(171115) Wonho’s Fancafe update
당신에게 어떤 말부터 시작을 해야 할지 모르겠지만 부족한 어휘 라도 조금은 진지하게 하고 싶은 말은 사실 엄청 많아요 오늘이 특별한 날이 된다기보다는 늘 있던 우리들의 시간 중에 하나라고 생각을 하려 했는데 그럴 필요가 없는 것 같아요 몬베베 가 자신을 위해서가 아닌 우리들 멤버들을 위해서 만들어준 1위 어떻게 소중하지 않을까요.. 멤버들이 가져야 할 1위가 아니고 몬베베들이 가져야 할 것 그런 거 같아요 사실 몬베베들이 오늘을 기대하고 있다고 얘기를 들었었어요 그래서 속으로 정말 미안하고 심장이 두근두근 뛰었어요 우리 팬들이 얼마나기대할까 우리가 웃는 걸 얼마나 보고 싶어 할까 근데 그걸 보여줄 수가 없는데.. 하고 제 자신이너무 초라하게 느껴졌어요 아무것도 해줄 수가 없는에 무기력하게 그리고 되게 무섭게 다가왔거든요 이럴 때마다 앞에서 몬베베들이 초롱초롱 눈빛 내면서 쳐다봐줄 때 그리고 일위 발표 후 희비가 교차될 때 마다 난 정말 괜찮은데.. 난 진짜 괜찮은데 몬베베는 슬퍼하지 마 왜 그래라고 말하고 싶었어요 절대 우리가 고생 해왔던 것들이 스쳐 지나가서 눈물을 보인게 아니에요 우리가 고생했다고 말 하지말아요 우리는 고생한적도 없고 힘든적도없어요 늘 내팬들과 함께 여서 행복 했었고 내가 이런 행복을 누려도 되나 싶었던 마음을 내가 이렇게 사랑받는 사람이구나 라고 바꿔준 몬베베 자나여어 정말 많이 사랑하고 고맙고 그어떤일이 있어도 아프게 하고싶지않은 사람들아 모든게 후회가아닌 즐거웠던 추억으로 남을수있게 해주는 그런 사람이 될게요 -늘 더 좋은 환경 더 좋은자리 더 좋은무대 좋은소리만 듣게 해주지 못했던 원호가 앞으로 더좋은것들만 보게 해주기위해
To you I don’t know how I should start, but to be honest I have a lot of words, no matter how lacking they are, I want to seriously say. More than today becoming a special day, I tried thinking of it as that one time out of the times we had; but I don’t think I need to. Monbebe’s didn’t make first place happen because of self confidence, but they made it happen for us, us members. How is it not important.. I don’t think it’s a first place us members should have, but something Monbebes should have. Honestly, I heard that Monbebes were anticipating and waiting for this day, so in the inside I was really sorry and my heart was racing and I was nervous “How much are our fans looking forward to this?” “How much do they want to see us smile?” “But I can’t show them that”.. And I felt that my self confidence was so poor. And the fact that I couldn’t do anything hit me in the face very scarily and made me feel powerless. Every time things are like this and Monbebe’s are looking at us brightly and after the first place announcement and every time there’s a mixture of joy and sorrow I wanted to say I’m really okay.. I’m seriously okay Monbebe don’t be sad why are you being like that We’re never brushing by what we worked hard on and showing tears. Don’t say we’ve worked hard. We’ve never worked hard and we’ve never struggled. I was always happy because I was together with my fans, it was Monbebe’s who changed my thoughts of whether I was allowed to enjoy this happiness And made me think, “I’m a person being loved like this.” I really love you all so much and I’m so thankful and no matter what happens, I will be sure to become a person that doesn’t make you guys hurt and that leaves behind joyful, not regretful memories -Wonho, who couldn’t always give a better environment, a better seat, a better stage, and a good voice to listen to, will make sure to let you all see only better things.
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