I took a hiatus from Tumblr but randomly got inspired to come back, so here I am. I just spent the last 4 hours going through every post I made from 2012-2016, retagging everything so I can find my writing and god-fucking-damn. I can tell you this, the old alcoholic,slutty,depressed,party girl I used to be...still exists...but I have made some major life changes.
I am going on two years sober(November), I am in an amazing, loving relationship which is also going on two years (march). I still have the same job, but I am back in school working on my CASAC, which, yes, I know a ton of people who get sober go that route but for me, this is only phase one. When I originally went to college in 2011, I had gone for psychology but I had absolutely no direction, now, I have an actual vision of what I want to be, and how I am going to get there. My end goal is to be a grief/substance abuse counselor for adolescences, because from my own experience that is exactly where I need to be. My entire life turned upside down when my Mom passed, and I started drinking and using drugs. I am not expecting to save the world, or change anyone but if I can help just one person not go through the pain I did, well, that is good enough for me.
I still want to be a writer, but for so many years I let that take a backseat. When I started class a few weeks ago, my school friend, Joe, helped inspire me by sending me some of his writing and I sent him mine;between us giving positive feedback to each other, I feel like I can do this. It won’t happen all at once, I go through phases, but that is part of the reason I wanted to start my Tumblr back up again. In the past when I used this daily, even just for quotes, I wrote way more. Considering we live in a social media obsessed society, might as well get something out of it, instead of just scrolling through Facebook aimlessly.
NOW, my relationship, is perfectly, imperfect. We live together, have two cats, and live a pretty comfortable life. Like any other couple we bicker over stupid things, like, laundry or dishes, but other wise our relationship is great. compared to my last handful of relationships, this is a dream. We openly talk about the future, and we are a great team. Like I said, it is perfectly, imperfect. We had a rocky start, and I wasn’t sure we would make it but through communication, here we are, living our best lives, together. I’m sure in the future as I use my Tumblr more I’ll end up bitching, but, I love him with all my heart, and I’ve never been able to say that as confidently as I can today.
Our cats, Charlie and Jax, are, the chillest cats ever. We got charlie 9 months ago, and Jax about one month ago. Actually, today is charlies birthday(one year) and Jax is still only 5 months. When we first brought Jax home, we weren’t sure if charlie was going to like it, and we had already decided that if Charlie couldn’t deal, we would have to bring Jax back. :’( fortunately, after about a week they became best friends, and now cuddle together, even eat from the same bowl.
I think I am tapped out for right now.
That’s all folks! Happy to be back!
