My Personal Account Of Schizophrenia

I am a 21 year old girl living with schizophrenia. This blog is my way of coping.

[sweetschizo-deactivated20190808]

Schizophrenic culture is not being able to explain exactly who They are but being secure in the knowledge that They are out there and that They won’t leave us alone.

[sweetschizo-deactivated20190808]

Hallucinations aren’t always scary. The often are, but hallucinations don’t always include having voices telling you to kill yourself or seeing giant spiders or shadowy monsters.

Sometimes hallucinations are simply weird, sometimes they’re just really random, sometimes they make no sense and sometimes they’re even beautiful, friendly and pleasant.

If your hallucinations aren’t scary, if your hallucinations don’t fit into the scaremongering pictures the media paints of living with psychosis, you’re still valid. Hallucinations don’t have to be scary to be valid.

[schizosupport]

I’ve noticed that people often talk about paranoid delusions, but not so much grandiose delusions. So here’s a reminder:

Grandiose delusions don’t make you bad or self-absorbed. They don’t mean you can’t still struggle with your self-worth. 

Grandiose delusions can be as much of a struggle as other types of delusions. They can make you feel worthless because you’re not living up to your “calling”. They can put you in serious trouble in social situations. They often tie in with, and make paranoid delusions, worse.

Grandiose delusions are real, often painful, and not something shameful that you’re not allowed to talk about.

[oumamichi]

my bucket list:

learn how to function properly like a normal human being

that’s it

that’s all i’m asking for

pls

[snapshotsofpsychosis]

It's 3 am and I am officially having the worst night ever.

[that-eds-life]

If your condition stops you from doing something, then it is a disability. 

If your condition makes it difficult for you to complete a task, then it is a disability.

Dont let others tell you you “arent disabled enough” and invalidate your experience. 

[ahsteria]

destroy the idea that crying is negative. crying is relief, a way to let all of the sadness, anger, joy and emotion out. end the idea that we need to stop crying, stop letting out emotion, stop being human. end it.

[hermitbatalion]

Do you ever try to rationalize one of your delusions but then that just leads you into another delusion? Like fuck man I was just tryna fix it and I made it worse

[cindycwrites]

Schizophrenia Things:

Me: *minding my own business, casually walking down the street*

My paranoia: someone’s following you.

Me: DeFiNeTLy

[depressionarmy]

ever feel totally exhausted but you got absolutely nothing done?

[gayw]

quick guide for non-psychotic people: sanity is not our goal. happiness + stability is. delusions,hallucinations,etc. and happiness are not mutually exclusive. in fact from my experience, completely getting rid of these things isn’t usually realistic. stop treating psychosis like a fate worse then death and stop giving your opinions on how psychotic people chose to deal with their symptoms as long as they are content.

[gayw]

keep this post going. seriously if you arent psychotic please share this with other not psychotic people

[theverymentalman-deactivated201]

Amen.

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if you are reading this you are not in a coma, you are not dead or dreaming. your life is not a lie, your relationships are not a lie, your memories are not a lie. you are not a hallucination or glitch.

you exist.

you are alive. 

the world around you exists and keeps turning.

if you can’t trust all of your senses pick one right now you consider the most reliable and stimulate that. for me this is touch and smell. splash water on yourself. eat something comforting. smell dirt outside. play your favourite song on repeat. stare at one panel of a comic book for a long time.

this world is real and so are you. you are real. so take care of yourself. 

[paranorml-deactivated20160907]

Ok so this seriously hit home with me and kinda startled me. Thank you.

[queerlittlecreature-deactivated]

gah thank you this is so helpful for people who dissociate regularly/have varying psychoses 

[potentialheartofdarkness]

What I need people to understand is that getting out bed is not easy.

Leaving the house is not easy.

Talking to people is not easy.

Ordering food is not easy.

Making phone calls is not easy. 

I need people to understand, that just because something is easy to them, it may not be that easy to others.

[nohrapologist]

can people who don’t have schizophrenia stop with the “maybe people with schizophrenia aren’t crazy after all, maybe they just hear frequencies from another dimension” or some weird shit like that. don’t turn our illness into your wannabe fantasy story. 

[minus-the-negative]

Knowing what’s right and doing what’s right is a jump is easier said than made.

minusthenegative.com

[nonbinarypastels]

your reason for staying alive doesn’t have to be something “deep” or “meaningful”. you don’t have to have some grand plan for the future in order to justify staying alive. there’s no ‘silly’ reason to decide not to kill yourself today.

[schizoalec]

It’s so weird, you go a week, two weeks without any episodes and you’re all like ‘mental illness who?’ And then reality comes crashing back in