Regina Phalange @smellycatto - Tumblr Blog

When your family do not understand, why you’re “like that”, it is because the trauma they’ve caused you. I do not know how to speak up. When I came to the point when I’m in rage, they call you disrespectful and immature. They always say “just tell us what is your problem.”, you tell them and they choose to invalidate you. So what am I suppose to do?

I want to be honest with myself. I lost myself again, by loving someone. I felt drained. But this year, I am doing my best to bounce back again. I will build my walls again, do what I want, and create something that gives me happiness.

Nothing beats the afternoon nap.

I don’t know how to be alone anymore.

Welcome to the corporate world.

If you don’t want me to include in your life anymore, you are disregarding me, then tell me.

I really don’t know why I’m getting troubled by being honest. I used to lie because I always messed up every time I’m being honest. I thought this time, everything will change, I thought it’s okay to be honest, it’s okay to show the real me. I guess I was wrong, I messed up everything.

I really wanna fight. This mind won’t stop, these thoughts are killing me.

I don’t wanna get used to it. Like living without you, because I might build my walls again.

I didn’t know what happened to me, why am I like this? I’m just doing my best to love and to be loved by someone. Why am I ruining it?

I guess I should stay here in Tumblr, I made a lot of mess lately.

Our love is my sanctuary,

we are not ordinary.

pglang

fast replies are so attractive like damn i got your attention like that

So this is me, when my traumas are triggered. It's been days, but I'm still struggling. I'm exhausted.

Where the best days at? I'm exhausted.

I don't wanna wake up if I'll cry again tomorrow. Man, I'm tired.

I told myself I will not cry tonight, but here I am. Struggling again how will I stop.

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