pain, begone.

gpoy + gifs + instagram as long as there's the two of us,we've got the world and all its charms.and when the world is through with us,we've got each other's arms.

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go follow my insta

@sadsadbadboy

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My friend got played the same way I got played last year and I feel so bad watching her cry because she invested so much energy into a person that didn’t know what they wanted.

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Am I depressed or am I asexual?

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Wow I still feel body dysmorphic at times but I’m glad I’ve been taking ‘before’ pictures really early on to be able to see the weight I’ve gained 💓 I even look chunky in the face ☺️

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I was about to get a hotel room today and whore myself out to numerous anonymous guys and let them all breed me and use me but thankfully I had a friend that wanted to hit the gym with me and so obviously I couldn’t let guys rail me cause I was obviously hungry after the gym

but looking in hindsight I need to stop perpetuating my own ‘just good for sex’ self image

but in hindsight’s hindsight I always self sabotage by oversexualising myself so that no reasonable guy can be like ‘wow I wanna date him’ So maybe me not having multiple guys breed me tonight means somebody good for me will come along but knowing my history I will not pursue anything with him because why would I because I am only good for sex 😂

its just so weird when you start to notice how toxic you really are to yourself and I know where all this thinking stems from and I hate that I have to remember it when I get in these pensive moods lately

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I took 2 tabs of acid on Halloween and now I know what this so called rabbit hole entails and why you guys like it so much. Everybody was surprisingly pleased with how well I took my first tab and nonetheless the second tab for my first time. My body takes drugs really well and that’s concerning because I want to take all the drugs based on the fact that I’ve done very well on all the drugs I’ve tried this year. I ended up cuddling with my best friend and he was also rubbing my butt when we were sleeping; it’s been forever since I’ve been able to relax myself into another person im surprised how easy it was to cuddle.

The acid trip was fun but I think I’m more of an ecstasy bitch. I want to try shrooms next for sure

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I was getting stressy depressy again because I noticed my sleep and eating and skincare being nonexistant but then I remembered my Tatcha products have a 6 month shelf life so I’m forcing myself to be happy for the next few months

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Hereditary (2018) dir. Ari Aster The Witch (2015) dir. Robert Eggers

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Been able to purchase lots more skincare thanks to my bootyhole and Onlyfans money 😂

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I’m stoned and depressed because I just broke my glow recipe cleansing balm, but I ordered a lot that’s got the cleansing balm, their bkueberrycleanser and a headband. Plus 4 samples and free shipping. So I guess everything happens for a reason.

im Going to take a new picture of my skincare products. And I think I have less now than when I posted them last but I could be wrong... I know I got rid of lots of stuff... but I replaced them with even more stuff...

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Why are all gays addicted to meth!?

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I got dick today and it was nice again. I didn’t get to cum cause he was focusing on himself but I was really turned on and he let me cuddle with him after but I didn’t like that much cause I felt really awkward and couldn’t let myself relax into him. His fishies kept staring at me tho. 2 angel fishies were really looking at me lmaooo

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Some butt pix

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I finally had sex yesterday. It felt so good, I had forgotten what dick sliding inside me felt like and making out and being touched. He only lasted 5 minutes but they were fun. I was scared I wasn’t going to be turned on but he kept me aroused

wow who am I. It took me 7 months to let somebody fuck me

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I got so sad watching that Paris Hilton documentary and remembering my abuse as a kid and always getting mad/sad about how I can’t be like the person I was before everything happened

im literally a bawling mess finishing this documentary lmao watching her explain how she turned out because of stuff she’s gone through and me thinking about my situation and how it was handled and how that lead me to always being an anxious soft spoken person etc etc

thank god I just restocked on eye patches cause I’m gonna be MISSUS PUFF tomorrow

i recommend the documentary! It’s very upsetting but worth the watch