My Unspoken Thoughts

Keeping it simple.

[solitudeandserenity]

the fine line was evident

to myself is whom i can only confess

this feelings are honest

and let the wind take care of the rest

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after all, it’s still you

i missed you

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You were a beginning,

not a loss -

a quiet yes to myself

spoken through you

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I don’t resent what we didn’t become

I carry it like a pressed flower

proof that something soft

once grew there

even it it was never meant to last

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What hurts is that the connection

was never given a shape

never allowed to be real enough

to survive or shatter.

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And some days

that hurts more

than a clean goodbye ever could.

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Still, I carry you

like a song I never played out loud,

something soft and unfinished,

echoing where something more

might have lived.

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just the slow realization

that what I was mourning

was a possibility, not a person

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We never gave the connection

a chance to exist

long enough to fail properly.

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I built a bond out of moments

too small to defend themselves:

shared glances,

almost-texts,

sentences I rehearsed

and swallowed whole.

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You were never mine,

and never asked.

I learned your laughed instead,

the tilt of your head when you listened,

the way my name sounded

when you said it without knowing

it mattered.

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I liked you

in the way you like a window at dusk -

not to enter,

just to stand near

and feel something change.

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it’s just basic human decency in the end. ending this derange thoughts.

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Time is ticking

Just by thinking

To let you go will be near

Tears sounds like shatters wish you’ll hear

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These unexplainable bond..

Platonic or what?

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I cannot take these thoughts

It continues to lingers

My unspoken soliloquy

Right now, I want to tell you how I feel

[solitudeandserenity]