SB of Taylor M

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I said NO! what don’t you get?!

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Holy fuck don’t cling to me!

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Yep I did that

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To find out all of that is sad. I’ve never spoken to Saraya ever unless I commented on the dash or something once or twice. I certainly was never trying to destroy her. I provided all the proof I needed to him. Hangouts is amazing for showing current and archived convos! I’ve been friends with Corey forever. A lot of things make sense now after talking to him, I just wish he wasn’t so.... sad. This morning was emotional talking to him about a few things, I’m happy to see that he’s coming back to his old self though.

[smellslikesecretwords]

Should I really be flirting and telling you to come here for the weekend? No. Am I gong to let you still? Hell yes I am.

[satanknewmyfairytales]

I want you to know that you’re so talented. You have so much talent and it radiates out of you. You’re so beautiful and I just feel like that’s what everyone says to you so I won’t linger on that. I want you to know that I adore how genuinely interested you are about how people are doing and I smile when I see you on dash. Keep being so purely good at heart and I will keep being a fan

❤️ thank you

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Oh man I needed this

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Someone thinks I’m hot? I’m a mess.

[nymoon]

[caitlinfenrir-deactivated202006]

Ice Nine Kills - What I Never Learned In Study Hall

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You know what’s sad? When people don’t feel guilty for anything and don’t own up to their actions.

It’s also funny when people don’t think I know what’s going on. My gut is talking and it’s usually right!

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Day 11

I don’t know why I cried myself to sleep last night. Maybe that feeling of being completely empty again. Alone. Yesterday I apologized to Andy. I didn’t send that stuff in, but because maybe I never gave him a full chance. Maybe it was for the better. I was broken enough myself. I just wonder if I ever have been truly loved... ever. Maybe that’s where all this stems from. Am I that broken and “crazy” that no one ever really takes the time or wants to love me? I don’t mean my body. I mean me. My soul, my thoughts and passions, the days I doubt and pull away, the silly sides and the serious. I want someone to love al of me....

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I tried.

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Why do I miss him even though he treated me like crap?

[bymorninggone]

“Woah, do you really drink that much?” He asked as he took the seat next to me, smiling, a little bit impressed.

Turning, I looked at the stranger nonchalantly and replied, “Honey, you drink to forget, I drink to be forgotten. ”

You drink to live, I drink to die

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Yeaahhh…..

I hardly talk to any of you.

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Day 7

Somehow I’ve managed to survive this week. It’s funny how you can never talk about things to the people you know but find a stranger you’re comfortable with and it starts to all flow out so smoothly. I swear the team here has had me get so much out from even things that had to do with my parents. I never realized just how much I’ve been holding in yet kept trying to be strong up till this point. I surprisingly got a visitor, one long overdue without screaming hurtful things. I finally had good coffee. Sleep hadn’t been the greatest, I’m still always waking up through the night so I’m sure I look tired. Maybe I am though. Physically, emotionally, and mentally I just feel drained.

I want to get back to how I used to feel, at least it was some sliver of happiness.

[thegoodvybe]