I’ve got tears in my eyes, my chest is aching. You can bet I have a (well maybe not anymore) warm cup of tea next to me. I forgot it for awhile. It’s going to be bitter.
No, finally, it’s okay. Just what I need. The comfort I often forget, but seek without noticing.
It’s scary to have your insecurities, your fears, reflected back at you. It’s scarier to see them reflected in the eyes of your loved ones. You know, you can easily forget yourself while you’re busy helping them. You just don’t look at their eyes, and you can forget and make them happy.
You don’t talk about your fears. They’re the same, though. It’s funny how fear is more easily bearable when it’s the others’ fear.
You see them growing as humans. You build them wings. You see them fly, high, always higher. You are so proud of them.
However, you haven’t changed. You’re still in the darkness. You’re still paralysed by your fears. You just forget about it all. You’re losing yourself in the love you give to others. Have you noticed it?
And they have too. It’s time for you and I to build our own wings, to fly as high as them.
You can’t be blinded anymore. They’re holding your head between their hands, their forehead against yours. You can’t escape their eyes. You have to look in these living mirrors.
It’s scary, the pain is still there. Haven’t you done everything to erase it?
Once again, you forget these eyes mirror yours. But they won’t let you. They won’t let you forget anymore.
Because you deserve to grow too. It’s more than time for you to understand that. You know the darkness of your heart better than anyone else. We often hear that there’s no light without darkness. In your desperate hours, you forget that there’s no darkness without light either. Where’s the best of you?
It’s in their eyes too. If you never look at them, you won’t know it. You’re maybe tearing up a bit, you’re not sure anymore. There’s a heavy weight on your shoulders. You close your eyes. You wish you could be enough. Enough for what? You don’t know. Just enough.
Their arms around you have replaced the non physical weight. You hear their voice. You will be okay.
Bring out your own galaxy to light, love.
And love yourself as much as you love others.
