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☾ * º — ❛ i've been climbing ropes, now i'm floating freely 'cause i no longer worry where i go. floating like a kite caught up in the breeze, we enjoy the ride we're going with the flow. i can feel the ocean and the blowing of wind that's been filling up our sails ❜

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sooo i doubt anyone’s still around, but i gave in and made an indie blog ( @scmptueuse ) that’s still a work in progress ( it’s 4am, i need to s l e e p ) but hmu there for whatever you want, doesn’t necessarily have to be rp related so yeah!!

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if i weren't having a rough time this week, i'd be on more. like i just need to let this out real quick so i don't snap. i hate my friends so much, like the two groups i've found myself being part of since last september have just destroyed my ability to fully trust and stay loyal to people because of how manipulative, selfish, hypocritical, and verbally abusive they are. legit this one dude that likes to think we're best friends has compromised my privacy four fucking times since my (somewhat minor) assault last year just so he has something to contribute to a conversation about the scumbag, tries to benefit from it by telling his (and mine at the time) crush about my near panic attack without my permission just so he can get the guy to hang out with him (and me) and then g l o a t about it. he's never apologized for SHIT, but will spend an hour calling me a bitch — and making it a full on scientific discussion — and telling me that everyone we hang out with hates me because i'm verbally abusive?? just bc i want you to stop bringing up bernie sanders every .5 seconds and you ignore everything i say anyways so i raise my voice a bit to get you to actually answer me?? a tactic most parents use?? something you ignore in others but pounce on with me???? literally you implant these ideas that everyone is against you if they don't agree with you or don't act like you're a better person than everyone else and turn your followers against those people. i just.. don't know why i subject myself to this constantly when i was finally starting to develop some sense of self-worth early last semester, why i'm letting a manipulator still hang around me when i'm isolating myself and crying almost nightly at 3am because i'm so reminded of the bullshit from last year. it just fucking hurts that these people are the only friends i have and i feel like i have nowhere else to turn if i get the fuck away from them, that i'm only friends with other people in the house for a night when we've had too much to drink and i don't have the courage to talk to them after because my shyness finally crept back up on me. i'm trying to figure out if preserving what's left of my self-respect is more important than my fear of being alone and i don't know which admission makes me more ashamed of what i've been reduced to

if you actually read this, i'm sorry about that mess. i just processed a lot of shit from as far back as last september over the break and it hit me hard when i started picking up on subtle insults and seeing these people be hypocritical pricks. and after talking to one of my acquaintances outside of that group about it, i just needed to vent about the little things i don't want any of them to know so.. yeah. anyways, spiel over, i hope to god i'll be on tomorrow but we'll have to see how i'm feeling (as per usual now)

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i just saw someone playing a 24 yr old muse with an 18 yr old fc.. wh at the fuck? ok but confusion aside, i need to sleep bc if i don’t get at least five hours for tomorrow, i won’t function properly at all. i have a couple more drafts saved that i’ll do tomorrow night, so with that being said, good night!!

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imessage ⇢ open.

annariley: somehow i got my blinds stuck halfway open and now they won't close... youtube isn't helping. how much do you think my neighbors would judge me for pinning up a blanket with a wolf on it over the window?

annariley: i mean, i think i'd prefer the judgement for the wolf blanket than judgement for drinking wine in my pajamas and watching movies and netflix on a monday night, but i'm not sure. advice?

sonia: what kind of blinds are they exactly? and i highly doubt they'd care, after all you've gotta get by somehow hahaha

sonia: and i mean, if they even began judging you for what sounds like a great fucking night, then clearly they don't know the difference?? but yeah, just go with the blanket for now, i'd do the same tbh

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Text // All

Basil: do you remember wonderballs? You know that hallowed out ball of chocolate with candy in it?

Basil: do they still make those?

Sonia: i.. have no idea what those are, but they sound fucking fantastic

Sonia: idk, but i can google it??

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SNAPCHAT // open.

FELICITY: So I found this little guy on the street and I took him home with me FELICITY: I’m going to keep him

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SONIA: hE’S SO CUTE OMG SONIA: I WANNA PET HIM SONIA: is he a stray or??

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kylcs replied to your post: [[MOR] ..im dead, dhall’s food has fucking...

MY FAVE VERSION OF THT SONG OHYMGOD RIP C*NOLI BUT LITERALLY HEARING LAUREN CLEARLY FOR ONCE SAVED …. 2017 …

IT ACTUALLY DID THOUGH LIKE OK I’M A V CASUAL LISTENER AND THERE’S A REASON I NEVER GOT TOO INTO THEM AND IT’S CAMILA’S VOICE?? IT’S JUST GRATING TO ME BC THE C O N T R A S T TO THE OTHER GIRLS HOLY.. BUT I’M JUST SO GRATEFUL BC I WOULDN’T KNOW HOW GREAT THEIR VOICES TRULY ARE WITHOUT THEM BEING SUNG OVER CONSTANTLY? 

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send me “have you evers” and I can only reply with “yes” or “no”

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so i got caught up in textbook shit again, and then i checked out something out of concern only to realize i’ve had an acne cyst on my face for the past year ( right after one of the more emotionally and mentally compromising times in my life, so that says it all ) ??? now i’m freaking out a bit and any muse i had is just.. not strong enough over my worry and frustration so i’m gonna calm myself down and try to sleep rather than keep myself up all night

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i hATE UNI, I HATE TEXTBOOKS, I HATE BEING BROKE 24/7 !!!

hi, how are all of you?? ignore the meltdown over textbooks above, it’s been a rough few hours rip

so two year’s eve wasn’t that great bc we ended up babysitting a lightweight frosh instead of enjoying ourselves even tho there were like, four people already watching him. it’s over now, so i’m just gonna hold out hope that the next party isn’t a fucking waste. anyways, i’m just gonna drop all of my old threads and start over, reply to a few starters before posting my own!!

also, so sorry this is getting thAT long, bc of the influx of new members, just gonna say that i’m more than willing to throw my rich and frivolous, alcohol and coffee fuelled, lame af, science nerd of a child at you so don’t hesitate to message me for plots (especially since we lost many beautiful souls and some plots are open now, rip cuties) !!

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important little question to anyone i owe replies to!!

so some of these threads are from the masquerade ball or earlier, so if you’d rather scrap it that’s perfectly fine, just like this or something??

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laneyhfs:

a warm smile crossed laney’s lips as she saw the girl come back up with her wallet. “thank god.” she told the other before taking it from the brunette’s hands. “i’ve been here for four years and in those four years– i don’t think i’ve ever lost as much as i have this week. it’s been seriously terrible. i totally owe you. here, i’ll write my number down and then we can– go to lunch or something, maybe? i’m laney.”

She couldn’t help but to chuckle as the blonde spoke; she was so nice, cheerful, it was rather refreshing considering some people in the city couldn’t be bothered to do as little as hold a door open. “I don’t know how you wouldn’t be extremely frustrated by now,” Sunny replied with a light grin, “I’d be moody and flustered as fuck, honestly. But you don’t owe me anything, really -” She didn’t have the heart to continue to reject the girl’s — Laney’s — proposal, even if she didn’t think the small favour warranted a returned gesture. Besides, she’d been an angel since she stopped at the table. “Actually, that’d be nice, yeah,” the brunette exclaimed, “Nice to meet you, Laney, I’m Sonia.”

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cell phone headcanons

send me ”#” for cell phone headcanons about our muses including:                              - what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone                              - what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone                              - what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone                              - my muse’s last text to your muse

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