Time is always flowing

Old man. 27, from New York, Loves 80s anime, Scholar . 

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Concept art for Skies of Arcadia, AKA Eternal Arcadia / エターナルアルカディア (Dreamcast - Sega - 2000) Source: Eternal Arcadia Gōka Visual Book

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My two days out of 2 week japan trip. 

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The mystery of Oria-9

What ever happened to this mysterious artist who deactivated her tumblr in 2015. The mystery continues. Please PM me if you went into hiding. lol.

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Good ole’ San Fran.  See more at: https://followingfrances.wordpress.com/2016/07/09/san-francisco/

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Rant of the night- in my opinion

 I have a deep problem with people that say they will fight for equal rights for minorities and yet refuse to date one based on the fact that they will be judged by their families or parents. In this whole case, YOU are part of the problem. YOU are part of the problem because YOU let someone else’s judgement get in YOUR way of what could be a potential happy relationship. Sure YOU may truly believe these certain groups of people should have individual rights but truly behind closed curtains and behind YOUR private life, YOU won’t even subject yourself to ignore or educate YOUR parents because you believe they still have some say in YOUR life based on who they want YOU to date.  So in that case, YOU can humbly fuck off. Happiness is universal, be who you want to be with. Stop questioning whether or not your parents will accept some individual because his nose is too big, eyes are too wide or they don’t share the same facial qualities or skin color that align with what YOUR parents deem to be acceptable.  Once again, this is just like... my opinion dude.  Glad to be away from fuck shit Georgia. Backwater state. 

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Hmm, one part of me is telling me I should do it and another is saying don’t. I’m not going to even try and ask this girl on a date. Seems like she’s happy just as she is. I know when it’s time to lay low and I should do just that. I can already tell she wouldn’t be interested anyways so why even bother? Pretty sure she’s with her ex anyways. I cannot even fathom me being with her in the first place so why even try?  Time to lay low. 

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How far will I go.

   I’m not sure...

      I know one thing is for sure...

          I will not let it happen to me again...

              Not here... I won’t let it... I am destined to walk my path alone... 

                  Soon I will welcome thee.

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Sometimes I feel like since I was born with this facial construct, my chances to impress members of the opposite sex is close to none. Doesn’t matter the race...to Black women I’m too weird and nerdy, to White women I’m too awkward, to Asian women I’m not of their race or not white. I feel as though my story is going to come to an end soon before I reach 30. For some reason, I’m okay with that. I feel like I’m living in a world where people are so wrapped up in their own delusion that they forget what humanity exactly is.  Blinded by words of false encouragement...”You are good looking.” “You’re not ugly.” “You are an attractive fellow.”  Each time I hear these fake words, I’m only reminded in the sheer judgement that I know 100% the people who feed me these words would NOT be interested in me in the slightest. Whenever I hear this, I know damn well you are lying. It’s all fake.  

Yet alone, this is my own banter through the seemingly unfortunate experiences I’ve encountered. Curse my life to be put into this body and on this planet.  If there’s one thing out of all the religions I fear, be it not hell, but reincarnation. I cannot fathom the experience of living on this planet for a long number years once again. I hope when I do die, it is the same as before I was born. A vast stretch of emptiness and no telling of self awareness. Until the age of 29 I will keep looking for my purpose, if there is one. If not, so be it. 

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I’m almost there...

It’s almost time... Soon, I will start a new experience.

I am ready to leave and begin the last of my days... over there... where the wind is calm, the weather is stagnant, and the crimson glow over bark trees populate the area past the bridge.   San Francisco...

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Sometimes I ask myself what I’m searching for in terms of satisfaction. In less than 3 months, I will be moving to this city in search of finding and hoping for something to change in my life. I’ve given up almost given up completely on love, satisfaction and the sheer will to understand what drives me. The only thing that pushes me forward is my drive to being in an unexplored area. The age of enlightenment is coming closer for me. I’m almost 25 years old and I feel like my life is drawing to a close.  Goodbye east coast. 

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Meh

Things are no different. Seeking false hope keeps me at bay. But in the end, I truly know how this will turn out. I just keep pushing forward unfortunately.  Where...are...you?

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This is my jam, man…

fanart of mysterybensmysteryblog’s animation video on Mystery skulls music video; Ghost, click the link and check it out!

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But it’s you I hate the most....

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I don’t know why I try reaching out to you once in a while. While it may seem that you’re interested in engaging in conversation with me, I know that it is futile as I can never spark up what was never there in the first place. I’m just wondering when I will become but a memory to you that will simply fade away... Such will be my sin for not treating you right, in the past. I always want you to reach out to me. But I know I don’t deserve that right at all. I deserve every bit of spite. 

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“Roman” - Saga Frontier 2 OST. 

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I train to better myself and protect others. As I am about to reach the near age of 25 in the Modern Era I ask myself, “What will become of me?” A life bound by philosophy and adventure. I take this path because it is the only path worth seeking. Time has come for me to seek a new adventure towards the west. 

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Feels weird having to lose a friend; especially someone I just recently met. I’ve never been put into a situation like this but it seems I just have to learn that not everyone can like who you are as a person. The Fall by Albert Camus exemplified it best. People will judge no matter what. Whether it be male or female I want to help those who are in need as much as I can. But I realize I can only do so much. 

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I thought that going to your country would settle my feelings. Evidently, I was wrong as day after day you still remain in my heart. Why is there a void still in my heart? I’ve sought out to date but still, there’s an empty void residing in deepest crevice of my heart. I’ve dated women that would undoubtedly be the perfect match for me, but yet...nothing. As I write this my hands tremble, my body aches, and my heart aches from not holding you. I know I will never be able to have you in my arms once again, but I will wait... I clinch my fist in anger and anguish; I can only await for my demise in order for this pain to fade away.  How long will I keep living like this?