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Leaving Jiraiblr

Hi. I havent been here for a while, and to be honest, i dont think anyone will really see this or remember me. For the two people who do remember me though, this is for you, as short as it may be.

read with caution. excuse the censoring, im paranoid

in a few days, i plan on leaving jiraiblr and abandoning my account. Not fully, ill probably still follow some people on my main, but im not gonna be in the community anymore. I joined this place when I was at an extreme low point in my life, and every time i come back, its during another low point. The first low point was when i first joined and thought everyone in my life was gonna hate me because i was questioning on if i had bpd or not. The second low point was when a then-partner nearly att3mpt3d and i thought i was the cause. The third low point was when i was abu$ed and had a psychotic break due to it. The fourth was when i was gr00med on this exact account.

but, im getting better. Recently i realized im a system, and everything’s begun to make sense, including the bpd which i realize was probably my potential osdd. My psychotic episodes have slowed down and ptsd from my abu$e has gotten easier to manage, and im beginning to move on from the man that said he wanted to make me bl33d for his own pleasure and said that he found my suffering ‘hot’.

i love this community so, so much, and ive met so many amazing people on here. But i want to go back to my main.

2026 has been a hell year for me, and being on this account just makes it worse. This is not a reflection of the jirai community, but rather a reflection of me and my coping habits. And, as long as im on this very account, i cant move past those habits without thinking back to everything that’s happened and was said.

ill probably still follow a handful of people whose accounts i still check regularly, but im not gonna be a jirai on my main. I may still be jirai, but not over there. Im trying to move past the events on my life that brought me to making this account.

probably really shoddy timing here, but if anybody does want to stay in contact or found this post randomly and want to be friends, then lmk. I communicate mostly through discord but ill be open to communication via my main too.

i sincerely wish this community the best. I hope that whoever’s reading this is doing well, and if not, i hope things get better for you :]

(side note, no this is not apart of any current drama or situation going on. I am horribly unsociable on here so i dont really know whats happening atp)

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hearing abt other people’s periods always scares me because what the FUCK are you guys going through while im over here with my 3-day cycles where cramps are only in existence for a third of that time and theres like over a month between each one 😨😨😨😨

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always screaming for help but never asking for it

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as time goes on the more i realize how much of a burden i am

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“mental illness isnt real because illnesses are physical” might be the worst take i have ever heard in my life

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that rush i get when i see those carmine little dots is back

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i know peri from like 7 months ago spent way too long perfecting this blog’s theme but i am SO damn tempted to change it up. To what i have no clue but I’m thinking crk or jinx even though theres probably 10 bajillion blogs with both those themed already (said affectionately)

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2026 peri jiraiblr blog, new and improved with even MORE posts bc i already freaked ppl i know out enough by consistently being a few bad things away from the shadow realm ^_^!!!!

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i dont think that episode from last week ever ended

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i feel pins on my arms

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i feel sojittery

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rip to my friends the past 2 months straight for getting to see my mental breakdowns and psychotic episodes on full display and in real time via my discord status

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oh my god fuck me fuck me fuck me i just keep fucking shit up first i hurt my friends now my mom is mad at me i deserve this i deserve all of this just fuuuck me

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i keep driving away people i love. fuck i shouldve just stuck to repressing everything and never venting to anyone about it

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you’re alive again!!

I AMMM ^_^ 2026 has been insane 4 me so far but ive been checking tumblr more recently so im back to it over here hehe

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what if…. peri march 2026 jiraiblr comeback…..

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im gonna make so many bad decisions tonight