.ā¦ ŻĖ iāll find you
summary: youāre having a rough night with your family and need a break, so you leave the house and end up at ellisā place. he doesnāt ask too many questions, he just lets you stay and makes sure you know you donāt have to be alone.
pairings: ellis x fem!reader
a/n: hello guysā¦ i know i always disappear and IM SORRYYYYY but im currently so obsessed with this show! i loved itt and where the fuck are the fics????? so here i am making one i might also make one for ramona because i love her. ramona and ellis might be my favsā¦ UHH ok i hope you guys enjoy my ass writing and donāt forget to send requests!!! omg school starting for me again.. fml.
you hadnāt really planned on going anywhere but you just knew you couldnāt stay in your house anymore. everything your family did was just making out mad and they just judged you for everything and never helped you.
the argument had started over something stupid, like most arguments with your family did. it was always something small that somehow turned into something bigger, and before you knew it, you were standing in your room with your eyes burning and your chest feeling tight.
you grabbed your hoodie and left before anyone could stop you and didnāt even think about where you were going until you were already halfway there.
for some reason, whenever you were having a bad day, he was the first person you thought about. you didnāt even know if he was home, or if heād even want you showing up this late, but you still kept walking.
and by the time you got to his house, you were already regretting it. You stood on his porch for a few seconds, staring at the door.
āfuck.ā you almost turned around because you suddenly thought this was a bad idea.. what if heās not up?
and the second ellis opened the door and saw you standing there, he knew something was wrong. you were trying so hard to keep your face straight, but your eyes were already red and there were still tears sitting on your cheeks. you looked away from him quickly, wiping your face with the sleeve of your hoodie like you could somehow pretend he hadnāt noticed.
āhey,ā he said quietly.
you looked down, wiping your cheek with the sleeve of your hoodie. āhi.ā
ellis didnāt ask what happened. heād known you long enough to know that if you wanted to talk about it, you would. instead, he stepped aside and opened the door wider for you.
you walked past him, keeping your head down as he shut the door behind you. for a second, neither of you said anything. you stood there awkwardly in the middle of his living room, suddenly wondering if coming here had been a stupid idea.
ellis looked at you again before walking over and gently taking your hand. ācome on,ā he said softly. āsit down.ā
he led you over to the couch and sat beside you, leaving enough space for you to move closer if you wanted to. you stared down at your hands, trying to keep yourself together, but the second you felt his hand rest against your back, your eyes started filling up again.
āhey,ā he murmured, holding your hand. āitās okay.ā
you shook your head, trying to laugh it off even though your voice came out shaky. āiām sorry. i donāt even know why iām here.ā
āyou donāt have to be sorry.ā
that makes you look at him
āyou can come here whenever you want.ā he says it in the most soft voice ever.
that was enough to make another tear fall, and you quickly wiped it away. ellis didnāt say anything about it. he just stayed beside you, his hand still resting in yours like he wasnāt going anywhere.
after a few quiet seconds, you leaned against him, resting your head on his shoulder. he shifted slightly so you could get comfortable, then looked down at you.
āyou wanna tell me what happened?ā
you were quiet for a moment, staring down at your hands before finally letting out a shaky breath. āitās just my family. we got into this huge argument and i know itās probably stupid, but i justāi donāt know. i feel like everything is my fault. maybe if i had just kept my mouth shut, none of it wouldāve happened and i wouldnāt have made everything worse.ā
ellis frowned slightly, watching you as you kept talking before you could even give yourself a second to breathe.
āand i know i shouldnāt have left, because now theyāre probably even more pissed at me, and i shouldāve just stayed there and dealt with it. i always do this, i make everything worse and then i run away when things get hard andāā
ellis was looking at you, his expression soft but serious. āitās not your fault.ā
you opened your mouth, but he shook his head before you could argue with him.
āno. donāt do that,ā he said quietly. ādonāt sit here and blame yourself for everything just because youāre upset.ā
you looked away, blinking quickly as your eyes started filling with tears again. ābut i couldāve handled it better.ā
āmaybe,ā he said, not trying to completely dismiss what you were saying. ābut that doesnāt mean you deserved to feel like this.ā
you stayed quiet, rubbing your sleeve between your fingers.
āyou needed a break,ā he continued. āso you took one. thatās all.ā
āi just hate that i canāt fix anything.ā you said looking away from him you just couldnāt look.
āyou donāt have to fix it tonight.ā
but that made you look up at him again..
ellis gave you a small shrug, his hand moving back to your arm. āyou came here because you needed somewhere to go. so stay.ā
your lip trembled slightly, and you quickly looked down again. āiām sorry,ā you whispered.
āfor showing up like this.ā
he almost looked confused by that. āyou donāt have to apologize for coming to me.ā
that finally broke whatever little bit of composure you had left. you covered your face with your hands, letting out a quiet, shaky breath as the tears started falling again.
ellis didnāt say anything for a moment. but seeing you cry?? he didnāt hesitate and pulled you into his arms immediately. you moved closer, letting him pull you into his chest as his arms wrapped around you.
you buried your face against his shoulder, gripping the back of his hoodie while he held you tightly.
ellis rested his chin lightly against the top of your head, one hand moving slowly up and down your back.
you stayed there for a while, tucked against his chest, listening to the quiet sound of his breathing. slowly, the tight feeling in your chest started to fade, and you finally pulled back just enough to look at him.
ellis looked down at you, his hand still resting against your back. neither of you said anything for a moment. you were still close, and you could feel his eyes moving over your face like he was making sure you were actually okay.
āyou okay?ā he asked quietly.
you nodded. āyeah. a little.ā
he smiled softly. āgood.ā
neither of you moved. you looked down for a second, suddenly nervous about how close you still were. when you looked back up, ellis was already looking at you.
āwhat?ā you asked quietly.
you gave him a small smile. āyouāre staring.ā
you laughed quietly, shaking your head. āyouāre weird.ā
āyeah, probably.ā there was another quiet moment, but this one felt different. ellis looked at you for another second before his eyes dropped to your lips. he hesitated, almost like he was giving you the chance to move away.
instead, he leaned closer and kissed you.. the kiss was soft and quick because he wanted to make sure you wanted this and he didnāt just make a mistake. āsorry,ā he murmured. āi justāā
you shook your head, cutting him off. ādonāt be.ā
he smiled a little. you looked at him for another second before quietly saying, ādo that again.ā
ellis didnāt need to be told twice. he leaned in and kissed you again, and this time you smiled against him, your hand lightly gripping the sleeve of his hoodie.
you shift your weight on top of him, and he seems to go still for half a second like heās trying to catch up with how close you are. then his arms tighten on your waist without letting it break. his mouth deepens against yours, slow and warm, like heās savoring every second he gets.
you rock gently, and he makes a soft sound right into the kiss, breathing unevenly as his hand slides to your thigh and holds you there. when you pause, even for a moment, he doesnāt let the moment pass he cups your face with his other hand and presses closer, forehead brushing yours as he kisses you again, longer this time.
and for the first time that night, you didnāt feel like you needed to go anywhere.
OKAY WE AINT GETTING TOO FREAKY NOW- that was so hard to write because i donāt go that far i just do a kiss and call it a day.. lmao. to all my smut writersā¦ ur amazing idk how you do it. KEEP IT UPPPP! but anyways how did you guys like this?? guys be honest is it good because i always donāt like my writing. so let me know.. I HOPE U GUYS ENJOYEDDD AND U CAN SEND MORE REQUESTS FOR STERLING POINT (i do others to not just ellis but promise ramona fic coming soon) BYEE!!!!
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