Clashing Realities

[sometimesstuffcomesoutofmyhead]

I'm really bad at keeping up with interpersonal relationships. I can't explain why, really. I just tend to stop talking to people. I attempt to reconnect but things make me not want to. It's exhausting. "No, I don't want to see you. No, I can't fucking say why." Sometimes I wish I could connect to other people, sometimes I wish I've never met the people I have.

[sometimesstuffcomesoutofmyhead]

It's scary when you think about it. Reality. Actual reality. There are two realities we experience. One is what we perceive through our senses and how our brain converts into our conscious perception of reality and actual reality. That's the scary bit right there. Actual reality. Take a moment to reflect on how little we actually perceive. Our strongest sense that we experience the world through is sight. Sight is our perception of light, light that we can perceive is whats known as the visible spectrum. There's a much broader spectrum that we cannot perceive that we know of. Microwaves, infrared, et ecetera. In the grand scheme of things that's such a small window to build our entire realities around.  Well, not our entire realities. Our own reality that we believe is reality is a combination of what we've seen, been taught and come up with on our own. Okay, back on track. Actual reality is out there. We live in it every day. We experience such a small fraction of it. The size of the universe. Hell, what's even in our backyard that's outside of our senses. What's out there? We'll never ever know. There could be things, beings even, that exist outside of our perceived reality. That's scary, isn't it?