So, after a month of realizing that I should help myself, and not drown / criticize / humiliate, I can say that the results have already become better! My mental state is still unstable due to the unaccustomed, but damn it, the praise technique has given its results! So I will keep this blog from time to time to monitor my condition, without the risk that I will lose the physical media in the form of diaries again.
- I have become a little more confident in myself, and now I can almost draw every day as before without damaging my hand.
- It became easier for me to look at myself from the outside, without feeling ashamed.
-Start treating my art easier! This is probably the most important thing, because I was constantly criticizing every line and my style, which did not become "neat" in any way. It was terribly stressful, because my work time was not shortened, but only increased, because I could not accustom myself to standards. That's stupid, isn't it? the standard in drawing🤌🤌🤌
In short, as I was a sketchman, it remained that way, and I will stop trying to change this in favor of commerce and look up to Asians, because this only worsened my condition.
Now I draw a little more calmly, dividing my attention into two - commissions and my sketches, without stupid oppression, alternating between each other to achieve balance in my soul ☺️
Thank you all for feedback!💚
