Straight Up Bitch

Graduate of True Directions, not sure how that happened, but I have a piece of paper that says I'm straight, even though the only straight I am is a straight up bitch. completely 100% taken by the most beautiful girl I've ever known. The only good thing to come out of that god forsaken place Hit me up if you're worthy enough I might even grace you with a response.

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  Well, I’m glad I”m not invisible to you and that’s all that counts. I don’t care if anyone else sees me this way, I really only feel these things about you. We’re not a billion miles away, Kitty, but it definitely feels that way…no, I haven’t hit my head. I like you more than J Law. And I think you’re much, if I can be frank, sexier than her, too.

I can’t wait for your texts then, Kit. They’re my favorite thing. and your silly snapchats. I don’t know if I’m more important than math when it comes to your school teachers, though, so you really need to study!

I’m not really embarrassed that I make you feel that way, just embarrassed that I don’t know how to talk sexy to you or anything. I still feel so awkward thinking those things myself…but you make me feel them just as much. I’ve never felt as attracted to someone as I do you, Kitty, and I don’t know what that means past the fact that I love you and I want to do this, I do. Someday I’ll be in New York or you’ll be here and we’ll make it happen.

[somewildekitten]

You definitely aren’t invisible to me, baby.  I see you all of you inside and out and i want to just know everything there is to know about you.  One day I hope to know you better than anyone else.  Okay maybe not a billion miles away, but it might as well be.  Nebraska or the Moon, what’s the difference I still can’t hold you in my arms at night and that sucks.   Can school hurry up and end already?  Maybe we could be extra lesbian and get sent back to New Directions? 

Well, I like to think I’m funny, knowing I put a smile on your face makes it even better.  Please, I’m going to be a lawyer I don’t need half this shit that they try to cram in my head.  

Marls, you’ll get there, you just need practice.  It sounds silly at first and you’ll probably giggle and get flustered, but that’s okay too.       I can wait until you get comfortable and well, practice makes perfect right?   Never?  Not even to whats her name?  I love you so much, Marls, I just want someday to be really soon.  I just want to fast forward to the part where you’re next to me and I never have to let you go.  Can we do that?  

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  I don’t know, I just…don’t, I guess. I’ve mainly been invisible all of my life, I guess. I’m not used to anything else. Hey, you know what would be even better? If you could see how perfect you are in my eyes. I don’t think any of my friends see me that way, babe, but, even if they did, I don’t care. I only have eyes for you, just like the old song says. You’re the cutest and prettiest and smartest. JLaw can’t compare, even if she was gay or bi or something.

Your secret is safe with me, babe. Like I said, feel free to snap me any and everything to keep yourself entertained at the wedding. I will be snapping them to you, too, of course. I know what you mean. I’m working as hard as I can to get a trip out there, but I don’t want to interrupt your studies or anything. Oh God…I really do that to you? I make you wet? This is still weird to even think is true, honestly. I can’t believe I do that to you. I have to admit…I do kinda want to see that. And…and I kind of want to help. I know I’m always safe with you, Kit, and that’s only one reason of millions for why I love you.

[somewildekitten]

You’re not invisible anymore, Marls, not to me anyway.   Please, I already know I’m perfect, it’s your self esteem we need to work on, not mine.  You never know, we’re a billion miles apart and I wouldn’t blame you if you noticed someone else.   So, you’re saying I’m better than J-Law?  Are you feeling alright there, Marls?  Because you might have hit your head or something.  

I’ll be texting and snap chatting you the whole time. You’ll be the only thing that can get me through this nightmare.  I really wish you could be there, I always have fun with you.  Fuck my studies, interrupt them, I don’t care.  I need you more than I need Math and Geography.  

Yeah, you make me wet, very wet.  Don’t be embarrassed by that, feel empowered.  How could you ever doubt that, though?  You’re so beautiful and sweet and I want you all the time.  I’ve never wanted a girl half as much as I want you.  I think feeling this strongly about you contributes to that.  I’ve read sex is always better when there’s real feelings involved.  One day, when you’re 1000% ready we’ll put that to the test.  We can do whatever you’re comfortable with, I wouldn’t mind giving you a little show and you guiding me from afar.  You are safe with me, always remember that.  I never want to hurt you or make you feel uncomfortable, okay?  If I do tell me and I’ll be better.  A million reasons huh?  I feel the same way.  I couldn’t even count the reasons I love you.  

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  From my limited experience, I must say, yes, boobs are pretty awesome. I just don’t see why people look at me like that, I guess? I don’t know, it’s not like I don’t think I deserve any attention, it’s more…I don’t see what everyone else sees, I guess? Compared to having you? JLaw is nothing.

I like making you sappy, it makes me happy to see you like that. We’ll find a way, I know it. Just don’t get tempted by your little date to the wedding in the mean time! I feel the same way, Kitty. I just want to see you again, more than I want anything else right now. Okay…um…maybe we can try that sometime. Or…I guess you could just send a video, too? I don’t know, actually seeing it live, it’s like being there, but not, but you know I’m watching, and…

Okay, I’m just embarrassing myself even more now. I’ll think about it.

[somewildekitten]

Marls, you’re gorgeous, how can you NOT see that?  You caught my eye right away.  I wish you could see yourself through my eyes, you’d see someone that is truly beautiful inside and out.  To me, you’re perfect.  Other people see it too, which does not help my jealous streak at all.  Well I guess it helps that J-Law is probably straight and a million miles away.  Though, I’ll take your affection anyway I can get it.  

You’re the only one I’m sappy around, just don’t spread it around okay?   Yeah, the geek from hell, not a chance, not to mention he’s a boy.  There are very few boys I’ve ever been attracted too.  I may be horny, but i’m not desperate and my heart only belongs to one person now.  I know, I want that too.  I swear I feel like taking Daddy’s credit card and booking a trip to Nebraska right this second.  I just know he’d kill me and I have finals.  Still, I’m very tempted.  You’d actually be up for an instructional video?  Though, I’d rather you watch me live, much better to get me in the mood if I can see you and hear your voice.  You never fail to make my panties drenched.  Just think about it, you know I’m always game, but I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want to do.  I can be patient.  I may want to rip your clothes off whenever I see you, but I’m more than content holding you and kissing you.  Being in the same room with you would be nice, even without anything sexual going on.  Don't be embarrassed, baby, it's just me and you're safe with me.   I love you. 

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  They’re not that big, but I’m glad you like them. I don’t ever notice how others look or how they look at me or anything. I’m taken and there is literally no one else in the world I’d rather be with. Not even Jennifer Lawrence or Liam Hemsworth. And I wish I was looking at you in person.

I love you, I love you, I love you! And I love saying that as much as I love hearing that. I just love you so much, Kitty. I’d love to cuddle with you and build up to other things and just…I want to do everything I can with you. I don’t mind being reminded that I’m more than that, thank you, Kit. Oh God, Kitty…I don’t know. That seems so…naughty. I’m not sure I could…I mean…do I have to put it in? I mean I just don’t know…

[somewildekitten]

Marls, they're boobs, trust me they are awesome.  Even if you weren't taken you wouldn't notice how they look at you, you barely noticed I looked at you like that.  I had to blatantly flirt with you and even then I think you thought I was joking around for awhile.  You wouldn't even care of J-Law was flirting with you?  Wow that's huge.  

I like hearing it too, I'm not an overly sappy person, but there is just something about you that brings it out in me.  We'll do all that when we're together again, which hopefully won't be too much longer or else I'm going to go crazy.  I need to see your smile and hold your hand and kiss you.  I want to make sure that you're real and not some amazing dream, though if you are a dream, I don't want to ever wake up.  Like I said I could show you an in depth tutorial if you ever find the time alone or feel brave.  You wouldn't have to do anything, but watch and learn.   

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  I think most people see the lack of a chest and don’t care. I don’t have as much to offer looks wise as you. You’re little and blonde and actually have curves. You can’t honestly tell me no one goes after you up there.

Every time you say that, I can’t stop smiling. I don’t think you realize how much it means to me, Kit. I know you won’t pressure me and I love that about you. I’d love to build up to that, to do more than just kisses under uncomfortable pink blankets while two other girls sleep around us. I really do want to explore, not just conquer. I mean, I’ve tried taking it out of the shower, too…I’ve thought about trying to get my own fun box but I don’t really have a way to get one. I still don’t even know what I’d do with one…so you really think of me? 

[somewildekitten]

You have amazing breasts and if people tell you otherwise they are totes blind.  You have a handful and that's more than enough for me.  You are beautiful, don't sell yourself short, I'm sure people check you out and you don't even notice.  I'm sure people are interested in me, but I don't even notice anymore.  They aren't you and you're the only one I care about looking at me.  I have had a few ex hookups try to rekindle something, but I'm a taken girl now.  

Good, I like your smile, I wish you never had to stop smiling.  I'll say it as many times as you want.  I love you, I love you, I love you.  I'm happy no matter what we do if it's G or X if it's with you then I'm happy.  We'll build up to things, take it slow.  It's not a race to see how fast I can devirginize you.  You're more than sex to me, and I hope you know that.  Well, next time I see you I'll help you set up your own fun box and teach you what everything does and how best to use them.  Or if you know your aunt and Uncle go out one night I could demonstrate on skype.  

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  I’m pretty sure no one I was with was ogling me, Kitty. We were just hanging out and having fun, no ogling involved. Not everyone just thinks about sex.

I think you know what I mean, Kitty! I’m in love with you and…I don’t know, I want my first time to be special and I know it will be with you, so maybe we can try some…things. And, oh my god…yeah, I still do when I can.

[somewildekitten]

Well then they are idiots, because you look amazing, baby.  And you never know, there had to be some guys or girls that thought you looked hot.  It's not about sex, it's about appreciating a work of beauty.  You don't have to be an art major to appreciate a Picasso.  

I'm in love with you too and you know I'd never pressure you into anything you don't want to do.  When we do I'm going to make sure it's special and that you thoroughly enjoy yourself.  Until then, we can always just fool around and work our way up, no fun in getting to the good stuff all at once right?  Mmmm, you do? I do too, by the way, but not just in the shower.  Sometimes just laying back in my bed wishing you'd skype me and go at it.  It's nice having my bun box back.  

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  I don’t know if I’d feel comfortable walking around in just a bikini. And do you really want me walking around in just that when I’m here and you’re not?

Maybe I’m thinking of a specific thing I want to explore in New York City. And maybe my non-PG-13 thoughts have to do with that. There might be some not so clothed things I’d like to try, but I doubt you really want to hear all of that.

[somewildekitten]

Good point, I want that bikini covered body to be for my eyes only.  Definitely not for wondering eyes to ogle that amazing body of yours.  I swear I want to book the next flight to Nebraska jus to see it in person!

Marley, I think you really are trying to kill me. Explore? Not so clothed things? If you don't tell me I think I'm going to explode of sexual frustration right here and now.   Do you still do your shower activities? 

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  Probably because I don’t have any revealing outfits, Kitty.

Most of my thoughts of being entertained involve a trip to New York City. But if you don’t think it’s that exciting, maybe I’ll stop thinking about it :P. According to you, maybe they’re PG-13, but according to the MPAA, maybe they’re slightly over PG-13 material.

[somewildekitten]

That really needs to change and fast, or you know you could just walk around in your bikini all the time, I definitely would not be complaining.  

Why New York?  Is it the bright lights and touristy things or something else completely different?  Oh?  Over PG-13?  Marley you bad girl.  What kind of non PG-13 thoughts are we talking about?  Do tell.  

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[amarredrose]

  Okay, maybe I thought you’d like the pictures, but I was really just posting pictures from early summer celebrations!

Besides, I don’t have a Kitty with me so this summer’s only exciting activity is swimming. This withdrawal is killing me, too, you know! And not all of us have New York City to keep us occupied. I miss you and your body, too.

[somewildekitten]

I don't like them, I love them and one might be my laptop background pic. It's the closest I can get to you in revealing outfits.  

Hopefully you'll find other ways to keep you entertained as the summer goes on.  New York isn't all that exciting without someone special to share it with.  Marley Rose, are you having un PG-13 thoughts?  

[amarredrose]

I swear you're trying to kill me, You're so beautiful it hurts. It's killing me that I can't be with you and this isn't helping!

Kitty! I was not trying anything and if I were, it would definitely not be to kill you. I just was out celebrating summer in my bikini, I swear.

[somewildekitten]

Are you sure?  Because it certainly seems that way.  You have an amazing body and your breasts...fuck...sorry, I think I'm going through major Marley withdrawal.  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

[amarredrose]

  "What PG-13 movies have you been seeing?” Marley asked with a smirk. She knew Kitty wanted her to get naked but she also knew very well that Kitty had no intentions of actually pressuring her into doing anything. Other people might have assumed that Kitty would do anything to get her fix, but Marley knew Kitty was never going to do that to her. “Sorry, I forgot that rule; guess I’m not perfect, either,” she teased. As much as the idea of Kitty poisoning them made her laugh, she shook her head. “No, Kitty, don’t do that. Then you’ll also have to deal with them being in New York instead of going on vacation to Paris. Who wants that?” She wasn’t kidding before; she really wanted to find a way to see her in that time, even if it got her in major trouble if she ran away.

"But you’re my favorite subject," Marley said softly and kindly, "Even more than music class." She loved talking about Kitty. Well, she knew she would if she had someone with which to actually talk about her. Kitty was the most amazing and strong person Marley ever knew and every story she had of her was one of her favorites to tell. She’d sneak some little comments in every now and then, telling her friends that she was roommates with one girl at her music intensive; if she actually called her anything but "my roommate", she knew that she would just talk endlessly about her and make her friends suspicious over whether they were just friends. Marley knew her smile grew every time she brought her up, though, and she was sure Sami had given her a fair share of weird looks at that. "I know. I almost feel like thanking them, but then I’d have to see them again and I’d have to remember that stupid sex simulation," Marley shivered at that memory. She had been paired with Finn, a very sweet and extremely gay guy she had once tried to date there. It was more than awkward, seeing as he said he saw her as his sister and she felt the same about him. “I know,” she said softly, giving a gentle half smile.

"If you say so," she said with a frown. She sighed, wishing there was a way to help Kitty with her family situation. At least Marley’s mom approved of her, even if she had to do so in secret. Her aunt and uncle were another story and she was more than okay walking away from them. She had no idea how Kitty must have felt with how her father treated her. "Well, if you made me up, you have quite a large and detailed background for me. You may want to dial it back a bit. Maybe give me some superpowers or something, too, while you’re at it," Marley teased. She snapped out of her Huskers ranting at Kitty’s giggle and grinned sheepishly. "Sorry," Marley said, realizing that she definitely had told Kitty that before, "It was just so fun and cute and the perfect way to start the game! Since the Spring Game is just between the upcoming Husker team, it’s a scrimmage, so it’s not a big challenge or the most important, but everyone still crowds the stadium for it." Marley smiled, briefly imagining Kitty in the sweatshirt she had given her (she had told her family she lost it and they bought her a new one) and she grinned, "I wouldn’t mind seeing you here in the cheerleading outfit if you really want to bring your spirit here."

Kitty was obviously still not comfortable with the issue and Marley didn’t want to push it any further. “I’m not sure,” she answered honestly with a shrug. “I know that’s part of why I was brought here, and maybe she’s curious about that non-kiss thing, but…I don’t know. I feel like that would make her uncomfortable since it’s one thing to have gay friends, it’s another to have one who liked you. Maybe one day I’ll tell her, but for now, I don’t think she really has to know, I guess,” she decided. It was nice having a chance to talk out her decision with Kitty there. “She’d love to meet you, too,” Marley admitted shyly, gently resting her hand on the bracelet Kitty got her for Christmas, the one she wore every day. “I’ve told her a lot about you. Really meet you, not the brief hello after graduation when we moved out of the dorms.” They aw each other’s families for about two seconds before they had to go off on their separate ways on their way back home.

Marley could almost imagine her girlfriend hugging her tightly and straddling her lap. Even if it sounded sexual, it was also just a position of comfort and intimacy, one that cheered Marley up back at camp. “I know what you mean,” Marley sighed, “It’s always so frustrating knowing I have to leave you so soon and I can’t even kiss you goodbye. Or hold your hand. Or smell you. You always smell so good…is that creepy to admit?”

Marley pulled out her calculus. It was just a study guide for her final, but since the schoolwork at TD wasn’t always the best (they did give them some academic classes, but Mr. Schuester just really wasn’t a good teacher), she wanted all the practice possible to ace her final. She might have said she was just ready to be done, and she was, but she also wanted A’s on everything. It was a matter of pride. As she worked on integrals and derivatives, she almost missed Kitty’s soft words. 

Looking up, Marley looked at Kitty with concern. It wasn’t the first time she said it, but it broke her heart every time. “Is there anyway I can help?” Marley asked. She’d rather help Kitty with her work than do hers first.

[somewildekitten]

“Hey boobs are totally PG-13, well brief nudity anyways.  So if you were to just like flash me, we’d be in PG-13 territory, I’d even go first.”  She said flirty with a twinge of hopefulness.  She knew that it was a long shot, but she wouldn’t be Kitty if she didn’t try.  “Yeah well don’t forget again, or I’d have to come down there and tickle you til you can’t breathe.”  She threatened wiggling her fingers menacingly at the screen.  “Yeah that’s true, I don’t want them around any more than they have to be.”  She scrunched her nose up.  She wondered just how serious Marley was about visiting while they were on their honeymoon.  The thought was enough to keep her on her best behavior.  

“More than music?  Wow, that’s pretty huge.”  Kitty said in awe.  The only good thing about these Skype sessions vs seeing each other in person was they got to talk and learn more about each other.  She had a feeling if they were in the same room there wouldn’t be as much talking going on.   She did love learning things about Marley and it made her feel closer to the girl.  She wanted to know her inside and out then maybe she wouldn’t feel so jealous every time Marley brought up her best friend.  She wished she had someone she was close to that she could talk to about Marley.  There was no way she could talk to her dad or step mom about it and her friends at school would never understand.  “We should send them a thank you card with us making out on it, show them how happy we are together.  Oh god, don’t remind me, Puck looked like he was going to puke all over me.  At least neither of us got paired with Sebastian.”  She giggled.  “Oh I’ve been talking to Quinn a lot lately, she and Tina are really happy, they are planning on going Yale together next fall.  She couldn’t stop smiling.”  She gave a half hearted smile at that.  She was happy for Quinn, and she was glad she had one person she could talk to about Marley, but it sucked to see her so happy while Kitty’s heart was across the country.  “I just want you here…”  She said almost in a whine that wasn’t typical of Kitty Wilde.  She always got what she wanted, so this was very new to her.  

Kitty laughed and shook her head. “I have always had a very active imagination, so whose to say that you aren’t just living in my head, the most perfect girl I’ve ever met.”  She said with a sweet smile.  “Hey, you already have one superpower, the ability to melt my heart with a single smile, do you want more?  Maybe the ability to fly or teleport so you could be with me anytime I needed you?”  She looked down wishing that was true.  All she wanted was to hold her girlfriend and kiss her and whisper how much she loved her.  All that seemed so impossible at the moment.  Kitty waved off her apology.  “Don’t ever be sorry, you’re adorable when you ramble on about your team.  I love watching your eyes light up and your face all animated and excited.  I could listen to you talk about them all day.  Even if it’s the same story over and over.”  She laughed.  “Well, when we go to Husker’s games together I’ll wear a cheerleading outfit and help you cheer them on?  I wish I could’ve been there with you.  Have I mentioned how much I miss you lately?”  

Kitty hated being jealous, but she couldn’t help it.  She knew Marley loved her and that she was over Sami, deep down she really did know that.  Still there was a nagging voice in the back of her head that tried to convince her otherwise.  That tried to tell her that Marley was just biding her time until Sami woke up and realized that she loved her and then Marley would live happily ever after with her.  She had had that nightmare more than a few times since getting home.  “You have to do what you’re comfortable with, not her.  Let me know how it goes?   I’m proud of you for coming out, by the way.”  She told her with a genuine smile even if she was jealous it was nice that Marley was coming out to her best friend.  “I want to meet your mom too, she sounds pretty awesome and I told you she’d love you no matter what your sexuality! I’d love to thank her for bringing you into this world and for raising you into such an amazing person that was so easy to fall for.”  She wished she could say the same for her family, her father didn’t care to meet any of the “degenerates’ she spent her time with and was content to get out of there fast.  She wondered if he was scared of catching “the gay.”  

She could close her eyes and practically feel Marley’s arms holding her close as they curled up into each other just enjoying each others comfort.  It was something they did often after they admitted their feelings for each other.  “I hate when you have to leave, at least talking to you I can pretend you’re here with me, the second we sign off I feel like I’m losing you all over again.  No, it’s not creepy, I miss the way you smell too.”  

Kitty hated math with a passion it frustrated her to no end.  She always ended up making good grades, but it still was enough to drive her insane.  “I just hate having to do graphs, seriously is this ever going to come in handy ever?  I mean when is the last time you actually had to graph x and y?  I’m going to law school not becoming a mathematician!”  She said completely frustrated.  “I just want finals to be over so I can find a way to see you, can I fucking graph that?”  She let out a low growl.  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

[amarredrose]

   Marley giggled and nodded, “It’s a deal then, Miss Wilde. Next time I hope to see you still in that ridiculously short skirt. No nudity yet.” As much as she wanted to see Kitty naked and vice versa, she knew, A, if someone walked in while she was looking at a naked girl, she’d get kicked out immediately and, B, she just wasn’t ready. Her body craved to be with Kitty like that, to feel her fingers and tongue and lips down where she fantasized, to return all the favors and make Kitty moan, but something stopped her every time. She just wanted it to be perfect when they first saw each other, not a rushed skype session or a hushed goodbye during their last night at True Directions. Someday soon she hoped to be with Kitty like that, but for now, she was going to have to tease her. “That is true,” she agreed with a grin, “There’s not much you’re not good at. Except baking. Which I hope you aren’t doing at your place for the sake of your health. Maybe also for the pity of your dad.”

"And I don’t know how you don’t see how perfect you are,” Marley responded immediately. Kitty put up a front of thinking she was perfect and flawless, but she knew that her girlfriend thought she wasn’t worth anything underneath the surface. When she first met Kitty, Marley was in awe of her confidence and bravado, but she slowly learned how Kitty was anything but underneath that hard surface and it broke her heart. “I know what you mean,” Marley said, smiling as well at the memories. True Direction was an awful, awful place built to tear down kids who were attracted to their own gender, but Marley would always have happy memories of secretly holding Kitty’s hand at dinner and cuddling with her at night and sneaking into the kitchen for stolen kisses. That’s how she chose to remember her months there, not for Sue Sylvester and the Schuesters telling her how to be a proper wife and mother. “Probably just the fact I’m not kissing you at this moment,” she teased back.

Marley gave Kitty a half-smile, recognizing Kitty avoiding the subject with her own little Kitty-isms. “I just meant so we could be independent from your dad or something. I don’t know if he’d be okay with you moving in with an ex-gay,” she said, “But, like you said, I just need to be in the same city as you. I’m going to make it happen somehow.” She wasn’t going to doubt that, not now, not ever. “I’d really love that and I know she would, too. The next season is going to be so awesome, the Spring Game was amazing, we have some great new players,” Marley babbled for a moment, grinning at the memory of the game, “And our couch came out with a cat to go off of a meme created about him, it was amazing,” she continued, not realizing she had told Kitty about it after it happened and quite possibly one or two times since then.

Marley smiled kindly at Kitty, “Thank you, Kit. It means a lot to get your approval on that. I’ll tell you how it goes, okay?” She didn’t want to talk about it anymore, not with how much it upset Kitty. She laughed softly with her and shook her head, “No, my screen is pretty warm, but it’s not as soft as your lips.” Her hand trailed down the side of Kitty’s face again and she sighed, wishing it was really her girlfriend’s skin under her fingertips. “I’m running low on Kitty in my blood stream, so I know what you mean. The urge to pack up everything and drive to New York City is getting stronger every day. If I didn’t have my mom here, I probably would’ve left by now,” Marley admitted, 

She sat up and moved the computer to her lap on top o a pillow. In doing so, she also grinned and teased, “Now it’s almost like you’re sitting on my lap. If I squint I can probably believe it’s true.” She pulled out her bag, knowing she’d have to start her homework soon so she could continue being Good Girl Marley. As she finished up, her aunt would call her downstairs to help make dinner. She’d quietly and sweetly help with everything and make proper dinner conversation after their evening grace. She’d rinse off dishes and load them up in the dishwasher before being rushed off to some other task, sometimes chores, sometimes singing in the church choir. Then, if she was lucky, she wouldn’t have any homework left to do and she could get ready for bed and talk to Kitty one last time before bed or at least send her a few texts.

It drove her mad.

Only one more week and she’d be done, though, and then she would spend her skype sessions watching Kitty do her homework and reading for fun in between gazing at the girl instead of just the two of them doing homework while the computer was open. In one week’s time, she’d be able to text Kitty all day and not worry about her phone being confiscated in class. In one week she’d be a week closer to leaving her aunt and uncle forever. In one week she’ be closer to Kitty.

She couldn’t wait.

[somewildekitten]

Kitty tried to not look too disappointed, but gave Marley a playful pout.  “Come on not even a little nudity?  Even PG-13 you see boobs now a days and you know how much I love your boobs.”  She teased with a little smirk.  She knew it probably would be a recipe for disaster and if they got caught both would be in monumental trouble and she didn’t want anything to happen to Marley.  Even if she was horny as fuck seeing Marley on her screen she could hold it in until she saw her again.  “I thought we agreed to not discuss my lack of baking skills again, I guess nobody is perfect, not even me.”  She said with a suffering sigh.  “I could offer to bake for the wedding shower and poison everyone so the wedding is cancelled?”  She offered hopefully knowing Marley would never let her do such a thing.  

Kitty bit the inside of her mouth and looked away briefly.  Marley always had a way of seeing right through her and getting her stripped down to her most vulnerable self.  “We were talking about you doubting yourself, not the other way around.”  She tried to steer the subject back on Marley where she was much more comfortable with.  She didn’t like feeling so bare, not even in front of her girlfriend, at least not when she couldn’t get a comforting touch or warm arms to wrap around her like she craved.  Her mom was always the affectionate one she was lucky to get a pat on the head from her father anymore. She missed those little signs of affection.  She made a vow to herself to always show the people she loved how much she did.  “It’s weird we have such fond memories of a place that should’ve tore us to shreds.  We didn’t let them though, we found something pure and special.  I’ll always be grateful for that place for bringing me you.”  She smiled fondly and willed herself to be back in that pathetic pink uniform wrapped up in Marley’s arms.  “That’s not my fault, why do you have to live on the other side of the country!”  She whimpered.  

Kitty shook her head not really worrying about her dad.  “My dad doesn’t remember you for one and two even if he did he’d probably be thrilled that at least i’m not being gay under his roof anymore.  I just want to be 18 and disappear.  I think that’s what he wants too.”  She said sadly.  “Being in the same city is a start.  I just want to be able to see you every day and remind myself that you’re real.  I’m starting to think everything was just an elaborate dream or that I completely made you up.  I have an active imagination.”  She said with a soft smile.  She giggled listening to Marley talk about the Huskers, watching her face contort into such joy and excitement, it was something she longed to always see.  It’s one reason she didn’t mind and even found herself referring to them as her favorite team.  Especially when she wore a hoody she had stolen from Marley before they left and proudly wore it over her uniform whenever she could.  She wished it still smelled like Marley, but she could still feel her presence when she wore it and that was enough to get her by.  “A cat?  You don’t say?  I swear I haven’t heard this story a 1000 times since it happened.”  She giggled and teased Marley.  “Maybe it was my spirit trying to find you?” she mused.  

She really didn’t want to know anything about Marley and Sami together and part of her was still scared how Sami would react.  Scared that maybe Sami would admit she liked Marley and they’d run off together and she’d never see Marley again.  “Yeah defs let me know how it goes!  I’m sure it’ll be fine, she seems like a great girl that really cares about you.  Are you going to tell her about your crush on her?”  She asked trying to keep her voice even even if her heart broke even mentioning that time in Marley’s life.  Sure it brought her to Kitty in the end, but she didn’t like the idea of any lingering feelings still being there.  “Not having Marley time is really killing me.  I wish you could leave right now and be with me when I woke up tomorrow.  Bring your mom with you, I’d love to meet her.”  She offered knowing it was impossible, but still wanting to hope against hope.  

Kitty sat up straighter and smiled at Marley wishing she was perched on Marley’s lap right now. She’d nuzzle her head under the other girls chin and hold her as tightly as humanly possible.  “You really have no idea how much I wish that was true.  I miss you more and more every day.  Talking to you is like a blessing and a curse.  I love it, but at the same time it makes me realize just what I’m missing and it sucks.”  She sighed seeing Marley get her books out knowing that their time together grew shorter.  Sometimes they would do homework together online even if it was quiet it felt comforting to look up and see Marley.  She could almost pretend they were in the same room.  After that Marley would have to go away for most of the evening until bed when they’d tuck each other in as best they could.  It wasn’t enough, but it was what they had.  

Kitty grabbed her bookbag and started to pull out her math book, she hated math, but it seemed to go smoother with Marley there.  She frowned looking at the problems she had to do.  She couldn’t even understand what it was even asking and groaned in frustration.  “I wish my mom was here.”  She mumbled to herself not for the first time.  She could remember being younger and her mom helping her with her homework and helping her not get so frustrated.  Her dad was no help even if he was home he’d tell her she needed to figure things out on her own.  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

[amarredrose]

   "If you keep that uniform on, I will most definitely keep my uniform on,” Marley agreed, even with the slightest blush dusting her cheeks. It was still weird to realize how much she wanted to see Kitty like that and it was even stranger to realize how much Kitty wanted to see all of her. It had been months now, but it was still so, so weird. “I really hope to see that one day. I really, really do. I’m sure you’re even better than I imagine, which I don’t even know is possible…but you’ll make it work,” Marley said with a smile. She believed Kitty could do anything she set her mind to.

Marley ducked her head at Kitty’s compliment. “Noooo,” she droned out with a shake of her head. “I am not the best looking person. I still don’t even know how I managed to get you. You’re so pretty and witty and sweet and complimentary and so hot…I have no idea why you thought I was worth it at all sometimes. You’re so perfect,” Marley said genuinely, giving Kitty a sweet smile. “I’m the luckiest girl in the planet, even if I can’t touch you as badly as I want to right now.” And she truly was. How many people met someone they loved as much as she loved Kitty at such a young age? And at a gay-to-straight conversion camp on top of it? “I don’t even know if there’s any girl I find prettier than you. I think I’m getting close to becoming Kitty-sexual.” 

Marley bit her lip and did her best not to look disappointed. She knew Kitty wouldn’t have been thrilled, but she did hope for more enthusiasm than what she was given. “Obviously, my dream has changed, though,” she added softly. “My dream would be maybe I’ll live with her for a school year until you can get out of your dad’s and we can own a place together. Cheap and poor, maybe, but our own place would be great. Then we could still see Sami when she came to visit us for wine and Scrabble nights. I’d become a singer and things…things would be perfect,” she sighed with a smile. That was her new dream, the big city with her two most favorite ladies (not counting her mom, of course). “I’d miss the games and I’d miss being in the sea of Cornhusker fans, but I’d be with you and you’d deal with watching my games and maybe do cheers in our living room. And I’d see your games, too, and…god, I want all of that.”

Knowing exactly what was bugging Kitty, Marley insisted, “I just want you, baby, you know that. Sami…Sami is like a watered down version of you with bits of me and maybe like…I don’t know, Kurt thrown in. She’s no you. She’s my best friend but you…you’re my girlfriend, Kitty. And, trust me, she hasn’t even questioned her straightness. She’s been dating the same guy for, like, an eternity. I wouldn’t be surprised if he moved up there with her, honestly.” She let her finger trace over the screen where Kitty’s cheek was, “And she’s not as soft as you, or as beautiful. I had a crush on her and we know each other so well, which is why I feel like I should tell her this, but she’s not who I’m in love with, Kitty. I love you.” She sighed a dropped her hand, “God, I really wish I could kiss you right now.”

[somewildekitten]

Kitty smirked at the deal Marley suggested with that cute little blush of hers.  “I think I could be down for that deal, or you know we could both just not wear anything.”  She suggested in her normal flirty tone.  The prospect of seeing more of Marley’s body lit a fire in her stomach and heated her all the way through.  “I’m amazing in everything I do, Marls, you should know that by now.  I know i’d be even better if you were there watching me.”  

Kitty shook her head at Marley’s denial.  “Marls, you took my breath away from the first moment I saw you.  I mean yeah it was pure lust at first sight, but when I got to know you I found out you’re not just beautiful on the outside, but you are even more so on the inside.  I don’t know how you don’t see it?”  She was in awe of everything that was Marley.  She had been from when they first met and she waned to seduce her and slowly that changed in to just wanting to get to know her and hold her and kiss her.  They went through a lot in such a short amount of time, but it was enough to show Kitty exactly where she wanted to be.  “I want to touch you too, and not just in pervy ways.  I miss just holding your hand or wrapping my arms around you when we cuddle on your bed watching a movie on your laptop.”  She smiled at the memory and wished more than anything to be back in that moment.  It was weird going from seeing the girl every day to just talking on the phone and Skype, it wasn’t fair. “Only close to becoming?  What’s holding you back?”  She teased.  

Kitty wanted to be happy for Marley and to be even thrilled of her dreams of living in the city where Kitty resided.  Still the thought of her living out those dreams with someone else made her heart clench and the jealousy rise.  As confident as Kitty made herself out to be there was always a lingering insecurity.  Her mom left her and she had the nagging voice in the back of her head that Marley would too.  “I don’t do anything, Cheap and Poor, you should know that.  We’ll figure it out, the most important thing is you being in the same city as me, everything else will work itself out.”  She tried to avoid the subject of Sami as much as possible.  She wasn’t sure if she ever wanted to meet the first girl to garner Marley’s romantic attention.  The thought of hosting dinners and game nights with that girl and trying to play nice made her stomach lurch.  She would, though, for Marley.  She’d push down the jealousy for the girl that she was falling so hard for.  “We’d go back to visit your mom and see games and we’d go to any away games that were anywhere near here.  I’d make sure you’d get your fix.”  She smiled thinking of how excited the girl got watching the games on her laptop and Kitty enjoyed watching Marley.  She was so adorable and didn’t even know it.  

Kitty bit her lip and nodded at her girlfriends assurances.  Marley was starting to know her a little too well.  “Yeah, I know, it’s cool, Marls.it’s just…good things don’t happen to me.  When they do they get so fucked up.” She admitted with a sad smile.  “You should tell her, she deserves to know and you know I don’t like when people hide who they are.  I’ll support you if that’s what you want to do.”  She told her honestly even if it hurt her to do so.  Her smile turned more genuine when Marley spoke again.  “I love you too, Marls.  Yeah, I guess kissing the computer screen doesn’t have the same effect does it?”  She said with a soft chuckle.  “I just want you here, it’s killing me that you aren’t.  I think that’s why I’m letting my jealousy and insecurity get the best of me.   I just need a Marley fix.”  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

[amarredrose]

  Marley just did her best to stay optimistic about everything. She knew there was so much against her and Kitty and she knew it was going to be hard, but Marley planned on making it last somehow, as long as possible. She had no idea if Kitty could stand her for that long, but she had no intentions of finding anyone else. After all, who else would even be able to comprehend the weirdness of the months spent at TD and how much that affected her?

"I would if I could, but I just got back from school a few minutes before I called anyways. Maybe next week." A blush rose on Marley’s cheeks again and she ducked her head. Oh yes, she remembered squeezing into that costume, stomach exposed and her legs practically bare with how little fabric there was. It was all an attempt to get Kitty’s attention and somehow it actually worked. Marley shook her head, "That doesn’t mean I don’t deserve a chance to see your legs rocking that skirt. I still want to see you cheer some day, I mean it." 

Marley smiled gratefully as her own hand followed Kitty’s to the side of the laptop instinctively. It made her feel like they were at least somewhat connected. “Thank you, Kitty. I’m really happy you’re proud of me. That means a lot,” she said softly. It truly was an amazing feeling, knowing that someone besides her mom was truly proud of her in every way, almost amazing enough to make her want to tear up. “I hope he’s handsome at least. But don’t turn straight on me; I can’t have Sue Sylvester’s plan kicking in on you now.” Marley bit her lip, mentally planning out when that meant she could come up. She knew it was damn near impossible but she also knew she was going to try to make it happen. She was sure staying with Kitty with the parents in tow wouldn’t work, so she could at least have two weeks of Kitty time. They wouldn’t even have to leave the bedroom for all she cared; even the rest of New York City wasn’t exciting as the prospect of spending a day holding Kitty in her arms again.

The immediate tension in Kitty’s body was hard to miss and Marley sighed softly, looking down at her laptop. “We always dreamed of going to New York together. I was going to apply to this one performing arts college there and we were going to get one of those cheap, rat-infested apartments in the shadiest part of town. We were going to take on the city together,” Marley explained with a shrug, trying not to show how it stung to see her best friend move onto that without her. “I don’t know, part of me…part of me wants to find a way to make it happen and move up there and just leave Nebraska, but I doubt my aunt would let me go do anything with Sami since she still delusionaly thinks that I have something for her. Of course, she won’t admit that because she thinks I am proudly, newly straight. She also doesn’t realize I have the best girlfriend in the world waiting for me there.” Marley smiled lovingly at Kitty, knowing the next bit she had to say wasn’t going to go over well, either. “…I was thinking of telling her. About everything. She’s really open minded and liberal and I think I she knew, she’d be a great ally for us in the city. And she always teases me about being on my phone and how I must be texting some loverboy and it’d be nice for someone besides my family to know where I really was for most of my senior year, you know?” She pushed some hair behind her ear nervously, waiting to hear Kitty’s opinion. If she truly was uncomfortable with the idea, Marley would drop it and never look back.

[somewildekitten]

The first few days back in New York had been strange.  The city that had been her home her whole life had suddenly seemed foreign.  It took her awhile to settle back into old routines and even then it felt like she was going through the motions.  TD was a completely different world isolated from everything else and she missed it, well not the whole making you straight thing, but the friends she had made.  Most of all she missed Marley.  Nothing felt the same without the brunette by her side and she knew that wasn’t going to change.  She wanted things to last with them, but it was hard when they were so far apart.  

“Maybe I’ll try to stay in my uniform a little while longer, just for you, as long as you promise to keep that skirt on, I love seeing your legs.”  She smirked wishing the camera had better angles.  She wanted to take in all of her girlfriend not just glimpses when the camera shifted.  She loved talking to her and seeing her, but sometimes it just made her miss her all the more and the reality of their distance really set in.  She figured it was better than nothing.  “One day you’ll see me cheer, maybe I can get a video put on youtube of one of our performances.  I’m the smallest on the team, but also the one in the air the most, you can’t miss me.”  She said confidently.  She was proud of her cheerleading it was the one thing that got her mind off of everything else.  She could be free when she took the field and get lost in the routine.  It was the only time she felt at home when she got back from TD.  

Kitty gripped the side of the laptop pretending it was Marley’s hand she was squeezing and feeling frustrated that the soft skin wasn’t there.  She was pretty sure she’d go insane if they didn’t get to be in the same room soon.  “I’m always proud of you, you should know that by now.”  She said with a soft smile.  Everything Marley did was perfect to her and she couldn’t help but beam when even thinking about her.  “I don’t think there’s any chance of me ever turning straight.  Not as long as you’re in the world.  How could anyone ever compare, boy or girl?  I think I’ve switched sexual orientations to Marley sexual.”  She teased with a smirk.  There was no way any guy her step mother to be set her up with would even so much as entice Kitty, not when she knew the most beautiful girl she knew was waiting for her halfway across the country.   

Kitty listend to Marley talk about her and friends plans and sat with a tight lipped smile on her face trying to push down the ugly green monster that was boiling inside.  Plans with a girl that would never be her.  Having someone that knew Marley even better than Kitty and would always know those secret little things that Kitty wasn’t privy to.  It wasn’t fair that Sami got to know and be there for Marley not when Kitty was desperate for even a moment of the girls time.  Sami didn’t deserve her.  Still, the prospect of Marley moving to New York, no matter what the reason, was something Kitty very much wanted to happen.  “Sounds like the perfect New York life style.  You shouldn’t settle for Nebraska, I know you like it there, but you’re destined for more.  You should come here and do all the things you want and apply to schools for the Spring Semester.  You could come to my games and watch me cheer next year and we’d be able to see each other whenever we wanted.  Maybe even one day find our own apartment together, if you’d want that…can’t guarantee rats, but it’s New York so you never know even the nicest places get them sometimes.”  She said with hopeful smile.  She took a deep breath at Marley’s next words.  She could tell Marley was hesitant of even saying them and when they were out she knew why.   She closed her eyes and let out the breath before plastering the smile back on her face.  “You do what you need to do.  She’s you’re best friend, you might as well tell her everything.”  She said diplomatically.  She didn’t want to hold Marley back from doing something she wanted to do.  Even if part of her worried that if Sami knew maybe she wouldn’t be as straight as Marley thought she was.  Maybe the other girl would be the one to take Marley’s affections away.  It was something that always played in the back of her mind, one of her biggest insecurities.  Marley’s first crush, her best friend that knew her inside and out, how could Kitty ever compete with that?  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

[amarredrose]

  Marley blushed and giggled. Yeah, Kitty had made it very clear how much she loved that uniform. It was definitely more and more encouragement to wear it over pants just to see her reaction when she stood up and showed some leg. And if there was one part of her body she was fully confident on, it was her legs. Even the straightest of the straight, Sami, complimented her legs in that skirt. A few months earlier and she would’ve died to hear Sami compliment her legs. Now, it made her feel nothing except maybe some slight pride. Marley felt nothing romantic towards her anymore, not since she met Kitty.

"One day," Marley promised in a whisper. She spent most of her time at school fantasizing about getting out of dodge and into her car. She had visions of her dramatically driving the 20 hours and 59 minutes (according to google) straight to New York City. She’d take no stops, just breaks for food and gas. She’d arrive in New York City while it rained. She’d park and run to Kitty’s place, that address she had memorized, and arrive at Kitty’s penthouse dripping wet. Kitty would have no idea she was coming and her face when she opened the door was priceless, happy and shocked and relieved and overjoyed all mixed into one. She’d start to cry and Marly would, too, as they hugged and kissed, neither of them caring how Marley was soaked with rain or that it was past midnight. Marley would finally give herself over to Kitty and wake up fully nude next to her the next day, her heart finally at ease.

But that wasn’t going to happen until she at least graduated. Then she’d devise some way to get up to see her. She had to make it work, she just had to. 

"See, why do I stay in my Catholic school girl outfit but I don’t get to see you in your cheerleading uniform?" Marley teased, though she was still partially serious. "It’s mine, too. Even choir’s not as awesome as it used to be. It’s hard to sing without my muse here." With a roll of her eyes (lovingly, of course), Marley laughed, "It’s just high school and I’m barely even phoning it in at this point. But thank you for being proud." She put her chin on her hand and frowned, the frown only increasing at the idea of Kitty on a sort of date with someone. She knew Kitty was gay, but what if this was a weird exception to the rule? Marley bit her lip but nodded. "I wish I could help make the day bearable. Feel free to send me all the stupid snapchats of your date and make all the faces at me. I’ll be sure to send you ones of me back. We’ll get you through this wedding day. And then, hey, they’re gone on a honeymoon, right? So that means a penthouse to yourself. Maybe I’ll come up then, since I’m not sure they’ll be keen on you having an ‘ex-gay’ staying in your room anyways." That was the real problem with the plan. Marley wasn’t sure how she was going to stay in New York if her dad refused. Well, actually, she had an idea…

"I guess if all else fails, Sami is going to NYU in the fall and I can stay in her dorm when I visit you," she offered, not sure how Kitty would take it.

[somewildekitten]

Kitty loved the soft blush on Marley’s cheek, almost as much as she loved the glimpses of Marley’s perfect legs.  She longed to reach out and run her hand up those long legs and see where they ended.  She was pretty sure Marley was wearing the uniform just to tease her and drive her crazy.  It was definitely working.  

“One day…” Kitty repeated a sad smile on her face.  She wasn’t really sure when or if one day would ever happen.  There were only a few ways this would go.  They’d end up back together at some point and live happily ever after or they’d grow apart.  She was hoping the later wouldn’t happen.  She didn’t want to think of Marley with anyone else or the possibility of them not ending up together.  Kitty had never felt more happy than when she was with Marley.  It was perfect and she longed for those days again, only not in a straight camp this time.  To take her hand and walk around central park and take her to shows. Most of all, be able to kiss her freely and often and not under the covers at night while everyone else slept.  

“Yeah well, call earlier and maybe you’ll catch a glimpse of me in the uniform.  I think I’m just intimidated because you looked so much better in it than I do.”  She said with a sly smirk.  She still saw that moment clearly her halloween costume.  God she looked amazing.  They were in a weird place then, but she couldn’t help but wish she could throw Marley against a wall and have her way with her then.  She’d definitely used that image a few times in the shower.  

“It’s not just high school, it’s a big deal and you’re graduating, let me have a proud moment of having a high school graduate for a girlfriend.”  She smiled sweetly at  the screen running her fingers over the side of the laptop wishing it was Marley’s hand there.  “I wish you could too, it would make the day actually something to look forward to.  But, instead of getting to dance with my beautiful girlfriend I have to dance with some dude who is so my type, apparently.”  She rolled her eyes and not sure how someone who had just met her a month ago could know her type.  Kitty knew her type and it was the girl whose picture she was staring at on her laptop screen.  “Yeah they’re going to Italy for like 2 weeks, so yeah I’ll be all by my lonesome, whatever will I do?”  She said dramatically.  Could Marley actually show up and spend time together, fall asleep and wake up together?

Her jaw set at the name and she tried hard to not show it.  She had an intense jealousy over Sami, the only other girl Marley ever had feelings for.  She was still scared that no matter how straight Sami was that if she turned out to be bi or gay that Marley would drop Kitty and go off to the girl that originally stole her heart.  “Yeah, staying with Sami.  She’s going to school in New York?  That’s…exciting.”  She tried to sound upbeat even though now she was seething underneath that now even in NYC Marley wouldn’t be free of her first crush.  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

[amarredrose]

   Marley always had to hold herself back from pressing a kiss to the camera of the computer whenever Kitty came into view. God, she just wanted to be close to her again, do more than just talk to her and tell her how much she cared about her. Each day she grew more and more impatient for the day she could see her again.

"Same here," Marley agreed, her cheeks practically hurting from how wide she was smiling. "You always have to look so pretty while I’m hundreds of miles away and I know you’ll look even prettier in person." She settled onto her stomach so she could be closer to the computer and talk quieter, just in case her aunt came by the door. "Your eyes always sparkle when we’re together, and your smile is softer, and your lips are so kissable. And falling asleep with you on the other line isn’t as great as falling asleep when you’re next to me. You always looked so cute in the morning." 

She sighed, the memories bittersweet from not being near her but at least having them to start with. “How was school today? You had a big math test, right?” Marley pulled out her books in vain; sometimes they would do homework with Skype open, but she had no interest in doing any of that. Kitty on her computer combined with lack of want to even be in Nebraska plus senioritis made for one crazy recipe for not doing homework ever. It wasn’t a big deal since she just had final tests in the upcoming days. “Less than a week until graduation! Then I’ll have even more free time to spend talking to you and I’ll find some way to get up to New York. Think your dad would let you take me to his wedding? I don’t want you going alone.” Marley frowned at the idea of Kitty alone at that thing. Her future stepmother sounded plain awful and her dad wanting to marry her was even worse. At least Marley had her mom’s support and she thanked her lucky stars every day about that.

[somewildekitten]

Kitty was on top of the world just watching the girl on the screen in front of her.  It was never enough, though, she knew that.  She’d stay on Skype for hours with her and still it wasn’t the same she still felt empty.  She’d lay in bed and reach out for the warm body that no longer occupied her space.  It was enough to drive her insane.   

She wished she could touch the screen and feel the warmth of soft skin beneath her fingertips instead of cold plastic and glass.  It wasn’t fair that they met and got to be with each other night and day for months only to be smack dab back in the real world and not be able to hold and kiss each other anymore.  She’d take what she could get, but she didn’t know how long this was going to be enough, at least for Marley.  Kitty had always been the one to wait for the girl, but what if Marley got tired of waiting for her?  

“Yeah well, whenever you’re around I actually have something to be happy about.  Let’s not talk about looking pretty and being so far away.  You in that skirt, you know what that does to me.  All these Catholic School girl porn fantasies go through my mind.” She smirked.  “I miss watching you falling asleep and waking up just to make sure you’re still there.  I still wake up and look for you in the middle of the night.  One day you’ll be there again.”  

She rolled her eyes and laid back on the bed resting the laptop on her stomach.  “Math test went well, I’m sure I did fine.  Other than that just hung out with some friends and went to cheerleading practice.  Changed and came home to wait for you to call.  I have to say this is the highlight of my day.”  She watched Marley looking at the face and eyes that she had spent months memorizing and trying to remember how it felt to be in the same room together.  She missed that.  “I can’t believe you’re going to be graduating soon, I wish I could be there.  You know how proud I am of you right?  I’ll be there in spirit.  You in New York would be amazing, I’d love to show you around.”  Her joy was short lived when he conversation turned around to the wedding.  “Apparently I already have a date, mommy dearest’s nephew is my age and super cute!”  She said trying to imitate the she-bitch.  “Trust me I’d rather go with you.  Maybe I could talk my dad into letting you come for it. You’d actually make the fucking thing bearable.”  She groaned wishing nothing more than having her girlfriend by her side and sharing a dance and maybe sneaking out somewhere for a walk and making out under the stars.  She had to shake her head to clear her thoughts before she ended up more lonely than ever.  

[amarredrose]

hopelessly devoted → karley

Marley collapsed on her bed with a loud groan, her head in the cradle of her arms, her plaid skirt flapping against her legs. One month. It had been a full month since she and her fellow “converts” had graduated from True Directions as fully straight kids, but it had felt like years since she last saw Kitty. Well, in person, at least. They skyped as often as possible and texted each other throughout the day, but it wasn’t the same, not after kissing her in between classes, not after holding her in her arms every night.

And getting back into the swing of things was not making Marley as happy as she had hoped. Her aunt had told everyone she was at a music intensive so no one questioned her, but the lie somehow made it worse. She felt like she was hiding from everyone now, even her best friend, Sami. I was easier texting with her TD graduates who knew what she was going through instead of trying to talk to her fellow Catholic schoolmates about upcoming theater projects and prom. It all seemed so pointless now. It was like her once best friends were now strangers with familiar faces.

But, still, even in her frustration, she smiled slightly and pulled herself into a sitting position before pulling out her laptop. For congratulations on graduating from True Directions, her aunt and uncle had bought her way too many gifts, tapping into the savings they kept for children they never ended up having. Marley now had a new laptop (which she used to skype her girlfriend) and a car (which she planned on using one day to drive to said girlfriend). Normally she felt bad when people bought her things, but Marley didn’t care, frankly, because at least it made some part of her senior year normal and fun. She couldn’t apply to any of her dream colleges while at TD, so she was forced to wait until at least January before she started college; the least she deserved was a laptop to talk to her girlfriend as she waited for her life to truly begin.

She turned on the computer and quickly opened up Skype before getting to any other program. Kitty was already online and Marley grinned wider as she sent a message of, Hi babe! into their ongoing chat box. It had barely sent before she clicked on the button to make a video call, her heart bursting as Kitty’s face was filling her computer screen. Words failed her like usual as she saw Kitty’s gorgeous face framed by her beautiful, blonde hair, but she managed to wave over excitedly and say, “Hey! How was your day?” 

[somewildekitten]

The past month had be absolute torture.  She almost longed for the overly pink uniforms and cooking lessons.  At least she'd had people there that understood her.  She had Quinn who had become one of her best friends and Puck whom she could joke around with and best of all she had Marley.  Just the thought of the other girl was enough to make Kitty smile.  When she was alone she could close her eyes and still smell the flowery scent of the shampoo that they made them use as she held Marley close in a way too small bed.  She could feel the way her hand would sneak under the table at dinner to caress her hand and the secret smiles they'd share.  She could taste the lipgloss on Marley's pink lips as they'd lay in bed just softly kissing, not even making out, just enjoying the feel of being close to each other.  Then she'd open her eyes and be back in her room in the penthouse apartment that she shared with her dad and stepmom to be.  

She rolled her eyes thinking of the bright purple dress she'd be forced to wear at the end of the month that hung in her closet.  She could tell the woman wasn't a big fan of having a queer or ex queer step daughter.  Her dad kept trying to reassure mommy dearest all about how cured Kitty was.  If only he knew the truth.  She cursed being only a Junior in high school and having to put up with this place for another year.  She was just grateful that both her dad and his betrothed were always traveling or she'd follow him on business trips so Kitty was alone most of the time.  

When she wasn't alone she'd try to find any excuse to be out of the house.  Sometimes she'd take her laptop to the park or a Starbucks and chat with Marley or just go for a run.  When she was really desperate she'd hit up a party a girl at school was throwing and get drunk and be a normal teenage girl.  She'd met a few girls that wanted her and flirted with her, but her mind always drifted back to the girl that had stolen her heart.  Normally she'd jump into bed with any girl that had a nice pair of tits, but since Marley no one else could compare.  

When she got home from school that day she did what she always did opened her laptop and signed on to Skype, she knew Marley wouldn't be on til later, but there could be a chance that she could be early.  She started her homework and every so often would check to see if the green light next to Marley's name came on.  When she heard the sign on sound she practically through her book to the ground and waited for the ring her finger hovering over the mouse ready to accept.  She was all smiles as the brunette came into view.  "Hey, you.  Day is much better now.  God, I miss you.  I swear you get more and more beautiful every time we Skype."