165 pounds

I no longer care what happens to me.

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cover the middle and you go faster, cover the outside and you go slower

DA FUCK

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purple-dinosawr95:

What is this witchcraft?? :o

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CURRENTLY:


 [] anorexic


 [x] ednos 


 [] bulimic
 (tendencies)

 [] living off laxative/diet pills

 
[x] hungry

 
[x] thirsty

 
[] drinking something

 
[] Under 100lbs

 [x] fasting/starving myself


PEOPLE:

 
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic


 [x] have called me fat

 
[] have said I’m skinny

 [x] have said I’m ugly


 [x] have said I’m pretty

 
[x] spread rumors about me

 
[x] forced me to eat


 [x] say I eat too much


[] wish I’d eat more




I WISH:


 [x] I was THIN


 [x] I had a better body


 [x] I didn’t have to eat

 
[x] I could control myself

 
[x] I was under 100lbs

 
[x] I could avoid food


 [x] I could hide what I am


 [x] I wasn’t fat


 [x] I was pretty



I LOVE:


 [] feeling hungry


 [x] seeing a difference when fasting

 
[] shaking


 [] feeling airy

 
[x] losing weight


 [] being anorexic/bulimic

 
[] coffee


 [] green tea

 
[] diet pills


 [x] being able to turn down food


 [x] feeling good about myself



APPEARANCE:


 [x] I am shorter than 5’4

 
[x] I think I’m ugly 


 [] I have many scars

 [x] I wish my hair was a different colour


[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color


 [] I have a tattoo

 
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance

 
[] I have/had braces

 
[] I wear glasses/contacts

 
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free

 
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger


 [] I have more than 2 piercings


 [] I have piercings in places besides my ears

 
[] I have freckles



FAMILY:


 [] I’ve sworn at my parents

 
[] I’ve run away from home


[] I’ve been kicked out of the house

 
[] My biological parents are together


 [] I have a sibling less than one year old

 
[x] I want to have kids someday

 
[] I’ve had children


 [] I’ve lost a child/baby

 
[] I can’t have children 



 RELATIONSHIPS:

 
[x] I’m single


 [] I’m in a relationship


 [] I’m engaged

 
[] I’m married

 
[] I’ve gone on a blind date

 
[] I’ve been the dumpie more than the dumper

 
[x] I miss someone right now


 [x] I have a fear of abandonment

 
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship


 [] I’ve gotten divorced

 
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back

 
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t


 [x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did


 [] I’ve kept something from a past relationship


 [] I’ve been ‘the other woman’



SEXUALITY:


 [] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex 


 [] I’ve had a crush on a teacher


 [x] I am a cuddler


 [] I’ve kissed in the rain

 
[] I’ve hugged a stranger


 [] I have kissed a stranger



BAD TIMES:

 
[] I’ve consumed alcohol

 
[] I regularly drink


 [] I can’t swallow pills


 [] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water


 [] I have been diagnosed with depression

 [x] I shut others out when I’m upset

 
[x] I take anti-depressants

 
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS

 
[] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it


 [] I’ve hurt myself on purpose


 [] I’ve woken up crying

 
[x] I’ve fallen asleep crying

 
[] I’ve lost weight


 [x] I’ve gained weight


 [x] My weight holds me back

 
[x] Weight consumes me

 
[] I’m at my thinnest

 
[x] I’m at my biggest


 [] I’ve lost weight and kept it off

 [x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back


 [x] My weight affects my mood

 [x] I weigh myself daily


 [x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me

 
[x] I hate compliments


 [x] I want to tell people to “stop lying” when they compliment me


 [x] I feel bigger than people who are my size


 [x] I feel happy when I’m hungry

 
[x] I get depressed after I eat

 
[x] I’ve skipped a meal


 [x] I’ve thrown food away


 [x] I’ve spit food out

 
[x] I’ve fasted


 [] I’ve taken diet pills

 
[] I’ve used laxatives

 
[x] I’ve purged

 
[] I exercise

 
[] I exercise so I can eat

 
[] I work out secretly


 [] I work out daily


 [] I’ve fainted from exhaustion



I’VE DONE:

 
[] Weed

 
[] Cigarettes

 
[] Alcohol

 
[] Caffeine pills


 [] Diet pills

 
[x] Pain killers

 
[x] Sleeping pills 


 [] Anti-depressants (prescription)

 
[] Mood stabilizers 


 [] Anti-psychotics


 [] Benzos

 
[] Ecstasy

 
[] LSD


 [] mushrooms

 
[] Speed


 [] Cocaine

 
[] Other

HABITS:

 
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
 — as secret as possible

 [x] I look at thinspo


 [] I count calories

 
[] I’ve had negative intake days

 
[x] I avoid food

 
[x] I hate food

 
[x] I love food

 
[] I want to be this way


 [x] I don’t want to be like this — but I do at the same time

 
[x] I wish I could have more control


 [x] losing weight is my top priority


 [] I am in treatment

[x] I’m doing this for me

 
[x] I’m doing this for someone


 [x] I’m doing this to prove myself

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