Here we go again..
It's been 15 days since we talked. The day we've decided to let go everything we build together. I didn't want to do this but he really wants to be free. Even though I have alot of love to offer, the things is he doesn't want to receive it all. Not anymore.
Fifteen lonely days passed by and here I am still thinking of him. Is he even thinking about me? Does he cry himself to sleep. Does he even thinks about me? Can he still remember those good times we've shared together? But I guess the answer is no. A big no. I know that he doesn't think about me anymore. He even fall asleep safe and sound. And he is starting to create new memories with his new girl.
Everything gone too fast. I didn't even had a chance to prepare for this break-up. I never anticipated this day will happen. Everytime I think about him, I kept on asking myself what did I do wrong? Am I not enough? Even if I asked myself these questions a thousand times, I will never get the answer that I need. He left me because he's too tired. He left me because we can't jive anymore. He left me because that girl he is flirting right now is more outrageous than I used to be.
I am here, all alone. Thinking of the ways on how to get over him. Ways to forget him. I tried so hard but at the end of the day, I will still feel this emptiness and sadness. How long will I suffer? How long will I cry everytime he pops up on my mind? I don't want to feel this anymore. I just want to be happy. I just want my old self back. I just want to get over him.
I kept on begging to God that He remove this pain. I know He's listening but I guess I must go through with this process. I must endure all the pain and see God's glory after this test. I must know that this is part of God's purpose.
My prayer is that God will help me see Him in every situation I am into. That in times of trials like this, He is the one whom I seek the most.
