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“The only darkness we should allow into our lives is the night, for even then, we have the moon.”

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ohmacabre:

her eyes welled up a little and she pulled at the ends of her sleeves, pulling them over her small hands as she sucked in a nervous breath. ‘ i’ve – been having a hard time, some nude photos circulated and…i dropped out of college and dante’s whole thing then he threatened to leave…me. ’ she said softly, her voice growing hoarse. ‘ my parents are never around and dante thinks i’m selfish when – i want them to be. ’ she squeaked ‘ and my girlfriend has a boyfriend and….everything’s too much and i – i’ve been thinking about – ending it, you know?? i c-c-can’t take everything anymore.’

Sofie tried to keep her expressions neutral as Josie told her what was going on. Her heart ached for the girl and she wanted to help her in every way she could. “I’m so sorry that happened to you, Jose. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. Did you report to the police that someone sent your pictures? I’m sure there’s some sort of law against that.” Sofie grabbed her hands and squeezed them gently, “Does he know you dropped out? You should talk to him. You know he loves you more than anything.” She bit her lip and shook her head, “Your life is worth so much, Josie. You’re so young and there’s so much life ahead of you. There’s this poem I read once and it always sort of helps me when I’m down. It’s “if you were born with the weakness to fall, you were born with the strength to rise.” I don’t know if that’s the full quote or not, but it gets the point across. Why don’t you stay here for a few nights and we can try to find you a good doctor to talk to? I won’t tell Dante if you agree to talk to someone.”

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ohmacabre:

she went into her apartment and followed her in, moving to the couch ‘ no, it’s okay i ate this morning, thank you. ’ she said softly. ‘ i’m sorry if this is weird for you with dante, my mom’s aren’t around and dante…i can’t talk to him. ’

“Hey, it’s not weird at all, I promise.” Sofie nodded at her decline of food and sat next to her on the couch. “You can always talk to me. What’s going on?”

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fksam:

“I’ve never read it, what’s it about?” He asked curious.

“It’s this dystopian novel that seems like a utopia, but it’s not. Basically, everything in this society is the same. The family units are the same, the food is the same, et cetera. They have this ceremony when kids basically graduate and get assigned jobs, right? So, the main character Jonah gets assigned to be the receiver of memories and he finds out that the society he lives in is really messed up and he decides to try to change it so things are like they were before or how they are now. Does that make sense?”

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emma-harper:

Looking at the other, Emma gave a shrug of her shoulders. Personally, she found The Giver boring when compared to it’s sequels. However, she was willing to let the other argue her case. “The Giver? Really? Why that one over Gathering Blue? Or The Messenger?”

“It was the first dystopian novel I ever read and it really helped me to learn that the idea of sameness would never work. It made me realize how important it is to embrace our differences. Whether it’s personality or cultural differences. I also found parts of it heart breaking. The characters never knew how wrong their way of life was because they didn’t know any different, so you can’t really blame them for their actions. And the ending! There’s no way of knowing if it’s real or if it was just a mirage. I never read any of her other books, but maybe I will.”

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ohmacabre:

she looked up at sofie and frowned a little. ‘ i - i don’t have anyone else to talk to. ’ she whispered. ‘ and i’m – having a really hard time and all the stuff online says to talk to someone and i didn’t know who else to go to. ’ she mumbled sheepishly.  

Sofie was instantly filled with worry and pulled the girl into her apartment. “That’s okay. You know you can always talk to me. What’s going on, hermana?” Sofie shut the door and walked into the living room. “Do you want anything to drink? When’s the last time you had something to eat?”

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“I think I’ve read The Giver at least fifty times, and it’s definitely my favorite book of all time.”

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ohmacabre:

things kept getting heavier and harder, everytime she thought she was close to getting help - something happened and pushed her down further. she found herself at sofie’s place, knocking lightly, wondering if this was even okay to go sofie after everything but she was trying anyway. @sofie-castillo

Sofie had been trying to ignore everything that had been going on after she found out Dante had cheated on her. She went to school and work and home and that was about it. She was still unsure of the status of her relationship, she was waiting on Dante to figure his stuff out. She was a little shocked to hear someone knock on her door and even more shocked to see Josie on the other side. “Josie? What are you doing here? Is everything okay?”

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A lo hecho, pecho||Dante&Sofie

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danteramircz:

“Nothing! You didn’t do anything, Sof. It was all me, okay? All my fault. I don’t know why I can’t just resist him, but I’m trying to change that, I swear!” Dante exclaimed. “No, I don’t wanna be with Wesley! He’s a backstabber and an asshole.. and he’s a dude@ I’m not gay! I don’t wanna be with a dude! I’m just.. temporarily bewitched by him or something. I mean, I was. It’s over now.” He insisted, grabbing his girlfriend’s hand and squeezed it gently to reassure her. “I dont’t want us to break up, but I don’t wanna hurt you either… I guess I just don’t know anymore what I do want.” he sighed, biting his teeth down on his bottom lip. 

“Dante, you had sex with two different men. I’ve obviously done something to make you bored? Was I too boring in bed? I’m sorry,” she murmured. Sofie squinted her eyes at his next statement. “Are you bisexual, then? I’m not being accusatory, it won’t make a difference to me if you aren’t straight. I love you because you’re you.” Sofie squeezed his hand back and met his gaze, “Then what are we going to do?”

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gabrielhughes:

“As much as I appreciate your company, I think it’d be a waste of your time. Honestly, I’m fine.” He said, rubbing his thumb over his bruised knuckles. Getting into brawls in the middle of the street had never been an enjoyment for him, but it was necessary sometimes when it came to his side job. “You should be worried about the other guy.”

“Your head is bleeding, so I think you’re a little less fine than you think. Your body is probably too full of adrenaline for you to even realize. I have a first aid kit back at my apartment. Let me clean you up a bit and make sure you aren’t going to slip into a coma if you go to sleep and I’ll let you go.”

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take-no-prisoners-and-kick-ass:

“Parents suck, did you know that?” Thomas grumbled as he shuffled through the paperwork in the file. “Never work with your parents, not even one of them, and especially not your dad.”

“I can’t relate, sorry. I have a fantastic relationship with my parents,” she shrugged. “I’m assuming you have a problem with something your dad did? Have you tried talking to him?”

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A lo hecho, pecho||Dante&Sofie

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danteramircz:

“Yea, I know, okay? I’m a giant hypocrite! It’s not like I choose to get angry over other guys flirting with you! I just know what dudes are like, and.. and I just don’t want them to steal you away or something!” he huffed, although he realized he had no right whatsoever to be upset with Sofie. When she told him she wanted a break, his heart sank. “What.. What does that mean? A-Are you going to be with another guy then?” he faltered, a fearful look clouding his face. “Fuck, I really messed everything up, didn’t I?” he mumbled softly. “I… Do you want me to leave?”

“But I would never cheat on you, Dante. I guess that’s the difference between you and me. I’m just trying to understand why you did this. What did I do wrong?” She shrugged her shoulders and shook her head, “No. I don’t know. I’m just trying to figure out what you want. If you want to be with Wesley, I’m not going to stop you. I just don’t think I could handle it if you lied to me. I know there are things I can’t give you, so I’d prefer if you were just honest with what you’re doing.” Sofie bit the inside of her cheek and shrugged again. “I don’t want you to leave. I want you to do what you want. I’m willing to give you another chance if that’s what you want.”

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piercexhadley:

Hadley was typing away at her computer, an idea for a story popped into her head and she’d be damned if she let it go. This was usually fine, except this time she was typing while walking. As expected, the writer stumbled into someone. Luckily, she caught her laptop before it shattered on the ground.

“Crap, I’m sorry!” She hurriedly apologized.

Sofie was running late to work which almost never happened. She prided herself on being punctual, so she wasn’t paying any attention to her surroundings. Her focus was only on getting in the door on time, she almost didn’t notice when someone ran into her, “It’s fine, I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going.”

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A lo hecho, pecho||Dante&Sofie

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danteramircz:

“No.. not really.. I didn’t think about how you would feel. I didn’t think about anything. I just did it, I guess. Without thinking whatsoever…” he admitted softly, hanging his head in shame. Her reaction fueled him with anxiety, as he really didn’t want to lose Sofie. “No! No, I never said I don’t want us! I just.. I don’t know what I want, okay? I really do love you, but I’m.. confused right now. Everything is happening so fast, and Wesley outed me the whole fucking world…” Dante swallowed hard. “I don’t wanna lose you. I really don’t. I.. I’ve thought about leaving until the dust has settled or something.” He knew that essentially meant running away from his problems, but it was the only thing he could think of right now. “I truly am sorry, Sofie. I hope you can at least trust me on that…”

“So, you can cheat on me and not even think how it might make me feel; but I can’t even look at another boy without you getting jealous? That just doesn’t make sense to me, Dante.” Sofie sat back down on his bed and brought her knees chest. “Maybe we should take a break until you figure out what you want. Or maybe we can try a more open relationship, I don’t know. I just don’t want to lose you.” She frowned at his next statement, “You can’t just run away from the hard stuff. It’ll still be here no matter how far you go and how long you stay.” Sofie nodded and looked away from him, “I can work towards forgiving you, but it might be a while.”

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A lo hecho, pecho||Dante&Sofie

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danteramircz:

Dante swallowed hard. “With Wesley? I.. I don’t know. Since we were teenagers, I guess. We started fooling around, but it wasn’t anything serious. Then he moved to California after graduation and whenever he visited, or when I visited him, it happened as well, like, occasionally…” his cheeks colored pink as he spoke about it, and he felt incredibly ashamed for his actions. “But not since we were together, I swear! Just.. that one time on the beach. I was upset because uh.. I slept with Brett, and I was scared he was going to tell you about it and then Wes started kissing me and like…” he bit his teeth down on his bottom lip as he met her gaze again. “It’s not a front! I love you! I really do! I’m not gay!” he insisted, tears welling up in his eyes again. “Lo siento… por supuesto te amo. No lo dudes nunca.”

“So, you only cheated twice since we’ve been together? That’s not okay, Dante. What was going through your head when you were making that choice? Did you even think about how I would feel or were you only thinking about yourself?” She stood up and started pacing in front of his closet. She was at a loss for what to say or do at this point. “I love you so much, but if you don’t want this. If you don’t want us, I’m not going to keep you from your happiness. I’m not going to be the selfish one here. I’ve done a lot of praying these last few days, and I think I’ll be okay after a while. My heart is going to be completely broken, but I’ll heal. I don’t think I could live with myself if we continued this relationship and you were unhappy.” Sofie walked over to Dante and looked at him with tear-filled eyes, “What do you want to do?” she whispered so her voice wouldn’t break.

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alison: wanna meet somewhere??

sofie: i can't drive right now, but you can come over to my apartment.

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theresaisms:

    “I’m sorry to hear that, S.”

“Yeah, me too.”