Personal diary of a depressed fool

Just the venting blog of a 22 year old trying to fix herself. SW:273 CW:212.6 GW1: 200 GW2: 160 UGW:130

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239 8/13 had some crazy yoyo the last year but bsck on track

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244 11/19

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Guess who's 29 now and back on this bullshit teehee /sobbing

Got back up to 278 and wanted to die. Almost did die and lost a bunch of weight but just down to 250. Now it's psych med, no appetite, bounce back time. Down to 248 and will be documenting here to keep myself accountable

[rosewhoresworld]

Its a constant cycle

[slickitysloth]

i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything i don’t deserve anything.

[maniccherrygirl]

[m4nicpsych0]

abandonment issues slayyyy

[thestralboy]

I never asked to be born

[shinyqueenmari]

[cryptid-corpse]

I must NOT show signs of BPD outwardly, I MUST hold onto the pain internally until it is safe and the right time to react. I MUST consider how my behaviour might effect others and my relationship with people.

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My roommate asked me how many calories I've been eating. I lied and said 1000. It's been around 200 but whatever. She still was passive aggressive and said that's why my body gains it back so quickly. Now I'm torn. I can't make myself eat around 1500, it's either less or way too much. So frustrating

[self-destruct-gene]

[northlilje]

7/04

[saddestskinny]

i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control i will not binge i am in control

[goodbyefattykathy]

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When my anxiety, ED, and depression all kick up at the same time 🌹🌻🌼🌺🌻🌹🌼

[balderbraa]