PSA! Damian al Ghul of the Desert Knives AU
Damian started as an AU so that I could interact with my Talia without having to play a ten year old or compete with canon. Through that, I was introduced to Meagn and her wonderful Lex Luthor. There was instant chemistry between us as writers which translated flawlessly into Lex and Damian. The universe I had created expanded as I became more inspired and Damian began to become his own character in my mind. I worked HARD on the AU and the universe. With the help of Steph and Lex, we developed an entire network of characters whose timelines and canon origins had been altered as though they had always existed in what has come to be called the Desert Knives universe. I never created Damian with the hope of being popular or universally loved. I guess I got lucky. People I admired, people I looked up to for their skills and characterization really LIKED Damian. I still have a message from Lady Loki that really reaffirmed my efforts to keep Damian canon, to have him remain essentially Damian, while being AU. I thrived on the praise and the interactions and the ability to grow my universe. But as usually happens, that didn't last for long. It was beautiful while I did, but tumblr, she is a fickle mistress and people moved on to other things. New characters, new plots. Damian exists in a closed universe which made it difficult, combined with his introversion, to branch out. I needed to keep him contained in his own canon and I understood that meant his interaction might ultimately be limited to people willing to create sidelines or enter into an au, changing or creating characters to fit into his world instead of the other way around. My partners, and you know who you are, helped me make Damian a multidimensional character with feelings and layers. If it wasn't for you, truly, he would of gone no where. I find myself sad that the light in my heart for Damian has faded and that I rely so heavily on others to keep it alive. I can't expect other people to validate me, to make Damian come back like he was once. I am insecure, I suffer from self sabotage and social anxiety and paranoia about people's intentions and feelings. I don't want to be in that place where I wonder why no one likes Damian, why no one likes me. Because none of that is true. And sometimes, you have to let things go while you still love them, with the hope of returning or just letting the experience be what it was. So, in saying that, I am going to take all the fantastic memories I had with Damian, all the wonderful things that were and the plots that could of been, and retire Damian and all associated Desert Knives AU accounts, including my Dick Grayson. You guys are the best and I really hope we can rp a whole lot more on my other accounts.
