MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE?
after much contemplation, i’ve decided it’s finally time to drop solji and rookies as a whole. it’s something that i’ve thought about since june 2018 when i had first nearly dropped this girl but couldn’t because my internet went out. however, there’s no use continuing to put off the inevitable. i’ve been struggling to write for her for months, and despite the fact that becoming an idol would bring new development to her, it would also make it that much harder to plot with anyone outside of her group. plus, debut was always the goal and as of monday, november 18, 2019, we have reached that goal.
on top of that, rookies has always been a bittersweet place for me. it’s a place that i’d enjoyed at one point in time, but around the time when i had first dropped the rp back in 2016, i had been deeply hurt by a few people here and while it’s a story of the past and that i try my best to keep there, i think some of that hurt continues to manifest itself now.
not only that, but there are a lot of things about how this place has been run that i’ve had issues with, particularly with how more serious issues are handled as well as the transparency of how events are determined. i’ve had my name revealed in conversations with people whom i had issues with by the admod team and while those people probably already had some idea of who had issues with them, there was no reason to have brought up my name outrightly. or if it was necessary, it would have been nice to have been asked in advance. i was told that, if ever that person might come to bother me, the admods would watch my back, but the more i think about it the more i wonder if i was just told what i wanted to hear. i was still getting stalked all the way up until i dropped the other muse. maybe that was the revenge that person sought? or maybe it wasn’t the person at all and now i had just made someone else upset? i don’t know and i guess i’ll never know 100%.
anyway, the point is that it’s not fun anymore and i’m getting too old to be wasting my time not having fun. i’ve watched myself become more and more bitter over time and the toxicity of this place has literally seeped into me. it’s time to cut it off, and i’m honestly incredibly relieved to be taking my exit.
i'm most sorry to the people who really did make an effort to try and be my friend here ( i hope you know that that doesn’t have to end here even if my time here has ). i’m also very thankful to all of you who chose to write with me throughout all these years. while i’ll probably not be keeping my current krp twitter, i always have my personal twitter and discord that you can ask for and would love to keep in touch if you’d like. i’m also not 100% gone from the krp world. but i’ll be signing off as mc / jae for now. if we meet again as someone else, then i look forward to that meeting ( you are 100% welcome to ask me for info but i might not be ready to share just yet to everyone. my intentions are not to hide, but all i really want at this time is to focus on my writing without additional worries so i hope you’ll respect my decision )
with that, goodbye forever rookies ~
ic-wise, i’ve toyed with the idea of solji accidentally having gotten knocked up again or something happening with her son that made her realize that the idol life wouldn’t be possible to stay in anymore. her entire life has just been a series of bad timing events, but that’s okay. i think she’s happy nonetheless. :>
