PAC: THE TENSION BETWEEN YOU TWO BEFORE DOING IT FOR THE FIRST TIME
In what situation does the s3xual tension feel the most obvious? 🤔 We are going to look into that and how it feels in general 🔥🔥. I posted the extended version on my Patreon which also includes details about the way you two act around each other when you guys are feeling ittt 😏
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PILE 1
In what situation the sexual tension feels the most obvious: 8 of Swords (3 of Pentacles), Knight of Cups
It is when you guys have to be alone or are left alone with each other. For many of you, you probably work with this person (in the same team or the same project) or have to do something with them— and some days you just end up being alone with each other in the meeting room, or an office, or just a place/situation you can’t exactly leave whenever you want (you are tied to some kind of responsibility to stay). Whatever this situation is, it may also involve you guys having to think hard or to work out a problem and figure out how to do something. The sexual tension increases when one person here starts acting charming and flirty, showing how attractive they are lmao. It could be Person B, to be honest. Some of them do this intentionally, a.k.a they are fully aware of what they are doing. The rest of them just subconsciously feel the urge to act like this when they are alone with the other person and may not fully realise that they are acting this way.
What the sexual tension feels like: 5 of Swords, 7 of Pentacles, The Sun Rx
It feels like something is stuck, like something is being contained to prevent it from bursting or spilling. There is a feeling like you or them or both cannot be too obvious or honest about what you guys are feeling. There is a risk involved, or there is a feeling like you two can’t exactly make anything happen here. Not being able to let go and indulge in this sexual desire makes this whole situation feel like two metal plates grinding against each other inside your chests. So there is often a subconscious attempt to cover up the sexual tension with something else. One person here may lash out. You guys probably often end up arguing or bantering with each other the stronger the sexual tension gets.
EXTENDED VERSION IS ON PATREON! The way you two act around each other when you guys are feeling ittt, what will your person do? The tea is here!
PILE 2
In what situation the sexual tension feels the most obvious: The Hermit, The Hanged Man, Ace of Cups Rx (Temperance Rx)
Hmm interesting. The sexual tension between you two feels more like an urge/desire to care for the other person a.k.a affection instead of pure lust. The sexual tension feels the most obvious when you guys are alone (obviously) and are exchanging your deeper thoughts; there is some intellectual, philosophical and spiritual exchange here. I’m also getting healing energy from this pile. It’s a situation where one person (or both people) is/are looking back on their past experience and sharing their thoughts with the other person in a philosophical kind of way, and there’s this air of seriousness and peace around you two.
It’s a conversation about life that people have on top of a hill— facing the vast scenery in front of them, a conversation that stirs up some complex feelings, a conversation that enlightens us and shifts how we see and feel about something— which can make us feel unsettled yet it is not completely unwelcomed. During this kind of moment you guys are in your own world, just you two, and nothing else matters besides what is exchanged between you two. There may be a lot of staring into each other's eyes or searching for what someone truly means in their eyes when they say something.
What the sexual tension feels like: Ace of Pentacles, 7 of Swords, 8 of Cups
The situation, or what is exchanged between you two in this type of situation often makes you two crave physical contact. But then you or them or both may feel like it shouldn’t be done, or it’s not the right time, or you can’t quite reach out to the other person. So there is this feeling of uncertainty that only makes you both stop yourselves from indulging in this desire to touch each other. I guess the exchange or whatever it is you guys share in that moment— can make one of you look vulnerable but at the same time unreachable like there’s distance and solitariness oozing from them. And this just makes the other person want to comfort them and touch them.
EXTENDED VERSION IS ON PATREON! The way you two act around each other when you guys are feeling ittt, what will your person do? The tea is here!
PILE 3
In what situation the sexual tension feels the most obvious: Page of Cups, 9 of Swords, 8 of Cups Rx
Some of you are probably asking about your ex or your situationship, because that energy is coming through. Those of you who are asking about your future spouse or next partner, either you guys will have some situationship going on with each other before the first sex, or you guys will go through a situation that makes things between you two feel forbidden or “we shouldn’t” “this isn’t right/good” in some way.
Regardless of where this often takes place, the sexual tension is the most obvious when you guys know you shouldn’t indulge in it lol. This tension also feels very much like desiring the other person and constantly thinking about the other person, whether or not you guys are in the same room. It gets ‘worse’ when one person purposely reaches out to the other person; contacting them through phone calls or texts, starting a conversation in person, or just making themselves available. Because this opens the door to more possibilities— it kinda invites things to happen.
It is also most often felt at night. For example, let’s say one person here calls the other person and asks to meet up, and then you guys go to a café and have a small meaningless conversation just to stop yourselves from addressing the obvious sexual desire between you two and the fact that you meet each other because you can’t stop yourselves from doing so. That kind of tension. It’s thick in the air but you try to pretend that everything is not that deep.
What the sexual tension feels like: 7 of Pentacles, The Devil, The Star
It’s very sexually charged. Like I said, it is thick in the air. Hell, your bodies may start reacting when you guys are in each other’s presence. Wanting to be physically closer but at the same time not fully being able to do so for whatever reason. You guys may ‘accidentally’ touch each other or stand too close. For some of you, things can get dirtier here, you both may ‘accidentally’ move too close to each other that one person’s behind touches the other person’s crotch, or you guys could be standing right next to each other and your breasts ‘accidentally’ touch their arm, something slightly improper and suggestive like that. Some of you may also get wet or hard.
EXTENDED VERSION IS ON PATREON! The way you two act around each other when you guys are feeling ittt, what will your person do? The tea is here!
PILE 4
In what situation the sexual tension feels the most obvious: The Moon, 10 of Swords, 10 of Cups, 2 of Cups
I wonder if the only time you guys interact with each other is during/after an event or a celebration. If it’s not the only time, it is the only time a longer and deeper interaction can happen between you two. Perhaps you guys share the same friend group so you often meet when there is a gathering. Or for some of you, this could be someone you work with and you guys often end up in the same event or you guys are often tasked to organise events together. Because the sexual tension between you two is most often felt when there is a feeling of success and ending. It just makes me think of that feeling you get when a big event has just ended; the vibe is still good but it also feels mellow because it is getting dark and everyone is going home— tired but still happy. It’s that kind of situation.
Imagine you guys are leaving a restaurant and all your friends are ready to go home, you two are still standing near the door, your person looks at you and you look at them, and you guys make a small conversation— pretending to wait for everyone else, not wanting to be apart yet. So it is likely that you guys often meet each other through group situations or in a place where there are a lot of people, but the day ends with you two having your own private moment with each other, and that’s when the sexual tension can be strongly felt.
What the sexual tension feels like: 4 of Swords, 2 of Cups, Page of Cups
It feels romantic to be honest. It feels peaceful and lowkey. It’s that feeling you get when you are crushing on someone. Subtle movements, an awkward but cherished conversation, blushing, meaningful silence before someone speaks again, lowkey checking out the other person, internally swooning over how good they look, etc. A lot of feelings and thoughts. The sexual tension is mixed with love and affection for sure. I think it is also common for you two to talk about how you both are getting home, or what you are going to do the next day, etc. One person here may often offer to drive/walk the other person home. If this happens when you guys are already in a relationship, this is like the situation before one person leaves and enters their house— you guys are stalling and not being sure if you can touch or kiss the other person.
EXTENDED VERSION IS ON PATREON! The way you two act around each other when you guys are feeling ittt, what will your person do? The tea is here!
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Important:
People with more masculine energy are the masculine. People with more feminine energy are the feminine. This isn’t about gender, everyone has masculine-feminine in themselves, some people have one stronger than the other, some people are balanced.
When I say 'dominant' and 'submissive', I mean the behavior and the energy, not BDSM. When I use dom-sub or dom/sub, I'm talking about BDSM. You can be dominant (adjective) in bed without being an actual dominant (noun) in a dom-sub relationship.
PILE 1
This message is for the person who holds a stronger feminine energy in the connection. If that’s you, then read this as it is. If you identify more with the masculine, you can read this as it is but you may also need to adjust the message to fit you.
It will happen without any sort of planning. For many of you, this sex will happen before marriage. They have a more dominant and forward energy, so they may embody the masculine energy in the connection. This person will be eager to do it, and this eagerness may cloud their mind a bit from properly picking up on what you want, which can lead to ‘things not going the right way’ during the sex itself at first; a little bit pain, roughness, too hard too soon, uncomfortable position, etc.
But if you communicate and if this is a good person, they will listen, rein in their arousal and adjust whatever they are doing so that it will feel better for you. The second time they will do it (after the pause and the adjustment), their kisses, touch and even the thrusting may be a lot more slower and more thoughtful/careful, before gradually picking up the previous pace.
There will be some hair-pulling, things falling down (you or them may accidentally hit some objects while undressing), dirty talking, a desire to cause pain through the act of grabbing, scratching or biting. Honestly this may happen when there are other people nearby; somewhere the sexual encounter can be heard/seen. I don’t think anyone will see it tho.
It feels like this person has a pent-up desire for you and they will be unleashing everything out in that moment, they won’t be able to hold back anymore, hence why they may not be fully aware of how much force there will be in their actions. After the sex, they will soothe you.
You will consider this sexual encounter as a milestone. Like, something you have been wanting to do and have been waiting for. Idk what you will feel about the sex itself tho, since it seems like you will approach it with tenderness, romanticism and idealism, while they will be about force and fire and desire.
This next message is only for some of you. If you are thinking about someone you are not in a committed relationship with, there may be a disconnect between you guys. You might be seeing this connection from an idealistic lens, while they might not. So just be careful, for some of you, this person is just focused on what they want.
PILE 2
This message is for the person who holds a stronger feminine energy in the connection. If that’s you, then read this as it is. If you identify more with the masculine, you can read this as it is but you may also need to adjust the message to fit you.
This will be planned, both of you will know that this day will end with sex. For some of you, this will happen on the wedding night. For others; you may be in a serious relationship with them when this happens, OR they intend to be serious with you. No fucking around here.
Like I said, this message is for the feminine; you have an attentive masculine, regardless the gender, especially if it's a man. This person feels dependable and a bit traditional (but passionate). They will plan their actions even before the day starts, eg. what they want to do first, things you guys may need, where you will do it, etc. Some of you will have a dinner first before you go back to the room/hotel room. Your energy is a lot more reserved here, so they may have more experiences than you do. They will take the lead.
They will approach you with a serious and attentive energy, no matter how aroused they are at that time. They will take it slow, they will be responsive to your needs, they will wait for your response and see if you like this or that; but not to the point of it disturbing the momentum, this is just someone who is alert and who knows what they are doing.
At first there will be sensual touch or caress, almost like they will be trying to open you up. They may touch your chin, and make you look at them. They may put their hands on your waist and slowly move you backwards until your back touches the wall. They may undress you slowly. Things like that. It will feel safe. For those of you who like men; I got an image of a man taking off his watch and put it on the bedside table while looking back at you with a soft look and a soft smile.
The sex itself will be passionate but slow. It’s heavy thrust that will leave you breathless and hot with arousal, instead of a fast in and out. I hope that makes sense lol. They will kiss your mouth and your neck while fucking. You will feel it, everything, the details, the closeness. They may not moan but you will feel their heavy breaths on your skin when a particular thing you/they do makes them feel good. They will run their hand through your hair. It’s like they will be taking care of you. It will be missionary, there’s not much adventure in this one since it’s the first time, OR it may be your first time.
PILE 3
This message is for the person who holds a stronger masculine energy in the connection. If that’s you, then read this as it is. If you identify more with the feminine, you can read this as it is but you may also need to adjust the message to fit you.
Do you have fire placements or strong Mars/Jupiter/Sun influence? Strong planets in the 1st/8th/5th house, ASC aspect Lilith? Or something similar to those. It feels like you are more forward than this person, i.e you are in your power. It’s not that they are submissive or insecure, it’s just that their energy is more mellow and calm, like a Venusian or a water sign, like a gentleman or a lady.
Honestly they will want to think more about this whole ‘having sex for the first time’ thing, while you will want to charge in and do it and forget about the details. If you are not this kind of person, either this is not your pile OR this person will make you horny and impatient.
Maybe they place personal significance in the first time you guys have sex. They may feel unsure about it; maybe because they have an idea/standard they want to follow, or they don’t have much experience, or because you guys are not in a relationship yet, or they have personal issues about it, or maybe because they put you on a pedestal so they don’t want to treat you with disrespect– whatever that means.
There is also healing. This person has some dirty thoughts about you, but during the first time they will be more focused on making sure to not hurt you or to not make you feel uncomfortable. However for some of you; either you or them have experienced some pain in regard to love/sexual connection, so they will want to heal that pain and seek/give emotional support through sex, hence why they will be very much in their mind about having sex with you for the first time.
There will be romance; they may take you out to dinner and whatnot before the sex. Or they want you to do these for them. It depends. For others of you, you will be planning to seduce them yourself; wearing sexy/nice clothes, caressing their arm/waist, whispering in their ear, pretending to be innocent while teasing them, being playful etc.
As for the sex itself, there will probably be a lot of cum and wetness; sticky thighs, sticky hands, wet sheet. This person feels like they are restraining themselves in some way but when the time comes, they won’t be able to hide how much they want it. It may first start with you on their lap (or them on yours, depending on your preference) and you getting them off while they will still want to act gentlemanly or ladylike about it, eg. hiding their face on your shoulder, carefully placing their hands on your body, not being sure what they are allowed to do, etc. You will see a glazed look in their eyes, and that may turn you on even more.
You will get what you want from this, both will be satisfied. You guys may do it again and again, someone/both will cum many times here, hence the wetness. This person will romanticize this, it will mean something to them.
PILE 4
This message is for the person who holds a stronger feminine energy in the connection. If that’s you, then read this as it is. If you identify more with the masculine, you can read this as it is but you may also need to adjust the message to fit you.
This person will be more dominant and will take the lead. I think they are playful and adventurous but they may not show this when you guys have sex for the first time. They will be hiding their kinks and whatnot and instead, focusing on how to coax you open to them. For some of you, this may be your first time having sex.
You will have some reservations, I don’t know why, maybe because of insecurity or shyness. Your energy is more submissive than this person’s. Regardless their gender, especially if they are a man, this person has a strong masculine energy. They are cunning, they know what they are doing. Whether they have a good intention or bad intention, it depends on the person themselves.
There are many things they want to do but they will be holding back on that day. Because of this, their energy may be back and forth a bit; they will be gentle and take it slow, but then you will be able to pick up on the fact that they want you through their touch or kisses. The kiss will feel forceful or rough for one second (they may bite you) and then it will be slow and comforting. Or they may be kissing you slowly but then holding your hips with a strong grip. For some of you, this person will have no plans of letting you go until they have you; it’s up to you to determine whether that is a good thing or not.
They will like your back; they will like touching it, kissing it, marking it. They will like to undress you. Something with hands; this person may hold your hands while doing it, pin your wrists down, or make you suck their fingers. They may want to finger you until you are open and ready for them OR they may do that to themselves and make you watch, depending on your gender and whichever applies to you. They will use their experience or their sexual prowess to sweep you off your feet. So you may find yourself not being able to think clearly and eventually 'submit' to them. They will whisper sweet words. For some of you, they will start by giving you oral and get you aroused that way.
This might be obvious but I think this will happen somewhere indoor, in a bedroom that smells nice or has a particular smell. There's something about the smell; scented candle, automatic perfume dispenser, aroma humidifier, etc.
What does the month of May have in store for you? plus Guidance for the month ahead
May 2026 edition
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Close your eyes, Take a deep breath, and Pick the Pile{s} you’re most drawn to, to hear what the month of May has for you.
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1 ➸ 2 ➸ 3
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Content Warning: Some swear words are present in all piles. pile 2 is 18+ NSFW, mentions sex and domestic abuse. Pile 3 also mentions domestic abuse and the toll it takes.
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decks used: Nyxie {Age of Aquarius tarot} and Glenda {Green Witch oracle}
the question: What’s happening in the month of May for you?
your cards: 2 of pearls, 6 of wands, tower, 6 of swords, world, page of wands, Tomato ~ Love, Daffodil ~ Hope, Stock ~ Focus
your message: Okay Pile 1, the month of May is looking really good for you!! May is a new beginning for you, with the world, the tower and 6 of swords here, it’s signaling that you have just closed out a major chapter in your life, so much so that May isn’t just a new chapter for you, it’s a whole new book in a whole new library, in a whole other part of the world for you.
Whatever you’ve been used to in your life that has made you feel tired, hopeless, burnt out, frustrated or desperate, all of that is crumbling down. If it hasn’t already crumbled down by the end of April, expect major transformations in every aspect of your life during the first week of May!
Two of pearls— which is the pentacles suit in this deck— is saying your life is finally balancing out.
There’s a quote from Teen Wolf I really like, it’s: “Have you ever heard the term ‘Regression to the Mean’? it’s a bit of a technical way of saying things will always even out… things can’t always be bad. So no matter how bad things get, or how good, things will always come back to the middle.”
Two of pearls is saying you’ve finally gotten to the point in your life where things are returning to the middle, balancing out and this is when life will be easier for you.
There may still be hardships and some annoyances here and there to come, but right now, with May, you’re returning to the middle of all the good and all the bad, by getting an influx of good things. Great things, actually, with the 6 of wands indicating success and rewards that have been long overdue for you.
And it will all come in suddenly, like an ocean wave that’s been building up for a while, and now it’s got enough momentum to flip over and lap the beach. You could see it coming, this is definitely something you’ve been aware of, maybe not aware of the exact rewards, but you’ve been putting in the work, you’ve been seeing the signs pointing to this new chapter of peace, and you’ve also been praying for it.
I get the feeling that this is also something that you’ve seen coming for a long time, at least the past 6 to 8 months, you’ve either been building towards it or you’ve been seeing signs about it or you’ve been feeling exhausted, desperate and have been pleading with the universe to give you a break.
Well, this is it. May is your break.
It’s all been happening in divine timing, which hasn’t felt like perfect timing for you because it’s been a hell of a ride to get here, but even when we don’t understand why things happen when they happen and why things take longer to manifest for us, it is still divine timing. The annoying thing about divine timing is, it doesn’t make sense to us, we can’t always understand it until we see the big picture later on. And sometimes we never really understand it at all. It’s not for us to understand, it’s for us to trust it.
And that’s what you’ve been doing!
Even though it’s been hard to hold onto hope in the recent past, and it’s been hard not to doubt it, you’ve still held onto the hope that it would arrive soon.
And your spirit team is really proud of you for holding onto that hope, even if it’s as small as a mustard seed, it was enough. And they’re proud of you.
They’re saying “Now, the fun begins.”
You’ve been dangling off a cliff, holding onto a branch, hoping for solid ground and a rest break from the hits life has been dishing out, and right now your break is coming. The branch you’ve been holding onto may snap, with the tower showing a foundation that’s been keeping you steady is going to crumble away, for a new foundation to hold you, but this isn’t something to be afraid of.
The tower only crumbles when its foundation is no longer useful to us, it’s no longer helping us on our journey, and instead it’s holding us back from our full potential. This is when the foundation cracks and crumbles and falls away completely, so that we can find a new way of living, thinking, moving. A way that benefits us, that helps us grow, and helps us achieve our fullest potential. And that’s what May is all about for you. The branch may break but you’ll find the drop to be relieving when you realize there was a sturdy rock directly underneath you to catch you, and it leads to a mountain path perfectly carved out for you to walk down the mountain and to a whole new life.
May is that relief, but it’s also filled with gifts for you. With the world and two of pearls here, you’ll be given a lot of things, tangible things you can hold, that prove to you that you’re in a whole new life, that things are better now.
If you’ve been looking for a job, May is when you’ll finally get approved from that interview, and you’ll start “next Monday”
If you’ve been struggling with paying off debt, May is when you’ll get a bonus out of no where, or they decide to pause the interest, and you finally get to catch up, and pay it off in one go.
If you’ve been looking for a house to move to, May is when you’ll find it and move in.
If you’ve been looking for love, or if you’ve been waiting on a marriage proposal, May is when you receive it.
If you’ve been struggling with all these things, May is when all of them come in for you. And so many more things as well. May is when everything you’ve been asking for finally arrives for you.
Signed, sealed, and delivered straight to you.
May is when you have everything you want and need and you feel like you can finally breathe again.
You’ve been holding your breath because of fear, exhaustion, and the uncertainty of thinking maybe no higher power is going to help you after all. That doubt, that fear, has caused you deep emotional and mental pain while you felt like you couldn’t breathe, May is when you get your breath back to normal. When you can breathe in fresh air, deep breaths and relax with every exhale. May is when you no longer have to cling on to faith, hope and trust, but instead everything has been proven to you. Where your faith has been proven with tangible evidence, your desires have fully come into fruition and you don’t need to struggle to believe that you aren’t alone anymore.
May is when your spirit team, and the divine, comes through and shows you just how deeply loved you are, how powerful they are, and how they’ve always been by your side, and how they really are taking care of everything for you.
While May is a relief for you, it is not a time for 24/7 rest, instead it comes with excitement and work to be done.
If it’s a new job, or a promotion, you’ll need to do some training, memorizing and get to work. If it’s a new house, you’ll have to furnish it, make it a home, and break it in with some laughter and a fresh coat of paint. If it’s paying off debt, you’ll have to rework your budget to account for not having to set money aside for that payment now, but also not splurging when you know you shouldn’t. It’s going to be some work, but it’s good work. It’s a good thing.
But most importantly, May is a time for your creativity to shine through. If you’re an internet personality, a chef or baker with social media, or a photographer with an online portfolio, or anything to do with showing the public your work, your art, your hobbies… Expect a new wave of energy to flow through you.
If you’ve been burnt out, May is when your fire gets lit again. May is when inspiration strikes and your energy to create is fully renewed.
But you’ll need to focus your energy on your projects wisely, because May is when a burst of energy comes through and you’ll feel like you have a million projects you want to work on, but you need to control what you work on, what you spend energy on.
It’s going to feel like a wildfire of energy, of inspiration, and if you let that wildfire spread wherever it wants to go, it will burn out. You need to keep it contained. Use logic to control the inspiration.
When that wildfire of inspiration hits you, take a breath, sit down and make a list of everything you want to do. Make a list of where the flames are wanting to go, and then focus your energy on one project at a time. This way you get more done and you feel great about accomplishing one task at a time, because with every task you complete, more energy, more fire will come to you. This way you won’t burn out again.
May is when your creative work takes off, if you’ve been hoping for brand deals, a million subscribers, more orders/sales, May is bringing all of that to you and so much more.
May is jam packed with gifts for you, gifts that have been building up for years and have felt overdue for so long, plus gifts you didn’t even know you wanted, didn’t even think were possible, and May is christmas morning. And there’s a tree with thousands of presents underneath it just for you. Presents, gifts, public recognition, adoration, fame and wealth that is pouring in because you deserve it.
One more thing that May is bringing in for you, is love. Love in every aspect of your life, Friendships you can trust, that feel like family, filled with unconditional love and warmth.
Romantic relationships that feel comfortable, safe, and passionate.
If you’re married, or in a fulfilling relationship, May is when you’ll conceive a child or give birth to one that’s already been brewing for some time.
And if you’ve been online for a while, or if you start your content creation journey, May is when you’ll become famous because your audience loves you and they love what you do and they bring in more support.
May is a time of relief, evidence of magic, renewed energy and massive inspiration that needs to be focused for long term sustainability. And most importantly, May is when you finally fall in love with life again.
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the question: What’s your guidance for May’s journey?
your cards: queen of pearls, ace of pearls, knight of wands, 7 of cups, queen of wands, 7 of swords, 3 of pearls, 6 of cups, 3 of swords, page of cups, page of swords reversed, Marigold ~ Positivity, Tomato ~ Love, Black Mulberry ~ Wholeness, Strawberry ~ Agreement, Sweet Corn ~ Ritual
your message: Okay, pile 1, you’ve got a lot of guidance coming through for the month of May, which makes sense because of how massively positive and abundant the month is going to be for you.
The first thing I want to say is, there’s going to be a lot of money coming in for you, like a *lOt*. Whatever you think a lot of money is, double it, then triple that. You’re going to be swimming in wealth in May.
And while this is going to be exciting, because it’s more money than you’ve ever had before, or even seen before, you need to be careful with how you spend it. You’ll need strategies and help to manage your money.
When I flipped over the 7 of swords, I heard “Get a financial advisor, to help get those taxes and upcoming projects in order and then help you manage how to spend, save and invest it all.” 3 of pearls and Agreement, confirms this as well, but you’ll need to look over the contracts *carefully,* as well.
In May, between the house, influx of sales, a financial advisor and potentially hiring lawyers too to draw up contracts for new projects,
specifically I’m seeing brand deals and buying property for a new bakery/store, and signing record deals for music,
there’s going to be a lot of contracts coming your way. And your guidance is to read them carefully, and get a second and third opinion, before you even pick up the pen to sign.
Take your time with signing things, make sure you understand everything in full, and make sure that there’s no loopholes or fine print you need to be worried about. With the contracts, and your new wealth, there’s going to be a lot of people that are going to try to trick you into things, whether it’s nefarious or if it’s just tricking you into paying more for a cheaper deal. Be careful.
Make sure you can trust your lawyers too, there’s some lawyers out there that only care about the bottom line, they don’t care about the person. Find someone that cares about you *more* than they care about the money, and have them look over your contracts and explain it to you.
It may seem like a time suck, especially with the fire energy trying to push you into deals and projects faster than lightning strikes, but this is something that needs to take time.
You need to pause, take a breath, slow down and go into this will a clear perspective and strategic plan, not on impulse, or idealism, thinking everyone loves you and everyone is honest, because that’ll lead to deals that turn sour quicker than you can say “oops.”
May is about finding your rhythm by finding rituals to keep your energy focused, and keeping yourself safe from acting before thinking.
Rituals like picking up a new hobby that speaks to your inner child, or especially an old hobby that you abandoned because you didn’t think you had the time for it.
May is going to feel like you’re running out of time but that’s an illusion because of the influx of energy.
May is actually a month where you will have all the time in the world and you need to use it responsibly by slowing down and taking the time something needs so it can be done right.
If there’s no hobbies that come to your mind, here are a few examples for your rituals for slowing down: it can be doing a crossword puzzle to clear your mind, drawing the view from your kitchen window after breakfast, or taking a 15 minute walk around your neighborhood where you just enjoy the sights, the smells and the sounds around you.
Whatever your ritual is, it needs to be something that grounds you in the present moment, gets all worries and tasks out of your mind, and helps you remember why you’re doing this in the first place. This way it’s easier for you to go into the meetings and contract deals with a clear mind and you don’t feel like you have to take the first thing they give you. You’re allowed, *you’re encouraged* to ask for more, to ask for better, to ask to see other options.
Just because one company offers you a deal, doesn’t mean you have to shake hands with them. You can look for other companies to work with.
And if no one else is knocking on your door yet, but the deal in front of you doesn’t feel right, decline it and another offer that’s better will come to you.
You need to operate from a standing where you know your worth, you know what you deserve and you aren’t going to settle for anything that’s below that line. Ask for what you want, and don’t stop until you get it. You’re meant to sit in luxury and wealth and in this energy of having all that you need. You’re no longer operating from a place of lack or desperation. You don’t have to settle for scraps, you can ask for the whole meal and get a feast instead!!
There’s going to be times where you get triggered, where you feel the aches and pains from the previous months coming back that make you doubt your worth, or doubt if better offers are possible. Don’t let yourself get trapped into old mindsets and limiting beliefs.
When the new chapter comes, make a list for yourself of everything positive that happened to you and for you.
You got a new job or you got that promotion? Write it down.
You finally paid off that credit card you’ve been agonizing over how to pay it? Write it down.
You got your dream house and it has an extra bathroom? Write. It. Down.
Keep track of all the wins because this list is what will help you remember how your life can change for the better, how better is possible and right around that corner, and that you don’t have to worry about how it’ll happen because your spirit team has it taken care of for you. This list will help you believe in magic and trust the universe when limiting beliefs and doubts start to pop up again.
You’re going to have new friends, new people in your life that love you and support you in ways you’ve never had before, cherish them, don’t take them for granted.
Make sure they know how much you appreciate them and that they’re being loved and supported by you the same way.
It needs to be equal give and take in these new relationships.
And that also means managing yourself so you don’t over give to someone who isn’t reciprocating.
**If there’s anyone in your life during May that isn’t reciprocating your energy, leave. them. behind. It may feel cruel in the moment, especially if they’re someone you’ve known for years or since childhood, but your new chapter is about remembering your worth and not accepting less from anyone.
And that includes in relationships, friendships, and partnerships.
The more you weed out people, places, and things that aren’t reflecting your worth and new standards, the more aligned you will be with your highest timeline and the more wealthy, luxurious and filled with love your life will be. You need to make room for the new things that are coming to you, new friends, new relationships, new partnerships, new houses, places, vacation trips, and to make that room you need to let go of everything that isn’t aligned with you anymore. Clothes with holes in them, shoes you hate wearing, friends that never ask how you’re doing, co workers that talk shit behind your back but you keep in your vicinity because of the idea of “keeping your enemies closer.” No. Not anymore.
There’s no room for enemies in your life anymore. Only true friends and people that add to the quality of your life.
May is full of positive changes for you, and it’s going to happen regardless of what you do and there’s nothing you can do to stop it from happening.
Let this be your comfort, that this breakthrough is happening for you no matter what. And it’s happening in May.
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That’s all for pile 1, I’m so excited for you!! Enjoy your month, my loves cos you deserve it!! 🤍🥰
If you’d like a personal reading on this, you can purchase a reading on my Etsy or Ko-Fi Shop as Quill and Ink for $60 or Rome for $130.50 {Rome is 6 questions to explain your month ahead}
𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟐 ~ 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤
decks used: Nxyie {age of aquarius tarot} and Glenda {green witch oracle}
the question: What does the month of May have in store for you?
your cards: tower, 5 of pearls, 9 of pearls, knight of wands, page of swords, fool, 8 of pearls, 7 of swords, marigold~ positivity, chili~ stimulation, pansy~ attraction, chives~ divination
numbers that may resonate: 34, 14, 18, 40
your message: Okay pile 2! May is such a great month for you!! There’s so much to share.
First off, you’re going through a major breakthrough! In multiple areas of your life, in relationships (love and friendship) in your spiritual journey, and your finances! I’ll get more into this later.
The tower here signifies the end of something that’s been holding you back in life, mostly around happiness and satisfaction, but also in whatever area of your life that you have felt a *deep* lack in. Somewhere you’ve needed more of something to fill that aching hole.
Like with all tower moments, this is the complete realization that something in your life has got to go. Whether it’s people, habits or a place, you’re going to realize enough is enough and you’re moving on from them for good!! Leaving them behind and never looking back because you’ll realize they were what were keeping you stuck in the same cycle.
May is when you see people, habits, places, events, and things for *exactly* what they are, not for what they pretend to be. Good PR, or even Tree Paine (taylor swift’s pr manager) can’t save anyone or anything from May’s unveiling for you. May is when are the rose colored glasses fall off and break. And it’ll happen quickly, it’ll take you by surprise because while you may have a suspect in mind right now of who this could be about, there’s also some one/thing here that you aren’t seeing, that you don’t suspect.
So it may cause some wreckage, there may be tears, yelling, or people trying to gaslight and manipulate other people into seeing you as the villain.
While this is one of the more undesirable effects of a tower moment, this is not something you should be afraid of. Your cards are super positive, you even got the Positivity card from Glenda!! {the green witch oracle deck} and the energy around this tower moment is full of healing, full of blessings, and abundance! Yes you may lose friends, or a famous hangout that you love to go to, but that space where they used to be, that opens up and quickly gets filled with new friends, new people, new places to travel and enjoy! The tower moment is more of a “oh shit” moment for the people in your life that have been fake, lying or talking shit behind your back, than it is an “uh-oh” for you.
For you, even though this shakes up the ground beneath you, and you feel like you lost something or someone that meant a lot to you, it’ll be such a relief for you! It’ll confirm suspicions you’ve had for a while, but were never quite able to get proof of it. This is when everything starts to click, it starts making sense, things that happened years ago to just a couple hours ago, you’ll see it all in a new way, in the truth of what really happened and why.
And this newfound perspective will help you move forward and be aware of what to look out for in new relationships and new habits and places, so that you never end up in the same situation again.
Now, for your finances, and emotional stability, May is hella great for you!!
The cards show you currently being in the energy of the 5 of pearls, which is the pentacles suit of this deck. This is showing extreme foundational struggles, usually in finances so possibly mountains of debt that have been piling up for years or there’s suddenly been new expenses that have cost wayy more than you expected.
Like taking your car into the shop to fix the carburetor and then being told you need to buy a whole new set of everything and they said it’d be “cheaper to just buy a new car.” Something like that, where you expected to pay a moderately small fee but it turned into thousands of dollars and took you by surprise.
And while 5 of pearls could be talking about a financial situation, it’s also talking about relationships that have felt one sided for so long that you expect it to just always be that way. You’ve lost hope that things could change and while you are looking for help, possibly going to couples counseling or just talking it over with a friend for emotional support, it doesn’t look like help is going to come.
This is also talking about a housing situation. So if you’re currently in a relationship where you live together, you could be worried about breaking up and them insisting that they keep the house and the car and the pets, and you’re worried about where you’ll live next, how you’ll get around places, and also desperately not wanting to leave your furry kids behind. This is completely understandable, I’m actually in a similar situation, so my heart goes out to you!
The good news is, May is when those 5 of pearls become 9 of pearls!
9 of pearls talks about luxury, having so much wealth and abundance that you’re swimming in comfort, peace and feeling like a boss. You’re your own person now, independent and able to handle business by yourself, not because you have to do it all on your own, but because you have the resources to thrive without the help of anybody else!
This means, you’ll have a place to stay. Not just crashing on your best friends couch while you get a 1 bedroom apartment with a rat infestation, but a comfortable home, in a safe part of town, with great neighbors {whatever that means to you, whether it’s friendly neighbors that always say hi or neighbors who live 5 miles away and you never have to see or speak to any of them}
Essentially, May is when you get your dream house, your dream car, and you keep your pets. May is when justice is served and you finally get everything you need, and everything you want, especially if you thought it wasn’t possible, it’s going to happen!!
May is pulling in all the best things in life to you, because you deserve it, you’ve earned it. It’s been waiting to come to you on divine timing, but it’s been something you’ve been working towards, either karmically, by doing the right thing in difficult situations, or physically working to make this happen. Like looking for a realtor, asking friends about a place to stay while you get back on your feet, looking for jobs or anything to progress your search for stability and change.
May is your new beginning, your safe haven, where you finally get to relax and breathe again and become inspired by life again.
I want to say, if you’re in a tough spot like I described about a housing situation, or pets you want to keep, 7 of swords is showing that you need to be strategic about this. About your move. The best thing you can do is move secretly, when no one is home, and without telling anyone. Especially if this is an abusive situation, and there’s kids or pets involved, it’s better to take them with you without giving the other person a chance to retaliate. If this is an abusive situation, with kids involved, it’s a good idea to be ready for the police or courts to get involved, and that means piling up evidence of the abuse so you can protect your kids if the other person demands to get them back under their roof. I know this can sound difficult to do, but the cards are showing success here for you, so even if you don’t know how to do this or if what you have is enough, the cards and energy is saying “Everything will work out better than anything you could imagine. You just have to move logically instead of recklessly.”
Now, on a happier and lighter note! You’ve got a major glow up coming in May!! And with that glow up, you’re going to be attracting lots of new people to you! This is lovers, as well as friends because your energy is getting revamped, you’re aligning with a higher, happier, abundant version of you, and that means you’re a lightning rod for attention and admiration.
We’ve got the Attraction and Stimulation card here and this means, for anyone who is single, or going to be newly single 😉 you’re going to attract a new partner that is totally in sync with your sexual needs. If you’ve been feeling under loved, if it’s been a while since you last had a good orgasm, May is when you finally feel fully satisfied with someone else.
This is going to be someone that has it all, the good looks, the charming personality, interesting hobbies and social life, the family values if you’re looking for that, and they also know exactly how to make you feel good. They put your needs first, they love making you finish first, and they want you and your body more than anything else in the world and their actions will 1000% show it to you. They are everything you want and everything you need, everything you’ve been craving and desperate for, and so much more too.
If you’re already in a happy relationship, but the passion between yall has kinda fizzled out, or there’s just not been time for it, May is when time is made. May is when that passion is reignited like never before. Expect multiple rounds in a session, edging, complete satisfaction, and expect to have a big mess to clean up afterwards… Have fun, and remember to stay hydrated!🤍
The last thing May has in store for you is a spiritual upgrade. You’re intuition is going to be upgraded so you can see things clearly, hear what your spirit team and the divine are trying to tell you, and you’ll feel guided everywhere you go and in everything you do. You could be called to practice divination or start if you’ve always been interested in it but haven’t taken that leap into it, May is the absolute perfect time for it!
If you’re a diviner too, a tarot reader or astrologer, or practice divination in any way, you’ll be getting a lot more downloads in May. This is when your soul will be activated, more deeply than before, and your purpose for being on earth at this time will be revealed to you, and your accuracy in readings will skyrocket!!
If you’re not a diviner, and you’re not interested in doing divination yourself, May is the time for you to get a reading from someone you trust, and find out what your purpose here is, and what your spirit team wants to tell you.
May is the time for miracles and magic to be made real to you, to show up in your life and ignite a new and deeper sense of adventure and curiosity into the esoteric world.
May is when you get a giant pile of money, your dream house, dream car, dream job, dream lover, and your dream life. Your May is going to be incredible!! 🥳🥳
the question: What’s your guidance for May’s journey?
your cards: 8 of swords, hermit, magician, queen of wands, 7 of cups, temperance, 9 of cups, 5 of cups, queen of cups, page of wands, black mulberry~ wholeness, cauliflower~ transition, banana~ duality
numbers that may resonate: 33, 11, 27
your message: Okay Pile 2! You’ve got a lot of guidance for the month of May!
First up, we have the 8 of swords. Your guidance, if you choose to accept it, is don’t get lost in your thoughts. During this time of massive change and the tower crumbling, and people leaving your life, it can be *really* easy to get lost in the chaos and loss, that you start thinking you’re trapped in the divine’s plan for you with no way to escape the rollercoaster.
But that’s not true, you aren’t trapped or “just along for the ride” that destiny has for you, you are the creator of your own reality. Now I need to clarify that because there’s a lot of misconceptions around what it means to be the creator of your reality.
A lot of times people think we have the power to create the world around us just by thinking. Or that our subconscious self concept controls and dictates what the world around us looks like, how it treats us and *everything* that happens to us. This is not true.
If that were true, there wouldn’t be a war right now, poverty and starvation wouldn’t exist, and billionaires wouldn’t get away with horrible shit.
Instead, the truth is, we create our *personal* reality, not the world we see all around us. But this doesn’t mean that terrible childhoods, undesired events, or generational debt are created by us too. Those are just the casualties of being in a world where everyone has free will and ripple effects are caused.
The way we create our reality happens in 2 stages. The first stage is before we reincarnate on Earth— whether you believe in reincarnation or not, this still applies because you are here on earth right now, because you incarnated, you came into being, on this earth. and the second stage is once you’re on earth.
The 1st stage, is when we plan our life on earth. The divine lets us plan the major events in our life, choose the lessons we learn, the people we meet that change our path for the better, and we can choose some details too. We have free range over what we want our life here to be like, because we’re meant to enjoy life while we learn lessons and expand our consciousness.
These are our soul contracts.
We can either choose to plan everything or scribble in a few notes and then let life do the rest.
Either way we write it up, we plan it, we create it, and we *consent* to it, before we are born here. This is what free will is, we have free will when we are planning our life.
Whenever you feel like you don’t have free will because “life” is guiding you through it and it feels like you’re strapped onto the back of a rocket, flying through the air and crashing into things, with no way off… and then you hear people say, “But you have free will, you can get off whenever you want to.” or “There’s no such thing as fate. You make your own fate.”
But you feel like that isn’t an option, because somehow every time you try to veer off that course, something always brings you back to it. That’s because that course, that path, is written in your soil contract, and no matter what you try to do on earth, or what obstacles get in your way, you will always return to where you chose your life to go.
Fate is just a fancy way of saying You chose this path before being born and no matter what, it’s going to happen.
And to some people that’s a scary thought because you don’t remember what path you chose. You feel like your life is out of your control, and it feels like you’re fighting fate because it seems like everything you want isn’t part of the divine plan for you.
But this is why we’re here to learn about spirituality, to learn how to hear the divine and our spirit team, to get in tune with our higher self and see our purpose clearly. So we can understand our soul contracts and reclaim that control over our lives because suddenly we see everything is happening for us, not against us. We realize that the detours and the rejections that keep bringing us back to a path we don’t want to be on, was actually to bring us closer to where we’re supposed to be in this life. It stops feeling like a sick joke where you’re the punch line, and it starts feeling like comfort and protection.
A reassuring notion that no matter what happens, you will always make it where your soul wants you to be. And where does your soul want you to be? On your highest timeline. Living your best life. With luxury and safety and inspiration all around you. Everything else is just construction signs pushing you there.
Your guidance for May is to release yourself from the idea that you are a victim of life and fate. Your guidance is to see it clearly, and see that some terrible shit happened because other people are dickheads, and other times detours happen so you can find your footing in your highest timeline. Your guidance is to see them each clearly, to discern which is which and that will help you feel more free and more in control of your life because you understand it.
How do you do this? By deepening your understanding of spirituality. Meditation is really helpful for this, so is clearing mental blockages with subliminals, activating and balancing your energy centers, and speaking to your spirit team, hearing them talk to you. Doing research on esoteric teachings. All of these things can help deepen your connection and knowledge of spirituality.
Divination is also a really, *really* great tool for understanding the hidden secrets to life. But divination is also something that takes time and practice to understand so I understand if you feel hesitant on it.
I actually have a sideblog here @starlingschool where I teach how to read tarot, it’s a work in progress but I’ve got more posts coming soon. My DMs are also always open if you need help learning, I’m always happy to share what I know!
But doing {or getting} readings can really help you understand the reason for why things are happening in your life, not just on a surface level but diving deeper into the ocean of spirituality and seeing that free will and fate are two sides of the same coin, and seeing how you can make your journey easier on you by remembering why you wanted your life to go this way.
It’s also important that you trust the person who reads for you, not just their accuracy but also their intentions and morals because even psychic readers can be full of malicious intent. I think this is why your cards are so adamant about you learning divination for yourself too, so you don’t have to rely on anyone else to tell you what the divine is saying to you.
Especially if you’ve just come from an abusive relationship, or if you have a lot of fake friends, it may be really hard for you to know who to trust. I’ve been there too so I totally know how that is, and how easy it is to trust the wrong person but feel like they were safe. When we’re surrounded by gaslighters, manipulators, and fake people, for too long, all manipulators start to seem trustworthy, and the real trustworthy people look shady to us. What helped me get out of that cycle of trusting the wrong people was to learn how to trust myself. Learning how to hear my intuition and trust it even if it went against everything i previously thought to be true.
That seems to be your guidance here too. You need to start learning how to trust yourself, how to hear your intuition, and trust it no matter what.
Divination is how I practiced trusting my intuition, but meditation is what helped me learn to hear it better. If you want any help during your process, feel free to ask me 🤍 my DMs, asks, and comments are always open and I’ll always reply as soon as possible.
Now, for the happier and lighter guidance! You’ve got the queen of cups and the queen of wands! These are my favorite queens in the tarot, because they’re both so full of warmth and happiness 🥰
So something I think I missed in the first question of your pile was that knight of wands, I mistook it for a clarity card for stimulation, when it was actually a stand alone card. Which is shown in the page of wands and queen of wands right now. So part of May’s abundance for you is new inspiration to do something you’ve always wanted to do but didn’t feel worthy or capable of it before. The Queen of wands is saying this is something to do with being seen on the public scale. Being an influencer, a content creator, someone who’s famous simply for doing something they love doing, something you’re passionate about.
This could be simple too, it doesn’t have to be on a celebrity scale, it can be that you’re opening your own bakery/ restaurant, or food truck.
It could be that you’re volunteering at an animal shelter and they’ll put you in a position of being responsible for something really important, like managing the other volunteers’ tasks.
All the queen of wands is saying is you’ll be seen by a lot of people, doing something you love doing, and something that people see as a big role for you. They see you and they look up to you. You’re like a Queen in your field. Regardless of your gender.
Page of wands is saying this is going to be an adventure for you, for two reasons. 1, because it’s something new, something you haven’t done before or haven’t done this before on this large a scale. And 2, it’s an adventure because it’s going to be so much fun for you! Fun, inspiring, exciting and you’ll feel fulfilled, like you’ll find your spark again. You’ll love life because of it and you’ll feel alive again.
Which is definitely worth it after the hard times you’ve been through previously. You deserve to feel alive again and enjoy life!!
The advice here is to see it as an adventure, romanticize the hell out of this month for you!
If things don’t go your way, don’t worry it was just a plot twist! If you get stuck with picking up dog poop at the shelter, imagine you’re in a romcom and you’re the main character, getting their life together while your new suitor is walking just around the corner. This is the opening credits to your new life, enjoy the journey, romanticize it and find inspiration in the little things.
Queen of cups is confirming the divination portion, as well as saying you’ll need to be more compassionate towards yourself.
I may not know the details of your life since this is a collective reading, and I don’t know you personally, but from what the cards and energy have shown, you’ve had a really tough year so far, possibly years and the unfortunate part of that is after so long of things not going your way, you start to think its because you deserve things to be shitty. You start to believe the lies that you aren’t worthy of better or that better isn’t possible for you. Queen of cups is saying you need to shed those ideas and those beliefs, because they aren’t true and they’re holding you back from loving yourself and loving life. And you need to do both of those things for this new chapter of your life.
May isn’t just a new chapter for you, it’s a new book, in a new library, in a whole new part of the world. May wants to show you a whole new world, a whole new life, a whole new experience. It’s going to feel like you are a whole new person living a completely different life and the life you’ve previously been living was just a bad dream.
May is the turning point for you, but it’s turning into something incredible. Your advice is to embrace it, to accept it, by embracing yourself, by being kinder to yourself, by taking better care of you, and in turn, you’ll love where it leads you to 🤍
9 of cups is encouraging you to let yourself enjoy the new life.
You have earned it, it’s been waiting to meet you for so long but it had to wait for divine timing.
And you need to embrace it and learn to indulge in the good things in life. You need to let loose a bit, relax.
Have yourself a self care day, a nice bubble bath, a night out on the town with true friends, put your feet up, wear the comfiest clothes you own, and if you don’t have any, go out and buy yourself a comfortable outfit so you can feel luxurious and adored on your self care days.
It doesn’t need to be extravagant, you don’t need to spend a lot or go to a spa retreat, it’s still encouraged that you’re budgeting your money because yes while you are getting a large amount of money in May, you need to also budget it and manage it so it doesn’t become a burden instead of a luxury on you.
That’s what temperance and duality is here to say.
That you need to balance the good life that’s coming in for you, with some of the logic and strategies you learned when you were living paycheck to paycheck.
In particular, the strategies where you learned to save and hold off on buying something as soon as you wanted it, so that you can make sure it’s a smart decision and you’ll actually love it down the road.
The last piece of guidance for you, is to learn how to manifest what you want in life.
Your life is meant to be magical, to be special and unique, it’s meant to have miracles happening in it for you. May is happening for you so you can get out of the rut you were in, it’s like a tornado coming to pick you up from misfortune and land you somewhere beautiful! May is to show uou that magic is real, that magic exists and it’s possible for you, and it’s to show you how you can control your life, how you can create a life that you love.
May is the beginning of the magic, not where it ends, but you need to be the one to keep the magic going. So May is when you dive into spiritual practices like divination, meditation, and manifesting. It’s going to be exciting! Lean into it pile 2 🥰🤍
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That’s all for this reading 🤍
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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟑 ~ 𝐜𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐨
decks used: nyxie {age of aquarius tarot} and ryder {wild unknown archetype oracle}
Okay pile 3, you’ve got an interesting pile because I think the cards wanted to do 4 piles… So there’s two collective groups in this pile, with similar energy but it’s also vastly different. So I’ll be splitting this into Group A and Group B.
Please, Take a deep breath, and Pick the emoji you feel most drawn to to get your reading 🤍
𝐆𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐩 𝐀 𝐆𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐩 𝐁
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Thank you 🤍 Please find your group and proceed with the reading as usual 🥰
Group A 🚙
the question: What does the month of May have in store for you?
your cards: 2 of cups, temperance, star, chariot, the mother, the faultline
numbers that may resonate: 1, 2, 49, 14, 17, 7
your message: All right Group A! let’s dive right into it.
Your month of May is going to be incredibly healing. Right now, there’s been some conflicts with someone in your life, it could be your parents, siblings, a lover, or someone who’s been foundational in your upbringing/life or getting you comfortable in your career.
Lately, it’s been feeling like you’ve been walking on eggshells around them, like something just isn’t quite right between you two and it doesn’t seem to make either of you feel comfortable, and to you, it doesn’t look like there’s a way to fix it.
But you will be able to heal the relationship.
For group A, the reason behind the relationship’s strain seems to come from the tight grip they have on how they want you to do something a certain way. In particular, it feels like a career choice. Where you want to go in a new direction and they are afraid you’re not thinking it through, or that’s it’s a risky move, and they’re telling you not to do it.
This is partly because they don’t know how to let you leave the nest that they created for you. The nest they envisioned your life to be like, and how they wanted it to be because it felt safe to them. But they’re also being stubborn about this because they genuinely love and care for you so much, they just want you to be safe and stable wherever you land.
This is why it’ll be easy for you to make amends in the relationship, because the foundation of the problem is an abundance of worry from loving you too much. I know it can be frustrating, but it’s actually the best kind of problem to have.
In May, the eggshells yall have been walking on will finally break, and there will be a conversation where everything comes out into the open, and everything between you two is shared and both of you understand where the other is coming from. It’ll happen quickly, and unexpectedly in the sense that if you plan to talk to them on Monday, it’ll actually happen on Saturday at what looks like “the worst possible time to bring this up”
But let it happen, because even though it looks like terrible timing, it’s actually perfect. It’s divine timing and it’s necessary. So instead of running away from the conversation, lean into it.
Don’t leave anything unsaid or any thought or intention up for misinterpretation.
This is a time to fully bare your mind, heart, and soul with them and vice versa so yall can finally stop trying to read each other’s minds— because neither of you have been very good at that lately and that’s part of the problem— and finally come together and be on the same page.
It’s here when you’re both on the same page that you find a solution and can move forward together, in perfect harmony, and the relationship will fully be renewed.
Things will feel even better than they were before, because your relationship is stronger now. You’re on the same wavelength and you feel like you’re moving together in sync rather than to clashing rhythms.
May is also filled with so much love, compassion, balance and hope for you in an area where you haven’t felt it for a while. May is pouring in waves of love and hope, and deep deep healing, where you’ll feel completely refreshed, and content. Like a child who falls asleep in the car ride home and wakes up as their parent is carrying them inside the house. That feeling of safety, love and peace, you’ll have that in May 🤍
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the question: What’s your guidance for May’s journey?
your cards: king of pearls, 3 of cups, queen of pearls, death, page of pearls, 3 swords, queen of cups, 5 of cups, the stone, the empty room, the eternal child
your message: Okay group A, your guidance for May and the situation between someone you love is to get a new perspective on this situation.
To get that perspective, you need to remember who this person is to you, why you love them, why they were in your life before things got tense and stressful, and to ground yourself in the knowing that this is someone who is worth keeping in your life.
Once you have that understanding grounding you, you’ll need to see this situation from their perspective. Look at it with fresh eyes, and realize that they are only so angry, stubborn and trying to control your life because they see you as someone they need to protect. Someone who is like a child.
If this is a lover: they see you as naive, not in a bad way but in the way that you look for the best in situations, in people, and you are overly optimistic. They see you as someone who hasn’t been corrupted with the evil and heartache of the world, and they want to protect you from it. They don’t want you to leave their life or go into something that’s risky where they end up losing you forever. They see you as an integral part of their life, someone they have crafted their whole life around. They’ve planned the future with you in it and they don’t want to lose you or their dreams of the future because of this new idea or direction you want to go in.
I don’t see anything here that says the risk is dangerous, I think it’s more of a long distance situation like if you take this new job, you’ll have to move away, or they’ll have to move with you and leave their family in another part of the world. It’s a risk but it’s mostly internalized fears than any real danger.
if this is a parent: they see you like a child in the sense that to them you never grew up, you’re still their baby, their responsibility to provide for and take care of you. They also have a deep rooted fear of you leaving them because they never really felt like their home was empty.
With the empty room card, i’m seeing empty nest syndrome, and your parents never experienced that because of how close you are to each other. This new opportunity for you, could be you moving out for the first time, or maybe moving to another part of town or even across the country where it’s at least an hour drive to them, and they’re worried they’ll never see you again because it’s a long way away.
It’s important to know that the reason they’re holding on so tightly and fighting you on this, is because they don’t want to lose you. They don’t want a life where you’re not in it.
And while it is frustrating having to prove that you’re an adult and can take care of yourself, you’re being guided to take a breath and realize they just need a little help feeling safe to let go of control. And once they feel safe to let you spread your wings and fly away, yall will have an ever better relationship with each other. But you need to help them to start feeling safe by having and showing them more compassion through this.
I do see that what you want to do is a good thing, with the page of pearls— which is the pentacles suit in this deck— it’s saying this is a path of self development for you, where you’ll grow and gain new experiences that are helpful to you and your path to come.
With the Queen and King of pearls here this is a really really stable opportunity for you, not just stable but lucrative. It’s going to lead to abundance in wealth, in financial security, and in also laying down roots.
This is bringing you into your long term plans, if this is a career change or promotion, this is the career you’ll stay in forever. if this is a promotion, you’re establishing your credibility with the company, possibly staying with them forever but there is the possibility of leaving them on your terms to go somewhere else in the future where the skills and experience you gained here are necessary, appreciated and respected in your new position.
If this is around a move, you’ll live there long term, raise your family there. And if you’re currently single, you’ll meet your long term partner in that city.
And with the 3 of cups, this is saying that you will get to a point where your friend, partner, or parent is proud of you and celebrating with you on this new direction you took your life in.
But that you need to be mindful of how scary this looks from their point of view.
They don’t see it as a great opportunity like you see it. They see it as a great loss. They see it as life changing in a way that shatters their entire world view. They feel like it’s the end of everything they know. They just need to feel stable in this new adventure so they can support you in it. And your guidance is to help them find that stability by sharing your vision for this opportunity. Share with them how you see it, share with them the security that you’ve gained by thinking this through. So they feel safe and can piece their world back together with the understanding that this is changing things but only for the better.
It might feel hard at first, but all you need to do is reassure them with everything you know about the situation. And everything you need to help them, is already within you. You’ve got this!
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That’s all for this reading 🤍 I’m sending you lots of clarifying energy✨ so you can see this clearly and know how to help them feel safe so you can fully enjoy this new adventure of yours! Have fun my love!
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Group B 🗽
the question: What does the month of May have in store for you?
your cards: 2 of cups, temperance, star, chariot, the mother, the faultline
numbers that may resonate: 1, 2, 49, 14, 17, 7
your message: All right Group B! Let’s dive right into it.
Your month of May is going to be incredibly healing. Right now, there’s been some major conflicts with someone in your life, it could be your parents, siblings, a lover, or someone who’s been foundational in your upbringing/life or getting you comfortable in your career.
Lately, it’s been feeling like you’ve been walking on eggshells around them, like something just isn’t quite right between you two and it doesn’t seem to make either of you feel comfortable, and to you, it doesn’t look like there’s a way to fix it.
Now, you are right, you will need to let the relationship break and fall away.
In May, the eggshells yall have been walking on will finally break, and there will be a conversation where everything comes out into the open, and everything between you two is said.
It’ll happen quickly, and unexpectedly in the sense that if you plan to talk to them on Monday, it’ll actually happen on Saturday at what looks like “the worst possible time to bring this up”
But let it happen, don’t be afraid of it, because even though it looks like terrible timing, it’s actually perfect. It’s divine timing and it’s necessary and GREAT things will come from it! So instead of running away from the conversation, lean into it.
Now, group B, compared to group A, things are a lot different with how this conversation is going to go between you and whoever this person or group of people you’ve been feeling at odds with is.
And I feel so heavy trying to convey this message because I can feel your energy and the energy around this situation and it is so disheartening, it feels hopeless and there’s so much frustration and desperation for things to be different, to be better, to be how you wish them to be.
And I am so sorry that you’ve had to experience this for so long, but the good news is, May is bringing in that same love, peace and healing that it’s bringing in for Group A.
May is going to be filled with so much love, compassion, balance and hope for you in all areas where you haven’t felt it for a while. May is pouring in waves of love and hope, and deep *deep* healing, where you’ll feel completely refreshed, and content. Like a child who falls asleep in the car ride home and wakes up as their parent is carrying them safely inside the house. That feel of safety, love and peace, you’ll have that in May 🤍
You’re going to be okay. I know it doesn’t look like it right now or even feel like it at all, but the cards are so clear, and the energy here is even louder.
All that pain, hopelessness, frustration and desperation is getting cleared out. Like a flood passing through a deserted meadow, it pulls all the weeds, dead leaves, and debris out, dragging it away in the water and leaving the meadow prettier, greener, and more alive than when the waters came.
I’m not really seeing a long conversation happening here between you and the people causing so much greif, but what I do see is a super sudden ending.
The fault line card in the oracle deck is essentially the tower in tarot, it’s unsteady ground that breaks without warning, like an earthquake comes out of no where (unless you’re a seismologist) it’s sudden, it’s destructive and it’s often times it’s over before anyone realizes.
That’s how I see this situation going for you.
It’ll be you who ends the relationship with this person (or group of people) and it’ll be a chaotic moment, there may be yelling, intense name calling, and brutal words shared between yall, but I see it happening and being done within 5 minutes. It’s a quick conversation, one that ends just as quickly as it began. Now I know it sounds like a scary thing, but this isn’t something to be afraid of.
This is divinely orchestrated. And you are divinely protected through it all.
This falling out, is the ending to your old life, the way things have been, and that is a beautiful thing because it means you’re entering a new life. A life that’s shown here to be so magical, deeply healing and filled with so so much love and relief.
You’re going to feel so much peace afterwards and it’s going to feel so luxurious to you because peace isn’t something you’ve had for so long, maybe ever. And so this is a new experience for you.
The conversation that ends the relationship is coming soon, coming quickly, it’s been building up under the surface, behind the scenes, for a while now and I heard “tomorrow” it’s going to erupt.
I want to emphasis that even while the chaos is happening you’re going to feel relief.
It’s going to feel like with every scream, every word, every slam of the door, that boulders are falling off of your body. Like hardened lava falling off of you, making you feel lighter, safer, happier, and more relieved and feeling more like yourself, because everything is finally being said.
Everything is finally coming out, every thing you’ve ever wished you could say to them, it’s being said and it’s bringing you the closure you want and need in order to feel like this chapter of your life is finally over.
And I do see that, after the fight, after you leave them behind you, your whole life is transforming.
It could be because of the portal on May 5th, because I see you having the fight in what looks like a beaten down house and you walk out the front door slamming it behind you and then I see this shimmering iridescent pearly light coming from within you and expanding outwards to everything around you, to the porch, the house, to the driveway and the trees in your neighborhood and then expanding into a blinding white light and when it finally returns to you, and I can see the scene around you again. Everything is prettier, newer and different.
Now you’re in a totally new environment, with fresh flowers in front of a new home, with a shiny, and better car in the driveway and you look happy, you’re shining brighter than before and you look like a new person too.
This is what May is bringing to you. A new life, one that looks completely different than the life you’ve been living. 🤍
You’re going to be better than okay 🥰
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the question: What’s group b’s Guidance for May?
your cards: 4 of swords, page of pearls, 5 of wands, 8 of cups, 10 of swords, 3 of swords, queen of cups, 8 of wands, six of swords, the king, the father, the comic, the faultline, the prayer, the judge, apocolypsis
your message: All right group b 🥰 the first thing you’re being guided to do is not to worry about the conversation or the fight or how everything will play out.
I heard, “Don’t worry your pretty little mind, everything is going to work out just fine. We have it all under control. Just take care of yourself.”
With the 3 of swords, I can see that you’re really worried right now, and it’s causing you a lot of emotional grief because you’re tired of this life. You’re tired of the fights, you’re tired of not being heard or loved the way you deserve it and the way you want to be loved. You feel like you’ve been on this not-so-merry-go-round for too long, you want off and you feel like you’ve been screaming at the universe for help and like no one has been listening. And that’s a really hard place to be and you’ve worn yourself out trying to hold onto faith and hope and trying to keep yourself sane. You’ve laughed things off that should’ve made you breakdown and sob. Your sense of humor has kept you alive when no one else was around to help you pick up the pieces of the mess these people have made. But your spirit team, they want to say they’ve heard every prayer, they’ve been helping you get to this point where you can finally leave them all behind and find peace and rest. But they were waiting on divine timing. They were waiting for the pieces to line up, to all be in place, so they could take you out of this situation in one fell swoop and bring you into the life you deserve. A life of love, peace, tranquility, luxury, and stability. A life that’s so secured for you that you never have to return to these people or anyone who is like them.
I know it can be really frustrating when you hear they were waiting for divine timing because to you it feels like the right time to leave them all behind was months or even years ago. And I’ve been there too where divine timing looks shitty because it feels like it’s taking too long and it’s too late. But that’s the sour side of the universe, divine timing is perfect timing but it doesn’t always make sense to us because we aren’t seeing the big picture, we don’t see the gears in motion underneath the clock, we don’t understand why it needs to be later and not now.
But the comfort of divine timing is in the beauty that in hind sight we usually see the magic that was happening behind the scenes, and it’s in that moment where we feel provided for, when we realize we were never alone even though it looked like it while we were in the storm.
And the truth for your situation is, you were never alone!
The universe heard every prayer, saw every tear, they sat with you hugging you even though you couldnt feel them. They felt your frustrations and pain like it was their own, they saw everything, every wrong thing they did to you, even the ones you don’t know about, and the universe knows what those people are guilty for.
You didn’t deserve any of it.
Any of the treatment they gave you, any of the words they said, you didn’t deserve any of it.
And it was incredibly unfair, but the good news is the divine saw it all. And the time for judgement is here, you’ll get your justice, and they will get their karmic punishment.
You don’t have to worry anymore.
Things may feel like you’re still in the thick of it, like this is the end of the world and you might not know how things will turn around. Like it’s the zombie apocalypse, and the CDC shut down and there’s no cure in sight.
But there is a cure being made right now, and the end of the apocalypse is near. It’s happening in May for you 🤍
You’ve got this, you’ve done such an incredible job getting yourself through all of that, keeping yourself alive when all odds were against you, including yourself, and you kept your heart kind and gentle through it all.
You’re being rescued now, and you’re being rewarded with a new life filled with compassion and kindness. You’ll never have to feel that way again, you’ll never be treated that way again. You’re getting out. You are! 🤍 And everything is going to be taken care of for you, all you have to do is let it happen, relax, rest and take care of yourself right now and through the transition. Focus on things that bring you joy, focus on taking care of yourself.
If it’s been a while since you had a nice relaxing shower, take one. Let yourself be comforted in your world right now and through the transitional period.
You’ve been through so much that you’ve been running on empty, it’s time to fill yourself back up and that comes through mental rest and physical comfort. Find time to take care of you right now. And hold on just a little longer my love, the rescue helicopter is on its way, it’s coming in fast and it’s not leaving without you 🤍
You’ve made it, just focus on how much better your life is going to be in a few days and trust the universe a little longer.
They’re about to show you that it was all worth it, that they’ve been by your side the whole time, that they love you. They’re picking you up right now and they’ll provide everything from transportation, to your house, to everything in it. They’re going to prove to you that they exist. That’s what part of their divine timing was all about, getting you to believe in them in a *big* way so you couldn’t ever feel doubt about them again.
Hang in there a little longer 🤍 Help is on the way.
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That’s all for your reading, I’m sending you loads of healing energy and comfort to help you through the transition. You’re not alone through this 🤍
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God was not upset at Adam and Eve for consuming the fruit of knowledge, he was upset because it hadn't ripened yet. The plan was always to feed them the gift of knowledge, but the serpent tricked them into eating it too early, causing humans to be unable to understand the entirety of a subject.
