Murmurings

a whisper wind worries brittle branches; deja vu unwinds you, pulling at reality's haphazard stitching.

[some-murmurings]

hi hey hello

welcome to the page. the this one. here y'are. howdy.

List of Me:

name is January

a 23 year-old

deranged transexual pervert

i post my poetry sometimes. beware.

also I fuck with weevils hard. Lookit this dude. Goddamn.

PFP is "Starry Night" by Ekaterina Popova (@silent.peppi on ig)

Background is "Paris Street Scene, Autumn, 1889" by Childe Hassam (died in 1935 so no instagram)

[queerhorns]

“It’s bad writing, the affini are overpowered” that’s the point it’s kinky wish fulfillment

“What the affini do is horrible you can’t just say that they are good” I can because it’s not real life it’s kinky wish fulfillment

“You can’t just ignore problematic implications” watch me. It’s kinky wish fulfillment I’m not here to analyze, critique, or philosophize about it. I’m just here for kinky wish fulfillment

“I think it’s horrifying” don’t read it. Block the tags. If you don’t enjoy it, if it’s disturbing to you avoid it!

I don’t think what the affini do is good or justified but, and I cannot stress this enough, it’s kinky wish fulfillment. It’s not supposed to stand up to real world morals because it’s kinky wish fulfillment!

I think giant plant ladies drugging me and treating me as a pet with love and care is hot. I enjoy the fantasy being unconditionally loved and being completely cared for with no responsibilities even if the methods are fucked up (sometimes because it’s a fucked up). I don’t care if you think it’s gross that’s how kink works. Some like it some don’t and neither view is morally correct or superior. “Critiquing” kink is weird since it’s based in fantasy and whatever the fuck the writers and readers find enjoyable not real life and logic.

[some-murmurings]

daily reminder that any need to defend kinky wish fulfillment broadly (esp as if it were unusual or novel especially) is the result of white supremacist, deeply colonial moral puritanism and is EXTREMELY specific to US culture

that's right, not even EUROPE, our colonial progenitors, are like this. and its fucking EUROPE*

in most places weird porn is understood to be exactly what it is and, while conclusions may be drawn about why certain people enjoy certain things, it is unusual & fucking annoying to disclaim all weird porn as bad & gross. grow up, some humans like it wet & stinky style sometimes.

[some-murmurings]

on a related note:

if you stumble across kink content that isnt aimed at you and doesnt make sense to you and, perhaps, even makes you genuinely uncomfortable, before making a snide comment please consider the following:

shut up

go somewhere else

remind yourself you arent the only human on earth

and that your preferences are WILDLY specific to you in much the same way anybody else's are be to them

look away. walk away.

shut the fuck up

this especially goes for people who mock "dom" content. like, yeah, we get it, someone trying to dom you when you aren't interested is painfully awkward. that's bc its for horny people who dont care how awkward it is and ARE interested. not you.

the perverts over there are having a GREAT time. in fact, you're the one belittling others just to feel in control. pointing and laughing is FAR more embarrassing for you than it is for them. again, they're too horny to care. grow up. join them if you want or walk away. good god

[some-murmurings]

whose turn is it this year to tell the "sexy schoolgirl halloween costumes are creepy & bad" people that the use of an aesthetic or behavioral signifier associated with youth is categorically unrelated to the sexual abuse of children.

truly astounding we're still having this conversation. predators dont see a college student dressed in a schoolgirl uniform and think "oh good point, i SHOULD kidnap a child tonight" please be more careful with the last fluid oz of sanity left in my broken Erlenmeyer flask mind

[pattern-recognition]

they should erect monumental bronze statues of the Fitgirl-Repacks woman like Lenin

[super-ultra-mega-deluxe]

It was really something reading about Kant back when cause in academia they try to completely remove selections of his moral philosophy from the rest of his work, most notably his "anthropology" and political philosophy. He was the father of race science and an early liberal, which are never brought up as context or complicating factors in assessing his moral philosophy. He's just some funny German who hates lying, no we don't need to talk about his racial categorization of Native Americans as a people fit only to be killed by white Europeans or how that might inform his moral framework

[some-murmurings]

^^ i nearly fell out of my chair when i saw the nose charts in a random phi class i was taking.

what's crazy too is that we pull this EXACT same move with most of the philosophical "canon" of the "west" (itself ahistoric) and let white dudes build their entire careers off racist #8 from 1700s France.

like, yes, I also find ancient athenians fascinating but like... plato fucked kids. we have significant evidence to believe that plato actively and willfully participated in pedorasty. socrates too. and that HUGE parts of his philosophy & work would be unavoidably informed by the impossible guilt & general social malaise of systematic CSA.

aristotle fucking hated women. not as much as schopenhauer, maybe, but his overt allegiance to contemporary power structures & personal vendetta against the literal SLAVE CLASS are not "asides" to his political philosophy, they're practically the whole point.

not constructive criticism, i have truly no words for an entire academic genre that seems so utterly dedicated to polishing the reputation of evil idiots and ignoring the greater philosophers of our time (Black women who write fantasy) while claiming to care about "truth" or "justice"

[im-mender]

No joke this vine has a better understanding of transmisogyny than 40% of this website

[contemptible-scoundrel]

sexual knifeplay is indicative of weak character. I could never get aroused from being stabbed because that would mean that I failed to parry it

[brain-depositary]

Doesn't the idea that you've possibly met your match do anything for you, like at all?

[contemptible-scoundrel]

no

[thefleetingflashofa-sword623]

We're getting white girl wasted tonight! :P

[ymutate]

Hans Emmenegger (1866 – 1940)

In the forest, 1933.

[some-murmurings]

looks like an unrendered skyrim forest. engine ate all the bark and bushes.

[monstermonger]

It's Autumn and the Leaves are Aflame!

Brought back an old lil sticker sheet, with a few of my fav lil dragons in the theme of my fav season c:

[wishful-seeker]

I would like to see more people talk about how jobs treat disabled employees.

I used to prep, wash dishes, and cook at mellow mushroom. I had chronic pain that wasn't NEARLY as bad as it is today, but it was still very debilitating. I told my employer "i cannot stand more than 4 to 6 hours. I CANNOT do shifts longer than this due to my illness." And even though i made my boundaries VERY clear, everyday i worked it was 8 hours at the least and 10 or 12 at the most. I would go up to my manager and say "look i really need to leave, my shift is over, my chronic pain is killing me." And he'd say "we really need to here, you HAVE to push through." And so i did, and after one, ONE month of that job my crps got incredibly worse to the point where i could no longer walk my dog around the block which was .5 miles. I quit, and that was FOUR years ago, and ever since that day I HAVE BEEN BEDRIDDEN AND HAVE TO USE A WHEELCHAIR. It is my biggest regret in life.

My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."

That job thats hurting you isn't fucking worth it. I promise you no money is worth losing all your physical abilities and never getting them back. Your coworkers and boss do not give a shit about you, so don't you dare suffer for them. They will never understand your struggle and they will never try. They truly think being understaffed is worse than whatever pain you experience. They would rather you permanently damage yourself than inconvenience them. FUCK THEM. DON'T FUCKING DO IT!

[valtsv]

any and all "fandom drama" that isn't actually interpersonal ideological conflict filtered through the lens of guy from shows is completely unserious if you take even a moment to zoom out. like we are straight up playing with our toys WHAT is there to get mad about.

[valtsv]

imagine walking up to another kid on the playground and being like "cutting barbie's hair and drawing on her face is an indication of unethical moral character and dangerous personality dysfunction" that's how you sound

[your-sunshine-future]

this clip from this streamer fucking up his streamdeck buttons has got me sobbing

[valtsv]

any and all "fandom drama" that isn't actually interpersonal ideological conflict filtered through the lens of guy from shows is completely unserious if you take even a moment to zoom out. like we are straight up playing with our toys WHAT is there to get mad about.

[valtsv]

imagine walking up to another kid on the playground and being like "cutting barbie's hair and drawing on her face is an indication of unethical moral character and dangerous personality dysfunction" that's how you sound

[internetskiff]

The world's most dysfunctional family unit has been discovered

[finalfantasyvii]