indeed, the only bachelor bridgerton boy of age." Mrs. Turner pulled the corset strings and you gasped, feeling your internals squeeze in the process.
You smiled, thinking about the way Benedict looked at you, all stars in his eyes.
" I..it is not my place miss but as your well wisher, i would say.." she worried her jaw.
" It's okay Mrs. Turner, you should speak your mind." You assured her, feeling her fingers stop at your back as she looked at your reflection in the mirror.
" Benedict bridgerton's a rake, unlike any other gentleman... he's known to engage women with class and wits...artists, musicians, and other dimplomacy that are odd amongst our sex."
" Oh." You nodded, feeling stupid enough to think those were meant for you, like they were of real affection.
" I wouldn't want you any harm, after your father's death and your inheritance affairs, you couldn't afford another scandal, for a good matchâ"
" My virtue should stay intact ? " You raised your chin, examining the stain of rose on your lips.
" Your sister was a good girl madam, so are you." Mrs. Turner smiled, her eyes crinkling with deepest concerns.
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Benedict's eyes were searching for you everywhere, he has been waiting for you since so long. Despite anxious mamas forcing introductions and dances, he was looking only for you.
" Miss Rose." Benedict turned to see his sister in law, smiling a smirk, followed by her husband in tow.
" You wound me Pen, it's Benedict bridgerton! " He laughed, much to Colin's dismay.
" Oh well your mystery lady is Miss Rose, daughter of late Duke of Blair field and lady bloom." Colin was one step away from clapping.
" Wow." Benedict's mouth curved in a delightful 'o'.
" Oh well they are rather scandalous, her sister was rumoured to be not a virgin which deceased all of her prospects of marriages, her mother is rather protective of her."
" Pen, did I tell you how you're my favourite sister ? " Benedict perked his gaze towards the entrance, hoping for you to bless him.
" Don't let Eloise hear that." Colin said, outstretching his arm that Penelope held as they swirled between the crowd, laughing.
_
" You shall not be unchaperoned." Your mother had a faraway look in her eyes, her hand was trembling and you surged the desire to just hold it.
" I understand, mama." You bowed your head once, trying to forget the trembling of her hands.
" Don't engage in gossips dearest, better keep to yourself and..." She forgot what she was saying, her lips trembling along, you looked at Mrs. Turner with a pleading gaze.
" Ma'am, we must make haste." She simply said, your mother spared a glance to you, her mouth tightening around the corners.
" You look beautiful child." She looked away, you pretended not to see the tear that glistented down her cheek.
After securing yourself in the carriage, with your dress squeezing the life out you, you finally breathed.
" I envy Gissele." You said softly, caressing the uneven glittering fake diamonds.
" She would say the same." Mary mumbled, she was Mrs. Turner's daughter who rather got scolded every often for being too blunt. You liked her alot.
" Oh wouldn't it be so wonderful to just lay in bed, reading a book and wearing simple soft dresses." You perked up at the idea of a life like that, a simple homely cottage, filled with warmth and sweetness and books.
" But the society has it's own fun, look at you, pretty dresses, pretty shoes, and all those prince charming lords." Mary took your fan and mimicked the motion, you smiled.
" Well you could always borrow a dress, have some fun." Your eyes glinted, Mary shaked her head.
" C'mon." You grabbed her wrist, shaking them, up and down profusely.
" No, mama will kill me ! "
" But the fun ?! No one would know, they haven't seen me, they don't know me."
" Well i can't pretend to be you, what would happen if somebody caught us."
" Don't then, be yourself ! Mary Turner."
" Sounds like a bad idea." Mary said, her smile deceived her.
" Lord Turner of Riverdales, be their relative, no one hardly pays attention."
" Whistledown does." Mary narrowed her eyes, you looked out to make sure you haven't yet reached.
" Well she called me a mystery woman who apparantly took a gentleman's heart."
" Oh Mr. Bridgerton's a known gentleman." You scoffed at that, Mary's brow knitted together as she studied you.
" What ? He's a rake." You brushed the tingling away, feeling the way Benedict's gaze lingered on you, the way he twirled you around like you were the only real thing, the way he flushed and stumbled through his words, attempting to know absolutely anything about you.
" I highly doubt that, never heard anything about him."
" Presumably he has a longing for accomplised women." You finger quoted it with a scowl that was too unladylike, Mary bursted into fits of giggles.
" What ? " You poked her, she shaked with her guffaw, chortling in her way.
" You fancy him." She said, chuckling the ' him' away, you frowned deeply, heart leaping at the ton that was gathered outside lady Danbury's exquisite ball.
" Utter rubbish. Do you still want to have fun ? " You asked, Mary smiled.
_
Benedict gaze perked up when you and Mary stumbled through the ball, Mary was almost shaking and you were sure her clothes didn't fit much to you, you felt your back prickling with burning gaze and you turned.
" Told you he's a rake. Don't be friendly to him." You whispered to Mary who was about to run when Benedict dropped his conversation with lord White, swaggering towards you.
" What if he recognises you ? " She mumbled and your lower lip trembled, but that's not possible, your mask obscured your whole face except your lips and eyes and certainly he hadn't painted you in his mind, afterall he shouldn't be that obsessed.
" My lady." He bowed, his gaze locking in yours as he kissed the hand Mary very reluctantly gave him, he was amused when Mary mumbled a hasty greeting, her manners mimicked.
" You look exquisite, more than the ball itself." He was clearly flattered when Mary blinked hard, looking at you for help.
You rolled your eyes when Benedict too, looked at you with a similar pleading as Mary.
" Forgive me my lord, my lady is tiredâ"
" We haven't been introduced i remember, Benedict bridgerton." He grinned, he actually freaking grinned as Mary glanced at you with the corner of her eye.
" Lady Mariam Turner." She blurted it quickly, looking at you for approval, " A pleasure." Mary smiled, you nodded.
" Forgive me Mr. Bridgerton." You cleared your throat, Benedict's gaze penetrated through you, he was setting you on fire and you couldn't do anything but to burn.
" My lady is tired, you must excuse us." You felt your throat dry, your whole body withering when Benedict narrowed his eyes, lingering specifically on your lips and treading down slowly.
" Indeed, I must not keep you." He cocked his head to Mary, humming along as you strode past him. You were sure he only whispered the ' not ' out of curtsy.
_
" That was bloody brilliant ! " You giggled while Mary shaked her head, clutching her bossom. Your footsteps echoing in the abandoned corridor, stiffling back your giggles.
" That was bloody scary and I can't breathe." Mary heaved, her breath easing when you patted her back.
" Lady Mariam Turner." You teased, bumping your hip as Mary looked at you, gasping scandalously.
" Shut up. I almost died." Mary pulled her dress that sticked to her skin, trying to fan in some air.
" Do you think he recognised me ? " Your cheeks blazed at the heat of the memory of him, his teasing glances and amused smiles.
" I...I think it was rather amusing that we were messing up, did you see how I trembled? " Mary shaked her hand, as you laughed at the display.
" No, my lady." You said, once your giggles subsided, " You were exquisite."
Mary wacked your arm, her smile unable to hide through the twitch of her lips.
" So, shall we go home ? "
" Would you mind waiting in the carriage ? "
" Don't tell meâ" Mary glared, you pouted with puppy eyes.
" Please, you know it's my only way."
" Smoking is bad." Mary declared, " and for men." She added grimly, you nodded along, grabbing her wrist.
" Please, please, please."
" Only if you give back my clothes, i miss them." She touched the soft cotton of her clothes that you were wearing, you perked up eagerly.
_
You took joy at the puffs of smoke that ridiculed the air, the night chill freezing it into clouds of silvery mist.
Mary was dozing off in the carriage until it was time to go home, so early arrival doesn't raise any questions and your mother fast asleep, her trembling lipped questions saved for the next day.
" I thought your lady was tired." You almost dropped your cigar, jumping up the swing as it creaked at sudden outburst.
" Don't drop it, i don't have any with me." His smile was too big and smug for his face, his nonchalance dripped as he took the swing opposite of you. You stared, for some reason cigar still burning in intricate yellow blazing circles, dropping to ashes.
" Forgive me my lordâ" you just remembered you were no longer in Mary's clothes.
" That's the only line you grasped so far ? " Benedict leaned on his swing, catching your wrist as he dragged you to sit.
You sat down with a thud, swing jiggling with your weight as you processed his smile.
" I..." You stammered, flushing in heat as he inhaled you in, you were back in your clothes, the one you were supposed to wear. And Mary was right, you couldn't breathe.
" I would say you look beautiful, in everything, in anything..orâ" in nothing.
" I should leave." You throat itched.
" Stay." He was soft, almost a whine, a plead.
" Please don't tell anyone." You tried your best persuading smile, it worked on Gissele all the time, your lips pouting and eyes shining with stars.
Benedict's mouth curved in a smile, he clicked his tongue as he attempted to speak but he found he couldn't. A pause, thenâ
" You love tormenting me, don't you ? " Benedict took the burning cigar from you, locking your eyes with his own as he brought it to his mouth, a sound escaped him as his lips curved around the warmness that belonged to you, he inhaled deeply.
" I don't know what you're talking about." You tore away you eyes from the erotic display of smoking, he hummed in a dry scoff.
" Ofcourse, you wouldn't." He offered the Cigar back, every word coated with sarcasm.
The breeze was so cold that you shivered, moon hanging low in the night sky and every star stared back, Sirius, Rigel, and all of them.
" I never meant to offend you." You took the cigar back, his fingers brushed, a electrifying wave rippling inside you, like the way he held your hand and danced with you in the masquerade ball.
You noticed his flexing but said nothing, heart beating too fast to be sane and alive.
" Miss Roseâ" you gasped, how could he know your name, "âhave you ever been kissed ? "
" I...Benedict..lord." you clamped your mouth shut, lips suddenly struck by a bolt as they buzzed.
He leaned as you felt your back touching the rope of swing, his face too close... would he kiss you ? Would it be as electrifying as the rest of his touches ? Would you survive it or simply burn like a pheonix ?
" It's okay, we would alot when we get married. " He took away the cigar and dropped it as it was so close to burn your skin, smiling all the while. Was that a proposal ?
" Go home, it's getting cold, Mrs-yet-to-be bridgerton." And he pressed his lips against your forehead, his smile caressing your heart.
i think that all the people who argue about gender by saying "the woke left cant even define a woman" need to get hit with the "who are you" question by a buddhist monk. no, thats your name, who are you. no thats your profession, who are YOU. no you fucking idiot thats your species, who are YOUU. dumb bitch u cant even define yourself
in which harry and y/n are counselors at a sleepaway camp and he hates her from the very second he meets her. or, a classic enemies to lovers summer romance.
word count: 9.2k
content warnings: harry's a dick at first, minor mentions of childhood trauma and divorce, small panic attack scene, tiny mention of drowning, not proofread bc im lazy
so basically I started writing this a bit ago and planned for it to be a full series but then things got ... complicated and I haven't really had much motivation to write for harry. there won't be a part two to this but I think I wrapped it up pretty okay so there isn't a cliffhanger or anything!
I'm not sure if this will be the last fic I write on here but if it is, consider it a parting gift! thank you for all the support and love and I hope you enjoy!
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Harry Styles is the bane of Y/Nâs existence.
âŠOkay, so maybe sheâs being just a tad bit dramatic. But she has good reasoning for it â she swears! All she wanted to do was make some money this summer by working at Happy Campers, a sleepaway camp that was looking for counselors to work from early June to mid-August.
Sheâd initially seen the flier as she shlepped her canvases and painting supplies from the sculpture studio to the art building on the other side of campus (why it was designed that way, sheâll never know â she thinks whichever builder or contractor did it had some sort of vendetta against art students). In a big, bold black font casted against a bright, borderline neon yellow background (seriously, it kind of hurt her eyes, actually), were the answers to her summer plans: COUNSELORS NEEDED FOR HAPPY CAMPERS SLEEPAWAY CAMP! EXPERIENCE WITH KIDS IS A MUST. $15/HOUR FROM JUNE TO AUGUST.Â
And yeah, maybe the only âexperienceâ she had with children was babysitting her neighborâs daughter when she was in high school, but that was apparently enough for Happy Campers. Because within two days of her interviewing with the owner, a sweet, older woman named Linda whoâs been running the place for the past 30 years, she received word that sheâd been hired.Â
From the end of the semester to the beginning of camp, she had about three weeks to learn everything she could about being a solid counselor. She assumed the basics â no cursing, keep an eye on them at all times, try her best not to lose her cool if one of them was particularly bratty â but did some research on the rest.
She wasnât sure what age group sheâd be assigned to, but Linda told her sheâd find that information out at training â a three day-long educational overhaul where the counselors were the only ones at camp, learning about everything from lifeguarding to CPR to mental health awareness.
Happy Campers was located only about an hour and a half from her college apartment so it made more sense for her to depart from there instead of her hometown. On the drive up in her shitty Honda Accord (a navy 2008 model she affectionately named Edith), she tried her best to calm her nerves. She thought it was silly for her to be so anxious over surrounding herself with kids all summer, and a small part of her hoped she would get assigned to an older group â 5th or 6th grades would be ideal since they were sufficient enough not to be too clingy.
As the small university city slowly melted away, tall buildings and chain restaurants were replaced by sturdy oak trees and an abundance of greenery. When her drive had officially shimmied down to just 20 minutes left, she rolled down her window and lowered her music, allowing herself to inhale the fresh air. Even at her 45 mile per hour speed (5 below the speed limit, just in case some ticket-happy police cars were hiding out somewhere), she found a spark of hope in the clean, crispy air that infiltrated the interior of her car.Â
Maybe this summer was exactly what she needed.
Perhaps the warm, summer air got to Y/Nâs head a bit too much.Â
The second she pulls into the faculty lot at Happy Campers, sheâs inundated with people everywhere. Some are hugging excitedly, greeting one another after what she assumes has been a year away, while others are pulling their hefty duffles from their trunks and throwing them in heaps on the ground. She nibbles on her bottom lip as she tries to find a parking space to pull into, her eyes twinkling some as she spots one. She flicks her right blinker on, prepared to make the turn when an older, much shitter car than hers pulls through.Â
Her jaw immediately drops. Was this a joke? Some kind of first-time counselor hazing thing? Instantly, she rolls her window down and tries to get the driverâs attention, but from what she can see, heâs already busied himself with getting his things together and getting out of his car.
âHey! Excuse me!â she calls out, waving her hands at him. When he slams his door shut and ambles in the direction of his trunk, a backpack slung on his right shoulder, she yells out louder this time, grabbing the attention of innocent bystanders. This time, she catches his attention and he furrows his eyebrows, shuffling over to Y/Nâs car.Â
âYeah?â he asks, almost as if he hasnât even realized that he completely cut her off.Â
âThat was my spot,â she says, pointing to where his car now resides. If she had to guess, itâs from the early 2000s â 2004 at best, she thinks. âAnd you took it.â
The curly haired brunette quickly turns to look at his car before whipping back around, âWas it reserved for you?â
âNo, but I had my signal on and I was about to turn inââ
âThen it wasnât your spot.â he replies, tightening his grasp around his backpack.Â
âI had my signal onââ
âYes, I heard you the first time.â he huffs, his tone bored. Y/Nâs eyebrows raise at his blase demeanor. âThereâs another parking lot. Youâll be fine.â
Before she has a chance to fight back, he turns on his heel to head back to his car. She watches angrily as he pulls his suitcase out with minimal effort despite the fact that it looks like itâs stuffed to the brim. When he notices her still looking at him, he shoots her an angry glare, as if to say, can I help you?
Y/N breathes out angrily through her nose as she rolls her window back up. What a dick!
Harry tries his best not to be an asshole.Â
Really, he does! He thinks he does a decent job of walking around campus and attending his classes without being a complete and utter grump (although his friends do tease him about the scowl that manages to wiggle its way onto his face sometimes). Heâs gotten better at participating in lecture-wide discussions without accidentally calling the previous person a stupid prick (the guy who received that one actually deserved it, after he claimed that feminism was a liberal farce in one of his gender studies classes).Â
However⊠the one thing that triggers that crabby, ill-tempered part of him more than anything else in the world is Happy Campers.Â
Itâs not because he hates the place or anything of the sort. His parents didnât send him away when he was 7, making him spend his summers in nature year after year while he yearned for the bustling city heâd been born in. It was actually the complete opposite. Heâd had to beg his mum the first year he saw the posting for it in the halls of his elementary school, immediately thrilled by the promises on the yellow paper: Boating! Swimming! Archery! Campfires! Harry couldnât think of a better way to spend the next two and a half months of his life!
At first, his parents assumed heâd let it go after a day or two. Heâd never spent a weekend away from them, let alone an entire summer. And while his mum wasnât proud of it, she knew her son lived in the shadow of his older sister. More likely than not, sheâd just end up enrolling them both in the same soccer day camp like she did last summer, and the one before that.Â
Much to their surprise, though, Harry wouldnât let up about Happy Campers. Every morning when he woke up, he asked if they had made a decision yet. When he got home from school that afternoon, he brought up the exciting activities they offered, listing off fun facts heâd Googled in the computer room about the benefits of being in nature. So when May finally tottled around and Harry was still talking about this magical sleepaway camp, they realized they had no choice but to get him a spot.
His first summer there was more fun than he ever could have imagined. He met kids his age from all over the country, spent his days learning new skills and swimming in the lake, and ended the evening with spooky stories and sâmores around a fire. Soon, a pattern began: His parents would all but drag him home at the end of the summer, heâd go to school for the year, and then begin counting down the days until the next session began. For years, Happy Campers was the only place Harry wanted to be.
When he eventually aged out of being a camper, Linda approached him about coming back as a counselor next year. He was 14 at the time and completely ecstatic â really, he couldnât have said yes quicker, especially since things at home were getting tougher.Â
His parents were in the middle of an ugly separation, his sister was older and wanting nothing to do with him, and everything about school was confusing. From social status to crushes and grades, he wanted nothing more than to hide away at Happy Campers for as long as humanly possible. For each of his teenage years, he returned as a counselor, eager to forget about his home life and go back to the only things that made sense to him: Swimming in the lake, spending lengthy, sweaty days in the sun, and making sure these kids had unforgettable summers.Â
When he was at camp, nothing else mattered. He escaped from breakups, family fights, bad grades, and hard life decisions, using the site as a crutch to get through to the other side.Â
So itâs possible that heâs a bit⊠protective of his final year at Happy Campers.Â
After this summer, heâll only have one semester left as a student in his universityâs political science department. From there, he already has a job lined up at a politicianâs office in their communication sector. But it also means that heâll be working full-time, ergo⊠no more Happy Campers.
This place is his second home. He knows itâll be difficult saying goodbye to it, but dammit if heâs not determined to have an incredible last few months as a counselor â yeah, maybe heâs a bit careless when it comes to acknowledging the newbies, who seem helpless, clueless, and all-around confused. But heâs not there for them. Heâs here for himself, and the kids.
So, fuck the weak little new girl who couldnât even snag her own parking spot in the faculty lot. Sheâll probably be heading home before the first month anyway.
âHello counselors, and welcome to Happy Campers!â
Harry has to admit that even in her old age, Linda still has the same jolly, feel-good attitude she did the first summer he attended.Â
And while he loves her â truly, he does, and he even called her up when he found out this year would be his last â he canât help but slowly start to zone out as she launches into her annual speech about being a welcoming, safe, and (you guessed it) happy counselor.Â
Harryâs been certified and trained for just about every safety precaution imaginable.Â
Campfire safety tips? Yup.
Sun and heat protection? Obviously. (And he knows what to do in the event of sunburns â because thereâs always a few â and, in the rare case, sun poisoning.)
Fire safety? Duh.
Lifeguarding? Heâs been trained since he was 15 and does weekly laps at his schoolâs indoor pool.
Emergency procedures, food service, behavior management techniques, appropriate camper and staff behavior, and Happy Camper-specific regulations for supervision? God, he could recite them in all his sleep.
He can feel the mood of the room gradually begin to slump as Linda continues droning on about the importance of memorizing the handbook. Really, all anyone cares about right now is receiving their camper assignments. Itâs the one mystery Linda tries to keep until the first day of training. Supposedly, placements are done at random, but Harryâs received his favorite group every year: 5th grade boys. Theyâre competent enough to take care of themselves (that means they know how to shower, go to the bathroom, and change their clothes without Harryâs assistance), but theyâre a ton of fun, too. Itâs the perfect age so he knows itâs a given that Linda assigned him to the same age as usual, especially since itâs his last time.Â
The room noticeably perks up when Linda announces that sheâll be unveiling assignments before they break for lunch. He can feel the nerves radiating off of most of the counselors â he would be anxious, too, if he didnât know who he was spending his summer with. He canât think of a worse fate than being lumped in with a newbie or getting one of the younger groups â ugh. Last summer, Pauli, one of his counselor friends, got 3rd grade boys, which ended up being a mess of homesickness and actual sickness from lack of self-control at ice cream sundae night.
Harryâs sitting in his uncomfortable fold-up chair, arms folded over his eat your honey tee-shirt as he waits for Linda to finish up so he can demolish a lackluster sandwich in the mess hall. He pinches his bottom lip between his fingers, then jiggles his leg, then crosses his ankles. Heâs bored, and tired, and hungry, andâ
â2nd grade boys, Harry Styles,â Linda booms over the microphone, â2nd grade girls, Y/N Y/L/N.â
What?
This has to be a prank. Lindaâs a lighthearted woman and, yeah, maybe heâs hardly seen her joke around about camp-related activities in the 16 years heâs known her, but maybe she decided to start now.
Right?
But then she claps her hands and announces that their lunch break has officially begun, and Harryâs up and out of his chair faster than you can even say second grade. Long, hurried strides take him in the direction of his boss, his eye borderline twitching at the thought of dealing with little kids instead of his usual fifth graders.Â
âLinda!â he calls out, attempting to grab her attention over the hasty sounds of everyone leaving the room.Â
âOh, hi Harry!â she grins, turning to face him, âLovely to see you again. Are you excited for the summer?â
âUm, yeah,â he rushes out as he lifts a hand to tug at the roots of his hair. âQuick question though, why am I paired withââ
âY/N!â The shrill call of Lindaâs voice cuts Harry off and he grits his teeth. He glances to his side to see the girl from the parking lot â the one who all but bit his head off for taking a free parking spot. He resists the urge to roll his eyes and redirects his attention to the older woman standing in front of them.Â
âLinda, I really need to talk to youââ
âHarry, this is Y/N, your fellow counselor for the second graders,â Linda grins as she slings an arm around Y/Nâs shoulders. The girl blinks, her eyes narrowing as she recognizes Harry. Itâs clear that she remembers him too, so she straightens her posture some and ignores him. âY/N is new to our counseling program but I think you two will get along great!â
âThatâs great, Linda, but I really just need a second with youââ
âI do, too,â Y/N pipes up from beside him and it makes Harryâs jaw clench even tighter. âI think I mentioned in our interview that Iâm not the most comfortable with younger kidsââ
âYeah, and I always have 5th grade boys, so Iâm not really sure whatâsââ
Linda claps her hands loudly, bringing both of their complaints to an immediate stop. When they both part their lips, jaws slightly ajar, she smiles gently.Â
âHarry, I know this probably isnât what you were expecting, but itâs your last year and I figured it would be good to change things up,â she says. He goes to reply, but she places an open palm up, wordlessly signaling to let her finish talking. âAnd Y/N, I know you requested an older group. But Harryâs one of our most experienced counselors, so I know it wonât be too much of an issue if you were paired up together.â
They both stand there silently.Â
âUnfortunately, assignments are final. If you have an issue with it, youâre welcome to leave. There is a lengthy waitlist of people who werenât hired.â
When neither of them respond, both slightly surprised by Lindaâs sudden strike of authority, she grins.Â
âGood, then! Iâm looking forward to seeing you two work together this summer,â she pats each of them on the shoulder, sending them an enthusiastic smile. âNow hurry up and get to the mess hall for lunch! We have an afternoon packed with trainings!â
The sound of Lindaâs Teva sandals scurrying away is the only thing that permeates the awkward silence between the two. A moment later, when Y/N has finally somewhat awoken from her brief rendezvous with the five stages of grief, she mutters the same thing thatâs on Harryâs mind: âFuck me.â
The first two days of training are hopelessly boring.Â
Y/N spends every second of her day in some sort of seminar, educational meeting, or training. When sheâs not listening (or pretending to, anyway â she thinks sheâll be able to manage a decent job at âconflict resolutionâ between seven year olds), sheâs doing hands-on certifications. She has to prove that she knows how to do CPR, the Heimleich, administer EPIPENS, allergy shots, and asthma pumps, and, maybe worst of all, pull a 45-pound mannequin out of the lake. (Itâs in case one of the campers accidentally drowns or flounders in the water, but she hates the fact that the dummy theyâre using looks like itâs likely from the 1980s, far too worn out to be using in 2024.)
Every night, Y/N hits the paper thin mattress in her cabin like she hasnât slept in years. She barely has enough energy to shower and brush her hair before her eyelids are fluttering closed. She hasnât even met her roommate yet, and the only reason why she knows she has one is because all of her things are neatly organized in the main room and bathroom.Â
On day three of counseling training (and the day before camp officially begins), Linda announces that theyâre to spend the next few hours getting to know their co-counselor and planning activities for their groups. The girls and boys arenât expected to do everything together but thereâs a certain level of socialization expected, especially on rainy days when regular outdoor routines are washed out.Â
Y/Nâs torn â sheâs glad she doesnât have to be on her feet all day, going between laborious certifications to boring meetings, but she definitely doesnât want to spend any extra time with Harry. Since learning that they were lumped together for the summer, sheâd seen him around, but neither of them made any attempt at conversation. She passed by him in the mess hall every meal, saw him at lifeguard training, and sat two rows behind him at the mental health and wellness seminar, but they ignored one another as if nothing had occurred on the first day.Â
Truthfully, that was fine and dandy for Y/N. She knows they donât have to be friends or even acquaintances. Co-existence was the primary goal, but she was unsure if that was possible when he seemed to be a total and right dick.Â
That morning, after Lindaâs daily morning announcements, she instructs all the counselors to find their partner and get to know one another. Y/N nibbles on her bottom lip as she searches the room for him, trying to find the head of brown curls (it was the one identifying factor she remembered about him, besides having a British accent). Of course, he ends up finding her first because she chose today of all days to cover his hair with a navy baseball cap. Heâs already scowling at her before she even says anything and she holds in a sigh as he plops down next to her.
âListen, I donât really want to spend the entire summer fighting with youââ
âWho said anything about fighting?â Harry asks, wrinkling his nose in her direction. Y/Nâs eyebrow involuntarily quirks, clearly confused by his response. âWhat makes you think I care to even fight with you?â
â...Okay,â Y/N replies slowly, âThatâs fine, Iâm just saying we should try to coexist for the sake of the kids.â
âRight.â he chuckles humorlessly, lifting his cup of coffee to his mouth. The insulated mug looks helplessly small in his large hand and she flits her eyes back to his face. âYouâre new, right?â
She blinks. âYes.â
âIâve been coming here since I was in second grade. For years, I was the only person who got to counsel the fifth grade boys but for whatever reason, Linda decided she wanted to stick me with the youngest group. Thatâs whateverââ
âWell, she said it was because she wanted to shake things upââ
Harry sends a harsh look her way. âIâm not finished,â he says, and Y/Nâs mouth clamps shut. âThe whole second grade thing would be way more chill if I wasnât stuck with a new counselor who hasn't spent a day in her life outside of the city, but Iâm not. For whatever ungodly reason, Linda assigned us together, and Iâm pissed. Alright?â
Despite the frustration and anger building in Y/Nâs chest, she swallows it down. Instead she takes a page out of the conflict resolution training they had yesterday (maybe it was useful) and nods her head.Â
âI understand that, Harry. Youâre allowed to be pissed. But you have to understand, I didnât do anything wrong here.â
He snorts, âYou shouldnât have signed up to be here. Thatâs what you did wrong.â
Y/Nâs eyebrows shoot up to her forehead.Â
âSo because I wanted a summer job, Iâm a bad person? Have you ever considered that youâre just being a prissy little bitch because you didnât get your way?â
âI donât really give a shit what you think,â Harry replies, shrugging his shoulders, âBecause this is my summer. So whether you like it or not, weâre playing by my rules.â
âYeah, okay,â Y/N guffaws. She stands up from her metal chair, deciding sheâs finished with this conversation for now. She wonât allow Harry to demean her life decisions just because heâs unhappy with where he got placed. âItâs fucking summer camp, asshole. Lighten up.â
Y/N spends the remainder of her day brainstorming ways to entertain second graders.Â
She doesnât really care if Harry doesnât want to cooperate, or even coexist with her. If he wants to be immature, fine! If he wants to blame her for all the things that are already going wrong with his summer, fine! She tried her best to negotiate with him and, quite frankly, itâs not on her to settle a grown manâs temper.Â
At a certain point, when the anger and annoyance and frustration has cooled down some, she finds it a little relaxing. She sits by the lake and allows herself to dig her toes in the cool sand. Yesterday, sheâd spent the better part of her afternoon absolutely baking beneath the bright sun, listening to one of the higher-ups talk about swimming safety. Today was far more peaceful, even with the little worms of anxiety slowly beginning to wiggle their way into her brain. As she jotted down a list of activity ideas for their kids, she tried not to get too nervous about their arrival tomorrow.Â
She doesnât have too much time to worry, though, since when she makes her way back to her cabin that evening, she finally meets her bunkmate, a sweet girl named Zara. Itâs her third summer returning as a counselor so sheâs far more acquainted with everything than Y/N is, and she pledges to help her out as much as she can. It relaxes her nerves even more as she climbs into the tiny shower to wash off the sun and sweat from her body before she heads to bed for the night. At home, sheâs always been the type to stay up far too late, but between the hazy sunrays and jampacked days, sheâs been finding herself way more tired than usual.Â
When Y/N finishes her shower with her hair brushed, moisturizer applied, and pajamas on (which was really more of a pair of sleep shorts and a ratty tee-shirt from her high schoolâs club volleyball team), Zara flashes her an excited grin.
âHarry came by,â she says before Y/Nâs even made it to her bed, âHe was looking for you.â
Y/N tries not to roll her eyes at the mention of his name. She didnât want to say anything mean in case they were camp buddies, or whatever the fuck it was called, but she had to admit, sheâd think just a bit lower of Zara if she was friends with Harry.
âWeâre both working with the second graders this year. Heâs pissed so we didnât do any planning today.â she replies, running a hand through her damp hair as she sits on the edge of the flimsy mattress.
âGod, youâre so lucky. Heâs so hot, isnât he?â
She resists the urge to gag, âI mean, maybe he would be if he hadnât been a total dick to me earlier.â
âIâd ignore that if it meant I got to look at him all day,â Zara giggles, grabbing a folded up piece of paper from the edge of her neatly made bed, âAnyway, he dropped this off for you. Chances are itâs a steamy love note?â
âSlim to none.â Y/N mutters as she accepts the paper from her roommate. She nestles beneath the scratchy covers and flips it open, her eyes immediately meeting a sheet full of messy handwriting.
-DIY paper kites
-painting
-indoor scavenger hunt
-talent show
-charades
-friendship bracelet making
-tie dyeÂ
-rock painting
Sorry for being shitty today. Iâll try to be better. No promises.
-H
She waits until Zaraâs snoring softly before she folds the paper back up and stuffs it into the spine of her journal, right where she wrote down her list of activity ideas.
On the first official day of camp, Y/N quickly learns a few things.Â
One: Second grade girls arenât as scary as she had anticipated. Theyâre actually quite sweet, if not a bit nervous and apprehensive. Y/N understands that â in fact, sheâs felt the same way since arriving at camp a few days ago, so she finds herself bonding with the small group of girls more than she thought she would.
Two: Even if Harry says heâll try better, heâs probably lying.Â
Now, she hadnât expected him to do a complete 360 and show up to her cabin at 6 a.m. with an apology coffee and muffin. But it would have been nice if he did as much as acknowledge her existence, especially in front of the kids!
That morning, Y/N even wakes up with slightly high hopes as she spends her first few hours of consciousness helping her campers get acclimated to their new lifestyle. But that afternoon, when the girls and boys groups get together for quick introductions and bonding, Harry doesnât even care to introduce her. Instead, he stands there, effortlessly capturing the attention of every last one of their kids, and just⊠skips over Y/N!
He skips over her!
Y/N has to clear her throat and step forward, forcing a friendly grin onto her face like she isnât prepared to rip Harry a new one as soon as they bring their group to dinner.Â
âAnd Iâm Y/N! My second grade girls know Iâll be taking care of them this summer, but Iâll be around to help Harry with the boys, too,â she says.Â
âRight, yeahââ
âI canât wait to get to know each of you this summer,â Y/N continues on. Truthfully, she hadnât planned to proceed with some type of spiel, but sheâs in the mood to be spiteful. How couldnât she, when Harry refuses to even recognize the fact that sheâs just as important? âMy door is always open and Iâm so excited to have a wonderful few months with you.â
The kids have zoned out by now with their blank, moony gazes. Swallowing awkwardly, she takes a step back as Harry sends her a dirty look.Â
âYou done, then?â he mutters.Â
Blinking, Y/N nods curtly.
âGreat,â he mumbles, âWell, I think itâs been a long day for everyone, so why donât we head to the mess hall for dinner? Tonight, we have a camp-wide bonfire and sâmores on the agenda so donât eat too much!âÂ
Thankfully, the kids didnât notice the tension between Harry and Y/N, and excitedly get up from their spots on the ground to follow them to their next meal. Already, Y/N notices that the boys are attached to Harry, asking him a million questions about anything and everything. She hears thrilled chatter from tiny, high-pitched voices as she silently walks next to her own campers.Â
âHarry, why do you talk funny?â (He briefly explains that he was born in London, which he refers to as a far away place in a country called the United Kingdom.)
âHow old are you?â (Heâs 22, just a year older than Y/N.)
âDo you have any sisters? I have one at home and sheâs so annoying!â (He has one and sheâs in London.)
âDo you have a girlfriend?âÂ
For some reason, that one makes Y/N listen just a little bit harder. Sheâs not sure why â maybe itâs because heâs been so persistently rude to her that she simply canât imagine any girl willingly committing herself to him. Sheâs not stupid enough to deny the fact that Harry is attractive in the most conventional way, with his broad shoulders, curly hair, and ridiculously tattooed body, but she didnât think that was enough of a justification to put up with his bullshit.
Harry chuckles at the question that comes from a boy with blonde hair and squinty eyes, hidden behind a thick pair of glasses.Â
âNo,â he answers, shaking his head as he pulls open the door for the mess hall, âNo girlfriend for me. Besides, why would I need one when I have all of you to keep me entertained for the summer?â
Y/N swallows tightly at that.
The first full week of camp is exhausting.
Every day, Y/N has an alarm set for 7 a.m. She showers, brushes her teeth, and does something with her hair so itâs not sticking to her sweaty neck all day. She pulls one of her four camp tee-shirts on (they all have huge, blocky lettering on the back that reads COUNSELOR), a pair of shorts, and the only pair of comfortable sneakers she owns. (She doesnât know how Harry walks around in his dirty white Vans day in and day out. She owns a pair herself and they have minimal support, so it further annoys her that he gets to wear cute shoes while sheâs stuck in a pair of running shoes.)Â
From there, sheâll usually have a short and sweet conversation with Zara, whoâs just as tired from taking care of her fourth grade girls. After that, she ambles across the campsite over to her group to make sure theyâre all awake and getting ready for breakfast. They usually all are, with the exception of Livvy, who is particularly awful at waking up in the morning. She always has a grumpy look on her face as Y/N leads them to the mess hall for their first meal and, for some reason, it always makes her laugh to herself.Â
Y/N accompanies the girls while they eat, making sure to get some sustenance in her stomach as well. She typically opts for some fruit and a bagel or toast, accompanied by the shitty watery coffee from the machine in the corner. After breakfast, Y/N plucks the schedule from the bulletin board outside the mess hall (Linda writes out a new one every day, ensuring that every group is able to try out different activities). Mornings are usually a variation of sports, then lunch, and then more relaxed activities, like ceramics or jewelry making. The second graders always have swimming at 3 p.m., which would maybe be a nice way to decompress after a hot, muggy day in the sun, if not for having to be around Harry.
Sheâs figured out that thereâs two variations of Harry: On good days, heâll ignore her. Heâll grab a chair, stick it in the sand, and scroll on his phone until the 5 p.m. dinner bell rings. On bad days (which usually means one of his campers gave him a hard time), heâll torture her. Heâll critique every aspect of her approach to interacting with the kids and tell her what sheâs doing wrong. (Tuesday, for instance, was a bad day. Apparently, Franklin had a total freak out about not wanting to play soccer that morning and decided to be Harryâs worst nightmare all day long, screeching about how much he hated camp. As a result, Harry showed up to swimming and spent an entire hour critizing Y/N: âYou need to bring more snacks with you during the day. What if one of them gets woozy during sports? And you better carry at least three bottles of sunscreen or I swear to god, Iâll report you to Linda. That would be a stupid rookie move.â)
The whole thing is giving her emotional whiplash and is just as exhausting as being a counselor to kids all day. If Linda hadnât had such a poor response to the two of them wanting to switch at the beginning of training, she would already be in her office and pleading her case. So when Friday rolls around and she can just tell that Harryâs had a bad day based on the dim sunglasses covering his eyes, she decides sheâs not going to put up with it anymore â not for a single second longer.
Sheâs unsurprised when, as sheâs keeping an eye on her girls playing Mermaids in the shallow end of the lake (a quintessential summer swimming game, she thinks), Harry plops down in his usual chair with a scowl on his face. Her eye roll is hidden behind her own pair of shades, and she attempts to ignore the anger radiating off of him as she digs her toes in the sand. Again â this whole situation has the potential to be relaxing. All sheâs missing is⊠well, Harry leaving.
âLivvy told Ethan that you come into their bunk every morning to wake her up,â he says, lifting his metal reusable water bottle to his mouth, âYou really shouldnât do that. She needs to learn how to get up on her own.â
âMind your business, Harry.â she replies, short and curt. She inhales through her nose as a breeze passes through the manmade beach.
âThat is my business.â
âItâs really not,â Y/N snaps, whipping around to face him. She tears her sunglasses off her face so he can see the red hot anger burning in her eyes. âAnd Iâm so sick of you being rude to me every single day. Iâm not a punching bag, Harry, Iâm a human being. If you donât like your situation, fine, but thatâs not my problem. So keep your shit to yourself for the rest of the summer, alright?â
She scuttles up from her spot, grabbing her sneakers and towel before marching halfway across the beach to where the girls are playing. Fury is still raging through her as she plops down at the shoreline with a harsh exhale. She allows the rolling tide to wash over her feet and tries to focus on the cold water instead of the insufferable man still sitting there dumbly.
âY/N?â
Her head rises when she hears the small voice of one her campers. It comes from Alison, a sweet, kind girl with unruly ginger locks and a smattering of freckles over her face.
âNo! Donât ask her, sheâll tell on us.â Lucy urges from beside her, a frustrated pout on her lips.
âShe said we could always come to her,â Alison whispers loudly. Y/Nâs heartbeat increases just a tad, worried that somethingâs gone wrong right under her nose. âY/N, I have a question, and I was wondering if you could answer it.â
Y/N clears her throat, âWell, I promise I wonât tell anyone about it as long as itâs nothing too serious⊠you guys know I have to, like, report if an adultâs being inappropriate or something, though, right?â
âYeah. Stranger danger,â Claire nods matter-of-factly, âMy mom gave me a talk before I came here. No letting people touch you anâ stuff.â
âThatâs right,â Y/N agrees with a small smile. âIs it anything like that, Alison?â
She shakes her head.Â
âOkay, so yeah. It can be our little secret then.â
Despite the persistent frown on Lucyâs face, Alison nods.Â
âOkay⊠well, we were wondering⊠is it true that when a boy is mean to you, itâs âcos he likes you?â
Y/N purses her lips. âUm⊠I mean, some people say that. I donât necessarily know if itâs true, though.â
âHas it happened to you?â Claire asks hopefully.Â
âHas a boy been mean to me because he likes me?â
The three girls nod enthusiastically.Â
She thinks back for a moment â sheâs only been in one real relationship before, followed by a series of flings with lackluster people that havenât always been the best. She doesnât think they were mean to her because they were attracted to her, though. It was probably because she failed to have a backbone in their situationships.
âNo,â she finally answers with a shake of her head, âNo, and if someone likes you, theyâll care about showing it. Theyâll do nice things and compliment you and⊠and they wonât make you wonder all the time.â
Each girl looks just as confused and lost as Y/N feels.
â...And we shouldnât be worrying about boys this summer anyway,â she quickly tacks on, attempting to save the conversation, âGirls rule. Right?â
When grins break out on their faces, sheâs thankful that second graders arenât as emotionally aware as adults.
For the next two weeks, things go as smoothly as expected.Â
Y/N is relieved that, for once, Harry heeds her advice. They barely speak with the exception of deciding on an activity to do with the kids, and even then itâs as short and succinct as humanly possible:
âFriendship bracelet making?âÂ
âSure.â
In their brief moments of downtime, Y/N sticks to hanging around Zara and her friends Sarah and Mitch. Theyâre all very nice â she and Zara have a lot in common, and Sarah and Mitch have been working as counselors for the past two summers. Theyâre both friendly with Harry, and Y/N is shocked (but not entirely surprised) to find out that he isnât a total dick with everyone, just with her. Sarahâs somewhat puzzled upon finding out that heâs been giving her a hard time in just about everything, clicking her tongue against the roof of her mouth when Y/N explains how they ended up at this point.
âHeâs fairly protective of this place,â Sarah replies. Her tone is soft and soothing so itâs incredibly difficult to argue with her on any line of defense against him, even if sheâs not intentionally doing so. âHe shouldnât be so mean to you, but I think this is his safe haven. Mitch said that heâs been going through some stuff and⊠well, Iâm sorry you donât get to experience the nice version of him.â
So am I, Y/N thinks to herself.
Itâs what sheâs ruminating on as she sits in the bleachers, watching her girls play soccer. (Well, half of them are playing soccer. The other half are in a circle, making lanyard keychains, and giggling about Henry Moore, a boy in the fifth grade group that apparently every girl has a crush on. It makes Y/Nâs heart warm and her chest concave slightly; to watch girlhood in its purest form with the hopes that no one ever hurts them.)Â
She wonders when things got this way. When fun, gleeful crushes that made her feel like a shaken can of soda, fizzy and lightheaded, faded away and were replaced with mean guys who had no reason to despise her. She swallows the lump in her throat that formed without her permission and digs her sneakered heel into the gravel below the bleachers.Â
When she hears the familiar sound of rambunctious boys approaching, she quickly tucks her sunglasses behind her ears, wary of the watery eyes behind them. She sees Harry, basketball in hand, in his usual camp garb â athletic shorts and some variation of a borderline inappropriate graphic tee-shirt; this one has the words I like to watch scrawled across the chest. Y/N rolls her eyes from behind her sunglasses. Sheâs sure Linda would hand his ass to him if she saw him wearing that. Really, she wishes she would.
The groups intermingle effortlessly. That was one thing she was thankful for â that most of their campers got along and it was easy to take a break when they ended their days doing whatever activity together. The soccer game proceeds, now bigger with formed teams, while a few of the other boys join the lanyard circle. Wordlessly, Harry climbs up on the bleachers Y/Nâs currently perched on, taking a seat two benches above her.Â
Itâs their usual routine of silence and she can probably predict what heâs doing. Right now, heâs probably shifted his black sunglasses from the bridge of his nose up to his wavy brown hair and squinting at his phone. He has a pink phone case, and the device always manages to look stupidly small in his hand while he uses his oversized thumb to scroll through whatever social media app has his attention.Â
Y/N holds in a sigh, leaning her head to the side and pressing her ear against her shoulder. She allows her eyes to flutter shut for a few brief moments, inhaling through her nose and listening to the kidsâ high-pitched chatter. Itâs only when she feels the presence of someone beside her that she opens her eyes, eyebrows thick with worry when she sees Micky, one of Harryâs campers, standing in front of them.
âWhatâs up, Mick?â Harry asks from above her. She resists the urge to scowl â she could have handled it without him, and she hopes that whatever he needs, itâs a ridiculous request that heâll have to handle andâ
âI miss my mom.â
Y/Nâs eyes widen when Mickyâs eyes suddenly flood with tears. Quickly, she pushes her sunglasses back into her hair, her lips instantly parting into a sympathetic frown.Â
âMicky,â she coos, her heart melting at the sight in front of her, âItâs okay. Itâs okay to miss your mom, I know how you feel.â
Heâs a mess of tears and snot, his little hand reaching up to knuckle at his bloodshot eyes. Y/N looks up at Harry, who seems just as worried and equally lost. He shuffles down to the same bench Y/N sits at so heâs eye level with him and presses a gentle hand to his shoulder.
âCâmon, you gotta breathe, Mick,â he encourages, rubbing his shoulder soothingly. He only continues in his tearful fit, not listening to a word either one of the counselors say. Helpless, Harry turns to Y/N, his eyes encompassing all the nerves running through each of them.Â
âMick, you have to listen to Harry,â Y/N says, reaching out to grab his hand. She squeezes it in an effort to gain his attention. âBreathe, sweetheart. Look at Harry. Heâs gonna help you breathe, okay?â
Thankfully, Mickyâs eyes bat open. Harryâs taking slow, deep inhales and exhales and he does the same, though his are shuttered with weepy quivers.Â
âYouâre doing so good,â Y/N smiles, giving his hand another squeeze. âThere you go, just keep following Harry.â
Eventually, his tears stop some and his breathing regulates itself. Harry guides him onto the bench, wiggling his smaller form between his and Y/Nâs.Â
âItâs totally normal to miss your mum,â Harry says, leaning his elbows back. âBut think about all the awesome times youâve had here so far. Youâve been absolutely killing it at Four Square and youâre a master at ceramics. Sheâs gonna be so pumped when she sees that cup you made.â
âIâve never been away from her for this long.â Micky peeps out in a small voice. Y/N swallows, her heart cracking just a tiny bit more.
âMicky, you wanna know a secret?â she asks. Harry and Micky both turn to her and she holds in a snort at the formerâs intrigued facial expression. âThis is the longest Iâve been away from my parents, too.â
âReally?â
âMhm,â she nods, âAnd I miss them so much. But Iâm having a really good summer here. Are you?â
Micky thinks for a moment. A second later, he nods.
âWhatâs been your favorite part?â
âI really like swimming,â he replies. Y/N grins. âBut I like you and Harry more. You guys are my favorite.â
Her eyebrows raise involuntarily and Harry coughs into his hand.Â
âYouâre just like my big sister and her boyfriend,â he continues. Y/Nâs eyes dart over to Harry, who looks like he wants to run for the hills. âTheyâre always really nice to me. And sometimes they fight and that makes my sister grumpy. But they always come back together. And even if theyâre mad at each other, they never stop being nice to me.â
âWell, that sounds really nice, Mickââ
âAnd one time, he was dropping my sister off at home and I looked outside my window âcos I had a present for him but the windows in his car were all foggy and I donât really know why butââ
âHarry, didnât Linda say that there were orange popsicles at the nurseâs cabin today?â Y/N asks through a squeaky voice. He blinks and nods quickly, excitedly wagging his finger at her in agreement.
âYes! She did!â he exclaims, popping up from his seat, âMicky, do you want an orange popsicle? Maybe Y/N can take you?â
âOh yeah, those are my favorite!âÂ
Y/N is eager and happy to escape this terribly awkward moment.Â
Y/N doesnât see Harry for the rest of the afternoon.Â
Thatâs fine with her, since she thinks sheâs still blushing from Mickyâs little Peeping Tom recollection. She brought him to the dining hall after he ate his popsicle and gave his mom a call and, by then, he was back to normal, excited to eat dinner alongside his fellow campers. Y/N picked at a lackluster meal of beef tacos, though she was happy to listen to Zara, Sarah, and Mitch chatter on about⊠well, whatever it was they were talking about.Â
After dinner, thereâs a bonfire, and then itâs lights out. Sheâs exhausted by the time she gets her girls back to their cabin, ensuring that theyâre all tucked in for a restful night. She closes their door with a depleted sigh, listening for the quiet click of the hinge before she jogs down the stairs and starts her walk back to her own dwelling.
Only, she nearly jumps five feet in the air when Harryâs standing there.
âFucking Christ!â she whispers as her heart slams against her ribcage, âIs there a reason youâre standing there like a fucking creep? Or are you taking a page out of Mickyâs weird little sneaky book?â
Harry snorts at that before shaking his head. âSorry. I just put the boys to bed and I saw you were leaving. I wasnât being creepy, I promise.â
âThatâs something a creep would say.â
âI realize that,â he replies, digging his hands into the pockets of his athletic shorts, âBut I mean it. Iâm nowhere near as creepy as Micky.â
âShut up,â she mutters, trying to wipe the smile off her face from his joke. âHe didnât know any better.â
âI know. Iâm just kidding.âÂ
They stand there across from one another for another beat or two before he juts his thumb in the direction of the counselor cabins.Â
âCan I walk you back to yours?â
Y/N swallows. And for reasons she doesnât quite understand, she says, âokay.â
At first, itâs silent. The only sound is the gravel crunching beneath their shoes as Y/N tucks her arms over her chest, goosebumps forming over her skin from the night chill. Finally, Harry ventures a glance at her.Â
âI want to apologize,â he says, and at first, Y/N thinks sheâs hallucinating. âIâve been really awful to you and⊠I shouldnât have been.â
A snarky response sneaks past her lips before she has a chance to take it back: âDid you just realize that?â
âNo,â Harry admits. Sheâs surprised he doesnât reply with something equally as sarcastic. âI realized it a few weeks ago, when you yelled at me at the lake. I didnât realize how shitty I was being to you but⊠then Sarah talked to me and asked why I was being this way with you, and I didnât even have a good answer for her because youâve been so good with the kids and you clearly do care about them and giving them a good summer. And I just felt like such a fucking idiot.â
Y/N hums non-committedly.Â
âAnd then today with Micky, it just reminded me a lot of myself when I used to come here as a camper. This was my safe place for many, many years. Thereâs a small part of me that thinks it still is. I used to have panic attacks midway through the summer when I would think about life back home and the bullshit I was escaping.â
She swallows. A pit forms at the bottom of her stomach when she thinks about a young Harry having the same reaction as Micky did today.
âAnd I donât know, I just thought about⊠how if I had you as a counselor, I would feel really comfortable and happy,â he continues, âAnd⊠minus the weird shit Micky said, I was happy to hear that he likes us together.â
Her throat dries a bit at that but she forces herself to swallow as he looks at her for a response.
âThank you,â she finally mumbles out. Theyâre stopped at the side of her cabin now, and she desperately hopes that Zara is fast asleep and canât hear an inkling of their conversation. âI appreciate that. I wish we hadnât⊠yâknow, gotten off on such a rocky start, but⊠you are really good with the kids. And I think that we do work well together, even if weâre barely speaking to one another.â
He smirks at that before shaking his head, his gaze falling to the grassy plane beneath them.Â
âIt was all very immature of me and for that, I really am so sorry, Y/N.â
âItâs okay,â she murmurs, leaning back against the wood siding of the lodge, âWater under the bridge, yeah?â
Harry looks back up, his eyes finding hers. With his teeth nibbling on his bottom lip, he nods.Â
âWater under the bridge,â he agrees.
And she canât figure out why, but the second their gaze locks, her world slows just a bit. Her chest stalls, her breathing hitches in her throat, and⊠has Harry always looked this good?
âY/N,â he rasps out lowly. Her eyes flutter down to his neck, where his throat bobs beneath a swallow. Quickly, she blinks, her eyelashes flittering when she looks back up at his face.Â
âHm?â she asks softly.
âWhy are you looking at me like that?â he mumbles, inching towards her slowly.Â
âLike what?â
He breathes out a quiet laugh. âLike you wanna kiss me.âÂ
She shrugs and he reaches out, gentle and tentative, his fingertips finding her chin. She allows his touch as he strokes over her skin, careful not to make any sudden movements as if sheâll scare him away somehow.
âDo you wanna kiss me?â he presses, his palm cupping her cheek. His hand is warm and her face is cool, and it feels so, so good.
âDo you wanna kiss me?â she repeats, eager to turn the question around.
He smirks. Lopsided and playful.
âAsked you first.âÂ
âYouâre acting like the kids weâre responsible for,â she murmurs, nuzzling tenderly into his hold. âBy the way, did you hear Henry Moore kissed Crystal Baker? The girls are devastated.â
Harry chuckles, low and sweet, before shaking his head. Butterflies swarm her stomach at the crinkles that form at his eyes and she bites her lip.
âSounds like weâll have to have a feelings circle tomorrow,â he says. âBut right now, youâre the only thing I care about.â
Y/N hums, eyelashes fluttering at his breath ghosts over her lips. She doesnât know when he got this close, but she also doesnât know how she existed without having him near all this time. His other hand finds her hip, giving it a small squeeze. The fabric of her tee-shirt bunches in his grip and she resists the need to shudder.
âCan I kiss you?â he whispers, his towering form feeling as though itâs all-encompassing now. She thinks that if it were up to her, she would allow him to lay all his weight on her.Â
Her brain is foggy and fizzy now, but sheâs conscious enough to nod, a short affirmation, before he ducks forward to connect their lips. His lips are soft and plushy and sheâs happy to kiss him back, especially since he tastes like the raspberry popsicle he ate at the bonfire. She shivers when he moves his hands up to the siding of the cabin, caging her in so sheâs completely pinned against him. Sheâs neither particularly submissive nor dominant in the bedroom â a qualified switch is what Zara called her â but sheâs eager to have her hands on him, one palm flush against his chest while the other presses against his cheek. The stubble of his facial hair scratches against her skin but she doesnât care.
The kiss ends far too quickly for her, but when they part, noses nudging against one another, theyâre both breathless with swollen lips. It makes Harry chuckle softly and he ducks down once more for a peck.
âThink youâre a bit insatiable,â he mumbles. âPretty sure you wouldâve kept going for hours if I didnât stop you.â
âProbably.â
He laughs, quiet and soft, at her unashamed response. âThatâs fine. Good, actually. I think I could live with that.â
ââM sure you could.â she replies, a smirk edging at her lips.
âYouâre not gonna go running off into the night now, are you?âÂ
This time, she laughs, shaking her head.
âNo. Iâll be here in the morning, bright and early.â
He smiles and presses a kiss to her forehead. âHenry Moore feelings circle at 9 am sharp?â
âWouldnât miss it.â
When Harry sends her off to her cabin with a pat on the bum and a kiss to the cheek, she has to bite her lip from grinning too hard.
Summary: Have courage, and be kind. Words that you tried to live by ever since the passing of your parents. Though your step-mother and step-sisters did everything in their power to hide you and your status away from the rest of the Ton, you never expected to catch the eye of Viscount Anthony Bridgerton himself.
Authors Note: This is my first Bridgerton series! I had an absolute ball writing this, and I hope you enjoy it! There is a tag list open if anyone wishes to be kept updated for future parts. Gif by @greengableslover
|PART ONE| |PART TWO|
The house was in shambles.
Mary had thrown almost every single dress she had bought on her bedroom floor, crying loudly that she âsimply had nothing to wearâ. Though you tried to reassure her that she in fact did, and that she would eventually find something that would make her stand out amongst the other debutants tonight, she didnât believe you.
âThis is all so hopeless!â She shouted sadly, tears streaming down her cheeks as she threw a deep purple dress across the room, the embroidered fabric smacking you in the face in its flight path to her dresser. You grimaced, shaking your head and brushing your hair from your face as you sighed lightly. âItâs not hopeless, I promiseâŠâ you tried to soothe as Mary continued to ball her eyes out âwhat about that light blue one you tried in earlier? That was very beautiful?â
âNo! I cannot wear that! I hear Eloise Bridgerton is wearing a similar colour, and I will not be compared to herâŠâ Mary squealed in protest, throwing another expensive dress across the room, a flash of yellow and gold âI am far better, and prettier!â.
Your shoulders slumped in defeat, your patience wearing thin as you picked up the numerous clumps of fabric scattered around the room. There was really nothing you could do except try to comfort her during her meltdown, whilst trying to keep your own head. As you began to lay the dresses out on Maryâs bed once more one by one, there was a faint knock at her bedroom door.
You lifted your head, spying Elizabeth standing in the doorway shyly as she fiddled with her hands in front of her. âIf you arenât too busy, I require some help in choosing a dress as wellâ She spoke softly, before disappearing back down the hallway just as quickly as she appeared. Pressing your lips together in a thin line, you hummed a short reply, turning your gaze back to Mary who once again descended into hysterics.
âGo! Leave me alone, I shall die of embarrassment now that I have nothing but these rags to choose from!â She exclaimed, dramatically collapsing onto her side and covering herself with her bed covers, beginning to sob loudly as she buried her head into her pillow. You glowered down at her, a small sense of jealousy and envy forming in your chest. Had your situation been different, you would have loved to have such a selection of beautiful clothes. Your father always bought you some of the nicest things on his travels abroad, whether they be small trinkets or delicately made clothes.
A sense of sadness and guilt replaced that feeling of jealousy and envy. You missed your father terribly, but you felt guilty for feeling this way. You werenât entirely sure why, but as you left Maryâs room and made your way to Elizabethâs, you decided that you could reminisce about your family later.
Upon entering Elizabethâs bedroom, you almost gasped audibly in relief. Her room was completely tidy, unlike the previous monstrosity you had just left. There were three dresses splayed out on her bed. The one on the left was a pale light green, adorned completely in a delicate floral lace pattern that descended all the way to the floor with matching white satin gloves. The one in the middle was a deep royal blue satin, completely unadorned except for a white bejewelled belt underneath the bust. And the one on the right was a beautiful light pink, adorned in a delicate white floral lace which fanned out slightly below the end of the dress. Parts of the lace were adorned in small white pearls, which no doubt would have made the dress incredibly valuableâŠand eye-wateringly expensive.
Elizabeth looked up at you shyly, brushing her auburn hair from her shoulder as she sighed heavily. âIâŠI need your help deciding what one I should wearâŠâ She spoke softly, her eyes falling back to the bed as she stuttered âI donât want to look too desperateâŠbut I also want to look pretty enough to attract his attention away from the othersâŠâ
You raised an eyebrow questioningly as you closed the door behind you, leaning against the white panel with a confused expression. âWho are you trying to impress?â You asked kindly, tilting your head to the side as you waited for her response. Elizabethâs gaze met yours, and a bright blush formed on her cheeks as she shifted her position on her bed. âIâŠitâs Lord Burton. We met late last season, before itâs end actually. He was incredibly sweet, he took interest in my writings, and we have a shared passion for theatreâŠbut his attention was drawn to one of the Lady Featheringtonâs daughtersâŠâ
You could see the sadness forming on her face as she began to idly pick at her bedsheets, sighing nervously as she breathed deeply. âAfter embarrassing myself before Lord Bridgerton, I realised that I am truly an ignorant personâŠand I donât wish to be that anymore. So I ask you, will you help me choose a dress for Lady Danburyâs ball tonight? It wouldâŠmean a lot to me if you did.â
Your head straightened and your eyes widened, a strange feeling of acceptance forming in your chest. Neither of your stepsisters had ever acted this kindly towards you before, least of all actually apologised for their behaviour. Yet here Elizabeth was, a guilty look on her face as she waited for your answer.
âIf you donât I completely understand, I havenât exactly been the most welcoming step-sister to you-â
âThe pink oneâ you blurted out, pushing off the door and making your way over to her side. Your reply surprised you. You should feel annoyed, furious even. After everything she and Mary had done to you, should you really have been so quick to help her? You picked up the dress and held it up before you, examining every intricate detail of the lace and the fabric. Your gaze turned back to Elizabeth, her sadness now replaced with happinessâŠand gratitude.
âItâs really beautiful. If Lord Burton doesnât notice you in thisâŠthen he is a foolâ You spoke kindly, extending the dress towards her as a gesture of forgiveness. Elizabethâs eyes softened as she gently took the dress from you, smiling kindly as she spoke âI know I havenât been the best sister, nor really a good person towards youâŠbut thank you. Though I do have to ask, why are you always so kind? Especially to my sister and my mother?â
You shrugged your shoulders, âHave courage, and be kind. It was something that my mother taught me before she passed. It means that you must always have courage to do the things you want, and to be kind to everyone you meet, no matter their treatment of youâŠkindness goes a long way.â
With those parting words, you left Elizabethâs room and returned to the attic for a moment of peace. You would be back downstairs in an hour or so to Lady Worthington and her daughters get dressed, but you allowed a small smile to cross your face at Elizabethâs kindness.
âYou have been awfully distracted since you returned home, dear brother. Tell me, what is on your mind?â Benedict asked somewhat teasingly, collapsing onto the lounge beside him with a loud huff of effort.
Anthony didnât reply. He was consumed in thought, his mind mulling over something Eloise had said after the two of them had made their escape from Lady Worthington and her daughters.
âAnthony, you truly are blind. If you look closer at someone, like really look, and see past their dress, then perhaps you will see the truth behind a well-crafted-â
âA âwell-craftedâ what, Eloise? What are you insinuating about Lady Worthington? Perhaps, she supposedly keeping a huge secret from the ton? One that would cause scandal and outrage should news get out?â
âWellâŠI didnât say itâŠâ
She had said those words with such sarcasm and malice, that it had stuck with him for the remainder of the afternoon. Eloise hadnât looked at him since their return home. It was so unlike her, she wouldnât speak to anyone except Colin. Surely this entire situation didnât have anything to do with youâŠdid it?
âHello? AnthonyâŠare you there?â
âHm?â The Viscount asked, eyes blown wide as he eventually realised that he was not alone in the parlour room. Benedict laughed, lightly punching his brotherâs shoulder as he rolled his eyes.
âWhat is going on with you? Youâve been very quiet since your return home, and Eloise is in a right mood-â
âIf youâre here to bother me, itâs workingâ Anthony grumbled, shifting his position to rest his chin in the palm of his hand. He heard Benedict chuckle loudly, the sound echoing across the room.
âNo, I would never do that!â Benedict mused offendedly, leaning closer to his brother and speaking in a more hushed tone. âBuuutâŠwhat happened between the two of you? I donât think Iâve ever seen the two of you this mad at each other-â
âItâs really none of your concernâŠâ Anthony snapped, now turning to face his brother with a stern glare ââŠIâm not really sure if I know if itâs any of my concernâ.
âRight, I wonât ask. But I suggest you make amends, otherwise the ball tonight will go very poorlyâŠâ Benedict mused informatively before an amused chuckled escaped him ââŠwell, it will go poorly for you. I myself will enjoy your misfortune-â
âYouâre such a childâ Anthony scowled, becoming more annoyed by his brotherâs presence by the second.
pairing: carmen 'carmy' berzatto x reader
rating: t (for now)
length: 1,028 words
content: mild cursing
summary: you've never met your neighbour, but you've received plenty of their mail and now, a large package. of all the stories you made up in your head about who this 'carmen berzatto' could be, the real thing might just be your new favourite.
a/n: brain rot means a middle of the night word dump. will likely be the first of many little stories about your next door neighbour, carmen, because that dynamic lives in my mind rent free. fluff for now, but we all know what that means (it means it'll definitely become nsfw later, sooner probably).
read part two
link to ao3 here!
The first letter was a mistake, the second one was a coincidence. The third one was not a big deal and the fourth was only a little more than a nuisance. But when a much larger package thudded against your front door at the ass crack of dawn, the recipient clearly written across the top of the cardboard box as your neighbour⊠well, that was just flat out annoying at this point. You hadn't even known deliveries made their rounds so early in the day and as big as the box was, when you lifted it to carry next door, it weighed lighter than a feather.
The pile of letters that accidentally found their way to your apartment were usually slipped through the small mailbox of your neighbour's, sometimes under the door. You'd thought about dropping the package and simply going about your day, but curiosity got the better of you as your knuckles rapped against the door and waited instead.
What could a Carmen Berzatto have possibly required to be delivered at this time?
In the time you've lived in the building, there'd been very few run-ins with other tenants. Not that you'd ever complain, perfectly content with your own company. You made friends with one elderly lady who always offered you some of her freshly baked bread, and in return you picked her up flowers and some extra produce on your farmer's market runs. The landlord wasn't your friend, but he wasn't your enemy either, and somehow you'd convinced him to let you paint your bathroom your favourite colour with little to no resistance. But your next door neighbour remained a mystery, one you've conjured up about a dozen different backstories and personalities for.
Carmen Berzatto, notorious criminal, hiding out in a tiny Chicago apartment. Carmen Berzatto, hundred-year-old vampire, who might either burn in the sun or look like they'd walked through a glitter bomb. Carmen Berzatto, part time Chicagoan, who actually doesn't live here anymore and maybe there's a squatter inside instead. Carmen Berzatto, the tax evader, because why else would they have so much goddamn mail being sent to them?
You'd been lost in the web of made-up histories for your neighbour when the door swung open to reveal said neighbour, and it slowly dawned on you that there wasn't a single story where you imagined Carmen Berzatto to look like that.
Piercing, wide blue eyes and a head of shaggy brown tufts that made you want to tangle your fingers through them, especially that small curl dangling just above his forehead.
"Hi." His greeting was laced with mild confusion that seemed immediately alleviated when his attention dropped to the box in your hands. "Oh."
"Hi," you blurted out, lifting the package, "got another one for you."
"IâI'm sorry aboutâ about, uh, about all of that. It won't happen again."
"Won't it?" You were mostly teasing now. Although you were jolted awake by the sound of it thrashing against your door, and although you were rather peeved about getting up before you wanted to, you couldn't find it in yourself to be irritated anymore.
Carmen reached out to take the box from you, giving it a small shake with what you thought was a ghost of a smile before he set it down to the side somewhere you couldn't see. "It won't. I'm sorry." The flirt of his tongue along his lips brought your gaze toward it before you met his eyes again.
Those stunning icy blues.
"It's okay, nothing to be sorry for."
"I must've really fucked up on theâ the uh, apartment number."
"What?"
"The apartment number."
"Yeah," you looked at him a bit dumbfounded, gaze darting to the door where the number and letter were, "what about it?"
"Iâ"
"You don't know your apartment number?"
"My writing's shit."
Both of you seemed to blink in unison, another lick of Carmen's lips which you mirrored before a stupid smile curled your lips. "Oh."
"Not a good excuse, I know." He nodded, jaw working as he turned his head to the metal on the door, a short and deep chuckle sounding from him. "Again, Iâ"
"Not sorry," you shook your head, "just chicken scratch."
For a moment, Carmen stared at you, and if it wasn't bad enough to have those too-blue eyes simply looking at you, to find them nearly boring holes as they danced between your eyes and across your face made you want to evaporate. Made you wish the ground would open up and swallow you hole. Made you want to drown in the depths of the ocean blues that were his irises.
"Just chicken scratch," he murmured after a beat of silence and what was once a ghost of a smile was definitely something now, the corner of his mouth lifting enough to wrinkle the corner of his eye. Enough to show you the dimple in his cheek. "Thanks forâ for bringing the package."
"Yeah." And the smile unfurling on your lips was nothing short of genuine. "You're welcome, Carmen."
"Just, uh, just Carm is good. Carmy."
"Okay."
Another beat passed where you thought you might have been rendered frozen by one of your favourite shades of blue, glued to the floor through hypnosis, until a sound down the hall caught your ear and you nodded at Carmen. Turning on your heel, you took the first step back to your apartment, then another, and another.
And it wasn't until you had your hand stretched out to grab for your doorknob when you heard his voice echo from where you'd came. "See you around?"
"Yeah."
"Okay."
The moment hung in the air on a thin thread, the both of you sharing furtive and hidden smiles before his door closed and yours opened.
Carmen Berzatto, not a notorious criminal (to your knowledge) or a hundred-year-old vampire (yet). Nor was he a part-time Chicagoan (not with that accent) or a tax evader (maybe). None of the ideas you had floating in your mind about your neighbour even came close to the real thing.
Carmen Berzatto, curly-haired blue-eyed boy-next-door with chicken scratch for writing and a fleeting dimple you wanted to see again.
"If the Israeli assault stopped today, and we decided to hold a funeral every single day for each Palestinian killed in the last eight months, it would take us 100 years to honor them all."
The Palestinian speaker at the UN Security Council highlights the devastating toll of casualties among Palestinians resulting from the Israeli genocide in Gaza.
maybe something like Carmen is busy focusing on this recipe is trying out at home on a weekend and youâre talking to him but heâs just saying stuff like yeah hmmmm thatâs good baby so you keeping saying absolutely out of pocket stuff to see how far you need to go so he actually listens and is like wait wtf???? babe you good.
(maybe saying Kraft mac and cheese made in the microwave is the base pasta youâve had)
CARMEN BERZATTO x FEM!READER - SFW
summary: silly guy wants to perfect his recipe and pretends to pay attention until you say some crazy ass stuff
author note: i need to finish s2 im so close, idk if this would annoy pasta chefs i have no expertise so i copied what this tiktok pasta shop hates đđ
Carmy likes to perfect his craft. Youâve seen him experiment with his recipes, incorporating different ideas to create something to be proud of. The man never took a rest break ever, it was Saturday afternoon and he was still cooking. Not that you minded of course, the man makes the most mouth watering food but he was barely paying attention to you. It wasnât because you were clingy or anything but sometimes you felt if you were second to The Bear. You were supportive of him and his achievements but his mind was constantly on it even when it was just the two of you.
You sat down on the chair by the window watching the city life around you. It was peaceful but god you just craved an actual conversation with the man in front of you. You were talking to him about whats happened this week, the latest gossip between your friends, struggles with work and just anything that came to mind but every time you spoke youâd receive the same response of â yeah thatâs good baby â . Honestly you couldâve told him the most heartbreaking thing and still get that half arsed response.
So in an attempt to actually get a response you just started saying out of pocket shit. First it was more subtle such as saying ..
â I think if we were bottles of sauces weâd be ketchup and mustard â
â if we had a bolognese Iâd have to have mushrooms with it and salad cream on the side â
To slowly more annoying (about pasta)
â Iâm going to make spaghetti bolognese in the week, could you get me some fettuccine? â
â I bought some arrabbiata sauce from this Italian place, should I add more tomatoes? â
It was slightly working, still getting similar responses but with slight hesitation but you finally got him to drop everything in hand.
â what did you just say? â
I mean he didnât seem as frustrated as you had seen him in work but god it made you stop for a second.
â umm kraft mac and cheese in the microwave is the best pasta Iâve ever had ? â
There was a slight hesitation in how you said it, somewhat nervous in what he was going to do or say. He turned off the heat to not burn his new craft as he made his way over to you as he brushed his hair back with his hand. Carmy placed his hands on either side of your face as he looked at you softly before he let out a small huff.
â baby iâm sorry for not fully listening and I deserve anything you give me but please donât ever say that shit again â
You nodded, the blush evident on your face as his pretty blue eyes stared into yours before kissing you, then all over your face before muttering some more âsorryâ.
â I promise Iâll listen to everything you say now, okay? Iâll teach you what Iâm doing too, canât ignore my pretty girl anymore hm ? â
And god you were going to marry that son of a bitch right there