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it’s already your birthday in paris. // one year.

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S.S. ✉️ S.E.

SAM: I think you'll need the reminding before I turn into a sad zombie for a day

[HOUUUUURS GO BY]

SEBASTIAN: I know you've been sleeping a lot today and I know you're sleeping right now but I just wanted you to know when you wake up I'm still going to be here and I'm still going to love you.

SEBASTIAN: and I know I'm always going to love you and I've never had that thought about anyone before. not once.

SEBASTIAN: but I love you.

SEBASTIAN: I cancelled my appointments for tomorrow and Tuesday.

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SAM: i want to kiss yours too

SAM: make you feel how much I need you

SEBASTIAN: I can always feel how much you need me.

SEBASTIAN: although I won't say no to you reminding me

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SAM: such a good boyfriend, babe

SAM: you should kiss my wrist when you get here

SEBASTIAN: it'll be the first place I kiss

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SAM: you're perfect. all the time.

SAM: I missed you so much today.

SAM: but it means you can be here tomorrow.

SEBASTIAN: I missed you too.

SEBASTIAN: they wanted the shoot tomorrow, technically, but I knew that wasn't gonna happen because I wouldn't let that happen, even if it meant losing it. I needed to be with you.

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SAM: I will be chapsticking every few minutes until you get here, just in case.

[a beat later]

SAM: would it be ok to need you to be good for me right now and then worry about the other thing later?

SEBASTIAN: yeah, I think that would be okay.

SEBASTIAN: all I want is to be everything and anything you need me to be.

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SAM: I want to give you all those things.

SAM: I want you to kiss me until I can feel it in my toes.

SAM: I want to smile for you!

SAM: and just... be good.

SEBASTIAN: I know you don't want to hear it but I don't need you to be good for me.

SEBASTIAN: I need you to be good for you.

[pause]

SEBASTIAN: but I fully plan on kissing you the second I get through that door and not stopping till tomorrow morning, so if you need to get your chapstick on, now would be the time.

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[needs a minute or two to settle into it]

SAM: that's better

SAM: I think maybe the best thing for me is trying to grab onto what you're feeling as much as I can for a couple days

SAM: instead of making you try to fix me

SEBASTIAN: i'm feeling like...

SEBASTIAN: I can't wait to kiss you.

SEBASTIAN: and I can still taste your lips right now and it's... really making me want to get home.

SEBASTIAN: and I want to feel your hands.

SEBASTIAN: I want to hear the smile in your voice.

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SAM: hey, it's not your fault.

SAM: when I feel weird it's hard for me to figure out if you're worried or if you're annoyed with me.

SAM: can you just super focus on the loving me thing for awhile? like don't think about anything else?

SEBASTIAN: yeah, I can do that.

SEBASTIAN: I'll just remember how you looked in bed this morning, and maybe, like... the brain waves will transmit over to you. and that's what you'll feel.

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