I don't want to start a conversation again
I don't want to be left on read either
So i dont want to respond....
Yet i can't help myself wanting to respond so ig I'll do it here
Directed at you but not saying it to you
I do want you to know that i accept your apology, i am still crying and i am still sad but i meant it when i said it was the right choice
I thank you for apologising even if it doesn't fix anything
It helps me snap out of the idea that I'm unloveable or that its all my fault or even that you never loved me
But i do remember you, loving me so much and i love you for having loved me
Ur right ,you dont tell me whats going on in your head and u dont show me if you are hurt or miss me
Realistically i think you do miss me you can't just be fine after this long.. after this connection, cus we really were connected and ive never felt this way with anyone b4
Not having contact at all is such a big step and i look at the damn sand thing on snapchat scared of the streak dissapearing ,having the urge to send something
But it's better this way, the things you've told me hurt so much it feels like I've been cheated on cus i do still hold on to you and to the feelings and to our connection
But that's not your fault ,it's mine
And in order for me to be able to let go of that and really heal i need to be distant i need to cut the ties so i can find some peace
So once again I'll try to make this the last one cus i think everything's been said, and i think it's not fair to you, for me to keep posting about you
No matter if ur hurt or not, it must be a little annoying or bothering, so while trying to find my peace I'll try to give you yours aswell
I miss you and i love you goodbye,
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