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Once again, I thought I had something with someone. I tried my best to put my heart and soul into a relationship with this person. And once again it left me burned out and alone. Why don't people see the effort I make for them? Maybe they would appreciate me more. Maybe I would have a real chance at happiness. But I guess that's not how it works. So fuck them.

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Lets make each other cum then take a nap

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You cannot demand respect that you don’t give.

sociopathicasf

False.

Nothing smells quite as good as the winter wind.

How to: Deal with Scorpios

In relation to tonight's events (which is will provide a brief synopsis of later) I decided to make a little PSA. First off, if you think you're gonna piss us off, don't do it. Chances are it's gonna piss us off, or at least irritate us. Secondly, if you find our trigger, hide it deep inside and don't touch it. It's as effective as pulling the trigger to a gun that's pointed right at you. Okay. So tonight's events were as follows... Some coworkers and I went out for pie tonight after closing. It's a tradition of ours, and we had a couple new people to welcome into the crew. It's normally a good time, a great time if we get the waiter that we like. Anyways, the actual dining was fine. As we were leaving the restaurant, a group of people were walking in. Amongst these people was a friend of mine that I've known for like... 8 years. So jokingly I asked "Hey! The hell are you doing here??" And she said hi and walked up and gave me a hug, since it's been a few weeks since we've met up. Some guy in the group immediately steps between her and I, which one of my coworkers responded to by stepping up behind me. The rest of my group got out the restaurant and we all went to our cars. As I was getting in mine, the kid I was giving a ride home informed me that one of my tickets was still open, so I went back inside to take care of that. The guy who stepped up to me earlier was apparently waiting for me, because when I walked in, he came up from the back of the restaurant to find me. He got literal inches from my face and started talking to me. The conversation went something like this... Him- "Hey, can you like... Not talk to my girl like that?" Me- "Uh, no. She's my friend, and frankly, I can say whatever I damn well please, sarcastically or otherwise" Him- "Oh, haha, thanks man." (Him acting like I agreed to do as he said really set me off) Me- "No, you don't understand. I'm not going to do that" Him- "Uh what? Why?" Me- "Because, I don't know who you are, you don't matter to me. Therefore I do not give a shit about you or your wants" And that was the end of our conversation. A bit later, the friend in question told me that he was in fact aware of our history and was trying to control who she talked to, specifically me. That... REALLY pissed me off. If you're gonna get in my face, and act entitled enough to try and control not only my friends, but me as well, you better be prepared for hellfire of epic proportions. Shortly after her telling me that, he took her phone and blocked me on that particular messenger. At this point I was fired up and ready to crack some heads. I really needed a female mediator because being surrounded by just testosterone only fueled my thirst for this punks blood. It was just... Ugh. Long story short, don't fuck with us Scorps.

#scorpio #Scorpio life

Scorpios vs the Fire Signs

I've been thinking about this, and I may have already touched on it. But fire signs and water signs should either be great matches or terrible ones. Personally, I've never seen a good matchup. I may be a little biased, but here's my two cents... Both my parents are fire signs, and I don't really interact with either of them. I live with one, and we... Tolerate eachother. We get along. The other one... Jesus. It's been 18 years of arguing, violence, and money wars. But here's what gets me. I raised myself after the age of about 6. Aside from food, water, and shelter of course. All the emotional and psychological stuff, that was all me. Maybe why I'm a bit fucked up, but still. Having to take care of myself when I had two perfectly available parents doesn't seem fair. But all the same, when they try to be my parents, we just butt heads. We CANNOT get along for extended periods of time. It's just not happening. Other water signs might have better luck, other, lesser (sorry kiddos) Scorps might have better luck. But ones that feel this shit in their bones... I just don't see us getting along with fire signs too well.

#scorpio #scorplife #zodiac

What I just realized is... We must be very lucky to avoid death every single day. We've made it this far. But death? He only needs to get lucky once. How much time do you think you have before your luck runs out?

When I stopped reading books, I started reading people.

I met you at a crossroads, confused by my own lies. I want so badly to talk with you more but I know that isn't a smart choice. I'm a mix between a basket case and a machine and I don't know what that means to anyone. But what really matters is what that means to you. The only thing I can be is the best me I can... I just hope that's enough someday.

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Truth

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As a philosophy major and an agnostic-atheist, I love this.

Kisses shared between Scorpios are shallow. Not shallow and meaningless, but not deep either. They're shallow in that they are with who they want more than anything right now. At the moment they are kissing, they want to be nowhere else with anyone else. It's just them, but the kisses are still shallow, cautious if you will. Because even though that's who they want, they're still Scoprios, they'll still change their mind at the flick of a switch, and either one can go from wanting the other to wanting to snap their neck.

You

It was always you... But you don't know that. Since the day I met you I have been addicted in a very unhealthy way. You have no idea how important you are to me. To you, I am just another person who fell for the pretty girl, but just a bit more special right off the bat. Even after all the shit we went through, after the silence, after the awkward reunion, it was always you. I still going home wishing you were there. I still catch myself thinking of you when certain songs are on. I still want to call you and say all the stupid things I really shouldn't. But you don't know that...

Darkness

Some people think they are dark because they haven't seen darkness for what it is.

Some people know they are dark because they have seen the void.

As for me... Only the devil knows how dark I am,

For he is the only one who has seen my true colors.

#darkness #scorpio #scorpiopost #late night thoughts

And as I dance with Death, I make sure he knows that I'm playing for keeps, and I don't plan on losing.

My name is Death. When I come to collect you, please be ready to go. I don't want to have to drag you away.

We do what we do for a reason. Even if that reason is "we want to". People come and go in our lives. When we combine the two, there's a pretty strong indication that we shouldn't be upset when we lose someone. That's just the nature of the beast. Now you can either wallow in self pity, or you can grow a pair and learn to coexist with said beast. It's all up to you.