I don't know how to play solitaire, I just like the play on words..
solitary hooman in this big ol' world
I AM A MINOR, PLZ DON'T BE WEIRD
Call Me: Sol , Tairy , Kane or Kanaan
[ closeted ] bigender // they/them plz
Agnostic
Percy Jackson, Rachel Elizabeth Dare, and Leo Valdez (Percy Jackson books)
Mulan (1998), Meg (aka Megara, Hercules 1997), Chel (The Road to El Dorado, 2000), and Esmeralda (Hunchback of Notre Dame 1996), Audrey Rocio Ramirez (The Lost City of Atlantis 2001)
I think I might have autism. This is NOT meant to be an offensive post to people who many autism. I'm genuinely curious and would like too know and have advice. Please don't slander me. This is an undiagnosed inquiry, and I'd like to know your thoughts.
I am very good in reading/art subjects. I can easily space out when reading/drawing. I am quite obsessing and am an avid reader.
On the other hand, I am very very bad at math and chemistry. Unless I get help from a tutor and am walked through it personally, and study it intensely, I fail. I hate math.
I am not good at biology either. I have no stomach for gore or anything like that.
I easily zone out. I forget things super quickly unless I like them, then I'll remember them for a long time. People usually think I'm lying or being sarcastic but I'll genuinely forget things in a few seconds if I'm not paying attention.
I suck at remembering directions/instructions for tasks. I get lost. A lot.
I'm bad with social cues. I've heard I talk too much, miss when people are uncomfortable or bored, and tend to make rude comments without noticing.
I'm either very loud and hyper or I don't talk at all. No in betweens.
I fidget a lot. This includes rolling fabric between my fingers, interlacing and releasing my hands, curling my upper lip, wrinkling my nose, twirling my wrists and cracking my wrists and neck.
I hyperfixate on things and once I do they become my sole obsession. It's usually fictional characters. I will go all out, make an imaginary world, a persona, ships, read fanfiction, watch and re-watch the series...then once I get hyperfixated on something else I repeat the process all over again.
I get very uncomfortable in certain clothing or when I'm wearing something I don't like, or if I have something in my shoes. I can't focus on anything else until that's fixed. I will be very cranky/irritable if I'm uncomfortable. It's the texture, think.
The same with my food. If it has a slimy/thick/fatty texture I can not eat it. I will gag or throw it up. I have tried and I can't do it.
I get heavy anxiety around strangers. I will overthink what they say and do and meditate on their opinions.
My father always said their was nothing wrong with me and it was my own laziness. But idk since he's kind of also a token homophobic/transphobic Catholic cop cishet abusive misogynist so...not really a reliable opinion.