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The last thing you said to him was âfine, go.â
Not âbe careful.â Not âI love you.â Just two words, clipped and cold, because you were tired and scared and the fight had taken everything out of you, and Arber had grabbed his bag off the bed and looked at you for a long moment, long enough that you thought he might say something, might cross the room and pull you into him the way he usually did when things got bad, and then heâd walked out the door.
That was four hours ago.
Now youâre sitting on the couch with your knees pulled up to your chest, the game on TV, and his words still rattling around in your head.
âItâs my job. You knew that when we started this.â
You did know, of course you did. Youâd known from the first night he explained what an enforcer actually does, said it plainly and without apology, watching your face for the moment youâd flinch away. You hadnât, instead youâd nodded and said âokay.â
That was before youâd watched him drop his gloves for the first time. Before youâd learned the specific way your stomach lurches when he takes a hit to the boards and doesnât get up right away. Before the fear had calcified into something permanent, something that lived in your chest during every game and only dissolved when he walked back through the door.
You hadnât meant to start the fight. It had been a Tuesday, heâd come home from practice with a bruise blooming across his jaw and laughed when you touched it, said âyou should see the other guyâ like that was supposed to help. And something in you had just snapped. All the fear youâd been quietly carrying spilled out sideways, and what came out sounded like anger even though it wasnât, not really.
âYou donât even care if you get hurt.â
Heâd gone very still. âYou think I donât care?â
And it had spiraled from there, both of you saying things that were true in the worst possible way. True enough to wound, not true enough to be fair. By the end you werenât even talking about the bruise anymore. You were talking about everything, all the accumulated weight of it, and neither of you had been kind.
On the TV, the puck drops. You watch because you always watch. Even now, even angry, the idea of not watching doesnât occur to you. You find number 72 in the opening scramble and track him automatically, the way you always do. The way youâve always done since the beginning, a habit so deep it doesnât feel like a choice anymore.
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The first period is fine.
Arber is physical the way he always is, present in every corner battle, first to the puck along the boards, body always between his teammates and trouble. Youâve made your peace with most of it. The hits, the battles, the way he plays like he has something to prove every single night. What you havenât made your peace with is the fighting, and you know thatâs the part thatâs not fair, because itâs the whole point of him, the reason he has a job in this league at all.
You hate that you know that.
Midway through the second, it happens. It starts as most of them do, a late hit on one of his teammates, the kind thatâs designed to hurt rather than play the puck, and you see Arberâs head come up from across the ice like a dog thatâs caught a scent. You know whatâs coming before his gloves hit the ice.
Youâve seen him fight probably forty times. You know his tells: the way he rolls his neck before he drops, the way his whole body settles into something different, you know how it usually goes, only this one goes differently.
You donât even fully register what happens, one moment theyâre exchanging and Arber has the upper hand the way he usually does, and then thereâs a stumble, an awkward fall, and he goes down hard onto the ice. The angle is bad. The crowd makes a sound. Youâre on your feet before youâve decided to stand.
He doesnât get up.
The TV cuts to a wide shot, which you hate, which tells you nothing, and the commentators are saying something about the medical staff coming out and youâre not hearing any of it because all you can hear is the fight from this morning playing back in your head on a loop. âYou donât even care if you get hurt.â Like you could ever not care. Like not caring was ever an option.
You grab your keys before the period ends.
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The thing about being an NHL girlfriend is that you learn the back routes. You know which entrance to use, which staff member to smile at, how to find your way to the places youâre technically not supposed to be. Youâve spent enough time in enough arenas that itâs become second nature.
You make it to the hallway outside the medical room with twelve minutes left in the third period. You can still hear the game faintly through the walls.
One of the trainers comes out, and you must look as wrecked as you feel because he doesnât make you explain yourself, just says âheâs okay, concussion protocol, heâll want to see youâ and steps aside.
The room is small and too bright and Arber is sitting on the edge of a table with an ice pack held to the side of his head and his jersey half on, and when he sees you something in his face does something complicated.
âHey,â he says.
âHey,â you say.
Your voice comes out smaller than you mean it to. Youâre still in your coat, still holding your keys, and youâre very aware that the last thing you said to him was âfine, go,â and that it has been sitting between you all day like a stone.
âYou didnât have to come,â he says, but he doesnât mean it as a dismissal, you can tell by the way heâs looking at you, careful and a little raw.
âI know,â you say.
You cross the room. He watches you the whole way. When you reach him you donât say anything, just put your hand against his face, carefully, on the side without the ice pack, and he closes his eyes and leans into it just slightly, the way he always does, automatic as breathing.
âIâm okay,â he says, quieter now.
âI know,â you say again. âI can see that.â A beat. âI just needed to see that.â
He opens his eyes. This close you can see the tension still in him, the set of his jaw, the fight still not all the way out of his body. But thereâs something else too, something that looks a lot like relief.
âIâm sorry,â he says. âAbout this morning.â
âMe too.â
âI said things-â
âSo did I.â You let your hand drop, but you donât step back. âI donât think you donât care. I know you care. I was scared and I made it sound like anger and that wasnât fair.â
Heâs quiet for a moment. The ice pack crinkles when he shifts.
âI know why youâre scared,â he says finally. âIâve always known. I just-â He stops. Starts again. âI donât know how to be anything different. This is just what I am.â
âI know that too,â you say. âIâm not asking you to be different.â
âThen what are you asking for?â
You think about it. Really think, not the panicked version of thinking youâd been doing all day, but the slow honest kind.
âI donât know exactly,â you admit. âMaybe just- I need you to know that when Iâm scared it doesnât mean I want you to stop. It just means I love you and sometimes love feels like terror and I havenât figured out how to hold both of those things at the same time yet.â
Something shifts in his expression. The last of the fight-tension drains out of him, and whatâs underneath it is just Arber, tired and a little beaten up and looking at you like youâre the only thing in the room.
âCome here,â he says.
You step between his knees and he wraps his arms around you carefully, one hand flat against your back, his forehead dropping to your shoulder. You feel him exhale - long and slow, the kind of exhale thatâs been waiting all day.
âI hate fighting with you,â he says into your collar.
âSame.â
âI didnât like leaving like that.â
âI didnât like letting you.â
His arms tighten slightly. âNext time Iâll wait.â
âNext time Iâll say it better.â You pull back just enough to look at him. âWeâre okay?â
He looks at you for a long moment, something warm moving through his expression.
âYeah,â he says. âWeâre okay.â
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They keep him for observation for another hour, which you spend sitting in a folding chair next to him, his hand in yours, neither of you talking much. It doesnât feel like silence that needs filling. It feels like the particular quiet of two people who have been through something and come out the other side of it and donât need to explain that to each other.
One of the other players stops by at some point, you vaguely clock the knock, the brief exchange, Arberâs voice going easy and familiar the way it does with his teammates and then itâs quiet again.
âYou really drove here in the third period?â Arber asks eventually.
âI drove here in the second period,â you correct.
He looks at you. âThe second period?â
âHe went down weird,â you say simply. âI wasnât going to sit there.â
Heâs quiet for a moment. Then: âOkay.â
Just that. âOkay.â But the way he says it, the way his thumb moves across your knuckles, tells you he understands what youâre not saying. That you showed up anyway. That âfine, goâ was never the whole sentence.
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The drive home is late and quiet, the city doing its nighttime thing outside the windows. Arber has his head tilted back against the headrest, not asleep, just still, and youâve got one hand on the wheel and the radio turned low to something neither of you are really listening to.
âThe jaw thing,â you say eventually.
He turns his head toward you.
âThe bruise. From practice.â You keep your eyes on the road. âThatâs where it started, this morning. I saw it and I just- everything came out wrong.â
âI know,â he says.
âI donât want you to hide things from me. Iâm not asking for that either. I just think I panicked and didnât know what to do with it.â
âI laughed,â he says. âThat probably didnât help.â
âNo, it really didnât.â
A beat, and then youâre both laughing a little, the exhausted kind, the kind that comes at the end of a long day when the worst of it is over and whatâs left is almost funny in hindsight.
âWeâre bad at fighting,â Arber says.
âWe really are.â
âWe should work on that.â
âProbably,â you agree. âOr we could just try not to.â
âThat seems more efficient.â
You reach over without looking and he catches your hand, holds it the rest of the way home.
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Your apartment is the way you left it, couch cushion still displaced from where youâd been sitting, TV off now, the light above the stove left on the way you always leave it when youâre not expecting to be back at a normal time. It looks like a place someone left in a hurry, which is exactly what it is.
Arber moves slowly but not badly, the observation period had cleared him, no concussion, just a knock that needed watching, and you resist the urge to hover, which he would hate, and instead go to the kitchen and put the kettle on because it gives you something to do with your hands.
He appears in the doorway a few minutes later, out of his game-day clothes, in the soft grey sweatshirt youâve stolen so many times itâs basically yours at this point. His hair is damp from the shower heâd taken at the arena. He looks tired and real and yours.
âTea?â you ask.
âYeah,â he says.
He comes to stand behind you while the kettle heats, arms loose around your waist, chin finding the top of your head. You lean back into him.
âI meant what I said,â he says. âIâm sorry. I knew you were scared and I got defensive anyway.â
âYou were allowed to be defensive. I wasnât being fair.â
âYou were being honest.â
âThose arenât mutually exclusive,â you say. âI could have been honest more kindly.â
He considers this. âOkay. Yeah. But I could have- I donât know. I could have heard you better.â
The kettle clicks off. You pour without moving out of his arms, which requires some maneuvering, which makes him laugh quietly.
âWhat I said,â you say carefully, fitting the mugs between you, âabout you not caring, I want you to know I didnât believe that when I said it. I was scared and it came out like blame and it wasnât.â
âI know,â he says. âIâve always known youâre scared. I think I just didnât want to look at it too directly because-â A pause. âBecause if I look at it directly I have to think about the fact that Iâm asking you to live with something hard, and I love you.â
You turn in his arms. He lets you, adjusting easily, the way you two have always moved around each other, fitting into the same spaces without thinking about it.
âYouâre not asking me to do anything,â you say. âI chose this. I choose this every day.â You look at him. âThe fear is just part of it. It doesnât mean I want out.â
He looks at you for a long moment. In the over-the-stove light his face is soft, a little tired, a bruise starting to show above his ear that youâre going to be furious about tomorrow but right now are choosing to table.
âOkay,â he says quietly.
âOkay,â you say back.
He leans down and presses a kiss to your forehead, slow and deliberate, and you close your eyes and let yourself feel how relieved you are â the specific relief of a fear that didnât come true, of words that found their way back to something true after a long day of being lost.
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Later, much later, youâre in bed with the lamp still on and his arm around you and a chapter of your book unread in your hands because you havenât actually been reading it for the past twenty minutes.
âArber,â you say.
âMm.â
âI love you.â
A pause. Then his arm tightens.
âI love you too,â he says. âI should have said it this morning.â
âNext time,â you say.
âNext time,â he agrees.
You put the book down. He reaches over and turns off the lamp without being asked. Outside the window the city is doing its nighttime thing, and in here itâs dark and warm and quiet, and you are okay, both of you, you are okay.
You fall asleep before you mean to, which means the last thing youâre aware of is his hand resting over yours, steady as anything.
The thing about being married to Nathan MacKinnon was that you had signed up for this.
You knew that going in. You had been working with the Avalanche for three years before he had asked you out, which meant you already had a comprehensive understanding of exactly what kind of person he was â the intensity, the compete level, the way he treated his body like a machine that existed purely to perform and your job was just to keep it running. You had taped his wrists and iced his shoulders and talked him through more bumps and bruises than you could count, and by the time he had shown up at your office door one afternoon in April with his hat backwards and an expression like he was facing down a penalty shot and said Iâd like to take you to dinner if thatâs okay you had known exactly what you were getting into.
You had said yes anyway.
That had been four years ago. You had been married for one and a half of them. Your mother had said are you sure you want to keep working with the team and you had said absolutely and she had said that seems complicated and you had said itâs fine, we keep it professional and she had given you a look that you had chosen not to examine too closely.
It was fine. You kept it professional. Mostly.
The keeping it professional part was easier than people assumed, actually â Nathan made it easy, because Nathan was the most compartmentalized human being you had ever met in your life. On the ice, in the locker room, in the training room, he was a player and you were staff and that was clean and simple and worked perfectly. It was only everywhere else that the lines got complicated, and everywhere else was your problem to manage, not the Avalancheâs.
Tonight, though. Tonight was testing the system a little.
You saw it happen from the bench.
You were always watching â that was the job, eyes on the ice, tracking movement, flagging anything that looked wrong â and so you saw the puck deflect off the stick and catch him clean in the face, and you were already moving before heâd even gone down to a knee.
âMacKinnon,â you said into your headset, already pulling your kit, and the door was opening and you were out on the ice, crossing to him with the kind of calm purposeful walk that you had perfected over years of doing this, the one that said everything is fine even when it wasnât, because the worst thing you could do in these moments was project panic.
He was upright by the time you got to him, because of course he was, because it was Nathan, who would probably stay upright through a natural disaster on pure stubbornness alone. His hand was over his nose and there was blood, a visible amount of it, dark against his glove.
âHey,â you said, reaching him. âLet me see.â
He lowered his hand. You looked at his nose â the blood, the swelling already starting, the way it was sitting on his face.
You looked at it for a moment.
âOkay,â you said, very professionally. âHereâs the thing.â
He watched you. His eyes were watering from the impact, the automatic physiological response, nothing to do with actual pain â you knew the difference with him by now.
âI genuinely cannot tell,â you said, âif this is new or not.â
Behind you, someone on the bench made a sound. You kept your expression completely neutral.
âLike I need you to help me out here,â you continued, gently pressing along the bridge with two fingers, watching his face for the response, âbecause your nose has been looking like this since at least 2022 and I donât have a great baseline to work from.â
âItâs new,â Nathan said. His voice was completely flat.
âAre you sure.â
âYes.â
âBecause I looked at your face this morning and Iâm trying to reconcileââ
âCan you justââ He stopped. Exhaled through his mouth. âCan you do your job.â
âI am doing my job. My job involves asking clarifying questions.â You tilted his chin up slightly, checking his eyes â pupils equal and reactive, tracking fine, good. âFollow my finger.â
He followed your finger.
âGood. Any dizziness?â
âNo.â
âHeadache?â
âNo.â
âVision okay?â
âFine.â
âHow many fingers.â
âTwo.â
âLucky guess,â you said.
Someone on the bench definitely laughed. You heard it. You didnât look.
Nathan was looking at you with an expression that on anyone else would have been annoyance but on him was something closer to barely suppressed something â you knew his face too well to misread it. He wasnât annoyed. He was doing the thing where he was trying not to react and the effort of it was showing slightly around the eyes.
âOkay,â you said. âCome to the back, let me get a proper look.â
âIâm fine.â
âNathan.â
âI can go back outââ
âYou can go back out after I clear you,â you said, firmly and pleasantly, the exact tone you used on every player who tried to argue their way back onto the ice before they were cleared, which was all of them, constantly, forever. âWhich will take five minutes if you stop arguing with me. Come on.â
He came.
The tunnel was loud with the ambient noise of the arena filtering through â crowd, music, the echo of skates â and you walked beside him without touching him, kit in hand, professional, and he was quiet beside you because he was always quiet, Nathan MacKinnon was the least chatty person you had ever worked with and you had been working with him for four years and married to him for one and a half and he still communicated largely in expressions and silences that you had become fluent in out of necessity.
The training room was quieter. You got him sitting on the table and snapped on your gloves and got your light out and started working properly, doing the full assessment â eyes again, responsiveness, the nose, palpating carefully along the bone.
âOkay,â you said, after a minute. âGood news and bad news.â
He waited.
âGood news is itâs not broken. Or if it is itâs a hairline and youâve played through worse and itâs not going to do anything new.â You put the light down. âBad news is I still genuinely cannot tell if itâs more crooked than this morning.â
âItâs the same as this morning,â he said.
âOkay but you say that, and I want to believe you, but I have been looking at your nose for four years and it has been a journey, Nathan, there have been a lot of chaptersââ
âAre you going to clear me,â he said.
âIâm getting there.â You pressed gently along the bridge one more time. He didnât flinch â he never flinched, it was genuinely concerning, you had talked to him about this multiple times. âDoes this hurt?â
âA little.â
âOn a scale of one to ten.â
âThree.â
âIt is not a three.â
âFour.â
âNathan.â
âFive,â he said, with great reluctance, like the number had been extracted from him against his will.
âThere it is.â You stepped back and looked at him properly â the blood cleaned up now, the swelling settling into something that was going to be impressive tomorrow morning, the nose sitting on his face in the way it always sat on his face, slightly characterful, very him. âYouâre cleared. No concussion, nose is fine, youâre going to look extremely rough tomorrow but you already knew that.â
âThanks,â he said, dry.
âIâm just being honest. Itâs my job to be honest.â You started cleaning up. âI do want you to come back and see me after the period.â
âIâm fine.â
âHumor me.â
He was quiet. You glanced over at him. He was still sitting on the table, watching you move around the room, and his expression was the one youâd had to learn specifically for these moments â the one that wasnât quite neutral, that had something underneath it that he wasnât going to say out loud but that youâd learned to read anyway. It was something like thank you and something like I hate that I need this and something like something else entirely that he kept very close.
âWhat,â you said.
âNothing,â he said.
âYouâre staring at me.â
âIâm not staring.â
âNathan. I can see you.â
He looked away, which meant you were right, which meant you were always right about this, which was one of your favorite things. âGo back out,â you said, not unkindly. âGo score a goal. Make my night worth something.â
He got up from the table. At the door he paused, and for a second you thought he was going to say something, but it was Nathan, so instead he just looked at you for a moment in the way that he had â direct and quiet and completely legible if you knew how to read it, which you did â and then he went.
You stood in the empty training room and let yourself breathe for exactly thirty seconds.
Your mother had said that seems complicated.
It was fine, you thought. It was completely fine. You kept it professional.
He came back after the period like youâd asked, which honestly still surprised you a little every time â not because you thought heâd defy medical advice, but because Nathan operated on his own internal logic and the fact that your advice and his logic aligned enough for him to just. Do what you said. Without arguing more than a baseline amount. That still felt like something.
âHowâs the nose,â you said.
âSame.â
âHead?â
âFine.â
âAny new symptoms.â
âNo.â
You checked him over quickly â you both knew it was mostly procedural at this point, that he was fine, that youâd known he was fine when you cleared him, but you did it anyway because that was the job and also because if you didnât he would definitely play through something actually serious one day out of stubbornness and you were not going to let that be on your watch. âOkay. Youâre good.â
âI know,â he said.
âI just wanted to hear myself say it.â
He almost smiled. You could see it â the very edge of it, the slight shift at the corner of his mouth that on anyone else would have been a full grin but on Nathan was the equivalent. You had a whole internal catalog of his almost-smiles by now. This was a good one.
âGo celebrate,â you said. âYou won.â
âI know,â he said again, but different this time â quieter, still looking at you, and there it was again, the thing he didnât say.
âNathan,â you said.
âYeah.â
âGo.â
He went.
The bus back to the hotel was loud in the way that post-win buses were always loud â music, guys talking over each other, someone in the back having a conversation at full volume that the rest of the bus did not need to be part of but was anyway. You sat near the front with your kit on your lap, going through your post-game notes, and Nathan dropped into the seat beside you without announcement, which was unusual â typically on buses and planes he sat with the players, maintaining the separation that you had both agreed made the professional side of things cleaner.
You looked at him.
He looked back.
âHi,â you said.
âHi,â he said.
âYouâre sitting here.â
âYeah.â
âOkay,â you said, and went back to your notes.
He was quiet beside you, which was normal, which was just Nathan, and outside the window Minnesota was doing whatever Minnesota did in March which was be dark and cold and flat, and the bus was warm, and around you the team was loud, and it was comfortable in the specific way that things were comfortable when you had stopped having to perform them.
âHowâs the nose,â you said, after a while, not looking up.
âYou already cleared me.â
âI know. Iâm asking as your wife.â
A pause. âStill a five,â he said.
âStill lying,â you said.
âSix,â he said.
âThereâs progress.â You made a note. âPut ice on it when we get back.â
âI know.â
âI know you know. Iâm saying it anyway.â
He shifted in the seat beside you, settling, and his arm pressed against yours in the way that happened when two people were sharing a bus seat that was not quite big enough, and he didnât move away, and neither did you.
âYou were funny,â he said, after a while. âOn the ice.â
You looked up from your notes. âIâm always funny.â
âThe thing about the nose.â
âIt was a legitimate medical observation.â
âCale almost fell over.â
âCale has a good sense of humor.â You glanced at him. He was looking straight ahead, but the corner of his mouth was doing the thing again. âWere you embarrassed?â
âNo.â
âNathan.â
âA little,â he said. âIt was fine.â
âI kept it very professional.â
âYou told me in front of the whole bench that you couldnât tell if my nose was broken because it already looked broken.â
âThatâs a professional observation.â
âIt really wasnât.â
âI cleared you, didnât I?â
âEventually.â
âYouâre welcome,â you said grandly, and he made a sound that was absolutely a laugh, quiet and short, but real â fully real, not the almost-smile, an actual laugh â and you felt it like a small victory, like you always did, because Nathan MacKinnonâs real laugh was something you had decided early on that you would work for every single time.
âIâm serious though,â you said, after a second, dropping the performance a little. âHow are you actually feeling.â
He considered, which was one of the things you liked about him â he didnât just say fine automatically, he actually checked in with himself before answering, which had taken you a while to understand wasnât deflection but was just how he processed. âOkay,â he said. âHeadache starting a little. Nose is sore.â
âThatâs normal. The headache is probably just the impact, not concussion â your eyes were fine, your tracking was fine, you had no symptoms. But tell me if it gets worse.â
âI will.â
âYou wonât.â
âI will,â he said, more firmly.
You looked at him for a moment. âOkay,â you said. âI believe you.â
He nodded, like that was settled.
Outside the window the highway lights were doing that thing they did at night, strobing past in a rhythm, and the bus was warm, and his arm was still against yours, and you thought about this morning, getting ready in the hotel room, him standing at the bathroom mirror in the quiet pre-game way he had, focused and internal, and you handing him his coffee without him asking because you knew, and him taking it without saying thank you because he didnât have to. All the small fluency of it. All the ways you had learned each other.
âHey,â you said.
âMm.â
âI lied earlier.â
He looked at you.
âI could tell it was new,â you said. âThe nose. I could tell immediately. I just thought it would make you feel better if I made a thing of it.â
He was quiet for a second. âIt did,â he said. âA little.â
âI know.â You went back to your notes. âIâm good at my job.â
âYou are,â he said, simply, the way he said things that he meant completely â no performance, no decoration, just straight through, and it landed exactly the way it always did when he did that, like something settling into place.
You wrote something in your notes that was not actually a note, that was just you needing somewhere to put the feeling for a second.
âYour nose is fine,â you said, after a moment.
âI know.â
âIt was fine before too. For the record.â
He turned to look at you, and there was something in his expression that was quieter than the almost-smile, that was below the surface of the usual Nathan-facing-the-world composure, that was just â him. Just the version of him that existed in hotel hallways and quiet mornings and bus seats in Minnesota in March.
âI know,â he said, and you were fairly sure he wasnât talking about the nose anymore.
âOkay, donât get sentimental on me,â you said immediately. âWeâre in Minnesota.â
âWhat does that have to do with anything.â
âI donât know, it felt right.â You clicked your pen. âGo to sleep, you have a nose injury.â
âItâs notââ
âMedically speaking you should rest.â
âYou just said it was fine.â
âFine and optimal are different categories, Nathan.â
He looked at the ceiling of the bus for a moment, the long-suffering look, the one that meant he was choosing not to engage further, which was a form of affection when you knew him well enough. Then he settled back in the seat, arm still against yours, and closed his eyes.
You watched him for a second. The bruising was going to be something tomorrow â already faint shadows blooming under both eyes, the nose sitting on his face in its new slightly-more-interesting configuration. He was going to look like heâd gone twelve rounds. He was going to look completely unbothered about it.
He was going to come find you in the morning and stand in the doorway of whatever hotel room youâd ended up in and you were going to look at him and say something terrible about it and he was going to almost smile and that was going to be the whole morning.
âHey Nathan,â you said, quietly.
âMm,â he said, not quite asleep.
âIt really doesnât ruin your pretty face. Just so you know.â
A silence. Then: âYou think I have a pretty face.â
âI married you, didnât I.â
âThat could mean a lot of things.â
âIt means I think you have a pretty face,â you said. âDonât push it.â
The corner of his mouth moved. The almost-smile, in the dark of the bus, in Minnesota, on the way back to the hotel.
âGet some sleep,â you said.
He did.
You turned back to your notes, and the bus moved through the dark, and outside the window Minnesota went on being flat and cold and indifferent, and beside you your husband slept with a bruised nose and both of you right there, and it was enough.
A/N: ok guys... yes I know im hella late with posting...I got locked out of my google docs and had to rewrite this entire thing. unfortunately the first draft of this was TOTALLY different. also apologies for what youre about to read...
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The thing about Game 4 was that it started exactly the way you expected it to.
Loud. Hostile. The Wells Fargo Center so wound up from the moment the doors opened that the air itself felt pressurized, like the building had been holding its breath since the final horn of Game 3 and had not yet decided whether to exhale. Three games in. Flyers up. The city was one win away from something it had been waiting years to feel, and every single person inside that arena knew it.
You knew it too.
You had been doing this job long enough to recognize the specific energy of a potential series-clinching game. It was different from regular season. Different even from normal playoff games. There was an edge to it that cut through everything else, through professionalism and routine and the practiced calm youâd spent two years building into your game day presence. It got under your skin whether you wanted it to or not.
Tonight it had help.
Youâd been on the ice level for warmups, moving through your usual pregame capture, vertical clips for stories, a couple of clean wide shots for the recap package, the kind of footage that almost ran itself after enough repetition. Your hands knew what to do. Your feet knew where to go. The camera found angles on instinct.
But somewhere underneath all of it, quieter than the crowd and harder to ignore, something had been sitting in your chest since the night heâd texted you. Since youâd read the message three times and still hadnât fully known what to do with it. Since youâd typed âIâll talk to you at game 4â and hit send before you could overthink it into something longer and more complicated.
That had been four days ago.
Four days of the job offer sitting open on your phone like a tab you kept meaning to close. Four days of your brain running the numbers without being asked. Four days of telling yourself you were thinking about it logically, professionally, like a person making a reasonable career decision, and not like someone who had let a handful of conversations and one dinner mean more than they probably should have.
You were doing fine.
Mostly.
You caught sight of him during warmups without meaning to.
It happened the same way it had in Game 3 â involuntary, immediate, like your brain had quietly filed him under necessary information at some point in Pittsburgh and never bothered to ask your permission. He came off the tunnel with the rest of the Penguins, gliding into the warmup rotation, and even from where you were standing it was easy to find him. It was always easy to find him.
You looked away.
Kept moving. Kept working. Told yourself the feeling sitting low in your ribs was just the game.
It was mostly the game.
Pittsburgh had won.
You knew it was coming, in that terrible, sports-instinct way where the momentum of the last six minutes of regulation had already told you the story before the ending arrived. The Flyers had pushed. Had been loud and fast and right there, right at the edge of it, close enough that the crowd had been on its feet for most of the third period. And then the period had ended tied, and the overtime had been that specific kind of brutal where every shift felt like it could be the last one, and then it was.
The goal came off a Penguins rush that the defense almost stopped.
Almost.
The arena went the specific quiet of ten thousand people absorbing something they hadnât wanted to absorb. You kept your camera up out of habit, getting the reaction shots, the bench, the ice, the deflation moving through the building in real time. You did your job. You were good at your job.
But when the Penguins celebrated at the far end and the overhead lights caught the movement of it, your eyes found him again without asking first.
He wasnât celebrating loudly. That wasnât his way. Just a fist, tight and brief, a gloved hand against a teammateâs helmet. The compressed satisfaction of someone who had refused to let the series end tonight.
You lowered your camera.
The series was still alive.
Which meant the conversation was still alive too.
The hallways after were exactly as chaotic as they always were after an overtime playoff loss, maybe more so. The emotional hangover of almost was always harder than a clean defeat. You moved through it on autopilot, sending clips to Mason, checking in with Olivia, doing the mechanical end-of-night wrap that your hands could manage without your full attention.
You were halfway through uploading a file when you heard your name.
Not loudly. Not from far away.
Just from right behind you, low and certain, in a voice you had apparently already memorized without meaning to.
You turned.
He was still in partial gear, having clearly come through from the visiting side with the specific purpose of someone who knew exactly where they were going. He looked like the overtime had cost him something physically â jaw tight, shoulders carrying the particular weight of a game that had gone long â but his eyes when they found yours were steady.
âHey,â he said.
âHey,â you said back, because your vocabulary apparently abandoned you on contact.
He glanced at the people moving around you both, then back at your face. âYou have a few minutes?â
You did. You probably shouldnât. You nodded anyway.
He tipped his head toward a quieter stretch of corridor, and you followed him away from the main foot traffic until the noise dropped to something manageable. He turned when he stopped, facing you with his arms loose at his sides, and for a second neither of you said anything.
âYou said game 4,â he said.
âI did.â
âSo.â
You let out a breath that wasnât quite a laugh. âSo.â
The job offer had been sitting between you for four days and now that it was actually here, actually real, you werenât sure you had organized it into anything coherent enough to say out loud. You looked at him and tried anyway.
âItâs a good offer,â you said.
âYeah.â
âItâs more than I make now.â
âI know.â
âAnd the role isââ You stopped. âItâs genuinely a good opportunity.â
He waited. He was very good at waiting.
âBut,â you said.
Something in his expression shifted, just slightly. Like he already knew what was coming and had been waiting for you to arrive at it.
âIf I work for your organization,â you said carefully, âwe canâtââ You gestured between the two of you, the motion encompassing approximately everything that had happened since a concrete hallway in Pittsburgh. âThis canât be a thing.â
He held your gaze. âI know.â
âYou knew that when you sent it.â
âYes.â
The honesty of it landed without softening, and for a second you didnât know what to do with the fact that he had looked at that problem and sent the offer anyway. Like heâd made a calculation and this was just what it had produced. You felt something tighten in your chest that you couldnât quite name.
âThatâs a problem,â you said.
âI know,â he said again. Then, quieter, more deliberate: âIâll fix it.â
You stared at him. âYou canât justââ
âIâll talk to the right people.â His voice was even. Certain in that way of his that made you want to argue on principle and believe him completely at the same time. âItâs not a permanent rule. Itâs a policy. Policies can be reviewed.â
âSidneyââ
âIâm not asking you to decide anything tonight.â He held your gaze. âIâm just telling you that itâs not the obstacle you think it is.â
You looked at him for a long moment, the hallway noise existing somewhere entirely outside of whatever was happening in the small space between you. Part of you wanted to push back. Part of you wanted to tell him that policies didnât bend because one person wanted them to, that the real world didnât work that way, that this was exactly the kind of thing people said and didnât follow through on.
But he wasnât saying it like a promise designed to make you feel better.
He was saying it the way he said everything. Like it was simply the next thing that needed to happen and he had already started figuring out how.
You exhaled slowly. âOkay.â
âOkay,â he repeated.
Somewhere down the corridor a door opened and a rush of voices spilled through before cutting off again. You both glanced toward it, the outside world briefly insisting on itself.
When you looked back, he was already watching you.
Not the way he had been a moment ago. Quieter now. More careful.
âWhat else?â he asked.
You blinked. âWhat?â
âSomethingâs on your mind.â He said it simply, without pressure. âSomething else.â
The accuracy of it was almost annoying. You hadnât said anything. Youâd been holding it neatly the whole night, all four days, longer than that if you were being honest, that low persistent hum of something you hadnât put into words yet.
âIâm fine,â you said.
He didnât argue with that. Just looked at you with that steady, unhurried patience that was somehow worse than being pushed.
âIâm fine,â you said again, slightly less convincingly.
His mouth curved at the corner, barely. âCome to dinner with me tomorrow.â
You opened your mouth.
âNot to talk about the job,â he said, before you could redirect it there. âJust dinner.â
You looked at him. At the certainty of him, quiet and consistent and completely unmoved by the fact that nothing about this situation was simple or convenient or clean. Something in your chest pulled in a way you were running out of excuses to ignore.
âOkay,â you said.
He texted you the address the next afternoon.
Nothing else with it. Just the name of a place and a time, which was so entirely in keeping with every other way he communicated that you found yourself smiling at your phone before you remembered you were supposed to be thinking clearly about all of this.
You were ready ten minutes early and spent those ten minutes talking yourself out of caring that you were ready ten minutes early.
The knock came exactly on time.
You opened the door and your brain, which had been running a fairly composed internal monologue up until that moment, went briefly and completely offline.
He was standing in the hallway with a small bunch of wildflowers.
Not a formal arrangement. Not something that looked like it had been delivered or carefully selected from a floristâs display case. Just wildflowers, the kind with small yellow centers and soft petals in pale colors, wrapped loosely in brown paper and held in one hand like heâd picked them up because heâd seen them and thought of you and that had been reason enough.
He held them out when you just stood there.
âHi,â he said.
You took them. Your throat felt strange. âYou brought flowers.â
âYeah.â
âYou didnât have to do that.â
âI know.â
You looked down at them, then back up at him, and something about the simplicity of it â the lack of ceremony, the lack of performance, just flowers because he wanted to bring them â cracked something open behind your ribs in a way you hadnât been prepared for.
âCome in,â you managed.
The restaurant was quiet in the way good restaurants were quiet on weeknights â not empty, just unhurried, the kind of place where the lighting was warm and nobody was trying to move you along. Heâd picked somewhere low-key, away from the kind of foot traffic that would have made the evening into something it didnât need to be.
You sat across from him with the menu open and the flowers metaphorically still sitting somewhere in your chest, and for a few minutes the conversation stayed easy. Light. The pleasant back-and-forth that had come naturally since the beginning, quick and dry and comfortable in a way you still werenât entirely used to.
But he had said it wasnât about the job.
And heâd meant it, you could tell, because he didnât bring it up. He just talked to you. Asked about your week, about your team, about what the post-game atmosphere had looked like from your side of the glass. He listened when you answered. Actually listened, in the way that made you aware of how rarely people did.
Somewhere between the first course and the second, the ease of it began to work against you.
Youâd been holding things carefully for a while. The offer. The what-ifs. The quiet, persistent awareness that your life might be standing at an edge you hadnât fully chosen to approach. You were good at holding things carefully. Youâd had practice.
But there was something about the way he was looking at you tonight â patient, unhurried, like he had nowhere else he needed to be â that made the careful holding harder.
âI donât know what Iâm doing,â you said.
It came out quietly, between one moment and the next, not quite planned.
He didnât react with surprise. He just settled back slightly and let you have the space.
âWith the job,â you added. Then, honestly: âWith any of it.â
âOkay,â he said.
âIâm not â â You turned your glass once between your fingers. âI built something here. In Philadelphia. It took a long time and itâs not perfect but itâs mine and the idea of just â leaving itââ You stopped. âIt feels like a bigger decision than I know how to make right now.â
âIt is a big decision,â he said.
âYouâre not supposed to agree with me.â
âWhy not?â
You looked at him. âBecause you want me to say yes.â
Something in his expression shifted into something quieter, more honest. âI want you to make the right decision for you,â he said. âThose arenât always the same thing.â
The words landed without any performance behind them, and that was somehow the most disarming thing he could have said. You looked at him across the table, the warm light catching the edges of everything, and felt the thing youâd been carrying all week shift slightly in your chest. Not disappear. Just loosen.
âAnd if the right decision for me is staying?â you asked.
He held your gaze. âThen you stay.â
âJust like that.â
âJust like that.â
âAndââ You gestured between you again. âThis?â
He was quiet for a moment. Long enough to be considered rather than careful. âThen we figure out what this looks like from here,â he said. âItâs not ideal. But itâs not nothing either.â
You stared at him.
Because he meant it. You could tell he meant it â not as a consolation, not as a fallback, but as a genuine alternative he had already sat with and accepted. Like heâd looked at all the versions of how this could go and decided the through line in all of them was that he wasnât walking away from it.
Something in your chest ached quietly.
âYouâre making this very hard,â you said.
The corner of his mouth lifted. âGood.â
âThatâs not a good thing.â
âFrom where Iâm sitting it is.â
You laughed despite yourself, brief and helpless, and the tension that had been sitting across your shoulders all night loosened its grip by a fraction. He watched you with that same warm, steady focus, and for a moment the restaurant and the series and the job offer and all of the complicated geography of everything felt slightly less impossible.
Not solved.
Not simple.
But less impossible.
âIâm going to need more time,â you said.
âYou have it.â
âIâm serious. I donât make fast decisions.â
âI know.â
âI overthink everything.â
âIâve noticed.â
You narrowed your eyes. âThatâs rude.â
âItâs accurate.â
âItâs both.â
He smiled properly this time, quiet and real, and the warmth of it settled somewhere in you it wasnât going to be easy to dislodge.
You looked down at your plate, then back up at him. âThank you,â you said. âFor tonight. For theââ You shook your head a little. âFor the flowers.â
âAnytime.â
The word landed simply, without weight, and somehow that made it heavier. Like it wasnât a gesture or a line. Just a fact. Anytime. As many times as it took.
You held his gaze for a second longer than you meant to.
âOkay,â you said softly.
He nodded once.
Outside the window, Philadelphia moved through its evening in the ordinary way the city always did, indifferent to the fact that somewhere inside a quiet restaurant on a weeknight, something that had started in a concrete hallway was quietly, stubbornly, refusing to be anything less than real.
The thing about elimination games was that the building always knew before anyone admitted it out loud.
You could feel it in the last five minutes. The way the crowd shifted from loud to desperate, from desperate to something rawer underneath, the kind of noise that had grief already threaded through it even before the final horn made anything official. The Flyers were ahead by one and the ice was tilting their way and somewhere in the back of your chest, underneath the job and the offer and everything you still hadnât resolved, something that had nothing to do with hockey was quietly bracing itself.
You kept working.
That was what you did. That was what you were good at.
You captured the final minutes the way you captured everything â moving, adjusting, reading the room, finding the angles that told the story cleanly. The Flyers bench electric with the specific tension of a team that could smell the next round. The crowd on its feet. The clock running down in that particular way it did when every second felt both too fast and unbearably slow.
When the horn sounded the building detonated.
You got the celebration. The bench clearing. The gloves going up. The pile of orange and black at center ice that would end up being the image of the night, the image of the series, the one that would live on highlight reels and fan accounts for years. You got all of it, clean and steady, your hands doing their job while the rest of you existed somewhere slightly outside of the moment.
Your season wasnât over.
His was.
You knew it before the horn. Youâd known it for the last ten minutes probably, in that quiet, terrible way you knew things you werenât ready to know. But knowing and feeling were different countries and the distance between them closed fast once the noise started and the reality of it settled into your bones.
You lowered the camera.
Around you the celebration was still building, staff and players and fans all caught up in the momentum of advancement, of survival, of another round ahead. Olivia was somewhere behind you saying something into her headset. Sam was already moving for a wider angle. The machine of your job kept turning with or without your full attention.
You had maybe twenty minutes before the hallways got impossible.
You made a decision.
It wasnât hard to find the visiting corridor. You knew this building better than almost any other, every turn and service door and back hallway that the public never saw. You moved through it quickly, credential against your chest, your camera bag over one shoulder, the noise of the Flyers celebration fading behind you by degrees until it became something muffled and distant.
The visiting side was quieter in the way losing sides always were after elimination. Not silent â there were voices, movement, the low purposeful sounds of a team beginning the process of packing something away â but the quality of the quiet was different. Heavier. The kind that settled into the spaces between sounds and stayed there.
You waited near the corridor junction, far enough from the main flow of traffic to be out of the way, close enough that youâd see him when he came through.
You were aware, distantly, that this was probably not the most professionally sound decision you had ever made.
You waited anyway.
He came through about ten minutes later, still in his gear, his helmet gone, his hair pushed back and damp at the temples the way it always was after a game. He was moving with the contained, deliberate energy of someone who had not yet fully allowed themselves to feel the thing that had just happened. A couple of staff members flanked him briefly before peeling off toward another corridor.
Then he saw you.
He stopped.
Just for a second. Just long enough for something to shift in his expression, something that moved through him and then got put carefully away.
He walked toward you.
âHey,â he said.
âHey.â
For a moment neither of you said anything. The corridor noise moved around you â distant footsteps, a door somewhere, the muffled sounds of two buildings existing on opposite sides of a result â and you stood in the middle of it and tried to find the beginning of the thing youâd come here to say.
âIâm not taking the job,â you said.
He went very still.
âThe position,â you continued, keeping your voice even, âit wonât exist anymore. By the time next season starts sheâll be back from leave and there wonât be anything for me to step into.â You swallowed. âSo itâs not â Iâm not saying no because I donât want it. Iâm saying no because thereâs nothing left to say yes to.â
He looked at you for a long moment. âOkay,â he said quietly.
âOkay,â you repeated, and the word felt strange in your mouth. Too small for what it was carrying.
You looked down at the floor for a second, at the concrete that looked exactly like the concrete in Pittsburgh, and felt something press hard against the inside of your chest.
âI thinkââ You stopped. Started again. âI think this is probably the end of this. Of whatever this was.â Your voice stayed level but only just. âThe series is over and your season is done and mine isnât and weâre stillââ Another stop. âWeâre still on opposite sides of everything and the one thing that might have changed that just stopped existing and I donât know how toââ
You pressed your lips together.
His jaw tightened.
âI donât know how to keep doing this from here,â you finished. âAnd I think you probably know that.â
The silence that followed was the worst kind. Not empty. Full of everything neither of you was saying, all the versions of how this might have gone, all the timing that had never quite lined up the way it needed to.
âI meant what I said,â he said finally. Low and even. âAbout fixing it.â
âI know you did.â
âI would have.â
âI know.â And you did know. That was the part that made it so hard to stand there and say what you were saying. âBut thereâs nothing to fix anymore.â
He looked at you with that steady, unreadable focus, and you watched him process it the way he processed everything â inward, controlled, held close. His hands were loose at his sides. His shoulders were still. But his eyes, when they stayed on yours, were saying something his voice wasnât going to.
You felt the almost-crying arrive without permission.
You held it back through sheer force of will and the knowledge that if you cried in this hallway you would never fully recover from the embarrassment of it.
âI kept the flowers,â you said, because apparently your mouth had decided the moment needed to be worse.
Something in his expression broke open, just slightly, just enough to see.
âTheyâre in a vase,â you added, stupidly, helplessly. âOn my counter.â
He exhaled slowly through his nose. The sound of someone absorbing something they didnât have a response for.
âIâm sorry,â you said. âAbout the timing. About all of it.â
âDonât apologize.â
âIâm apologizing anyway.â
His mouth moved, barely. Almost a smile and not quite. âYeah,â he said softly. âI know.â
Somewhere down the corridor a door opened and a voice called his name â one of the media coordinators, clipboard in hand, the world outside this hallway asserting its claim on the next twenty minutes of his life.
He glanced toward it. Then back at you.
And you understood in that moment what it cost him. To have to turn away from this and go sit in front of cameras and give measured, professional answers about a season ending while whatever this was dissolved quietly in a back corridor that nobody else would ever know about. You understood it because you were going to have to do the same thing, go back to your side, finish your night, do your job, and you already knew that somewhere around two in the morning when the adrenaline finally wore off you were going to sit on your couch and look at the flowers on your counter and feel the full weight of this.
But not yet.
Not here.
âYou should go,â you said.
He didnât move right away.
One more second. Both of you standing in the corridor where his season had just ended and something else had ended too, quiet and unhurried about it, like neither of you was ready to be the one who walked away first.
Then he said it.
Low and simple and weighted with everything the first version of it hadnât been.
âGood luck.â
Your breath caught.
He held your gaze for one more moment, long enough that you knew heâd meant it exactly the way youâd heard it. Then he nodded once, the smallest thing, and turned and walked toward the media coordinator and the lights and the cameras and the thirty minutes of composed professionalism that waited for him on the other side.
You watched him go.
Then you turned and walked the other way.
The media room was bright in the way media rooms always were. Too bright. The kind of fluorescent overhead light that flattened everything and left nowhere to hide.
He sat in front of the cameras and gave them what they needed.
It was a hard series. The Flyers played well. You give them credit. These things happen in playoff hockey. You look at what you can learn from it. You come back next year. The answers came out measured and even, each one landing in the right place, none of them costing him anything visible.
The reporters nodded. Typed. Moved to the next question.
He answered that one too.
And the one after.
His expression stayed composed throughout. Steady. The practiced neutral of someone who had been doing this long enough that the face and the feeling had learned to operate independently of each other.
Nobody in that room would have seen it.
The slight tension at the corner of his jaw. The way his eyes, between questions, went somewhere briefly that wasnât the room.
A hallway.
Wildflowers in a vase on someoneâs counter on the other side of the city.
Good luck.
He answered the next question.
You made it back to your side of the building before anyone noticed youâd gone.
The celebration was still running hot, the kind of momentum that carried a team through the first hour after advancement before exhaustion started setting in at the edges. You moved through it, doing what needed to be done, sending what needed to be sent, saying the right things to the right people.
Olivia found you near the media lane, took one look at your face, and said nothing.
She fell into step beside you instead, and that was enough.
Later, after the building had mostly emptied and the last clips had been sent and your gear was packed and the night had finally thinned into something quiet, you took a car back to your apartment alone.
You dropped your bag by the door.
Kicked your shoes off.
Stood in the kitchen for a moment in the dark, not turning the lights on yet.
Then you did.
And there they were.
The wildflowers, in their vase on the counter, petals softening at the edges now, past their best but still there. Still kept. Still sitting exactly where youâd put them the night heâd shown up at your door with them held loosely in one hand like it had simply made sense to bring them.
You stood there and looked at them for a long time.
Then you sat down on the couch, pulled your knees up, and let the quiet of the apartment settle around you.
Your season wasnât over.
His was.
And somewhere across the city, in a hotel room that looked like every other hotel room, a man who had walked into a hallway looking for you and somehow never quite found his way back out of it was sitting with the specific silence of a door that had closed before either of you had been ready.
Not because anyone had done anything wrong.
Just because that was sometimes how it went.
Sometimes the timing was the whole problem and there was nothing left to do but carry it carefully and keep going.
You looked at the flowers one more time.
Then you reached over, turned off the lamp, and let the dark be quiet.
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Sidney Crosby x Social Media Admin!reader PART 2!!!
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A/N: dont worry y'all im writing part 3 rn omfg!!! also thank you so much for 700 followers <33 ily guys sm!!!! I might be a little slow with updates bc I start my new job tomorrow but ill do my best !
By the time the plane leveled out, most of the noise had settled into the low, familiar hum that always seemed to take over once a team got fully airborne. The first few minutes after takeoff were usually the loudest. Bags shifting in overhead compartments. A couple last-second jokes passed across the aisle. Someone in the back already arguing about a missed read from the last game like altitude had somehow made the video evidence stronger. Trainers moving through the cabin with bottled water and snacks no one really wanted but everyone took anyway.Â
Then, gradually, it all evened out. Voices dropped. Tablets came out. Headphones went on. The cabin dimmed into that strange in-between space team flights always seemed to create, where dozens of people were technically sharing the same room but each of them had already disappeared into his own head.
Sidney sat near the front, turned slightly toward the window, one forearm resting against the armrest and his fingers loose around a paper cup that had long since gone cold.
Game 3. Philadelphia. Flyers up by 2.Â
It should have been enough to hold his full attention on its own. Usually, it would have been. Playoff hockey had a way of compressing everything else. The days narrowed. The hours sharpened. Details got louder in your head than anything happening outside of it. Matchups. Faceoffs. Breakouts. Who was reading pressure well, who was cheating for offense, where the weak side had opened up in Game 2, how quickly momentum had swung in both games already. A series never stayed still. It moved every day, sometimes every period, and if you were paying attention the way he always paid attention, there was more than enough to think about.
There should have been, but every now and then, against his better judgment, his mind drifted somewhere else. He looked out the window without really seeing much of anything. The clouds were flat and pale outside, the kind of washed-out afternoon sky that made it hard to tell where one layer ended and another began. Somewhere below them was Pennsylvania in late April, green starting to come back in patches, the roads wet from rain if the forecast heâd glanced at that morning had been right. Somewhere ahead of them was Philadelphia. Playoff game. Hostile building. Aggressive fans. The kind of place that tried to get under your skin before the puck even dropped.
And somewhere in that building, probably moving through the same concrete hallways and loading docks and back corridors she always did on game days, would be you. He shifted slightly in his seat. That thought had started showing up more often than he liked.
Not because he minded thinking about you. That wasnât the problem. The problem was the timing of it. The way it slipped in when he was supposed to be thinking about other things.Â
It had been, what, a few weeks now? Maybe a month, depending on where exactly you started counting from. Long enough for the details of that game in Pittsburgh to have blurred in places. Long enough for other games to stack on top of it. Travel. Recovery. Stretch run. The final push into the playoffs. Enough hockey had happened since then that, logically, one strange day should have been swallowed up by all the rest.
Instead, it had stayed. Not all of it, just the parts that mattered.
The hallway. The near collision. Your expression when youâd looked up at him, startled and trying not to show it. The quickness of your mouth after that, the way youâd recovered into sarcasm almost immediately like it was the easiest instinct in the world. The dry little edge in your voice when youâd blamed the building for your own sense of direction. The way the conversation had turned easy faster than it should have.
Then later, the look on your face when youâd walked into the room after the hit. Half apology, half determination, like youâd fully understood by then that it was a bad idea and had done it anyway.
He looked down at the cup in his hand and rotated it once between his fingers. He still remembered the Penguins jacket. That part, for some reason, had stayed especially clear. Not because it had been funny, though it had. Not because it had been ridiculous, though that too. Mostly because it had told him something about you before youâd even said a word. You were the kind of person who would make a decision based on instinct, realize halfway through that it had become objectively insane, and keep going anyway because turning back would have felt worse.
Heâd liked that.
Across the aisle, someone laughed at something on a tablet screen. The sound was brief, low, and gone almost immediately. Farther back, one of the coaches was talking quietly with a player, his voice too low to make out but steady enough that the rhythm of it became part of the background.
Sid stayed where he was, eyes lowered now, expression unreadable to anyone looking over.
Would you be there tonight? Probably.
He didnât know enough about the structure of your job to know whether playoffs changed anything for your staffing or responsibilities, but if it was a Flyers home game and social content mattered half as much in the postseason as it seemed to during the regular season, he figured there was a good chance youâd be somewhere around the team.
Maybe by the glass, maybe in a tunnel, maybe moving too fast to notice him at all. The thought settled in a way that was harder to ignore than he wanted it to be.
It wasnât as if anything had happened after Pittsburgh. That was part of what made the whole thing feel slightly absurd when he let himself think about it too closely. You had one strange day. A handful of conversations. A spark of something obvious enough that neither of you had really pretended otherwise by the end of it. Then the season had kept moving, because seasons always did, and whatever might have happened next got left somewhere behind the pace of everything else.
He exhaled once through his nose and finally let the cold coffee cup go, setting it down in the holder beside his seat. A few rows back on the other side of the aisle, one of the teamâs social media staffers was leaning into the space between seats, talking to the digital producer beside her while glancing down at something on her phone. Heâd worked with her enough over the last couple of seasons to know her rhythm on travel days. Always doing three things at once. Always half in conversation and half in a content queue nobody else could see.
His eyes flicked toward her and then away again, then back.
It was a harmless question, that was how he framed it to himself. The kind of thing that could come up for any number of reasons without meaning much of anything. Still, he sat with it for another minute or two before finally unbuckling and standing.
The plane shifted lightly under his feet as he stepped into the aisle, one hand brushing the top of a seat for balance out of habit more than necessity. Nobody paid much attention. On team flights, movement like that barely registered unless somebody was carrying a deck of cards or looking for coffee.
She looked up when he stopped beside the row. âHey,â she said, a little surprised but not enough to make anything of it. âWhatâs up?â
He rested one hand on the top of the seat across from her, keeping his tone easy. âGot a question.â
âOkay.â
âYou guys know people on other teamsâ social staffs?â
Her brows lifted a little. âYeah. Some of them.â
He nodded once, as if that was all heâd been looking for, but stayed there.
That made her tilt her head. âWhy?â
He ignored that for now. âA lot?â
âIt depends,â she said. âBut enough, I guess. Itâs a small world. People move around. Some used to work together. Some know each other from league events or agency stuff or college sports or whatever.â Her mouth curved just slightly. âWhy?â
He glanced toward the back of the plane and then back at her. âJust wondering.â
âYouâre not just wondering.â
There wasnât much point denying that too quickly, so he only said, âDo you know anyone with Philly?â
She sat back a little farther in her seat, studying him now with a level of curiosity that wouldâve been annoying from almost anyone else.
âMaybe,â she said. âNot directly, really. But I know someone who knows one of their people.â
He kept his expression neutral. âOne of their people.â
âYeah.â
âWhich one?â
Now she smiled, just enough to be unhelpful about it. âDepends why youâre asking.â
He almost laughed at that. Instead, he tipped his head slightly, a quiet acknowledgment of the pushback. âIâm not asking for anything.â
âDidnât say you were.â
âBut you think I am.â
âI think,â she said carefully, âthat this is a very specific question coming from someone who does not usually ask me things about social media staffing structures.â
He leaned a little more of his weight onto the seatback, the closest heâd come to admitting she had a point. âFair.â
That seemed to please her. âSo,â she said. âWhatâs this about?â
He considered giving her nothing at all. That wouldâve been the simpler move, more in line with the way he usually handled things that might invite too much attention before they had any reason to.
But it wasnât as if he was asking for your number, he wasnât asking her to do anything, he wasnât even saying your name.
Not yet at least.
Still, by the time he answered, some small shift in his expression must have given away more than he meant to, because the curiosity in hers sharpened almost immediately. âThereâs someone on their staff,â he said.
Her smile deepened into something openly interested now. âThere is?â
He gave her a look. âWhat?â she asked, unapologetic. âThatâs vague on purpose. Makes it worse.â
He looked away for half a second, then back. âYou know who I mean?â
âI know who you probably mean.â
That stopped him just enough to be noticeable. âYou do?â
She leaned one shoulder against the window, clearly enjoying herself now. âIâm not stupid.â
He let out a breath that might have been a laugh if heâd let it go any farther. âDidnât say you were.â
âNo, but Iâm just saying.â She lowered her voice a touch, though there was nobody close enough to hear them anyway. âIf this is about the Flyers social media girl from Pittsburgh, I do know someone who knows her.â
The sentence landed with a strange mix of confirmation and something else he didnât quite want to name. He shouldâve been more surprised that the moment had apparently not gone as unnoticed as heâd assumed. Instead he only asked, âThat obvious?â
She gave him a look that answered the question without needing words. He shook his head a little, almost to himself. For a second neither of them said anything. The engine hum filled in the space.
Then she asked, âDo you want me to ask for her number?â
Immediate answer. âNo.â It came out a little faster than he meant it to.
Her brows went up.
âI mean it,â he said, more evenly this time. âNo.â
She held his gaze for a beat, measuring him. Then nodded once. âOkay.â
He straightened a little from the seat, hands loose at his sides now. âI was just asking.â
âSure.â
He gave her another look. âI was.â
âI know.â Her mouth twitched. âThatâs why youâre weirdly intense about not asking.â
He chose not to respond to that.
Instead, he asked, âThe person you know knows her well?â
She thought about it. âWell enough, I think. Not like best friends. But enough that if you needed something, it probably wouldnât be hard.â
If you needed something, the phrase stayed with him for a second. He nodded once and looked down the aisle again, his attention already half shifting back inward.
âThanks,â he said.
âYeah.â
He started to step back toward his seat.
Then she added, âYou know, if you do want me to ask, I can.â
He glanced back over his shoulder. Her expression had softened a little, curiosity still there but less playful now. Like sheâd figured out by then that whatever this was, it mattered at least enough for him to be standing here asking questions he had no normal reason to ask.
He let that sit for a moment before answering.
âNo,â he said again, quieter this time. âNot right now.â
She nodded. No argument. âOkay.â
That should have been the end of it. Probably would have been, if she hadnât tilted her head at the last second and asked, âAre you hoping sheâll be there tonight?â
He looked at her. For once, there wasnât much use pretending the question hadnât landed where it was meant to.
So he answered honestly. âMaybe.â
The smile that touched her mouth then was small but impossible to misread. âWell,â she said, turning her phone over once in her hand, âitâs a playoff home game in Philly. Iâd say your chances are pretty good.â
He huffed a quiet breath through his nose, something like amusement pulling briefly at the corner of his mouth. âYeah,â he said. âProbably.â
He left it there after that, heading back toward his seat before the conversation had room to become anything more than it already was.
When he sat down again, the plane felt the same as it had before. Same hum. Same low conversations. Same rows of half-focused people moving between game prep and travel fatigue and the weird suspended time of being in the air.
He leaned back into the seat, looking again toward the window where the clouds had started to thin in places, sunlight pressing weakly through in washed-out streaks.
He didnât need to ask for your number, that wasnât the point. If he wanted it, he could probably get it. If he wanted a message passed, he could probably make that happen too. But the fact that he could didnât mean he should. He knew the difference. There were lines that mattered, and one of the few advantages of getting older in this league was learning which impulses actually needed to be followed and which ones only needed to be understood and left alone.
This one, for now, belonged in the second category. Not forgotten, just set aside. He would go to the rink. He would play Game 3. He would focus on everything that actually mattered tonight. If he saw you, he saw you. If he didnât, then he didnât. That was all it had to be.
And yet, even after deciding that, he found himself thinking about how you might look on a playoff game day. Whether your job would keep you near the glass or up in the media areas first. Whether youâd still move as fast through the corridors as you had in Pittsburgh. Whether youâd see him before he saw you. Whether that same quick, sharp expression would flash across your face before you smoothed it back into something drier and more controlled.
A couple rows back, somebody started talking louder about entries and neutral-zone turnovers. A coach answered. Another voice joined in. Hockey again, loud enough now to reclaim the space it was supposed to occupy.
He reached for the iPad in the seat pocket, tapped it awake, and brought up the clips heâd already watched once that morning. Philadelphiaâs forecheck on the road. Their pressure points off retrievals. The kind of details that turned a series. The kind of details that won playoff games.
But even after his eyes settled on the screen, some quieter part of his mind held onto the earlier conversation. Someone she knew knew you.
He wasnât going to do anything with that. Not right now.
Still, once in a while, information lodged itself somewhere useful and stayed there, not because you planned to act on it but because it felt worth keeping. Outside the window, the clouds broke farther apart, enough now to show brief strips of land belowâroads, rivers, little patches of town too distant to name from up here.
Philadelphia getting closer. Game 3 getting closer.
And, whether he meant to or not, the possibility of seeing you again getting closer too. He didnât let himself smile at that, but the thought remained anyway, quiet and steady in the back of his mind, where the useful things tended to stay.
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By the time the bus pulled into the loading area beneath the arena, the noise outside had already settled into something loud enough to feel through the glass. Philadelphia in the playoffs never eased into anything. It didnât build slowly or wait for puck drop to decide how it felt about you.Â
Sid watched it for a second through the window as the bus slowed, taking in the blur of orange and black, the movement of people packed too tightly together, the flashes of signs and raised arms and mouths already open mid-shout. It wasnât fully hostile yetânot the way it would be laterâbut it was close enough that the difference didnât really matter.
Then the bus dipped into the tunnel, and just like that, it was gone. The doors opened to concrete and fluorescent light, the shift immediate and familiar. The outside world cut off cleanly, replaced by the quiet efficiency of game day inside the building. Staff moving with purpose. Equipment already in place. The rhythm of preparation settling in.
Sid stepped off with the rest of the team, his bag slung over his shoulder, his pace steady and automatic. This part never changed. Not in October, not in April, not when the games started to matter more than everything else.
He should have stayed focused on that, on the routine, on the details, on the game waiting a few hours ahead. Instead, almost without thinking about it, his eyes lifted as they moved down the hallway, taking in more than they needed to. The usual movement of staff and personnel blurred past him, but his attention moved just a fraction wider, just a fraction slower.
Inside the locker room, everything settled into its usual rhythm, gear laid out, conversations low and scattered, someone turning on music that filled the space without overwhelming it, trainers moving through with the kind of quiet efficiency that never needed to be noticed to be effective.
Sid moved through it all the way he always did, stick in his hands, tape adjusted, a quick conversation about a read from the last game, a glance toward the whiteboard even though he already knew what was written there.
For the most part, that was enough to keep him where he needed to be. Because every now and then, in the small spaces between those moments, his attention drifted again. Not far. Not enough to disrupt anything. Just enough to register the thought that had been sitting quietly in the back of his mind since they boarded the plane.
You were here. Or you probably were.
Morning skate came and went quickly, the way it always did in the playoffs. The building wasnât full yet, but it wasnât empty either. A few fans scattered through the lower bowl. Staff along the glass. Cameras already out, capturing pieces of something that hadnât happened yet.
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The building had filled in properly by then, the noise louder, sharper, pressing in from every direction. The kind of energy that didnât leave room for anything else.
And once the game started, there was nothing else. The ice. The series. The next shift, and the one after that.
Philadelphia pushed early, feeding off the crowd, trying to tilt the pace before Pittsburgh could settle into it. Sid matched it the way he always did, adjusting in real time, reading the game as it unfolded in front of him.
When the final horn sounded, the reaction hit all at once the Flyers fans went crazy, thinking they were one game away from a sweep. The routine took over again. Handshakes. Quick exchanges. The shift from game to postgame already underway before the noise had even settled. Locker room. Media. The same answers he always gave, measured and controlled.
Then finally out.
The hallway felt different now, like the energy of the game had drained out of it in uneven waves. Staff moved faster now, finishing what needed to be finished. Players filtered through in smaller groups, most of his team already ahead of him.
Sid took his time, bag over his shoulder, steps unhurried as he made his way down the corridor.
And then there you were.
Near the turn toward the exit, moving quickly like you were trying to beat the last wave of traffic out of the building. Your head was tilted slightly down, your phone in one hand, your pace fast but controlled in the way it always was when you were working.
For a second, he just watched you, long enough to be sure it was you.
Then he stepped forward. âHey.â
You looked up immediately, the shift in your expression instant. Surprise came first, quick and bright, followed just as quickly by recognition. Something softer settled in after that, something that stayed.
âHi,â you said, breath catching just slightly before you recovered. âI didnât think Iâd see you.â
âMost of the team already left,â he said.
âThat tracks,â you replied, adjusting your bag higher on your shoulder. âIâm usually the last one out too.â
There was a small pause, both of you glancing down the hallway in opposite directions like you were each aware of where you needed to be next.
Still, neither of you moved.
âWe won,â you added, smiling.
âYeah.â
âThe cityâs gonna be really chill about that,â you said dryly.
He let out a quiet breath that might have been a laugh. âIâm sure.â
You shifted your weight slightly. âI was looking for you earlier.â
His brows lifted just a fraction. âYeah?â
âYeah. Practice, mostly. I figured Iâd run into you at some point, but I didnât see you.â
âI was around,â he said.
âApparently not where I was.â
âGuess not.â
The moment stretched just enough to feel like it might slip past if neither of you did anything about it.
You moved first. âWait,â you said, already reaching for your phone. âBefore we both disappear againâdo you want my number?â
He didnât hesitate. âYeah.â
You stepped a little closer, unlocking your phone and handing it to him. His fingers brushed yours briefly as he took it, typing quickly before passing it back.
âText yourself,â he said.
You did. His phone buzzed almost immediately in his pocket.
âOkay,â you said, a small breath leaving you. âGood.â
âGood.â
From opposite ends of the hallway, voices called outâyours and his, pulling you back toward reality at the same time.
âI have to go,â you said.
âYeah.â
You stepped back, already turning. âText me?â
âI will.â
You nodded once, then added with a small, crooked smile, âTry not to get jumped on your way out.â
âNo promises.â
You laughed softly and turned, disappearing down the hallway before either of you could say anything else.
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By the time you got back to your apartment, the noise of the arena had faded into something distant, almost unreal. You dropped your bag by the door and kicked your shoes off, your phone already in your hand before you fully realized youâd picked it up.
It buzzed almost immediately.
Sid: you make it home?
You smiled before you could stop yourself.
Y/N: just got in
Y/N: you survive leaving the building?
The reply came quickly.
Sid: barely
Sid: think they love me here
You huffed a quiet laugh.
You leaned back against the counter, staring at the screen for a second before typing again.
Y/N: how long are you in town for?
There was a short pause this time.
Sid: couple days
You stared at the message for a second longer than you meant to.
Y/N: do you want to come over tomorrow?
You hesitated, then added:
Y/N: like a date or something?
Y/N: I can cook
Y/N: also probably safer than you going out in public here right now
The typing bubble appeared.
Disappeared.
Then came back.
Sid: safer sounds good
Sid: Yeah, I'd like that
Y/N: okay
Y/N: iâll send you my address
Sid: okay
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Across the city, in a hotel room that looked like every other hotel room heâd stayed in, Sid sat on the edge of the bed with his phone still in his hand. The noise of the game was gone now, the adrenaline fading. He read over the messages once more, not because he needed to, but because they were there.
Because whatever had started in a hallway weeks ago had found its way back to this.
A date. Simple as that.
He set his phone down after a moment, leaning back slightly, gaze unfocused as the weight of the night settled differently now.
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He didnât take a car all the way to the front, that part was instinct.
The hotel arranged it easily enough, but when the driver asked which entrance he wanted, Sid hesitated just long enough to notice it. The address youâd sent wasnât far, but it wasnât the part of the city most visiting players ever saw unless they were driving through it on the way somewhere else. He recognized the street name vaguely, enough to know it wasnât close to the arena, not close to the hotel, not close to anything that wouldâve made it convenient.
âJust around the corner is fine,â he said finally.
The driver nodded, pulling to the curb a block short without comment. The night air felt different when Sid stepped out. Colder than he expected, though that might have just been the quiet. No crowd. No noise pressing in from every direction. Just the low hum of traffic somewhere farther down the street and the occasional flicker of light from windows that were already settling into the night.
He checked the address once more on his phone, then slipped it back into his pocket and started walking.
It wasnât a bad area, justâŚWorn.
The kind of place that looked like it had been something else once, something busier, something brighter, and had slowly settled into something quieter without anyone really deciding when the change had happened. The buildings were close together, older, brick in places where the paint had faded or chipped. A couple of storefronts were dark. One was still open, light spilling out onto the sidewalk in a way that made it stand out against everything else.
He found your building without any trouble. It was smaller than the ones around it, set slightly back from the street with a narrow set of steps leading up to the door. A single light above the entrance cast a soft, uneven glow over the frame, flickering just slightly at the edges. He paused at the bottom of the steps for a second, then he headed up.
You opened the door before he could knock. âI was about to text you,â you said, stepping back to let him in, your voice easy in a way that immediately cut through the quiet of the hallway behind you. âI didnât know if you got lost orââ
You stopped for half a second, taking him in properly now that he was standing in front of you.
âHi,â you added, softer.
âHi.â
The door closed behind him, and just like that, the outside world dropped away again. Your apartment felt like you, that was the first thing he noticed.
Not in any obvious way. Not in a way he could have pointed to immediately and explained. It was more the feeling of itâthe way the space was put together, the way things were placed, the way it felt lived in without being cluttered. Small, but not cramped. Warm without trying too hard to be.
There was a couch against one wall, a couple of mismatched pillows thrown onto it like theyâd ended up there over time rather than all at once. A small table pushed up near the window with two chairs that didnât quite match each other. A few framed photos on the wall, not arranged perfectly but close enough. The kitchen was open to the rest of the space, just a few steps away, everything within reach.
You watched him take it in for a second, then huffed a quiet laugh. âItâs very⌠me, right?â
He nodded once. âYeah.â
âSmall,â you added quickly, like you were getting ahead of something he hadnât said. âAnd kind ofââ You gestured vaguely toward the window. âânot in the nicest part of the city, but, you know. Flyers social media salary. Weâre thriving.â
He looked back at you.
Something in his expression shifted, subtle but real. âYou like it?â he asked.
You blinked, caught slightly off guard by the question. âYeah,â you said. âI meanâyeah. Itâs mine.â
âThatâs good.â
The answer came without hesitation. You studied him for a second, like you were trying to figure out whether heâd missed the joke entirely or just chosen not to follow it.
Then you smiled. âOkay,â you said, shaking your head a little. âYou can put your stuff anywhere. Thereâs not really a system.â
He set his bag down near the door, slipping his hands into his pockets for a second as he looked back toward the kitchen.
âYou already started cooking?â
âNot yet,â you said. âI was waiting for you so you couldââ You paused, tilting your head slightly. âActually, do you cook?â
He shrugged lightly. âEnough, I'm more of a baker.â
âOkay,â you said, turning toward the counter. âThen you can help.â
It wasnât really a question. He followed you into the kitchen anyway. The space was small enough that you had to move around each other without thinking about it. You opened the fridge, pulling out a couple of ingredients and setting them on the counter while he leaned back slightly against the edge, watching for a second before stepping in when you handed him something without looking.
âCut these,â you said.
He took the knife easily, falling into the task without needing direction.
For a few minutes, the only sound was the soft rhythm of movement. Water running. The scrape of the knife against the cutting board. The quiet clink of dishes being set down.
âYou sure you trust me with that?â he asked after a minute, glancing down at what he was doing.
You didnât look up from the stove. âYou play in the NHL, Iâm assuming you can handle vegetables.â
âThatâs a big assumption.â
âIâm willing to take the risk.â
He huffed a quiet laugh. You glanced over at him then, just for a second, like you were checking something, and whatever you saw seemed to settle something in you.
âOkay, thatâs actually better than I expected,â you admitted.
âLow expectations?â
âExtremely.â
âGood to know.â
You smiled, turning back to what you were doing. The space between you shifted in small ways as you moved around each other. A brush of shoulders when you passed. His hand steadying something you reached for at the same time. The kind of small, unintentional contact that didnât need to be acknowledged to be felt.
At one point, you reached across him for something on the counter, pausing for half a second when you realized how close youâd gotten before pulling back slightly, clearing your throat like you were resetting something in your head.
âSorry,â you said.
âItâs fine.â
Neither of you moved right away. Then you did, turning back to the stove, stirring something that didnât need your full attention. He watched you for a second longer than he meant to, then went back to what he was doing.
âYou do this a lot?â he asked after a minute.
âCook?â
âYeah.â
âYeah,â you said. âItâs easier than going out. And cheaper.â You glanced over at him. âWhich, again, is important when you make approximately nothing.â
He didnât laugh this time, just nodded slightly, like he was actually considering it.
You noticed. âYouâre taking that way too seriously,â you said, pointing at him with the spoon.
âIâm not.â
âYou are.â
âIâm just saying.â
âYouâre not saying anything,â you shot back. âYouâre thinking. Which is worse.â
He smiled faintly at that. âMaybe.â
You shook your head, but your mouth curved anyway. The food came together gradually, neither of you rushing it. By the time you were plating everything, the apartment smelled warm, something that made the whole space feel smaller in a good way.
You carried the plates over to the table, setting them down before dropping into one of the chairs. âOkay,â you said. âDonât judge me if itâs bad.â
âI wonât.â
âYou will.â
âI wonât.â
You gave him a look. âYou definitely will.â
âI wonât,â he repeated, a little more firmly this time.
You watched him for a second, then nodded once. âOkay.â
You both started eating. For a few minutes, the conversation slowed. âYou can be honest,â you said after a second, glancing up at him.
âItâs good.â
âYouâre lying.â
âIâm not.â
You studied him like you were trying to catch something in his expression, then you leaned back slightly in your chair.
âOkay,â you said. âGood.â
A small silence followed.
âIâm not actually a Flyers fan,â you said.
He looked up. âYeah?â
âYeah.â You shrugged. âI mean, I like them. Obviously. Itâs my job. And honestly, itâs my favorite team Iâve worked with so far.â
âSo far.â
âYeah.â
He tilted his head slightly. âWho else?â
You waved it off. âMinor stuff. Nothing like this.â
Another beat.
âYou could come work for us,â he said.
You let out a small laugh, shaking your head. âYeah, okay.â
âIâm serious.â
âYouâre not.â
âI am.â
You met his eyes, there was just enough there to make it unclear whether he was joking at all. You leaned back in your chair, crossing one leg over the other.
âI mean,â you said, tone shifting just slightly, âif the pay was better? Iâd consider it.â
The words came out like a joke, but not entirely. He didnât respond right away, just held your gaze for a second longer than before.
Then nodded once, like he was filing it away somewhere. âGood to know,â he said.
The conversation moved on after that, slipping back into something easier. Lighter. The kind of back-and-forth that didnât need to be forced. Small stories. Quick jokes. A rhythm that felt like it had been there longer than it actually had.
Time moved faster than either of you noticed. At some point, his phone buzzed on the table. He glanced at it, then back at you.
âI should probably go,â he said. The words came reluctantly.
You nodded, even though something in your expression shifted. âYeah,â you said. âEarly morning skate, right?â
âYeah.â
You stood when he did, walking him back toward the door, the apartment feeling quieter now than it had when he arrived. For a second, neither of you reached for the handle.
âThanks,â he said. âFor this.â
âYeah,â you replied. âAnytime.â
âWeâll see each other again before you leave, right?â you asked.
âYeah,â he said.
âOkay, good.â You opened the door, the cool night air slipping in around you again.
He stepped out, then paused, turning back just slightly. âText me when youâre free tomorrow,â he added.
âI will.â
Then he nodded once and headed down the steps, disappearing back into the quiet of the street. You watched him go for a second longer than you meant to. Then closed the door, and just like that it was quiet again.
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He didnât turn the lights on right away when he got back to the hotel. The room stayed dim, held in that quiet half-light that filtered in through the edges of the curtains, softening everything into outlines instead of details.Â
The door shut behind him with a quiet click that echoed just slightly in the stillness. For a second, he didnât move. He stood there with his bag still slung over his shoulder, his hand resting loosely against the strap like he hadnât fully decided whether heâd arrived yet or not.
Playoff nights didnât end when the game did, replaying in fragments whether you wanted them to or notâthe angle of a pass, the weight of a shift, the way the crowd had turned sharp and loud the second momentum tipped the wrong way for them. Usually, that was enough to fill the quiet. Usually, by the time he got back to the hotel, the game was still loud enough in his head that nothing else could cut through it.
Tonight, it wasnât. Tonight, every time the game tried to replay itself, it got interrupted by something else entirely.
Your apartment came back first in pieces. The warmth of the kitchen light, softer than anything in the hotel room. The sound of something simmering on the stove. The way the space had felt smaller without feeling cramped. Then the details sharpened the more he let himself think about itâthe slight tilt of one of the frames on the wall, the uneven way the chairs sat around the table, the subtle signs that the space had been lived in rather than curated. And you, moving through it like you belonged there.Â
He shifted slightly, finally pulling the strap of his bag off his shoulder and letting it drop near the chair. The motion felt delayed, like his body was catching up to where his mind had already been. He slipped his shoes off by the door, the carpet too neutral under his feet, too detached from anything personal. Then he crossed the room and sat on the edge of the bed, leaning forward with his forearms resting against his thighs, his hands loosely clasped together as he stared down at the floor.
You had joked about it. Not just what youâd said, but how easily youâd said it. The apartment, the neighborhood, your payâeach one brushed off with a quick comment, a light tone, something meant to keep it from turning into anything heavier. You hadnât asked for anything. You hadnât made it a conversation. If anything, youâd made sure it wasnât one.
But it had been there anyway, clear enough that it didnât need to be explained. He exhaled slowly, dragging a hand over the back of his neck before leaning back against the headboard. The ceiling above him blurred slightly as his focus drifted, his thoughts settling back into that same moment at your table.
When heâd mentioned you working for Pittsburgh, it hadnât been planned. It hadnât been something heâd thought through or intended to follow up on. It had come out easily, almost casually, like a suggestion that didnât have to be taken seriously if you didnât want it to be.
But you hadnât dismissed it, you hadnât laughed it off, youâd met it halfway, just enough to make it real.
If the pay was better, youâd consider it. That hadnât been a joke.
The thought had stayed with him all the way back to the hotel, threading itself through everything else until it was the only thing left that hadnât settled. It wasnât complicated, it didnât need to be. It was just a possibility that hadnât existed before, and now that it did, it wasnât going away.
He reached for his phone, the screen lit up immediately, bright against the dim room, forcing him to blink once before his eyes adjusted. For a second, he just held it there, his thumb hovering like he was deciding how far he actually intended to take this. This wasnât something he did, not like this, not without reason, not without knowing exactly where it would lead.
But this wasnât about him.
He opened his contacts, looked for the team's social media person, and tapped her name before he could overthink it. The phone rang twice before she picked up. Her voice came through clear, steady, with just enough curiosity in it to suggest she hadnât expected to hear from him but wasnât surprised either.
âHey,â she said. âEverything okay? You literally never call me.â
âYeah,â he replied, leaning his head back against the wall. âCan I ask you something?â
âYeah. Whatâs going on?â
He didnât waste time dressing it up. He asked the question directly, keeping it simple, keeping it neutral. He wanted to know if they were hiringâanything in social, anything in content, anything that hadnât been locked down yet. There was a pause on the other end, not confusion but recalibration, the kind that came when a question didnât match what someone expected.
âWell,â she said slowly, âkind of. Nothing official yet, but weâve been talking about bringing someone in. Someone on the teamâs going on maternity leave soon, so they need coverage.â
He didnât interrupt. He let her continue, let the details fill themselves in.
âProbably six months,â she added. âMaybe longer depending on how it goes.â
He asked about timing, about when they were planning to move on it, about what the role would actually look like day to day. Then he asked about the pay, more directly than he usually would, and that earned him a quiet laugh.
âOkay,â she said, and he could hear the shift in her tone, the curiosity sharpening into something more deliberate. âNow Iâm definitely asking why.â
He didnât answer that part. Instead, he waited. She told him the number. It landed exactly where he expected it toânot extreme and not unrealistic. Higher than what youâd implied earlier, higher in a way that mattered without needing to be exaggerated.
He was quiet for a second longer than he meant to be.
âSid,â she said then, her voice softening slightly, âare you trying to get someone a job?â
He let out a small breath, something almost like a laugh but not quite. âMaybe.â
âMaybe isnât an answer.â
âItâs the one Iâve got.â
There was a pause, and then her tone shifted again, less teasing now, more understanding. âIf this is someone you trust,â she said, âI can help. The position isnât posted yet. Nothingâs official.â
He shifted slightly against the headboard, his grip on the phone tightening just a fraction. âIâm not asking you to do anything,â he said.
âI know,â she replied. âIâm offering.â
Another pause.
Then she added, more decisively this time, that she could hold itâthat if a resume came in, she could make sure it was looked at before anything else moved forward. It wasnât a guarantee, but it was enough. Enough to make it real.
He sat with that for a second, turning it over the same way he did everything else before he committed to it. âOkay,â he said finally.
âOkay?â she echoed, a hint of a smile in her voice. âThatâs all I get?â
âFor now.â
She laughed quietly, the sound soft and knowing. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âI know.â
âAre you at least going to tell me who it is?â
He hesitated just long enough for it to register. âNo, not yet.â
She didnât push it, not really. Just told him she expected the full story eventually, and he told her sheâd get it. Then the call ended, and the room fell quiet again.
He looked down at his phone, the weight of what heâd just done settling into something more defined. It wasnât abstract anymore. It wasnât just a thought or a passing comment over dinner. It was real, with details attached, with a path that could actually be followed.
But it wasnât his decision.Â
He opened your conversation and read through the messages from earlier, slower this time, like he was making sure he hadnât missed something the first time around. Then he typed, keeping it simple, keeping it clear. No pressure. No expectation. Just the information, exactly as it was. When he sent it, he didnât move right away. He sat there, the phone still in his hand, like he was waiting for something he couldnât control.
Across the city, your phone buzzed on the counter, and you noticed it immediately. You told yourself you werenât waiting for it, but your body didnât seem to agree. You crossed the room without thinking, picking it up before the vibration had even fully stopped.
His name on the screen made your chest tighten just slightly.
You opened the message.
Read it once.
Then again.
And then a third time, slower.
Because it didnât make sense. There was no teasing in it, no way to interpret it as anything other than exactly what it was. A job. A real one. Same role, different team, better pay, something that looked like a step forward instead of just another version of where you already were.
You sat down slowly, your phone still in your hand as your brain tried to catch up. This wasnât something youâd expectedânot from him, not like this, not after one dinner that had barely scratched the surface of anything real.
Your fingers hovered over the screen for a moment before you typed a response, keeping it honest because there wasnât really another option. You told him what you made now, not softened, not disguised, just the number as it was. Then you told him what heâd sent was moreâenough more that it actually mattered.
When his phone buzzed again, Sid looked at it immediately. Your message was short, but it didnât need to be longer. The difference was there, sitting clearly between the numbers, carrying more weight than anything else either of you had said.
He read it once. Then again. His jaw tightened slightly, not from tension but from the realization settling into place. This wasnât hypothetical anymore, this wasnât just an idea.
It was a decision. Yours.
Across the city, you leaned back into the couch, your phone still in your hand, staring at the message thread like it might give you an answer if you looked at it long enough.
It didnât.
It stayed exactly the same, the offer didnât change, the numbers didnât change, and neither did the space that had opened between where you were now and where you could be. You let your head fall back against the couch, your eyes closing for a second as you exhaled slowly.
A new team. A new city. A different kind of life than the one youâd built for yourself here, even if that life hadnât always been easy. And somewhere in the middle of all of that, whether you wanted to acknowledge it or not, was himâthe way this had started, the way it had carried through, the way it had quietly become something more than it was supposed to be.
You opened your eyes again, staring back down at your phone, your thumb hovering like you were about to type something else before stopping yourself.
Across the city, Sid finally set his phone down on the nightstand, leaning back fully now, his gaze unfocused as the room settled around him again. He didnât know what you were going to do. He wasnât supposed to. That wasnât his decision to make.
All heâd done was open a door, whether you walked through it was up to you.
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A/N: GUYS!!! I really want to make a part 2 but I have no idea where to continue so PLS PLS PLS send requests <33
The first day of school always carried a kind of controlled chaos, bright, buzzing, just a little overwhelming in the best way. The classroom smelled faintly of fresh crayons and dry erase markers, the bulletin boards perfectly arranged in a way that would only last about three hours before construction paper corners started curling and someone inevitably taped something crooked. You stood near the doorway, greeting each student as they came in, your practiced smile soft and reassuring, crouching slightly to meet them at eye level when needed.
âHi, sweetheart. Whatâs your name?â you asked gently to a little boy clutching his backpack straps like a lifeline.
âTyler,â he mumbled.
âHi, Tyler. Iâm so glad youâre here!â
One by one, they filtered in, some excited, some nervous, some already talking a mile a minute. Parents hovered at the door, snapping photos, offering last-minute reminders, lingering just a second too long before letting go.
You were used to it. You loved it, actually. There was something about being the first person to guide them into this new chapter that never got old.
You were just turning to greet another student when a tall figure approached the doorway, ducking slightly under the frame as if he didnât quite belong in a space this small. He was young, early twenties maybe, with a slightly uncertain smile and a baseball cap pulled low over his hair.
Beside him stood a little girl, she had her backpack already on, straps snug over her shoulders, her posture confident in a way that immediately stood out. Her hair was pulled into neat pigtails, and she looked up at you with wide, curious eyes that werenât nervous at all, just observant.
âHi there,â you said, smiling warmly as you crouched slightly. âWhatâs your name?â
âStella,â she said, clearly.
âHi, Stella! Iâm Miss Y/L/N, and Iâm so happy youâre in my class!â
She nodded like she already knew that. You glanced up at the young man beside her. âAnd you must be her big brother?â
He blinked, caught off guard for half a second before letting out a quiet laugh.
âOhâuh, no,â he said, scratching the back of his neck. âIâm just⌠helping out. Sheâs my teammateâs kid.â
Your brows lifted slightly, amused. âOh, got it. Rookie duty?â
That made him grin, sheepish but clearly amused. âYeah. Something like that.â
You smiled, shaking your head lightly. âWell, thank you for bringing her. First days can be a lot.â
He nodded. âYeah. Her dad wanted to be here, but⌠schedule.â
You gave a small, understanding nod. That was something you heard often enoughâparents juggling work, responsibilities, life.
âWell,â you said, turning your attention back to Stella, âweâre going to have a great day. Do you want to pick a seat?â
Stella didnât hesitate. She stepped confidently into the classroom, already scanning the tables like she was choosing her spot with intention.
You stood, giving the young man one last smile. âThanks again.â
âOf course,â he said. âIâll let him know she made it okay.â
You didnât think much of that phrasing at the time. Just another parent working, another child being dropped off by someone helping out. Still, as the morning began to unfold, Stella quickly became someone you couldnât help but notice.
She wasnât loud, but she wasnât shy either. She participated when asked, listened carefully, and seemed to take everything in with a quiet kind of confidence. After morning circle and introductions, you passed out the first activity of the day, a simple worksheet with coloring and a few easy prompts designed to ease them into things.
âAlright, friends,â you said, clapping your hands softly once to gather attention. âWeâre going to work on this together. Take your time, and Iâll come around if anyone needs help.â
You moved from table to table, offering encouragement, tying a loose shoelace here, answering a question there, praising a carefully colored sun or a neatly written name.
When you reached Stellaâs table, you paused. She was already halfway done, her crayons lined up neatly beside her paper, each section carefully colored within the lines.
âWell, look at you,â you said, leaning slightly over the table. âYouâre working so hard.â
She looked up at you, a small smile tugging at her lips. âI like school.â
âI can tell,â you said warmly. âYouâre doing a great job.â
She beamed at that, thenâwithout promptingâshe leaned in slightly, lowering her voice just enough to feel like she was sharing something important.
âMy dad says school is important,â she told you.
âOh yeah?â you said, matching her tone.
She nodded seriously. âHe says I have to try my best. Always.â
âThat sounds like really good advice,â you said.
She brightened immediately. âHeâs really good at giving advice.â
You smiled, amused. âIs he?â
âYeah,â she said proudly. âHeâs really good at hockey too.â
You chuckled softly. âOh, is he now?â
âYeah,â she said again, as if that should have been obvious. âHeâs one of the best.â
You hummed thoughtfully, playing along. âWow. Thatâs pretty impressive.â
She nodded, entirely serious. âIâm really proud of him.â
Something about the way she said it, so simple, so genuine, made your chest tighten just a little in a soft, unexpected way.
âI can tell,â you said gently.
There was a brief pause before you added, âIs your dad picking you up today?â
She nodded again. âYeah. He always does.â
You smiled. âPerfect. Iâll make sure you get to him safely.â
The rest of the day passed in a blur, just like it always did. Lunch, recess, more activities, a few tears from students who missed home, a few bursts of laughter that filled the room in a way that made everything worth it.
By the time dismissal rolled around, the energy had shifted. Kids packed up their things, chatter rising again as parents began to arrive.
One by one, they were picked upâhugged, greeted, guided out the door. Eventually, the classroom quieted, and Stella was still there. You glanced at the clock, a few minutes late. Not unusual.
You smiled down at her. âLooks like itâs just us for a little bit.â
She didnât seem bothered at all. She was sitting at her desk, swinging her legs slightly, completely content.
âMy dadâs probably just busy,â she said casually.
âIâm sure he is,â you said gently. âBut weâll wait right here together, okay?â She nodded.
You pulled up a chair beside her desk, resting your arms lightly on the surface. âSo⌠tell me more about this hockey thing.â
Her eyes lit up immediately, and just like that, you got a full explanationâdelivered with all the confidence of someone who had grown up around it.
âItâs like⌠you have a stick,â she said, demonstrating with an invisible one, âand you have to get the puck into the net. But thereâs a goalie, and he tries to stop it. And thereâs lines, and penalties, and sometimes people fight but theyâre not supposed toââ
You bit back a laugh, nodding along. âOkay, okay. I think Iâm following.â
âAnd my dadâs really good,â she added again, just to make sure that point was clear.
âI gathered that,â you said with a smile, she grinned.
Time stretched in a quiet, easy way, the late afternoon light filtering through the classroom windows, soft and golden. And finally you heard it, footsteps, fast, slightly rushed.
You looked up just as a man appeared in the doorway, slightly out of breath, one hand still holding his phone like heâd been mid-call.
âIâm soââ he started, then stopped short when he saw you.
There was a brief pause.
A moment.
BecauseâGod, he was handsome.
You blinked, just once, pulling yourself back into the moment. âHi,â you said, standing. âYou must be Stellaâs dad.â
âI am,â he said quickly, stepping further inside. âIâm so sorry Iâm late. I got held up andââ he exhaled, running a hand through his hair. âI shouldâve called.â
âItâs okay,â you said gently. âWe were just talking.â
Stella had already hopped out of her seat, grabbing her backpack and rushing over to him.
âHi, dad!â she said, wrapping her arms around him.
His entire expression softened instantly as he crouched down to hug her back. âHey, Stell.â
Something about the way he said it made your chest do something you couldnât quite name.
âDid you have a good first day?â he asked her.
She nodded enthusiastically. âYeah! I told Miss Y/L/N about you.â
He glanced up at you then, something amused flickering in his eyes. âOh yeah?â
You smiled, crossing your arms lightly. âOnly good things, I promise.â
He huffed out a small laugh. âIâm glad to hear it.â
There was a brief pause, the kind that lingered just a second longer than necessary. âI really am sorry,â he added, his tone more sincere now. âThank you for staying with her.â
âOf course,â you said. âIâd never leave her alone.â
He nodded, clearly appreciative. âStill. I know your dayâs probably been long.â
You shrugged lightly. âFirst days are always worth it.â
That earned you a small smile.
And then there it was. That flicker again. Like he was noticing you the same way you were noticing him. âIâm Sidney,â he said, almost like he was catching himself, offering the name a beat late.
âY/N, Nice to finally meet you.â
âNice to meet you too.â he said.
Another pause. Another small, quiet moment that felt just a little too full for what it was.
Stella tugged on his hand. âCan we go now? Iâm hungry.â
He let out a soft laugh. âYeah, okay. Letâs go.â
He looked back at you one last time. âThank you again. Really.â
âAnytime,â you said.
And then they were gone. The classroom felt a little quieter after that. You stood there for a moment, staring at the door, replaying the interaction in your head.
Cute, you thought.
Really cute.
â
Outside, Sid adjusted Stellaâs backpack as they walked toward the car, his mind not entirely where it shouldâve been.
You.
Soft voice. Easy smile. The way youâd been sitting with Stella like it was the most natural thing in the world.
âDad?â Stella said, looking up at him.
âYeah?â
âI like my teacher.â
He glanced down at her, smiling. âYeah?â
She nodded. âSheâs really nice.â
He huffed out a quiet laugh. âYeah⌠she is.â And then, almost to himself âReally nice.â And just like that, without either of you realizing it yet something had started.
â
The second week of school always felt different. The nervous energy of the first day had settled into something more predictable. The kids were starting to learn routinesâwhere to put their backpacks, how to line up properly (or at least attempt to), when to raise their hands instead of blurting things out. The classroom itself felt more lived in nowâpapers slightly crinkled, pencil boxes already a little messy, name tags peeling at the corners.
You stood near your desk, organizing a stack of morning worksheets, the low hum of chatter filling the room as students filtered in one by one.
âGood morning!â you called gently, offering smiles and quiet greetings as each child entered.
You didnât realize you were looking for her until you saw her.
Stella.
She walked in with the same quiet confidence as the week before, her backpack bouncing slightly against her shoulders but this time, she wasnât with the young rookie from before.
She was with him.
He stepped into the doorway just behind her, one hand resting lightly on the doorframe, like he wasnât entirely sure how long he should stay, and he looked more put together than last timeÂ
Your stomach did a small, unexpected flip. âGood morning, Stella,â you said warmly.
âGood morning,â she replied, already moving toward her desk.
And then your eyes lifted. âHi,â you said, softer now.
âHi,â Sid echoed. There was a brief pause. âIâm early today,â he said, almost like he felt the need to explain it.
You smiled. âI noticed.â
He huffed out a quiet laugh, glancing toward Stella as she settled into her seat. âFigured Iâd actually do it properly this time.â
âWell, youâre off to a great start,â you said lightly.
Another pause, and then he didnât leave. Instead, he shifted his weight slightly, stepping just a bit further into the classroom.
âDo you have a minute?â he asked.
Your brows lifted, surprised. âYeah,â you said. âOf course.â
You gestured toward the side of the room, near your desk but far enough that the kids wouldnât overhear easily. The classroom was still filling up, but the noise gave you just enough privacy.
Sid followed, hands tucked loosely into the pockets of his jacket.
âI justââ he started, then paused, like he was choosing his words carefully. âI wanted to say thank you again. For last week.â
You waved it off gently. âYou really donât have to keep thanking me. It's quite literally my job.â
âI know,â he said. âBut Iâm going to anyway.â
That made you smile.
âShe talked about you all night,â he added.
Your heart did a small, traitorous thing. âOh yeah?â
âYeah,â he said, glancing toward Stella again, a soft fondness in his expression. âTold me how nice you were. How you helped everyone. How you listened.â
You swallowed slightly, warmth creeping up your neck. âWell⌠I try.â
He looked back at you then, something more focused in his gaze. âIt shows.â
There it was again, that subtle shift, the one that made your chest feel just a little too full.
You cleared your throat lightly, glancing down at the papers in your hand before looking back up. âSheâs a great kid.â
His expression softened instantly. âShe is.â
There was a beat of silenceâcomfortable, but charged in a way neither of you quite addressed. âSo⌠hockey,â you said, tilting your head slightly, a small smile tugging at your lips. âIâve been taking Stellaâs crash course.â
He laughed, the sound low and easy. âOh yeah?â
âI feel like Iâve been given a very⌠passionate explanation. But maybe not the most structured one.â
He nodded, amused. âThat tracks.â
âYouâre really âone of the best,â apparently,â you added, lightly teasing.
He let out a breath through his nose, a hint of embarrassment crossing his face. âShe says that, huh?â
âShe was very firm about it.â
He shook his head slightly, a small smile lingering. âSheâs biased.â
âMm,â you hummed. âI donât know. She seemed pretty convincing.â
He glanced at you again, something playful flickering there now. âYou planning on fact-checking?â
Your lips parted slightly, caught off guard by the tone. âMaybe,â you said, matching it before you could second-guess yourself.
His smile deepenedâŚjust a little. âWell,â he said, shifting slightly, âif you ever want a proper explanation⌠or, you know, to actually see itââ
He trailed off, like he wasnât entirely sure how to finish that sentence.
You raised a brow, intrigued. âSee it?â
He shrugged, casual, but not entirely. âGame. Sometime.â
Your stomach flipped again. âOh,â you said, softer now. âMaybe.â
There was a pause. Fifteen minutes had passed without either of you noticing. The classroom had settled, kids now seated, the morning routine quietly waiting for you to begin.
You blinked, glancing around. âI shouldââ you started, gesturing toward the room.
âYeah,â he said quickly. âOf course. I didnât mean to keep you.â
âYou didnât,â you said, maybe a little too quickly.
Another pause.
âIâll see you at pick up?â he asked, almost like it was a question.
You smiled. âYeah. You will.â
He nodded once, then turned, heading back toward the door. You watched him go for just a second longer than necessary before turning back to your class. âAlright, friends,â you said, clapping your hands softly. âLetâs get started.â
â
You had just begun handing out materials when you felt it.
A presence.
You glanced down, Stella stood beside your desk, looking up at you with that same curious, observant expression. âYes?â you asked gently.
She tilted her head slightly. âWhat were you and my dad talking about?â
You blinked, caught off guard. âOh,â you said, letting out a small laugh. âWe were just talking.â
âAbout what?â she pressed.
You smiled, crouching slightly to meet her at eye level. âJust⌠school. And you.â
Her eyes lit up. âMe?â
âMm-hmm,â you nodded. âHe told me how proud he is of you.â
She straightened a little at that, clearly pleased. âIâm proud of him too,â she said again, like she needed to reinforce it.
âI know you are,â you said softly.
She studied you for another second, like she was trying to piece something together. Then, satisfied, she nodded and walked back to her desk. You watched her go, shaking your head slightly to yourself.
â
By lunchtime, the morning had flown by. You werenât scheduled for lunch duty that day, which meant you had the rare chance to actually sit, eat, and breathe for a moment.
You had just settled into your chair, unpacking your lunch, whenâ
âMiss Y/L/N?â a small voice piped up.
You looked up.
Stella.
She stood just inside the doorway, her lunchbox clutched in her hands.
âYes?â you said.
She hesitated for half a second. âCan I eat lunch with you?â
Your heart did a small, immediate flip. âOhââ you started, instinctively. âDonât you want to sit with your friends?â
She shrugged slightly. âI donât really know them yet.â
That tugged at something in your chest.
You hesitated, because you knew you were supposed to encourage independence, socialization, friendships. âI think itâs important to try sitting with your classmates,â you said gently.
She nodded, like she understood but she didnât move. Instead, she just stood there, looking at you. Hopeful. And that was your downfall.
You sighed softly, a small smile breaking through. âOkay. Just for today.â
Her face lit up instantly. âOkay!â
She hurried over, moving a nearby chair across your desk, now facing you, climbing into the chair already opening her lunchbox.
You shook your head slightly, amused. âJust today,â you repeated.
She nodded, not listening at all.
â
Conversation came naturally, like it always did with her. âSo,â you said, taking a bite of your food. âTell me more about your dadâs hockey world.â
That was all it took. She launched into itâstories about games, about teammates, about long trips and loud arenas and inside jokes you only half understood.
âAnd thereâs this one timeââ she said, gesturing with her spoon, ââwhen they had to fly really late and everyone was really tired and my dad still had to talk to people after the gameââ
âTalk to people?â you echoed.
âYeah,â she said. âLike⌠cameras and stuff.â
You nodded slowly. âOh. Interviews.â
âYeah!â she said. âThat.â
You smiled, listening, genuinely interested. It felt like getting little glimpses into a world you didnât knowâone that seemed so big compared to your small, structured classroom.
âYou should come to a game,â Stella said suddenly.
You blinked. âIâwhat?â
âA game,â she repeated, like it was obvious. âYou should come.â
You laughed softly. âI donât knowâŚâ
âItâs really fun,â she insisted. âAnd my dadâs really good.â
âIâve heard,â you teased.
She grinned, then, more seriously âYou can sit with all of us.â
Your chest tightened just slightly. âThat sounds⌠really nice,â you said. âBut Iâd have to ask your dad first. And I'm sure your mom doesn't want a random stranger coming to hang out with you guys.â
She looked at you curiously. âMom?â
âYeah, doesn't your mom go to games with you?â
âI don't know, I've never met her?â Stella looks down at her food. âI always watch the games with my aunts and maybe some of my cousins.â
She looked back at you, instantly bounced back from the moment of sadness. âThey aren't really my cousins, but I see them all the time so they basically are!â
You looked at the girl, apologising for bringing it up, she brushes it off and quickly changed the subject.Â
â
The rest of the day passed quickly again, dismissal arriving before you were quite ready for it. And just like the week before you found yourself watching the door.
This time, he wasnât late. Sidney appeared right on time, stepping into the classroom with a small, easy smile.
âHi,â he said.
âHi,â you replied.
Stella rushed over immediately. âDad!â
He crouched down to hug her. âHey, Stell. Good day?â
She nodded. âYeah! I ate lunch with Miss Y/L/N!âÂ
He glanced up at you, brows lifting slightly. âOh yeah?â
You shrugged lightly. âJust for today.â He smiled faintly.
âCan she come to a game?â Stella asked, cutting right through any subtlety whatsoever.
You froze, Sid blinked, and then he laughed. âWow. Okay,â he said, glancing between the two of you. âGetting right to it, huh?â
Stella nodded.
You felt heat creep up your neck. âYou donât have toâshe justââ
âItâs fine,â he said quickly, still smiling. âYeah. Of course.â
You blinked. âReally?â
âYeah,â he said. âIf you want to.â
There was a small pause. âSure, that would be great.â you admitted.
His expression softened slightly. âGood,â he said.
Then, almost casuallyââWeâve have a suite. Itâs quieter. Easier, especially with her.â
Your eyes widened slightly. âOhâI couldnâtââ
âYou can,â he said, gentle but certain. âSeriously. Itâd be nice.â
There was something in his tone that made it feel like more than just an invitation.
Like he meant it.
âOkay,â you said, softer now.
âOkay,â he echoed.
Another pause.
âDo you want to⌠exchange numbers?â he asked.
Your heart skipped. âYeah,â you said.
You both reached for your phones at the same time, a small, shared smile passing between you as you traded contact info.
âIâll text you the details,â he said.
âSounds good.â
Stella looked between you, clearly pleased.
And neither of you said it out loud but something had shifted again.
A little closer.
A little warmer.
A little more.
â
By the time game day finally arrived, you had already checked your phone more times than you wanted to admit. Not because you were worried about the directions. Sidney had sent those the night before in a neat, straightforward set of texts that were impossible to misunderstand. He had included where to park, which entrance to use, which elevator to take, and the suite number, all in the same calm, almost overly organized tone that felt very him even through a screen. You had read them once, then twice, then a third time just because his name at the top of your messages did something embarrassingly distracting to your brain.
It was silly, really. You were an adult. A first grade teacher. Entirely capable of going to a hockey game without feeling like you were preparing for some enormous life event. And yet, by the time you pulled into the PPG Paints Arena parking lot, your stomach was fluttering in a way that had very little to do with hockey.
The arena was impossible to miss, towering over everything around it with a kind of loud, excited energy that seemed to spill out into the streets around it. People moved in groups toward the entrances, almost all of them in black and gold, jerseys and hoodies and knit hats everywhere. Some carried drinks, others balanced trays of food, and nearly all of them wore the unmistakable expression of people who had somewhere exciting to be.
You parked where Sid had told you to, shut off the car, and just sat there for a second with both hands still wrapped around the steering wheel. Your reflection stared back faintly at you from the windshield.
You looked normal. Fine. Cute, even, if you were being generous. You had picked out your outfit with far more care than you wanted to admit, settling on something simple enough not to seem like you were trying too hard but nice enough that you didnât feel underdressed.Â
A few minutes later, once you had adjusted your clothes and checked your phone one more time, you finally climbed out of the car and started toward the arena. The second you stepped inside, the noise hit you. It wasnât unpleasant. It was just big.
Everything about the place felt huge. The ceilings, the lights, the crowd, the sounds of skates cutting across ice from somewhere deeper in the building, the bursts of cheering that seemed to rise up from nowhere and disappear just as quickly. You followed Sidâs directions carefully, weaving your way through the growing crowd, past concession stands and fans snapping pictures and little clusters of people in matching jerseys.
Your phone buzzed while you waited for the elevator.
Sid: Hope you made it okay. Suite door should be open
Sid: Stellaâs been asking every five minutes if youâre here yet
You couldnât help the smile that spread across your face, you typed back quickly.
Y/N: Just got here. Headed up now
The elevator doors slid open. Your reflection met you again in the mirrored paneling inside, jersey and all, and you laughed softly under your breath.
âOkay,â you muttered to yourself. âItâs just a hockey game.â
But it didnât feel like just a hockey game. Not when the doors opened onto the suite level. The noise softened up there, not gone entirely but dulled into something more manageable. There were fewer people in the hallway, the atmosphere calmer, more contained. You found the suite number Sid had texted and paused for only half a second before pushing the door open.
âYOUâRE HERE!â
Stellaâs voice rang out before you had even fully stepped inside. She was off the couch and running toward you in a blur of little sneakers and dark jersey fabric, and you barely had time to laugh before she wrapped her arms around your middle. You hugged her right back, smiling as you looked down at the top of her head.
âWell, hi to you too.â
She pulled back and looked up at you with bright eyes, then reached for your hand and pulled you farther into the suite. âCome look.â
The suite itself was nicer than you had expected. Much nicer, actually. There were comfortable seats arranged in rows facing the glass, a small lounge area behind them, a counter with drinks and snacks laid out neatly, and a direct view over the ice that made your breath catch a little the second you saw it. The rink stretched out below in a wash of white and gold and moving bodies, warmups already underway.
For a moment, you forgot to say anything at all. The whole thing felt almost unreal. The lights reflected off the ice. Music pulsed through the arena faintly from below. Fans were still filing in, a constant wave of motion around the lower bowl.
Stella watched your face and grinned. âI told you it was cool.â
âYou really did,â you said, still staring for another second before turning back to her. âThis is amazing.â
She looked smug about having been right, which only made you laugh more. She had a coloring book and crayons spread out on the small table by the couch, clearly mid-activity before you arrived, and you sat down beside her while she resumed coloring. For a little while, the two of you just talked. Or, more accurately, Stella talked and you listened, which you had learned very quickly was often the easiest way to spend time with her.
She told you who had gotten there first, that her dad had already gone âdownstairsâ because he had to do hockey things, and that one of the women who had stopped by earlier had complimented her braids. She said all of this while carefully choosing between two crayons like the decision carried real importance.
âDo you always color before games?â you asked.
âSometimes,â she said. âSometimes I watch warmups. Sometimes I have a snack. Sometimes my dad says I need to sit still for five minutes.â
You smiled. âAnd do you?â
She looked at you, expression completely deadpan. âNo.â
You laughed so suddenly and loudly at that that Stella grinned and returned to her coloring with obvious satisfaction.
After another few minutes, she announced that she was hungry. Not a little hungry, either. The way she said it implied that if you didnât get food within the next five minutes, catastrophe was imminent.
So you took her hand and let her lead you out of the suite and back into the concourse. She navigated the arena with the confidence of someone who had clearly done this many times before, weaving through the crowd without hesitation while you stayed half a step behind, still taking everything in.
The smell of popcorn and fries and pizza filled the air. People brushed past you on both sides. Somewhere nearby, a little kid was loudly trying to convince his dad he needed a foam finger.
Stella pointed decisively at a concession stand. âThat one.â
âOh, that one?â you said. âVery convincing argument.â
âIt has the best fries.â
âWell, then. Obviously.â
You got in line and glanced down at her while you waited.
âOkay. What are we getting?â
She answered immediately, like she had rehearsed for this exact moment. âChicken tenders. Fries. A drink. And maybe candy.â
âMaybe candy?â you repeated.
She smiled innocently. âMaybe.â
By the time you had food in hand and were turning away from the counter, Stella had spotted the team store. You noticed the second her pace changed, the second her hand tugged a little more insistently on yours, the second you followed her line of sight and saw rows and rows of jerseys and hats and shirts through the open storefront.
You laughed quietly. âOh no.â
Stella looked up at you. âWhat?â
âYou have a look on your face.â
She blinked. âI donât know what you mean.â
âMhm.â
But sure enough, she steered you directly toward the jersey wall. Maybe it was the atmosphere of game day. Maybe it was simply Stella being Stella, all bright-eyed insistence and unshakable confidence.
âYou should get one,â she said.
You stared at her. âThe outfit I have on now is good.â
She frowned as if considering that. âOkay. Then you should at least look.â
âIf you say so.â Stella grinned.
You spent a few extra minutes in the store anyway, mostly because it amused her to point out every version of her dadâs name and number like it was a treasure hunt. Stella kept not so subtly persuading you to buy a Crosby jersey, and eventually you cave.
With food in hand and laughter still lingering between you, you headed back to the suite. The game started not long after that, and from the moment the players stepped onto the ice for the opening faceoff, you understood why Stella had looked at you so knowingly when you told her you had never been to one before.
Watching hockey on television, you realized very quickly, must have been nothing like this. In person, it was fast in a way that bordered on overwhelming. The players moved so quickly that your eyes struggled to follow at first, the puck vanishing and reappearing between sticks and skates as the play shifted up and down the ice. The sound was different too, the slap of sticks against the boards, the scrape of blades, the explosive roar of the crowd every time the home team got even a little close to the net.
You found yourself leaning forward in your seat without meaning to, reacting before you fully understood what you were reacting to.
Beside you, Stella provided a running stream of commentary. âThatâs offside.â
âWhy?â
She paused. âI donât know how to explain it.â
You laughed. âFair.â
A few minutes later she pointed again. âThat guy is my dadâs friend.â
âOn the ice?â
âYeah.â
âThere are several guys on the ice, Stella.â
She sighed, as though your lack of immediate hockey literacy was both exhausting and forgivable. âThe one near my dad.â
âOh, of course. Crystal clear now.â
She giggled and tucked herself a little closer to your side, and somewhere in the middle of the second period you had the strange realization that you werenât just having fun, you were completely, thoroughly invested.
Every time Sidney stepped over the boards, Stella perked up. âThatâs my dad,â she whispered each time, pride woven through every syllable.
And each time, your eyes followed him almost without thought.
He was easy to spot even without the number on his back. There was something unmistakable about the way he moved â confident, controlled, always exactly where he needed to be. He looked different on the ice than he did at school pickup or in the quiet hallway outside the classroom. Harder in some ways. More focused. But every now and then, when play stopped and the camera found him, you caught a glimpse of the same man who stood awkwardly in your classroom doorway and apologized for being late.
The contrast did something to you. The longer the game went on, the less self-conscious you felt. You cheered when everyone else cheered. You laughed when Stella jumped up on the couch to celebrate a big play. By the third period, you had stopped worrying whether you looked out of place and simply let yourself enjoy it.
When the game clock dipped low enough that you started mentally preparing to head out with the crowd, Stella turned to you with a look that was far too purposeful for a seven-year-old.
âCome on,â she said.
You blinked. âCome on where?â
âDownstairs.â
You frowned. âDownstairs?â
âTo the locker room.â
The words hit you with enough force that you actually sat back.
âOh, I donât think so.â
Stella looked confused. âWhy?â
âBecause Iâm not family.â
She gave you a look that strongly suggested she thought you were being dramatic.
âYou came with me.â
âYes, but thatâs different.â
âItâs not,â she said.
You opened your mouth to argue, then closed it again when she crossed her arms and stared at you with an expression that looked alarmingly similar to Sidneyâs serious face.
âStellaâŚâ
âPlease?â
You sighed, because that was the problem. It wasnât a demand. It was a hopeful, earnest little please from a child you had already become far too fond of.
Still, you tried one last time. âI donât want to intrude.â
âYou wonât.â She reached out and took your hand before you could protest again. âCome on. It would be unsafe if I went alone.â And somehow, against your better judgment, you let her lead you.
The hallway outside the locker room felt like a different world from the suite. The bright, loud energy of the arena had given way to something quieter and more intimate, full of low conversations and tired children and women who clearly knew the routine by heart. Some stood in little clusters talking. Others scrolled on their phones while kids leaned sleepily against their legs. There was an ease to all of them that you did not feel in the slightest.
You immediately became aware of yourself in a whole new way. Of the jersey on your body, of the fact that you were here because Sidney Crosbyâs daughter had essentially dragged you downstairs. of how very, very weird that sounded.
Stella, meanwhile, seemed utterly unbothered. She tugged you toward a small group near the wall and only then let go of your hand. A brunette woman smiled politely at you, her expression open but curious. âHi. I donât think weâve met before.â
âOh,â you said, feeling heat creep into your cheeks almost immediately. âHi. Iâm, um⌠Stellaâs teacher.â
There was a brief pause. âHer teacher?â another woman repeated.
You nodded quickly. âYeah. She invited me to the game.â
That seemed to explain some things and confuse others.
The brunette womanâs smile softened into something warmer. âWell. Thatâs actually adorable.â
You laughed, relieved. âI was a little worried it sounded strange.â
âA little,â she admitted, grinning.
Another woman leaned in with a teasing smile. âStella, honey, youâre making moves for your dad already?â
Your eyes widened. Stella, thankfully, seemed too busy adjusting the sleeve of her jersey to process what that meant. You, however, processed it fully and wished for a dramatic hole in the floor.
The group laughed lightly, not unkindly, and the tension eased almost immediately after that. They introduced themselves, asked you a few easy questions about teaching, and before long you found yourself relaxing despite the surrealness of the whole situation. They were friendly. Curious, yes, but not in a way that made you feel unwelcome, and then the locker room door opened.
The shift in the hallway was immediate. Kids perked up. Conversations paused. A few players filtered out first, dressed now, hair still damp from showers, bags slung over shoulders. Some scooped up children the second they spotted them. Others stopped to kiss wives or girlfriends hello before continuing down the hall.
And then Sidney stepped through the doorway. You saw the exact second he found Stella in the crowd. His entire face changed, softening in that immediate, instinctive way you had noticed before. He smiled and held out a hand, and Stella was already moving toward him.
âHey, kiddo,â he said, bending down just enough for her to throw herself against him.
âHi,â she said into his side.
He kissed the top of her head, then looked up at you. For a second, the hallway seemed to narrow. The people around you, the noise, the movement â all of it dulled a little as his gaze settled on you standing there in his daughterâs orbit, in the jersey, in a place that felt strangely personal.
His brows lifted slightly, a small smile tugging at his mouth.
âYou came down.â
You let out a quiet breath that might have been a laugh. âI was persuaded.â
He looked down at Stella. âThat sounds right.â
Stella grinned, entirely shameless. Sid straightened, one hand still resting on her shoulder, and looked back at you. âYou have fun?â
The question was simple, but there was something in the way he asked it that made it feel less like polite conversation and more like he genuinely wanted the answer.
âI did,â you said. âA lot, actually.â
His smile deepened. âYeah?â
âYeah. I think Stella converted me.â
âI knew I would,â Stella announced.
Sid chuckled softly, then glanced at the jersey again. âAnd you bought one.â
You looked down at yourself as if you had forgotten. âThat was also herâŚpeer pressure.â
His laugh this time was quiet and warm and far too easy on your nerves. âLooks good on you,â he said.
The compliment slipped out so naturally that for half a second it almost passed unnoticed.
Your pulse skipped. âThanks,â you managed, suddenly very aware of the heat rising into your face.
Something in his expression shifted then. Not hugely. Just enough that you noticed. Enough to make the moment feel fuller than it should have in a hallway full of people.
Stella broke it by tugging on his sleeve and launching into an excited recap of the game. Not the official recap, exactly. More her version of it, which involved naming every play her dad had been part of and at least two things that definitely had not happened the way she claimed they had.
Sid listened like it was the most important postgame analysis he would hear all night. Eventually, after a few more minutes of easy conversation, the hallway began to thin out. Families headed toward the exit in twos and threes, sleepy kids in tow, and Sid shifted Stellaâs jacket more securely around her shoulders before looking back at you.
âWhereâd you park?â
You told him.
âIâll walk you.â
âOh, you really donât have toââ
âI know,â he said, and there was that little hint of amusement again, like he already knew you were going to protest. âStill going to.â
You smiled despite yourself. âOkay.â
The three of you made your way out together, Stella walking between you and holding both your hands for part of the way like it was the most natural thing in the world. She kept talking nearly the entire time, bouncing between topics with the endless energy only children seemed capable of carrying late into the evening. She told Sid that you had finally learned what icing was, or mostly learned, and that you had cheered at the right times and laughed at the mascot and eaten fries with her before the game.
Sid glanced at you over Stellaâs head, clearly entertained. âSounds like a successful first outing.â
âI think so,â you said. âThough Iâm still not sure I fully understand half the rules.â
âYou donât need to,â he said. âJust pretend and yell when everyone else does.â
You laughed. âThat was basically my strategy.â
âGood strategy.â
By the time you reached your car, the night air had turned cooler. The parking lot had thinned, headlights winking on one by one in the distance, the sounds of the arena now muted behind concrete and space.
And suddenly, it felt quieter than it had all night. More private. Stella yawned so hard it interrupted whatever story she had been telling, and both you and Sid looked down at her with identical amusement.
âAlright,â he said gently, smoothing a hand over her hair. âThink someoneâs about ready for bed.â
âIâm not tired,â Stella mumbled around another yawn.
You smiled. âOf course not.â
Sid looked at you then, and whatever lightness had carried the walk over softened into something quieter.
âIâm glad you came,â he said.
The sincerity in his voice caught you a little off guard.
âIâm glad I came too.â
He nodded once, almost like he had expected that answer and was still pleased to hear it.
There was a brief pause. Then he said, a little more quietly, âShe really likes you.â
Your chest tightened softly. âI really like her too.â
His mouth curved at that, but his eyes stayed on yours a second longer than necessary.
For one suspended moment, it felt like the conversation might tip into something else. Something less safely centered around Stella and school and hockey games. But Stella shifted beside him, rubbing one eye, and the moment broke just enough for both of you to step back from it without actually stepping back.
You reached for your car door, fingers curling around the handle. âWell,â you said softly. âThank you. For inviting me.â
âAnytime.â
You looked back at him. He was standing there in the parking lot with his daughter half-curled against his side, hair still a little damp from the shower, expression warm and maybe just a little tired, and you had the wildly inconvenient thought that he might be one of the most attractive men you had ever seen in your life.
His eyes held yours for one more second, amusement and something softer mixed together there. âGoodnight, Y/N.â
âGoodnight, Sid.â
Stella lifted her hand in a sleepy wave. âGoodnight, Miss Y/L/N.â
You smiled immediately. âGoodnight, Stella.â
Then you got into your car before you could embarrass yourself further. But even after the door shut and your hands found the steering wheel and the parking lot stretched out ahead of you, you sat there for another moment, heart still beating a little too fast.
â
The next morning felt quieter. Not in a bad way per se, just the kind of quiet that followed something big, even if you couldnât quite explain why it had felt big in the first place.
Sunlight filtered through the blinds in thin, golden lines, stretching across your walls and landing somewhere near your feet. You were awake before you actually moved, lying on your back and staring up at the ceiling while your brain replayed the night before in frustratingly vivid detail.
The arena. The noise. The way the ice had gleamed under the lights. Stellaâs voice in your ear, narrating everything with that same excited certainty.
And thenâ
Him.
The hallway. The parking lot. The way his voice had softened at the end of the night, like something had shifted just slightly between you.
You squeezed your eyes shut. âStop,â you muttered under your breath, dragging your hands down your face.
It was ridiculous. It had been one night. One hockey game. One⌠slightly charged goodbye that you were absolutely overthinking.
Absolutely.
You rolled onto your side, reaching for your phone on the nightstand and squinting at the screen.
9:12 AM.
Too early to be spiraling like this. Too late to pretend you were going back to sleep. Which meant you needed to talk to someone immediately. You scrolled through your contacts without thinking, tapping your best friends name before you could second-guess yourself. She picked up on the third ring, her voice thick with sleep.
âIf this is about lesson plans,â she mumbled, âIâm hanging up.â
You snorted. âGood morning to you too.â
There was a rustle on the other end, followed by a long, dramatic groan. âWhy are you calling me before ten on a Sunday?â
âBecause I have information.â
That got her attention. There was a pause, then the faint sound of sheets shifting as she sat up. âOkay,â she said, suddenly more awake. âIâm listening. What happened?â
You tucked your legs under you, leaning back against your headboard as you let out a slow breath. âSo you know how I told you about Stella? The student I have?â
âThe one who thinks her dad is basically a superhero?â she said immediately.
âYes. That one.â
âAnd the dad you definitely didnât say was hot, but like⌠very clearly implied was hot?â
You pressed your lips together, already fighting a smile. âI didnât say that.â
âYou didnât have to. Continue.â
You rolled your eyes, even though she couldnât see it. âOkay. So⌠she invited me to a game.â
There was a beat of silence.
âShe what?â
âI know.â
âNo, hold on. Back up. She invited you? Or he invited you through her?â
âShe invited me,â you said, laughing a little. âAnd then he said yes.â
ââŚOh my god.â
You let yourself laugh fully this time, because hearing it out loud did, in fact, sound a little insane. âSo I went,â you continued. âAnd he had us in a suite, and Stella basically gave me a full hockey lessonâwhich I still only half understandâand then after the game she dragged me down to the locker roomââ
âShe did what?â
âI didnât want to go!â you said quickly. âShe literally grabbed my hand and just⌠went.â
âAnd you followed her.â
âYes!â
There was a pause.
ââŚOkay, I mightâve done the same thing,â your friend admitted.
âThank you!â
âBut that doesnât make it less insane.â
You shifted slightly, tucking a piece of hair behind your ear as your voice softened just a little. âI met all the wives and girlfriends,â you said. âWhich was⌠terrifying for about thirty seconds and then actually kind of fine.â
âI cannot believe you were just casually down there.â
âI wasnât casual,â you said. âI was deeply aware of everything I was doing.â
âIâm sure that helped.â
âIt didnât,â you admitted.
She huffed out a quiet laugh, then waited.
You hesitated.
âAnd then?â she prompted.
You exhaled slowly, staring down at the blanket in your lap. âHe walked us out,â you said finally. âTo my car.â
âOf course he did.â
âAnd we just⌠talked.â
âAbout?â
âNothing important,â you said quickly. âThe game. Stella. Just normal stuff.â
There was a pause.
ââŚAnd?â
You frowned slightly. âAnd what?â
âAnd how did he look at you?â she asked, voice suddenly sharper.
You blinked. âWhat?â
âDonât play dumb. You wouldnât be calling me at nine in the morning if this was just a normal conversation.â
You opened your mouth to argue and then closed it, because she was right. You leaned your head back against the wall, staring up at the ceiling again.
âIt just feltâŚdifferent.â you started, trailing off as you tried to find the right word.
For a second, neither of you said anything.
âGiiiiiiirl.â
You groaned immediately, covering your face with your hand. âDonât.â
âNo, Iâm serious. Giiiiiirl.â
âI hate you.â
âYou like him.â
âI do notââ
âYou do.â
You dropped your hand, staring at the ceiling like it had personally betrayed you. âI donât even know him.â
âYou know enough.â
âI know heâs a good dad,â you said. âAnd heâs nice. And heâsââ
âHot.â
âOkay, yes,â you said quickly. âHeâs attractive. Thatâs not the point.â
âItâs part of the point.â
You huffed out a small laugh despite yourself, shaking your head. âBut thatâs it,â you added. âThatâs all it is.â
There was a pause and then her tone shifted. âYou know you canât do anything about that, right?â
The words landed more seriously this time. You went quiet, your fingers twisting slightly on the edge of your blanket. âI know.â
âNo, like actually know,â she continued. âYou cannot be flirting with your studentâs dad. That is, like, the main rule of teaching.â
You rolled your eyes, even as your stomach tightened slightly. âI wasnât flirting.â
âOh please.â
âI wasnât.â
âYou literally just said it felt different,â she pointed out. âWhat do you think that means?â
You didnât answer right away, because the truth was you werenât entirely sure.
âIt just felt like he was paying attention,â you said finally, more quietly. âLike he actually⌠noticed me.â
There was a softer pause on the other end.
ââŚYeah,â she said. âThatâs usually how that works.â
You let out a slow breath, turning your head to the side. âIâm not going to do anything,â you said. âI know the rules. I know it would be weird.â
âIt wouldnât just be weird,â she said. âIt could get you in actual trouble.â
âI know.â
Silence stretched for a moment. ââŚBut heâs hot though, right?â
You snorted, the tension breaking instantly. âOh my god.â
âIâm just asking.â
âYes,â you admitted, laughing. âHeâs hot.â
âThank you.â
You exhaled slowly. âIâm not going to do anything,â you said again, quieter this time.
âOkay,â she replied.
âBut,â you added.
She groaned. âThereâs a but.â
âIâm just saying,â you said quickly, sitting up straighter, âif he happens to pick her up next week and we happen to talkââ
âAbsolutely not.â
âIâm just talking!â
âYou are not âjust talking,ââ she said. âYou are setting yourself up.â
âI am not.â
âYou are.â
You laughed, shaking your head. âOkay, fine. No setting anything up.â
âGood.â
Deep down, you already knew. This wasnât just a one-night thing, and whatever this was? It was only just starting.
Hiii, I was wondering if you could continue the Edge Control with Nathan? It's such a cute story 𼰠love your writing btw, Thank you xx
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NHL Masterlist
A/N: sry this took so long to come out! I just kept adding stuff to it LMAO
The Olympics end the way everything big doesânot all at once, but in pieces.
There isnât a single moment where itâs over. No clean break. Just a slow unraveling. The final performances come first, then the medals, then the quiet, almost reluctant dispersal of people who had all been living in the same strange, electric world for a short period of time. Hallways that once felt loud and alive start to empty. Dining halls lose their constant hum. Conversations that used to overlap and echo turn into smaller, quieter goodbyes.
Everything softens, everything fades and somehow, even while youâre still there, it already starts to feel like something youâre remembering instead of something youâre living.
You donât see Nathan again before you leave. It isnât intentional. It just⌠happens that way. Schedules shift, events overlap, people get pulled in different directions. Hockey advances deeper into the tournament. Figure skating winds down. Media obligations tighten. Time, which once felt loose and open, suddenly moves too fast to hold onto anything.
Still, you think about him. More than you expect to. It shows up in small moments at first. When youâre packing your bag in your room. When youâre sitting at the airport, waiting to board your flight home. When youâre staring out the plane window, watching the city shrink beneath you. You think about the way heâd looked at you during your programâsteady, focused, like he wasnât just watching, but actually seeing you. You think about the way he spoke, careful but honest. The way nothing about him felt forced.
And when you land, when real life begins to settle back around you, it doesnât disappear the way you thought it might.
â
At first, you tell yourself to wait, not because you donât want to reach out but because you do. But something about the transitionâfrom the Olympic bubble to your real, structured, everyday lifeâmakes everything feel slightly more fragile. Like whatever existed there belonged to that moment, to that place, and maybe trying to pull it into reality would change it.
So you give it time.
A day.
Then two.
Then a week.
Your routine picks back up with familiar precision. Early mornings. Long training sessions. Meetings. Interviews. Everything falling back into place like it never left. You move through it easily, like muscle memory. Like this is where youâre supposed to be.
And yet at night, when everything gets quiet, your thoughts drift. Your phone ends up in your hand more often than it should. His name still sits there in your messages.
Untouched. Waiting.
Sometimes your thumb hovers over it for longer than youâll admit. Long enough that you have to physically lock your phone and set it down just to stop yourself from overthinking it.
Itâs ridiculous, you know it is. But stillâyou wait.
â
Itâs a Tuesday afternoon when it finally happens. Youâre sitting on your couch, still in your training clothes, hair half pulled back, scrolling through your phone without actually paying attention to anything on the screen. Your body feels pleasantly tired, your mind just starting to settle into that quiet lull between responsibilities.
Then a notification pops up.
Sports update.
Colorado Avalanche clinch playoff spot. Your heart reacts before your brain does. A small, immediate shift. And before you can stop yourselfâbefore you can overthink it the way you have been for the past two weeksâyou open your messages.
His name is still there, exactly where you left it.
You stare at it for a second, then type.
Y/N: Hey :) just saw the news! congrats on making playoffs. Thatâs huge.
You hesitate, then hit send before you can change your mind. The second it delivers, your chest tightens. You drop your phone beside you like it suddenly weighs too much to hold. Like maybe if you donât look at it, you wonât feel the waiting as much.
This is normal, you tell yourself. Completely normal. Youâre congratulating someone you know. Someone you met. Someone who asked you to get coffee.
Someone whoâ
Your phone buzzes and you grab it instantly.
His reply is simple.
Nate: Hey
Just that, but itâs immediate, like he was already there, like he didnât have to think about answering.
Another message follows right after.
Nate: Thanks, means a lot
You exhale slowly, something in your chest loosening.
Nate: Howâve you been?
You smile without meaning to, just a little, then start typing.
â
The conversation comes easily, easier than you expected. Thereâs no awkward restart, no strange distance, no feeling like youâre trying to recreate something that only worked because of where you were. It feels natural. Like picking up a conversation that never really ended.
You tell him about trainingâhow everythingâs back to normal, how your schedule feels almost too structured again after the chaos of the Olympics. He tells you about the end of the regular seasonâhow fast it went, how the push for playoffs always feels different from everything else.
You joke about how strange it is to go from being surrounded by the best athletes in the world to suddenly being back in your own routines. He admits he still thinks about it sometimes.
So do you.
Minutes turning into an hour without either of you really noticing.
Untilâ
Nate: We have a home game this weekend
You pause. Read it again. Your heart picks up slightly. Thereâs something about the way he says it. Not random. Not casual.
You donât respond right away, before you can, another message comes through.
Nate: You should come
Your breath catches. You stare at the screen, your mind immediately trying to make sense of it.
Come.
To a game.
His game.
Across the country.
This isnât small. This isnât casual. You swallow, trying to steady yourself as you type.
Y/N: Thatâs a little far for a casual invite, donât you think?
Thereâs a short pause.
Nate: I donât mean it casually.
Your heart stumbles, you press your lips together, trying to keep your thoughts from spiraling.
Y/N: Youâre serious?
His reply comes quickly.
Nate: Yeah
Nate: I can fly you out
You blink.
Once.
Twice.
That wasnât what you expected. You lean back into the couch, staring at your phone like it might suddenly explain itself. Heâs serious. Not in a way that feels overwhelming, not in a way that feels like pressure.
Y/N: You donât have to do that
Nate: I want to
And there it is again, that same simple, unforced certainty. It settles somewhere deep in your chest.
You hesitate because this is where you could say no. Where you could keep things easy, uncomplicated, where you could leave this as something that only existed in one perfect moment.
But you donât want that. You realize it with surprising clarity, you donât want to let this go.
Y/N: Ok
Y/N: Iâll come!
His response is almost immediate.
Nate: Yeah?
You smile.
Y/N: Yep!
Thereâs a slightly longer pause this time.
Nate: Good.
â
Everything comes together quickly after that. Flights. Timing. Details. He handles most of it with an ease that feels very himâorganized, direct, efficient. No confusion. No back and forth. Just clear plans falling into place.
You donât overthink it, not yet. Not until right as things start to settleâ
Another message appears.
Nate: You can stay at my place if you want
You freeze. Read it once. Then again.
You sit with it for a moment, your fingers hovering over the screen.
Y/N: Are you sure?Â
Thereâs a pause.
Nate: Yeah
Nate: I wouldnât offer if I wasnât.
You exhale slowly because you believe him, because nothing about him has felt uncertain so far.
You picture it, his place, his space, it's not neutral anymore. Your fingers move before you can second-guess it.
Y/N: OK
The word feels bigger than it should, his reply comes almost instantly.
Nate: Okay, good.
And even through the screen, you can feel it. That quiet, steady excitement.
â
That night, you lie in bed staring up at the ceiling. You should be asleep, you have training in the morning. A schedule. A routine. A life that usually doesnât include spontaneous cross-country trips to watch NHL playoff hockey.
And yet you canât stop thinking about it. About him, about how easy this feels. Like something you didnât plan, but somehow fits anyway. You turn onto your side, reaching for your phone again.
One more message, you hesitate, then send it.
Y/N: Hey
A minute passes.
Then two.
Thenâ
Nate: Hey
You smile into your pillow.
Y/N: Thanks for inviting me
Thereâs a short pause.
Nate: Iâve been wanting to
Your breath catches, you donât respond right away, you donât need to. Because for the first time since the Olympics ended, nothing feels uncertain anymore. It just feels like something youâre stepping into and youâre not afraid of it.
â
Two days later, youâre standing in the airport. Boarding pass in hand, heart steady, but expectant. And this time it doesnât feel like youâre leaving something behind. It feels like youâre going somewhere new.
The flight feels longer once it matters. Not because anything goes wrong. Itâs smooth, uneventful, the kind of travel day most people would probably be grateful for. No delays. No gate changes. No last-minute chaos with your luggage. Just a plane, a window seat, and too much time to think.
Which, unfortunately, is the problem. You do very well with structure. With training schedules, performance prep, competition timelines, wake-up calls and warmups and all the little rituals that keep your mind moving in a straight line. You know what to do with those things. How to hold them. How to trust them.
This is not that. This is a man you met at the Olympics. A man who watched you skate like he forgot how to breathe. A man who texted you after weeks of silence like no time had passed at all. A man who invited you across the country to watch one of his playoff games, offered to pay for your flight, and then, in the same steady, unfussy way he seemed to do everything, offered you a room in his house like it was the most natural thing in the world.
It should probably feel crazier than it does. But sitting by the window as clouds stretch out under the plane and your reflection drifts faintly over the glass, all it really feels like is inevitable.
Not in some huge, dramatic, fate-written way. Just in the quiet sense that this was always the next thing. You still get nervous, though, of course you do.
You spend the last forty minutes of the flight trying not to check your phone every two seconds, even though you already know he texted before takeoff to tell you not to rush after landing, that heâd be there, that traffic around the airport could be annoying but he had it handled.
That last part had made you smile.
Nate: I have it handled.
Very him.
When the plane lands, your nerves sharpen instead of easing. Everything moves too slowly after that. Taxiing. Waiting for the doors to open. The slow shuffle through the aisle while everyone suddenly forgets how overhead bins work. You move with the crowd, your carry-on in one hand, your overnight bag slung over your shoulder, feeling more aware of your body than usual. Your hair. Your clothes. The fact that you are, objectively, going to be perceived by Nathan MacKinnon in person again in about ten minutes.
Which is ridiculous, you are an Olympian. You have performed in front of millions of people. You have skated while your heart tried to beat straight through your costume and still landed difficult elements on one leg with an entire arena watching. And yet somehow walking through baggage claim to find one hockey player has your stomach flipping like this is the most high-pressure event of your life.
You hate that a little, but you also kind of love it. The terminal is busy enough to keep you occupied at first. People weaving around each other. Suitcases clipping over tile. Voices blending into overhead announcements and rolling wheels and the constant movement of arrivals. You check your phone once while waiting near the sliding doors.
One new message.
Nate: Here. Outside near the pickup lane by the second sign
Your heartbeat picks up. You type back before you can think too hard about sounding normal.
Y/N: Coming now!
Then you lock your phone and take a breath that doesnât do nearly enough. The automatic doors slide open, cold air hits your face first.
Then sunlight.
Then him.
Heâs leaning against a dark SUV at the curb, one hand in the pocket of a jacket, the other holding his phone loosely at his side. Heâs in a ball cap and a hoodie under the jacket, dressed simply enough that most people probably donât look twice, though you think that might be less about him being unrecognizable and more about the fact that he has a way of standing that doesnât ask for attention even when he gets it anyway.
He spots you quickly.
Straightens and then smiles. Your chest tightens in that quiet, inconvenient way itâs starting to learn around him. He pushes off the car and steps toward you before you can overthink any of it. For one second youâre not sure what the greeting is supposed to be. A wave? A polite, awkward half hug? Something normal and emotionally regulated?
Nathan solves the problem by reaching for your bag with one hand and pulling you into a hug with the other.
Itâs quick, but not rushed. Warm. Solid. Real enough that the whole day seems to settle around it.
âHey,â he says, stepping back just enough to look at you.
âHey.â
You hear the softness in your own voice and hope he doesnât.
He takes your bag from your shoulder like it weighs nothing. âFlight okay?â
âYeah. Easy.â
âGood.â
Thereâs a tiny pause after that, the kind that comes less from awkwardness and more from both of you being a little too aware of the fact that this is not just a text thread anymore. This is real life now. Airport curb. Weekend bags. His hand brushing yours as he takes the suitcase handle.
He looks at you once more, like heâs checking that youâre actually here and not just something he imagined into being.
Then he says, âIâm glad you came.â
And because he says things like that so simply, without dressing them up or trying to make them sound like less than they are, the words land harder than they probably should.
You smile. âIâm glad you asked.â
Something warm flickers in his expression. He opens the passenger door for you, waits until you climb in, then loads your bag into the back before circling around to the driverâs side. The inside of the car smells faintly like clean leather and cold air and something else you canât place right awayâcoffee, maybe, soaked into the fabric somewhere from earlier in the week.
As soon as he gets in, he glances over at you.
âYou hungry?â
âA little.â
âGood.â
You laugh softly. âThat sounded weirdly threatening.â
âIt wasnât.â
âAre you sure?â
âNo.â
You smile despite yourself as he starts the car and pulls away from the curb with the kind of smooth competence that feels consistent with everything else about him. He drives the way he texts: direct, unhurried, sure of what heâs doing.
The city slides by in pieces outside the windows. Winter light, clean and bright. Roads lined with cars and bare trees and people moving through their ordinary afternoons. You watch it for a moment before glancing back at him.
âYou really came yourself,â you say.
He shoots you a brief look. âWhy wouldnât I?â
âI donât know.â You tuck one leg slightly under the other in the seat, turning toward him a little. âI guess I just figured maybe youâd send a driver or something.â
He gives you a look like that idea makes absolutely no sense. âYou thought I was gonna send a driver?â
âMaybe.â
âNo.â
The answer is so immediate that you laugh.
âOkay,â you say. âGood to know.â
He turns onto a quieter road. âI said Iâd pick you up.â
âYou did.â
âSo I picked you up.â
Thereâs something deeply endearing about the way he says it, like the concept needs no further explanation. Like doing what he said heâd do is so obvious it barely counts as a point in his favor. You smile and look down at your hands for a second, hiding it a little.
After a beat, he says, âI owe you coffee.â
You look back over. âYou remembered that?â
His expression shifts into something faintly amused, like maybe he knew the answer to that before you asked it. âYeah.â
You tilt your head. âI wasnât sure if that was just you being smooth in Italy.â
âWasnât being smooth.â
âThatâs somehow less convincing.â
He huffs a laugh. âThereâs a place I like. Not far.â
âThe coffee you promised me.â
âYeah.â
You settle back in your seat. âOkay. Then Iâm holding you to it.â
âI figured.â
Thereâs a comfortable silence after that. Not empty, just full of different things nowâfamiliarity from the messages, curiosity that still hasnât gone anywhere, the awareness that comes from being around someone you donât know well enough yet but already want to.
A few minutes later he pulls into a small lot in front of a coffee shop that looks exactly like the kind of place people mean when they say local favorite. Not polished in the overly curated way chain cafes try to imitate. Just warm. Brick front, dark windows, a hand-painted sign by the door, the kind of place that probably remembers regularsâ orders without being asked.
The air outside is colder here than at the airport, sharper across your cheeks as you get out. Nathan waits for you on the sidewalk rather than getting too far ahead, holding the door open as you step inside.
Warmth hits you all at once, so does the smell. Espresso, vanilla, cinnamon, something baking in the back. Soft music playing low enough not to interrupt anything. There are only a handful of people inside, which gives the whole place that mid-afternoon quiet where everyone seems tucked into their own little corner of the day.
You glance around and then back at him. âThis is very cute.â
His mouth twitches. âCute?â
âYes.â
âThat sounds judgmental.â
âItâs complimentary, actually.â
He nods toward the counter. âYou can decide after the coffee.â
âYouâre very confident for someone being evaluated.â
He gives you a dry look. âI think itâll hold up.â
It does, of course it does. He orders something simple for himself and waits while you decide, not rushing you even though the barista is clearly used to people who need far less time to commit to a drink. When you finally choose, he pays before you can argue.
âI can buy my own coffee,â you say as you step aside to wait.
âI know.â
âThen why didnât you let me?â
He looks at you like the answer is obvious. âBecause I invited you.â
Thereâs that again. That steady, unshowy certainty. You fold your arms loosely and smile. âYou really donât do things halfway, do you?â
âNo.â
âYouâre making it hard to act normal.â
That gets a laugh out of him, quiet and low and real enough that you feel it in your chest. They find a small table near the window, tucked far enough into the corner to feel private. The coffee arrives quickly after, and heâs rightâitâs good. Better than good, actually. Rich without being overwhelming, warm in a way that settles through you immediately.
You lift the cup after the first sip and nod once. âOkay. Fine.â
He watches you over the rim of his own. âFine?â
âYou delivered.â
âI know.â
You narrow your eyes. âYouâre so smug for someone pretending not to be.â
âIâm not pretending.â
That makes you laugh, and just like that, the tension youâd carried from the airport begins to dissolve. Conversation comes easier once youâre sitting down.
Maybe because thereâs something grounding about the table between you, the cups in your hands, the ordinary little ritual of coffee giving shape to the moment. Maybe because youâve already crossed the hardest threshold nowâyou came, he picked you up, this is happening. Thereâs nothing left to do but be in it.
He asks more about skating first. Not the surface-level version people usually ask when they want to sound interested. Not what it feels like to compete at the Olympics, or if youâve always known youâd make it this far, or some other vague thing that forces you into a polished answer. He asks how training changes between seasons. Whether the mental side is harder after a major competition. If itâs strange coming back to normal life after spending weeks in one heightened, intense environment.
You realize about ten minutes in that heâs doing it again.
Listening, like actually listening. You tell him the truthâthat coming down from the Olympics is always weirder than you expect, because your body is exhausted but your mind is still half living there, replaying things, holding onto details, trying to make meaning out of moments that already feel too big to fully understand.
He nods slowly, fingers curled around his coffee cup. âYeah.â
âYou get that too?â
âWith playoffs, kind of. Different, butâŚâ He looks down briefly, considering his words. âYou spend all year building toward something, then all of a sudden youâre in it. Everything narrows. You stop thinking about normal stuff.â
âAnd then?â
âAnd then normal stuff comes back anyway.â
You smile a little. âThat sounds annoyingly profound.â
âItâs true.â
âIt is.â
He leans back in his chair slightly. âThe Olympics were like that too.â
That catches your attention. âYouâve done a lot of big things.â
He shrugs, not dismissive exactly, just careful. âYeah, but thatâs different.â
âHow?â
Thereâs a pause.
Then he says, âEverything felt⌠smaller there.â
You tilt your head. âSmaller?â
âIn a good way.â He glances out the window and then back at you. âLike all the noise around it drops out. Itâs just the event, the people there, whatever youâre doing that day. You know everybodyâs the best at what they do, so nobodyâs pretending.â
You study him for a second. âThatâs a really nice answer.â
His expression flickers, something almost embarrassed moving through it. âItâs just what it felt like.â
âStill,â you say softly. âItâs nice.â
A faint flush rises at the back of his neck. Itâs subtle enough that if you didnât already know to look for the quiet parts of him, you might miss it. You like that you donât. In return, you tell him more about yourself than you expected to.
Not everything. Not your whole life compressed into a coffee shop conversation. But more than the easy version. You tell him what it was like growing up in a sport that asks for perfection before youâre old enough to understand what that costs. How much of your life has been measured in routines and repetition and tiny adjustments nobody else would notice. How hard it can be to build a self outside of that sometimes.
He doesnât interrupt, doesnât rush to fix it or smooth it into something easier. He just listens, eyes steady on yours.
Then he says, âYou seem like you know who you are.â
And because the compliment is unexpectedânot flashy, not about how you skate or how disciplined you are or how impressive your career must be, but youâyou feel your chest tighten again.
âThatâs maybe the nicest thing anyoneâs said to me in a while,â you admit.
His gaze softens. âI mean it.â
You smile down at your cup for a second, because thereâs no way to hold eye contact through that without giving too much away.
When you look back up, heâs still watching you in that same careful way. Not intense enough to scare you. Just present. Intentional. Like heâs learning your face in real time and doesnât want to miss anything.
You should probably be more nervous than you are but instead, you just feel warm. By the time you leave the coffee shop, the light outside has started shifting toward evening. The sky is still bright, but softer now, the edges of things turning gold for a little while before theyâll go blue.
Nathan opens your door again, waits until youâre settled, then gets in and starts the car.
A few seconds into the drive, he reaches toward the center console. âYou can put music on if you want.â
You glance over. âAre you sure?â
âYeah.â
âThat feels like a trap.â
His brows lift. âWhy would it be a trap?â
âBecause music tells you too much about a person.â
He looks amused. âAnd?â
âAnd maybe Iâm not ready for you to know everything.â
He turns onto a residential street, one hand loose on the wheel. âI flew you here and offered you my house.â
You laugh. âOkay, fair.â
Still, you take your time with it. Scroll through your phone, debating with yourself over what says just enough without saying too much. Finally you pick something warm and easy, the kind of music that fills space without demanding anything from it.
He listens for maybe thirty seconds.
Then nods once. âGood.â
You turn toward him. âThatâs all I get?â
âWhat do you want?â
âA full review.â
âItâs good.â
âThatâs not a review.â
He glances at you briefly, a faint smile at the edge of his mouth. âYou want me to analyze your playlist choices?â
âYes.â
âYou overthought this.â
You gasp. âThat is so rude.â
âItâs true.â
You narrow your eyes. âFor the record, I picked this very casually.â
âSure.â
You fight a smile and lose. âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd yet you came.â
That line lands in the quiet space between you, easy on the surface and not easy at all underneath. You look out the window to hide how much you feel it.
The neighborhoods get quieter the farther you drive. Houses set back from the road, bare branches moving slightly in the wind, the sort of late afternoon calm that makes everything feel more private. When he finally turns into a driveway and kills the engine, your stomach flips all over again.
His house is beautiful, though not in an intimidating way. It looks lived in. Clean lines, big windows, muted exterior, the kind of place built for comfort rather than showing off. You step out of the car and take it in while he grabs your bag from the back.
âYou can say it,â he says as he comes around the car.
You look over. âSay what?â
âThat itâs cute.â
You laugh. âI wasnât going to say cute.â
âWhat were you gonna say?â
âNice.â
âThatâs less insulting.â
âI wasnât insulting the coffee shop.â
âSounded like it.â
âIt was affectionate.â
He opens the front door and lets you in first. Warmth settles around you immediately. The house smells clean, faintly like cedar and laundry detergent and whatever candle had maybe burned recently in another room. Itâs quiet inside in a way that doesnât feel empty. More like he knows how to keep a home peaceful.
You step farther in, taking in little details as naturally as breathing. A pair of shoes near the door. A jacket draped over the back of a chair. Framed photos you donât stare at long enough to feel intrusive. A living room that looks tidy without looking staged.
âItâs really nice,â you say honestly.
He sets your bag down by the stairs. âThanks.â
Thereâs a brief moment where both of you seem to remember at the same time that this is now the part where sleeping arrangements become real instead of abstractly discussed over text.
He clears his throat. âSo, umâŚâ He gestures lightly toward the hallway and then the stairs. âThereâs a guest room downstairs. Orââ
You wait.
He shifts his weight. âYou can take my room.â
Your brows lift. âYour room?â
âYeah.â
âNathan.â
He looks at you directly. âThe bedâs better.â
A laugh slips out of you. âThatâs your pitch?â
âItâs true.â
âYou donât have to give up your room.â
âI know.â
Thereâs that phrase again. Everything with him feels like that. Not obligation. Choice. He rubs a hand briefly at the back of his neck. âI just figured if youâre staying here, you should have the comfortable one.â
You study him for a second. âAnd youâre sleeping where?â
âGuest room.â
âDownstairs?â
âYeah.â
You smile a little, touched in a way that sneaks up on you. âThatâs very nice of you.â
He shrugs, but thereâs the faintest hint of self-consciousness in it now. âItâs just a room.â His eyes catch yours for half a beat, and whatever passes between you there is quiet but unmistakable. He looks away first, reaching for your bag. âIâll show you.â
Upstairs, the master bedroom feels exactly like you expect and somehow more personal too. The bed is huge, the comforter dark and soft-looking, the lighting warm rather than bright. Thereâs an order to the room that feels consistent with him, but not sterile. Just neat. Thought out. Lived in by someone who likes things to have a place.
He sets your bag near a chair by the dresser. âBathroomâs through there. Towels are out already.â
You glance toward the doorway, then back at him. âYou planned this.â
âA little.â
âThatâs cute.â
He gives you a look. âYouâre doing that on purpose now.â
âMaybe.â
For a second neither of you moves. The room is too quiet in the way rooms sometimes get when something small could shift into something bigger if either person lets it. You can feel it there, humming softly between you. The awareness. The attraction. The fact that heâs standing in the doorway of his bedroom while telling you to sleep there and looking at you like heâs trying very hard to keep things gentle.
It does something complicated to your heartbeat.
You break the tension first by smiling. âThank you. Really.â
His expression softens immediately. âYeah.â
Then, after a beat, âYou hungry?â
âA little.â
âI was gonna make dinner.â
You tilt your head. âYou cook?â
He looks faintly offended. âYeah.â
âI didnât say that like I didnât believe you.â
âYou looked like you didnât.â
âI was surprised.â
âThatâs worse.â
You laugh and set your bag down properly. âOkay, then. What are you making?â
He names something simple but good, the kind of meal that feels homey rather than showy. You nod once. âThat sounds amazing.â
He starts to step back into the hall, then pauses when you say, âNeed help?â
He turns.
âYou sure?â
âYeah.â
A smile pulls at his mouth. âOkay.â
Downstairs, the kitchen lights are softer now with evening settling against the windows. He moves through the space comfortably, like everything is where it should be and his body knows the room better than thought does. You wash your hands at the sink, then drift to his side while he starts pulling ingredients from the fridge and cabinets.
âTell me what to do,â you say.
He glances over. âYou really wanna help?â
âYes.â
âYou donât have to.â
âI know,â you say, and his eyes flick back to yours because youâve used his own phrase on him now. âBut I want to.â
That gets you a smile. âOkay,â he says. âCan you cut those?â
You do. He cooks. And somewhere in the middle of chopping vegetables and handing him things from the counter and brushing past each other in the narrow space between island and stove, the whole evening settles into something so unexpectedly domestic that it makes your chest ache a little.
Heâs good in the kitchen, which annoys you a little on principle because apparently there is no area of life in which Nathan MacKinnon feels allowed to be only average. But heâs not performative about it. Doesnât turn cooking into some overly competent show. He just knows what heâs doing. Keeps the space clean while he works. Tastes things as he goes. Adjusts without making a big deal of it.
You lean against the counter and watch him stir something on the stove. âThis is very unfair.â
He doesnât look up. âWhat is?â
âYou being able to cook.â
âThatâs not unfair.â
âIt is. You already have too many things going for you.â
That gets his attention. He looks over, eyebrows slightly raised. âToo many things?â
âYes.â
âLike what?â
You pretend to think about it. âLetâs see. Youâre nice, which is inconvenient. You listen too well. You remember things I say. You bought me coffee in a very strategic small-town-looking cafĂŠ. And now this.â
He laughs under his breath and returns to the pan. âStrategic?â
âVery.â
âI just like that place.â
âSure.â
You push off the counter and step closer to look into the skillet. âCan I taste?â
He hands you the spoon without comment. The bite is warm, rich, better than you were prepared for.
You stare at him. âOh, wow.â
He tries not to look too pleased with himself and fails just a little.
âYouâre enjoying this,â you accuse.
âA little.â
âYou should.â
He glances at you then, softer. âYou really like it?â
âYes.â
Something shifts in his face at that, not bigger than a breath, but enough for you to notice. He likes feeding people, you realize suddenly. Or maybe not people. Maybe just you.
The thought stays with you for the rest of the meal.
You eat at the kitchen island rather than moving into the dining room, which somehow makes it feel even more intimate. The conversation drifts more easily now that the space belongs fully to the evening. You ask him about the houseâwhen he found it, whether he liked living there right away, what parts of it feel most like his. He tells you the truth in pieces. That it took a while. That empty rooms donât become home just because your stuff is in them. That routines help. Familiar things. Good coffee. Quiet.
âAnd now?â you ask.
He glances around the kitchen, then back at you. âNow I like it.â
Thereâs something in the way he says it that makes you wonder what exactly changed.
You donât ask.
Not yet.
Instead you tell him little things about where you live. About the apartment you had before and the one after that. About how hard it is, sometimes, to build a private life when so much of your identity is wrapped around training centers and travel schedules and temporary places. He understands that faster than most people do.
The plates empty, the night deepens outside the windows, at some point you help him clean up, even though he tells you twice that you donât have to. You dry while he washes, then switch halfway through for no real reason except that standing side by side at the sink feels easy.
When everything is put away, the house goes quiet around you again. Not silence. Just the hum of the refrigerator, the faint creak of settling wood, the kind of nighttime stillness that makes every small thing feel a little more important.
He offers you tea, you say yes. The two of you end up in the living room after, mugs in hand, one lamp on in the corner and the rest of the house dim. You sit on the couch, angled slightly toward each other, shoes gone now, the long edge of the day finally giving way to something softer.
This is where the flirting changes.
Not louderâŚjust closer.
He asks if youâre warm enough and drapes a blanket over the back of the couch within reach before you can answer. You accuse him of being secretly eighty years old in spirit. He says thatâs rich coming from someone who picked piano music in the car like you were soundtracking a coming-of-age film. You tell him he liked it. He says maybe. You tell him that counts.
He smiles more now than he did at the Olympics, or maybe itâs just that you get to see it longer.
At one point you say something that makes him laugh hard enough to duck his head, and the sight of it does something absurdly soft to your insides. Later, when you mention one of the programs you skated as a teenager and how much you hated the dress they made you wear for it, he looks at you with this warm, half-distracted fondness that makes you lose the thread of your own sentence.
âWhat?â you ask, suddenly aware of it.
âNothing.â
âThatâs not true.â
He glances down at his mug. âYouâre easy to talk to.â
It is such a simple thing to say, it still leaves you quiet for a second.
Then you smile. âYou are too.â
His gaze lifts back to yours. Neither of you looks away.
Time thins a little after that. Eventually you glance toward the windows and realize how late itâs gotten. Not absurdly late, but late enough that the day has clearly moved into night without either of you noticing.
You set your mug down. âI should probably let you sleep in your tragic downstairs exile.â
That gets a laugh out of him. âItâs not tragic.â
âYou gave me your room.â
âThe bedâs better.â
âYou keep saying that like Iâm not aware youâre being nice.â
He leans back against the couch, one arm along the cushion. âMaybe I just want you to be comfortable.â
Your chest tightens again, that same warm ache all evening has been building toward. âWell,â you say softly, âI appreciate it.â
He nods once, neither of you moves right away. Then you stand, smoothing your hands over your jeans more for something to do than because they need it. He stands too. For a second you think maybe this is where something changes. A goodnight hug that lingers too long. A hand at your waist. A moment on the stairs where one of you says something too honest and the whole careful structure between you shifts.
Instead, he keeps it gentle. He walks you upstairs, he pauses outside the room. He lingers in the doorway, hands in his pockets now in a way that makes him look just a little younger, just a little more uncertain than he has all evening.
âIâm really glad you came,â he says again.
Your expression softens. âIâm really glad I did.â
He studies your face for a second like heâs deciding whether to say something else. Whatever it is, he keeps it to himself. âSleep good,â he says instead.
âYou too.â
Another tiny pause, then he smiles, the kind that starts small and reaches his eyes by the end. âNight.â
âNight, Nate.â
The name lands between you a little differently than the others have tonight. Softer. More personal. His gaze holds yours for just a beat longer before he nods and steps back into the hall.
You close the door slowly after him. The room is quiet. Still warm from the day, from his presence, from the fact that this is his space and he gave it to you without hesitation. You move through it carefully at first, like the room itself deserves gentleness. Set your things down. Change into sleep clothes. Wash your face in the bathroom with hands that are steady now, though your whole body still feels full of a light kind of electricity.
When you finally get into bed, you understand immediately why he kept insisting. The bed is ridiculously comfortable. You laugh quietly to yourself, half into the pillow, because of course it is. The lamp on the nightstand casts a warm circle of light across the room. You turn it off and settle back under the covers, staring up at the ceiling in the dark.
Downstairs, somewhere in the house, you hear the faintest sound of a door closing.
The guest room.
Him.
Thereâs something so unbearably sweet about it that you have to shut your eyes against the feeling. He brought you coffee, he let you choose the music in his car, he cooked for you, he gave you his room. And through all of it, he never once made any of this feel transactional or performative or too fast.
You curl onto your side, the pillow cool against your cheek, and let yourself smile into the dark. Tomorrow thereâs a game, tomorrow this will all become part of something bigger. But tonight is just this house, this room, this one soft evening suspended between whatâs already happened and what comes next.
And downstairs, Nathan MacKinnon is sleeping in the guest room because he wanted you comfortable in his bed. You think you might be in trouble, the thought should probably make you nervous.
Instead, as sleep starts to pull at you, all it really does is make you feel warm. And very, very glad you said yes.
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Game day begins quietly, not in the world around you, because even before the sun is fully up thereâs already a pulse to everything. Thereâs movement in the house. The soft sounds of a kitchen being used. Coffee brewing. A cabinet closing. Dishes lightly clinking together. Somewhere outside, a car passes on the street and then another. Morning arriving whether either of you is ready for it or not.
But inside the room, under the warmth of the blankets and the unfamiliar comfort of Nathanâs bed, it feels quiet.
You wake slowly, still heavy with sleep, blinking at the soft light pressing through the curtains. For a second you forget where you are, just enough for the room to seem strange around the edges. Then everything rushes back all at onceâthe flight, the airport, the coffee shop, the long easy evening in his house, the fact that you are currently in Nathan MacKinnonâs room because he gave up his bed without even hesitating.
A smile pulls at your mouth before you can stop it. You roll onto your back and stare up at the ceiling for a minute, just letting yourself feel it. The softness of the room, the excitement curled low in your stomach at the thought of the day ahead.
Today is his game.
His world, and you get to see it up close. You push yourself up eventually, reaching for your phone on the nightstand. Thereâs a message from him, timestamped maybe fifteen minutes ago.
Nate: Coffeeâs on. no rush
That alone makes your chest tighten a little in that now familiar, now dangerous way. You shower, get dressed, and take a little longer than usual to decide what to wear, which is annoying mostly because you know exactly why it matters. You want to look nice. Not in an overdone way, not in a way that makes it obvious you stood in front of the mirror and changed twice, but still. Nice.
Like this isnât the first time youâre stepping into his space on his terms, into an arena full of his teammates and media and people who know him.
When you finally come downstairs, Nathan is in the kitchen again, standing at the counter with a mug in one hand and his phone in the other. He looks up at the sound of your steps and something immediate softens in his face when he sees you.
âMorning,â he says.
âMorning.â
Your voice is still a little sleepy, and the smile he gives you in response says he notices that too.
âThereâs coffee,â he says, nodding toward the pot. âAnd I made breakfast. Or⌠kind of breakfast.â
You move closer and glance at whatâs on the counter. Toast. Fruit. Eggs. Simple, but warm and clearly made with care.
âThis is definitely breakfast.â
âGood.â
âYou sound relieved.â
He shrugs one shoulder, taking another sip of coffee. âDidnât know if youâd be a breakfast person.â
You look over at him while pouring your cup. âAnd if I wasnât?â
âThen I wouldâve looked stupid.â
You laugh quietly and lean back against the counter. âYou could never look stupid making someone breakfast.â
âThat feels untrue.â
âItâs not.â
For a second his eyes hold yours, and that same awareness from last night slips gently into the room with you. Not heavy. Not awkward. Just there. Alive between you in all the spaces where words arenât.
You break it first by reaching for a piece of fruit. âSo whatâs the schedule?â
He relaxes a little, setting his mug down. âWeâll head to the rink in a bit. Morning skate wonât be too long. Then thereâs a break before the game.â
âAnd I get to come watch?â
âYeah.â
The way he says it is simple, but thereâs something about it that makes you feel wanted in the day, not just included because he felt obligated after flying you out. Like he genuinely wants you there. Wants you to see it. Wants you in the orbit of this part of his life.
You eat together in the same easy rhythm as the night before, conversation drifting naturally. Some of it practicalâtiming, where youâll sit, how the day usually goes. Some of it not. You tease him about whether he turns into a completely different person on game days. He says youâll have to find out. You tell him that sounds ominous. He says it probably is.
And then suddenly youâre in his car again, the morning colder than it looks, sunlight bright and pale across the windshield as he drives you toward the arena.
Youâre quieter this time, but not because youâre uncomfortable. More because it all feels a little real in a new way now. Last night belonged to the house, to the in-between. To coffee and dinner and the long, soft intimacy of getting to know someone in private.
Today belongs to the rest of his life, to the part of him the world knows.
He notices your quiet eventually, glancing over at a red light. âYou okay?â
âYeah.â You smile. âJust taking it all in, I think.â
He nods once, understanding more quickly than you even fully explain. âIt can be a lot.â
âIâm not overwhelmed.â
âNo?â
âNo.â You turn slightly in your seat to look at him. âJust curious.â
That gets a faint smile out of him. âAbout what?â
âWhat youâre like here.â
He looks back to the road as the light changes. âGuess youâll see.â
Thereâs a confidence in that answer, but not arrogance. More like heâs comfortable letting you decide for yourself. Comfortable enough not to over-explain or perform some version of himself in advance.
The arena rises into view before long, all clean lines and glass and movement, people already filtering in and out with that distinct sense of purpose sports buildings always seem to carry. Even in the morning, before the crowd and lights and noise, thereâs energy here.
Nathan parks in one of the player areas and kills the engine. For a second neither of you moves.
Then he turns toward you. âReady?â
You smile. âYeah.â
Inside, the rink is different from skating venues in a way you feel immediately. Colder in some places. Louder even when itâs technically quiet. Less insulated, somehow. Figure skating always held itself with a certain polish, even in chaos. Hockey spaces are more blunt than that. More physical. More functional. Tape and equipment and concrete and skates and people moving fast because thereâs always something to do.
You love it almost right away. Nathan leads you through the back hallways with the ease of someone whose body knows them as well as his house. He doesnât rush, but he also doesnât hesitate, tossing quiet hellos to staff as you pass. A few people glance at you curiously, but no one says anything overt. Youâre aware of it, though. Of being new. Of being beside him.
He seems aware of it too, in the way he stays just close enough that you never feel left to figure it out alone.
At the entrance to the ice level, he pauses. âYou can watch from here for morning skate. One of the staff can help if you need anything.â
You look out at the rink beyond him. âOkay.â
Then, because the thought comes out before you can second-guess it: âGood luck.â
He glances back at you and smiles, small and warm and very much not the public version of him. âThanks.â
And then heâs gone onto the ice.
You watch him become someone slightly different out there.
Not different in a way that feels false. Just sharpened. More focused. More contained. Like every part of him narrows toward one purpose and the rest fades. He skates with that same balance you remember from the Olympicsâpowerful without trying to look powerful, fluid in a way that makes everything seem easy even when you know it isnât.
And heâs not the only one, of course. The whole team moves with practiced rhythm. Drills, passes, one-timers, quick conversations at the bench. You recognize some of the guys from television, from clips, from hearing Nathan mention a name once or twice in passing over text. Seeing them together is different, though. Less abstract. More human.
You see the way Nathan talks on the iceânot loudly, but often. The way he gestures with his stick. The way others instinctively seem to read where heâs going before heâs even fully there. Leadership without performance. Influence without needing to advertise itself.
A small part of you aches with admiration for it, another part just feels lucky to witness it.
After morning skate, one of the team staff comes over with a smile and introduces herself. Sheâs warm immediately, the kind of person who can make a stranger feel less like one in under a minute. She tells you where youâll be for the game later, what the day usually looks like, and then casually asks if you want to head up with some of the wives and girlfriends for a bit before doors open more fully.
That surprises you just enough that it must show on your face, because she adds, âOnly if you want to. Theyâre easy.â
You say yes and sheâs right. You spend the next stretch of the day in one of the quieter suite-level areas, meeting women who are far more welcoming than your nerves had prepared you for. Thereâs an ease to them that makes you relax quicklyâsome of them with years of this life behind them, some newer, all of them perfectly capable of carrying conversation without making it feel like an interrogation.
They ask about skating, about the Olympics, about whether youâre enjoying the city so far. One of them jokes that sheâs glad Nathan finally brought someone around because apparently âheâs impossible to get anything out of.â Another laughs and says not to scare you off too early. You feel your face warm at that, but the teasing is gentle, affectionate rather than invasive.
And somewhere in the middle of all that, with coffee in hand and arena staff moving in the background and the building slowly filling with the charge of game day, you realize something that startles you in its simplicity:
Youâre having fun, not just because itâs new but because this part of his life, which could have felt intimidating or impenetrable, instead feels like something he is quietly making room for you inside.
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By the time warmups begin later, the building has transformed. It is no longer the quiet, controlled space of morning skate. Now it hums. Lights brighter. Music louder. Fans everywhere. Jerseys filling the concourses in waves of burgundy and blue and white. The electricity you felt in hockey arenas at the Olympics is here too, but this is different. More personal. More local. These people know every player, every story, every shift that matters. The building feels alive with it.
From your seat, the ice looks impossibly bright under the lights. The crowd rises when the players come out for warmups, and even from where you sit you can feel the force of the sound. Nathan skates into it like he belongs nowhere else. He glances up once while circling near center, and you would swear he finds you in the crowd for half a second before turning back into the drill.
Maybe you imagine it, maybe you donât. Either way, your heartbeat kicks up and stays there.
The game starts fast. Playoff hockey, you realize almost immediately, is a different animal entirely. Faster than you expect, harder than you thought it would feel in person, every shift pressed tight with urgency. There is no drifting in it. No wasted space. Everything means something.
And NathanâNathan is everywhere. You lose track of the number of times your eyes find him because the game itself keeps pulling you into motion, but it feels constant. One second heâs battling along the boards, the next heâs driving the middle, then doubling back defensively, then somehow appearing again in the offensive zone like the space itself rearranges for him.
You understand, watching him live like this, something the television never fully gives you. He doesnât just play hard, he changes the pace of everyone around him, he scores his first goal midway through the opening period.
The crowd detonates.
It happens so quickly that by the time you fully register the play, the puck is already in the net and the arena is halfway to blowing the roof off. Nathan turns sharp out of the slot, fist clenched briefly at his side as teammates crowd around him, and your whole body reacts before your brain catches up. Youâre on your feet with everyone else, cheering despite yourself, smiling so hard it almost hurts.
One of the women beside you leans in and laughs. âThatâs one.â
You laugh too, still looking down at the ice. âOne?â
âHattrick watch.â
You shake your head, but something bright and impossible has already lit in your chest. His second comes in the second period. This one you see developing almost before it happensâan opening, a seam in the coverage, the split-second patience before the shot. Then the puck is gone off his stick and the sound that follows feels even louder than the first.
Youâre on your feet again before the lamp has fully finished flashing. He celebrates differently this timeânot bigger, exactly, but with a sharper edge, the momentum of the game carrying through him. His teammates swarm him at the glass and the building shakes with it. The women around you are laughing now, nudging each other, one of them saying she called it.
Youâre barely hearing any of it over your own pulse because now itâs possible. The third period stretches and snaps and stretches again. The Avalanche are up, but not comfortably enough for anyone to fully relax. Every chance feels magnified. Every near miss gets a reaction out of the crowd big enough to rattle through your ribs. You are so locked in you barely remember to breathe sometimes.
And then, late in the game, with the crowd already standing on and off through the final minutes, Nathan gets loose again.
A turnover.
A rush.
Open ice.
You know it before he even shoots. The whole building seems to know. The puck leaves his stick and finds the back of the net and for one suspended, glorious second the arena explodes so completely it feels like the sound itself is physical.
Hats start raining down almost immediately.
Everywhere.
A blur of team colors and laughter and screaming and disbelief and joy, fans throwing caps over the glass and down the aisles while the announcerâs voice barely stands a chance over the noise. Nathan is grinning now in that rare, unguarded way athletes sometimes do when something punches straight through control and becomes pure feeling. Teammates mob him. The bench is losing it. The crowd is somehow louder than before.
And you, you're laughing. Actually laughing, hands over your mouth for a second because the happiness of it is too much to hold neatly. Your chest feels full in a way that almost aches.
A hat trick. Of course he got a hat trick while you were here. Of course.
The women around you are all talking at once now, delighted and unsurprised in equal measure. One of them squeezes your arm and says, âYouâre good luck,â and you only shake your head because if you try to answer right now you might sound ridiculous.
The Avalanche win, of course.
The final horn is swallowed in cheers and celebration and the surge of everyone wanting one more look at the ice before the players head down the tunnel. Nathan skates a slow arc with his teammates, saluting the crowd in that post-win, post-hattrick haze, and though there are cameras everywhere and people shouting and lights flashing, thereâs a momentâbrief, impossibleâwhere his gaze lifts toward your section again.
And this time you know he sees you. After the game everything becomes waiting. A good waiting, but waiting all the same.
The crowd empties in waves. The arena settles from thunder to hum. Up in the family area, people gather their things slowly, the post-win mood light and easy. There are hugs, congratulations, plans thrown around for later. You get folded into enough of it that you stop feeling separate from the whole thing, though youâre still acutely aware that this is his world and youâre moving through it because he wanted you here.
Eventually a staff member comes to collect a few people for the family corridor access after the room begins to clear. You follow along, nerves returning in a softer but more immediate form. Not game nerves now. Something smaller. More personal.
It takes a little while.
Players have media.
Showers.
Treatment.
The long, practical unwinding from the intensity of the game.
So you wait in the back hallway, leaning lightly against the wall, the concrete cool through your jacket. Thereâs movement everywhereâstaff, equipment people, a few players filtering through at different times, bits of laughter, the occasional burst of noise from farther down. The wives and girlfriends around you seem entirely used to this rhythm. You, meanwhile, are trying very hard not to look like your pulse is noticeably louder than the hallway should require.
When Nathan finally appears, it takes your breath for a second. Not because heâs cleaned upâthough he is, hair still damp from the shower, dressed now in a team-issued track jacket and pants, looking more like himself from the airport again than the sharpened version from the ice. Not because heâs beautiful, though he is.
Because the second he sees you, his whole face changes, brightens. And then heâs walking straight toward you with something small in his hand.
You push off the wall as he reaches you, smiling without even trying to hide it. âHi.â
âHey.â
He looks happy. Tired too, in that postgame way where effort still clings to a person, but underneath it thereâs this unmistakable glow. Like the win is still inside him.
âYou were unbelievable,â you say before you can stop yourself.
He huffs a quiet laugh and shakes his head once, like he still isnât entirely willing to fully accept praise even after a hat trick. âIt was a good one.â
âThatâs the understatement of the century.â
He smiles, then lifts the thing in his hand.
Itâs the puck.
Your eyes drop to it and then snap back up to his face. âNo way.â
He extends it toward you. âYou should have it.â
For a second you just stare. âNathan.â
He tilts it lightly in his palm. âHat trick puck.â
âI know what it is.â
âYou looked confused.â
You laugh, but your chest is tightening all over again, too full and warm and helpless. âI canât take that.â
âYeah, you can.â
âThat feels important.â
âIt is.â
âExactly.â
His expression softens into something quieter then, something that makes the hallway and all its movement blur slightly at the edges.
âI want you to have it,â he says.
Thereâs no arguing with that. Not really. Not when he says it like that. You take the puck carefully, like it might somehow mean less if you donât handle it with enough respect. Itâs heavier than you expect. Cool against your palm.
Your throat feels tight when you say, âThank you.â
He glances down at it in your hand and then back up. âYou came all this way. Least I could do.â
âThat is not the least you could do.â
His mouth twitches. âProbably not.â
You smile and look down again, overwhelmed in that quiet way that makes it hard to speak for a second. No one has ever given you something like this. Not just a gift, but a moment. A piece of a night that mattered.
And heâs giving it to you like it belongs there with you.
Eventually the hallway clears enough that itâs time to go. He says a few quick goodbyes to staff and teammates, then falls into step beside you toward the parking area. The puck stays in your hand the whole way, your fingers curled around it like if you loosen your grip too much the whole evening might somehow turn dreamlike and disappear.
The walk back to the car is cold and quiet compared to the arena, the night air crisp enough to sharpen everything. Streetlights cast pale gold across the pavement. The lot is calmer now, emptied of the rush that came with arrival.
Nathan unlocks the car but doesnât get in right away. Neither of you does. You stand beside the passenger door, still holding the puck, and look over at him.
âI had so much fun,â you say.
The words come out softer than you intended, but maybe thatâs right. They deserve softness. âLike⌠really. These last couple of days. I had such a good time.â
His expression shifts immediately, that careful openness returning. âYeah?â
âYeah.â You smile a little. âThe coffee, your house, tonight⌠all of it.â
He looks at you for a beat thatâs just a little too long to be casual. Then he says, âI wish you could stay longer.â
Your heart trips over itself. Because he doesnât say it like a joke. Doesnât soften it into something less wanting than it is. He just says it plainly, like he said he was glad you came, like he said he wanted you to have the puck, like all his honest things seem to come out simple and therefore hit harder.
You shift the puck in your hand. âI can.â
He blinks. âWhat?â
You smile wider now, a little nervous but buoyed by the look on his face already, by the way hope arrives there before he can hide it. âI can stay longer. I moved some stuff around before I came just in case I wanted to.â
It takes maybe half a second for the full meaning to land. Then his whole face lights up, like actually lights up. Thereâs something so boyish and immediate about the reaction that it makes you laugh softly in delight, because for all the control he usually carries, this is pure and unfiltered and impossible to miss.
âSeriously?â he asks.
âSeriously.â
He lets out a breath that turns into a laugh, looking briefly at the ground before back at you like heâs not quite sure what to do with how happy that makes him. âYou can stay?â
âYes.â
âFor how long?â
You smile. âA few more days.â
He shakes his head once, still smiling, and opens the passenger door for you with a kind of renewed energy you can feel even in the simple movement. The drive home after that feels different from the one before the gameânot louder, exactly, but fuller. The win still hums around him. So does the news that youâre not leaving tomorrow like he must have been quietly bracing himself for.
You let him have the music this time.
He notices. âYouâre not picking?â
âNo. Tonightâs your night.â
He glances over with a grin. âDangerous.â
âProbably.â
The playlist he puts on is exactly what you would have guessed and not what you would have guessed at allâsomething steady and warm and understated, music for driving home with a win in your chest and someone you want beside you in the passenger seat.
You lean your head lightly against the window and watch the city lights slide past. Every so often his hand shifts on the center console close enough that you become absurdly aware of the space between you. Not touching. Just possible.
When you pull into his driveway again, the house looks different than it did the first time. Not because it changed, but because you did. Or maybe because the idea of it has. Yesterday it was his house and you were a guest he had generously made room for. Tonight it feels something closer to shared, even if only for a little while.
He parks and turns off the engine, but again neither of you moves right away. The silence between you now is nothing like awkwardness. Itâs anticipation. The whole night, really, narrowing down to this parked car and the low hum of the engine cooling and the fact that whatever has been building between you is no longer abstract enough to ignore.
You unclip your seatbelt.
So does he.
Outside, the air is colder than before, but you barely feel it. You both step out, doors closing softly into the quiet of the driveway. The puck is still in your hand. You donât know when it became an anchor, only that it has.
Nathan comes around the front of the car instead of heading straight toward the house and stops a few feet away from you under the pale wash of the porch light. For one second, you think maybe heâs going to say something first. Instead he looks at you like heâs deciding to be brave.
âCan I kiss you?â he asks.
And it is maybe the most Nathan thing he could possibly say. Not because itâs tentative. Not because he seems unsure you want him to. But because even here, at the edge of something you can both clearly feel, he chooses care. He chooses to ask. He chooses to let you step into it with him.
Your whole body warms at once. âYes,â you say, voice soft and immediate. âOf course.â
He closes the distance then. Not fast, not slow enough to feel hesitant either. And when he kisses you, itâs exactly the way everything else with him has beenâcareful at first, but honest. His hand comes lightly to your jaw, thumb resting near your cheek, and the kiss itself is warm and grounding and somehow even better than all the moments leading up to it had let you imagine. Thereâs nothing flashy about it. No dramatic urgency. Just a quiet sort of certainty, like the both of you have been arriving here for longer than either of you said out loud.
You kiss him back with the same soft surety, stepping just a little closer until thereâs no space left to wonder what this is.
When he pulls back, itâs only far enough to look at you, his hand is still at your face. Your breath catches a little at the expression on his.
You smile first, then laugh softly, because the happiness of it is too much not to. âOkay.â
That makes him smile too, forehead dipping briefly as if heâs trying to collect himself and failing just enough to be endearing. âOkay?â
âThat was really worth the wait.â
His laugh is quiet and warm. âYeah?â
âYeah.â
He brushes his thumb once along your cheekbone, still looking at you like youâre something heâs trying not to mishandle. âGood.â
You reach up and touch his wrist lightly, wanting contact for no other reason than that it feels natural now. âIâm really excited to spend more time with you.â
His expression softens all over again. âMe too.â
Then, because the line arrives fully formed and you cannot possibly let the moment pass without saying it, you tilt your head and add, âAlso⌠I think you should finally sleep in your bed now.â
For half a second he just looks at you. Then the meaning hits, and the reaction is immediateâsurprise first, then delight, then something warmer and deeper settling in underneath it all.
A grin breaks across his face, real and unguarded and maybe your favorite one yet. âIt better be with you.â he asks, like he wants to hear you say it.
You smile back, letting yourself be just as direct. âWouldnt have said it if I didn't mean it.â
The sound he makes then is half laugh, half exhale, like that answer landed somewhere low and good inside him. He drops his head for a second, then looks back up at you with his eyes bright in the porch light.
âIâd like that,â he says.
You step closer again. âGood.â
He leans in and kisses you once more, softer this time, almost smiling into it, and everything about the last few daysâthe airport, the coffee, the way he listened, the dinner he cooked, the puck cooling in your palmâseems to gather into this one moment outside his house.
Not an ending but a beginning, if anything. When you finally pull apart again, the night around you feels quieter than ever. Still cold. Still late. Still real. But now thereâs something settled between you that wasnât there before, and it changes the whole shape of everything.
Nathan takes your free hand as you head toward the front door, like itâs the most natural thing in the world. This time, when he lets you into the house, it doesnât feel like entering someone elseâs space. It feels like being welcomed in.
And upstairs, waiting in the room he gave you before he knew whether any of this would happen, is the bed he should have been sleeping in all along.
Hi! I hope your requests are still open if so, can you please do something very fluff and domestic where they are listening to music together while they both take the day to clean around the house with Nathan Mack ! Thank youuuu đ
Nathan MacKinnon x reader
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NHL Masterlist
Nathan woke up slowly.
Not the usual wayâsharp, alert, body already halfway into motion before his eyes were fully open, mind clicking immediately into schedule, training, routine. That was how most mornings went. Structured. Efficient. Purposeful.
Today was different.
Today, the world felt quiet.
There was no alarm. No early skate. No travel day weight sitting in his chest. No expectation pulling him out of bed before he was ready. Just stillness. A soft kind of silence that only existed on the rarest days, the ones where nothing demanded anything from him right away.
He didnât open his eyes at first.
He stayed exactly where he was, half-lost in that space between sleep and waking, aware only of warmth and weight and the steady rhythm of breathing that wasnât just his own.
You.
That was the first fully formed thought.
You were tucked into him like youâd always been there, like your body had learned his shape and decided it belonged there permanently. One of your legs thrown lazily over his, your arm draped across his torso, your face pressed somewhere just under his collarbone. Your hair was a messâhe could feel it against his skin, soft and slightly tangled, tickling his neck every time either of you shifted even slightly.
His hand was already resting at your back.
He didnât remember putting it there.
It just⌠was.
Like it belonged there too.
Nathan exhaled slowly, finally letting his eyes open just enough to take in the room around him. The light coming through the curtains was soft, pale, early enough that it didnât feel intrusive. Just enough to outline shapes. The edge of the dresser. The chair in the corner with a hoodie thrown over it. The faint reflection of the window in the mirror across the room.
Home.
That was the second thought. Not the house, exactly, not just the space.
You.
You, half-asleep on his chest, breathing slow and even, completely unaware of anything except the fact that you were safe and warm and right where you wanted to be. Nathan shifted slightly, just enough to look down at you properly.
Your face was relaxed in sleep, lips parted just slightly, lashes resting soft against your cheeks. There was something about itâabout youâthat always made his chest tighten in a way he couldnât fully explain. Not painful. Not uncomfortable. Just⌠full. Like there was too much feeling in one place and nowhere else for it to go.
He brushed his thumb lightly along your back without thinking.
You stirred, not fully awake, just enough to make a quiet soundâsomething soft and almost questioningâbefore you shifted closer instead of pulling away. Your fingers curled slightly against his side, tightening your hold on him like you were making sure he was still there.
Nathan smiled. âHey,â he murmured, voice still rough with sleep.
You didnât answer right away. Just a soft hum, your face pressing further into his chest like you were hiding from the idea of waking up entirely.
âMorning,â he tried again, quieter this time.
You groaned softly in response. âMm⌠no,â you mumbled.
He huffed out a quiet laugh, the sound barely more than breath. âNo?â
âNo morning,â you said, voice muffled. âStill sleeping.â
âYouâre talking.â
âThat doesnât count.â
âIt definitely counts.â
You made another soft noise, something between a protest and a sigh, and shifted just enough to tilt your face upward, blinking slowly like the light was personally offending you.
Nathan watched you the whole time.
âYouâve been awake,â you accused weakly, squinting at him.
âFor like⌠a minute.â
âThatâs too long.â
âYou wanna go back to sleep?â
You considered it. He could see it happeningâthe slow, heavy thinking of someone still halfway in dreams, weighing the options like it was the most important decision of the day.
ââŚmaybe,â you said finally, though you didnât actually close your eyes again.
Instead, you just stayed there, looking at him now. There was something quiet about the way you did it. No rush. No urgency. Just⌠seeing him. The soft light, the closeness, the shared stillness of a morning that didnât belong to anything else.
Nathan swallowed slightly under the weight of it. âWhat?â he asked.
You shook your head a little, a small smile pulling at your lips. âNothing.â
âThatâs not nothing.â
âIt is.â
âYouâre staring at me.â
âYouâre staring at me too.â
âYeah, but I was here first.â
You laughed quietly, the sound warm and still thick with sleep. âThatâs not how that works.â
âIt is in this situation.â
You shifted slightly, pushing yourself up just enough to rest more fully against him, your chin brushing his chest as you looked at him properly now.
âHi,â you said.
His hand moved up your back automatically, settling between your shoulder blades. âHi.â
There was a pause, not awkward, just⌠full.
ââŚwe donât have anything today,â you said softly, like you were reminding yourself more than him.
Nathan nodded. âNope.â
âNo practice.â
âNo.â
âNo errands.â
âDonât think so.â
You smiled a little more at that. âNo responsibilities.â
He let out a quiet breath. âSounds fake.â
âIt kind of does.â
Another pause.
âWe should clean.â
Nathan blinked.Â
ââŚwhat?â
You grinned, suddenly more awake. âSpring cleaning.â
He stared at you like youâd just said something deeply suspicious.
âOn our day off?â
âYes.â
âWhy?â
âBecause,â you said, shifting to sit up a little more, your hair falling messily around your face, âwe never have time to do it properly. And itâs been bugging me.â
âBugging you?â
âYes. Donât act like it hasnât been bugging you too.â
He hesitated.
Because⌠okay, yeah.Maybe it had.
Not in a way that kept him up at night or anything, but there were little things. A pile of mail on the counter that kept growing. Shoes that somehow multiplied near the door. The drawer in the kitchen that definitely did not open smoothly anymore because something in there was probably out of place.
You saw it on his face immediately.
âExactly,â you said, pointing at him. âI knew it.â
âI didnât say anything.â
âYou didnât have to.â
He let out a quiet laugh, rubbing a hand over his face. âYou wanna spend our one free day cleaning.â
âYes.â
âVoluntarily.â
âYes.â
ââŚwe could do literally anything else.â
âYeah,â you said, leaning back down against him again, settling comfortably like you had all the time in the world, âbut then weâd come back to a messy house.â
He looked around the room again.
Then back at you.
Then sighed.
ââŚfine.â
Your head snapped up. âWait, really?â
âYeah.â
You lit up instantly and thatâright thereâthat was it, that was why.
Nathan felt something soft and stupid and completely unavoidable settle in his chest as you smiled at him like that, like heâd just said yes to something far more important than reorganizing a kitchen drawer.
âOkay,â you said, already shifting out of bed. âOkay, weâre doing it.â
âHeyââ
But you were already moving, pulling one of his hoodies on, completely energized now.
âFirst, breakfast,â you declared.
He pushed himself up on his elbows, watching you move around the room like a storm of purpose. âWe just woke up.â
âExactly. Fuel.â
âYouâre taking this very seriously.â
âOf course I am.â
He shook his head, smiling despite himself as he dragged a hand through his hair and finally sat up.
âCome on,â you said, grabbing his hand and tugging lightly. âUp.â
âYouâre bossy.â
âYou love it.â
ââŚsometimes.â
You grinned. âAll the time.â
â
The kitchen filled with warmth faster than either of you expected.
Maybe it was the sunlight finally pushing properly through the windows, stretching across the counters in soft gold. Maybe it was the sound of the coffee machine humming to life, the smell of it filling the space in a way that felt grounding and familiar. Maybe it was just the fact that you were both there, moving around each other in that easy, practiced way that came from knowing someone so well it didnât require thinking anymore.
Nathan leaned against the counter while you cracked eggs into a bowl, watching you with that same quiet focus he always seemed to fall into when you were doing something small and ordinary.
âWhat?â you asked, not even looking up.
âYou always know Iâm staring.â
âYou stare a lot.â
âI do not.â
âYou do.â
âIâm observing.â
You snorted. âThatâs worse.â
He pushed off the counter, stepping closer, resting his hands lightly on your hips as he leaned in just slightly. âYou donât like being observed?â
âI like it when you help.â
âThat sounds like a condition.â
âIt is.â
He hummed thoughtfully. âAlright.â
He reached past you for a pan, brushing against you just enough to make you shift slightly into him without even realizing it.
âSee?â you said, smiling to yourself. âTeamwork.â
âYeah, yeah.â
You worked together easily after that.
Eggs. Toast. Fruit. Coffee poured into mismatched mugs youâd somehow collected over time without ever intentionally trying to match anything in your kitchen. It was messy, but in a way that felt lived-in rather than cluttered. Comfortable instead of chaotic.
At some point, you turned on a record.
The soft crackle filled the room first, then musicâlow, warm, something that felt like it belonged to mornings like this. Nathan didnât even ask what it was. He didnât need to. It fit.
You swayed a little where you stood at the counter, absentminded, stirring something that didnât really need stirring anymore.
Nathan watched you for a second. Then stepped closer, sliding one arm around your waist and pulling you gently back against him.
You laughed softly. âWeâre supposed to be productive.â
âWe are.â
âThis is not productive.â
âIt is for me.â
You shook your head, but leaned into him anyway, your back settling comfortably against his chest. âFive minutes,â you said.
âDeal.â
â
Cleaning didnât feel like a chore. Not like this. Not with music playing softly in the background, sunlight shifting slowly through the house, the two of you moving from room to room together with no real rush, no pressure, no timer ticking somewhere in the back of your mind.
Nathan handled the living room first.
Vacuuming. Straightening the couch. Folding the blanket you both somehow always ended up using even when there were five others available. You followed behind him, wiping down surfaces, reorganizing small things, tossing anything that didnât belong into a basket youâd decided would be your âfigure it out laterâ pile.
âYouâre not actually gonna go through that basket, are you?â he asked, nodding toward it.
âAbsolutely not.â
âGood.â
âThatâs future usâs problem.â
âFuture us is gonna be annoyed.â
âFuture us always is.â
He laughed.
In the bedroom, it was slower. Maybe because it was your space. Maybe because mornings still lingered there in a way they didnât anywhere else. You changed the sheets together, pulling corners tight, smoothing fabric, bumping into each other more than once because neither of you were particularly coordinated when working around the same small area.
âLift,â you said, tugging at one side.
âI am lifting.â
âYouâre not lifting enough.â
âIâm lifting plenty.â
You narrowed your eyes. âNathan.â
He grinned. âOkay, okay.â
You ended up laughing halfway through it, collapsing briefly onto the mattress in the middle of the process because somehow that was easier than pretending you were both taking this seriously.
âYouâre the one who wanted to do this,â he pointed out.
âI know.â
âAnd now youâre lying down.â
âI needed a break.â
âWeâve been doing this for like twenty minutes.â
âExactly.â
He shook his head, but lay down next to you anyway. Just for a second. Just long enough to breathe, to look at the ceiling. To exist in the quiet middle of the day with nothing pulling at either of you.
ââŚI like this,â you said softly.
âYeah.â
âUs just⌠here.â
He turned his head to look at you. âMe too.â
â
By the time the sun started dipping lower, the house felt different. Cleaner, yes, but more than thatâit felt reset. Like everything had been gently put back into place. Like the space itself had taken a deep breath. You noticed it immediately when you stepped back into the living room after finishing the last small task.
âWait,â you said.
âWhat?â
âIt looks so good.â
Nathan glanced around. âYeah. It does.â
You smiled, a little proud, a little relieved. âWe actually did it.â
âWe did.â
You turned to him, eyes bright. âWeâre so productive.â
âDonât get used to it.â
âToo late.â
â
Takeout felt like the only appropriate reward. You ordered something easy, something familiar, something that required absolutely no effort after the day youâd just had.
By the time it arrived, the sky outside had turned that deep evening blue that always made the inside of your home feel warmer by comparison.
You sat cross-legged on the couch, food spread out between you, the TV on but muted, music still playing faintly from the other room. Nathan leaned back, one arm stretched along the back of the couch behind you, watching you pick at your food with that same soft focus heâd had all day.
âWhat?â you asked again, catching him.
âYouâre happy.â
You paused, then smiled. âYeah.â
âBecause we cleaned.â
âBecause we cleaned together.â
He hummed. âBig difference.â
âVery big difference.â
You shifted closer to him, nudging his shoulder lightly with yours. âI like doing things like this with you.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
He looked down at you, something quiet settling in his expression again. âMe too.â
â
Later, when the house had gone fully still again, you ended up exactly where youâd started, back in bed. Clean sheets. Soft lighting. The faint smell of laundry and warmth and something familiar that only existed when both of you were there.
You curled into him without thinking, and he wrapped around you just as easily. ââŚtoday was nice,â you murmured.
âYeah.â
âLike⌠really nice.â
He pressed his lips lightly to your hair. âWe should do it more.â
âWe should.â
A pause. âI love this,â you said quietly.
âThis?â
âThis life. This house. You.â
Nathanâs chest tightened.
He pulled you just a little closer. âI love you too.â
You smiled against him, your fingers curling lightly into his shirt. âAnd I love our home.â
He looked around the room again, softer now, seeing it the way you did. Not just walls, not just space. Something shared, something that belonged to both of you.
âMe too,â he said.
And for the first time all day, there was nothing left to do, nothing left to fix or clean or plan. Just you. Just him. Just home.
A/N: I had like 5 different requests for this, I made it HELLA long and I hope I did you all justice!! also ive been editing a bunch of stuff so a Nate and sid spam is either happening tonight or tomorrow idk yet
The first thing people assumed about your job was that it was easy.
They saw the finished posts, the polished thirty-second clips, the chirpy captions with orange and black emojis, the little behind-the-scenes moments that made players seem more human and fans feel like they were in on something special. They saw the smiling headshots, the goofy locker room trivia videos, the pregame tunnel fits, the rapid-fire questions on the bench during morning skate, and they thought your work mostly consisted of pointing a camera at attractive hockey players and hitting upload.
What they never saw was you sprinting through the Wells Fargo Center with two cameras hanging off one shoulder, a backup battery clenched between your teeth, and your phone buzzing so violently in your back pocket you were half convinced it was about to catch fire.
What they never saw was the planning.
The color-coded spreadsheets, the weekly content calendars, the caption drafts, the sponsor approvals, the last-minute changes from PR, the constant balancing act between what was fun, what was safe, what the players would actually agree to do, and what would make the internet collectively lose its mind in the most useful way possible. Your job was creativity, yes, but it was also speed and instinct and relationship-building. It was knowing which rookie would happily do a dumb little âwhoâs most likely toâ video five minutes before warmups and which veteran would stare at you like you had personally offended his bloodline for even asking.
You loved it anyway.
Maybe because you were good at it. Maybe because you liked chaos more than you had any business admitting. Maybe because there was something addictive about catching tiny, unscripted moments before they disappearedâa laugh in the hallway, a teasing shove at practice, a muttered one-liner that ended up becoming the clip fans quoted for weeks.
By your late twenties, you had already worked for two smaller sports media teams, one college athletics department, and a brief, soul-withering stint at a lifestyle marketing agency where someone in a blazer had once asked you to âmake the brand voice more aesthetic.â Youâd escaped that disaster on purpose. When the Philadelphia Flyers hired you to help lead social content, youâd thrown yourself into the role with enough energy to make up for every terrible office job youâd hated before it.
Now, a little over two seasons in, you were one of the people the players actually liked seeing coming.
That had taken time.
The first few months, most of them had treated you with the polite suspicion reserved for cameras, dentists, and reporters asking stupid questions after losses. But youâd learned them. Learned who liked to joke, who needed warming up, who pretended to hate attention but secretly loved it when fans ate up a clip, who only agreed to interviews if you kept it short and painless. You figured out how to make content feel less like an obligation and more like a bit. Once the guys realized you werenât there to embarrass themâunless it was lightly, lovingly, and with their approvalâthey started relaxing.
That was how you ended up standing outside the Flyersâ locker room on a cold January afternoon with a handheld mic, a tiny camera rig, and three players arguing over whether cereal counted as soup.
âItâs in a bowl,â Travis insisted, already grinning because he knew he sounded ridiculous. âLiquid base. Spoon. Thatâs soup.â
âIt is literally breakfast,â Noah said flatly, tugging one glove tighter under his arm as he headed toward the tunnel. âThatâs the dumbest thing Iâve ever heard.â
You walked backward in front of them, camera trained on their faces, laughing. âSo your final answer is yes? Cereal is soup?â
Travis leaned toward the lens like he was making a formal announcement to the nation. âMy final answer is that some of you are too closed-minded for culinary innovation.â
Noah made a face. âThat sentence alone should get you scratched.â
You snorted, nearly clipping your shoulder against the concrete wall before regaining your balance. âPerfect. Thatâs the clip.â
âAbsolutely not,â Noah said, but he was smiling now.
âYes, absolutely,â you shot back. âThe people deserve to know where you stand on major societal issues.â
The social intern trailing behind you nearly ran into the back of Travis because she was trying so hard not to laugh. You gave her a quick look over your shoulder, silently checking that she was still with you, still getting behind-the-scenes footage on her phone for stories. She nodded, breathless, and you turned back just in time to avoid walking straight into a cart stacked with towels.
Game days were a blur built from instinct. You could have navigated them in your sleep by now. Pregame skate content. Tunnel arrivals. Quick sponsor spot. Warmup footage. Bench-side reaction clip if you were lucky. A little trivia video if someone had enough energy. Then into the media room, then back out, then scrambling for second intermission edits while your laptop fan whined in protest.
There was rhythm to it. A weird kind of music. You were good at hearing where the beat changed.
âHey.â
You turned at the voice and saw Olivia from PR leaning against the wall, holding a laminated credential and a coffee like both were keeping her alive through sheer force of habit.
âYou get the pregame fit walk?â she asked.
âYep.â
âDid Cam finally stop trying to speed-walk through frame like heâs avoiding taxes?â
You looked at her blankly for half a second. âNo. In fact, he somehow got worse.â
Olivia sighed toward the ceiling. âTragic.â
You grinned. âIâll send you the clip later.â
âPlease do. Alsoââshe tipped her coffee in the direction of the locker room doorsââDanny wants to talk to you when you have a second.â
Your brows lifted. âAbout?â
She shrugged. âNo idea. He had the face on.â
You immediately frowned. âWhat face?â
âThe operations face.â
âThat means literally nothing.â
âIt means he looked annoying and managerial.â
âThat narrows it down even less.â
Olivia laughed and pushed off the wall. âGood luck.â
You watched her go, suspicion already crawling up your spine. Danny, the teamâs director of digital content, only ever wanted to âtalk for a secondâ when something complicated was about to be added to your workload. He was perfectly nice. You even liked him. But he had an almost supernatural ability to appear right before your busiest stretch of the week and say things like, âQuick question,â which were never quick and never questions.
You finished the segment with the players, handed the camera card off to your editor for ingestion, and found Danny near the media workroom ten minutes later.
He was standing at one of the high tables with his laptop open, scrolling through what looked like next weekâs schedule. He glanced up when you approached, then gave you the kind of smile bosses used when they were trying to make extra work seem flattering.
Immediately suspicious.
âNo,â you said before he could speak.
Danny blinked. âI havenât even said anything yet.â
âYouâve got the face.â
âThe face?â
âThe one people make when theyâre about to ruin my life professionally.â
He laughed under his breath. âDramatic.â
âEfficient. Saves time.â
He tipped his head toward the hallway. âWalk with me.â
That was never a good sign either. You fell into step beside him, weaving around arena staff and equipment managers moving with practiced urgency. âSo?â
âSo,â he said, in the carefully casual tone of someone absolutely not being casual, âyou know weâve been trying to push more personality-driven road content.â
You narrowed your eyes. âThat sounds suspiciously like a setup.â
âItâs not a setup.â
âItâs always a setup when a sentence starts with âyou know.ââ
Danny ignored that. âNumbers are good at home. Strong engagement, especially on the short interview stuff you do. But road content still isnât where we want it to be.â
You crossed your arms around the camera tucked to your chest. âOkay.â
âAnd,â he continued, âour travel content has been pretty bare lately because weâve been stretched thin.â
There it was.
You let out a long breath. âDanny.â
âHear me out.â
âNo.â
âYou havenât heard it.â
âI can feel it.â
He rubbed a hand over his jaw, like he was already preparing for resistance. âWe want to send you on the next trip.â
You stared at him.
He kept talking like you hadnât. âNot the whole swing. Just the Pittsburgh game to start. Maybe more later if it goes well. But definitely Pittsburgh.â
For a second, the hallway noise seemed to dull around the edges. It wasnât that the request itself was shocking. You had done road content before, just not much with the Flyers at the NHL level. Short travel assignments, prospect camp coverage, one development tournament in the offseason. But NHL regular season road coverage was a different beast. More logistics. Tighter timelines. Less room for mistakes.
Still, underneath the immediate panic, something bright sparked.
Pittsburgh.
Flyers versus Penguins.
One of the rivalry matchups that always drew extra eyes, extra engagement, extra heat.
You shifted the camera against your hip. âYou want me to go to Pittsburgh?â
Danny nodded. âYou, one shooter, and probably Mason for editing support remotely unless I can get budget approval to send him too.â
âThatâs in, like, a week.â
âSix days.â
âThatâs basically a week.â
He smiled despite himself. âIâm aware.â
You looked away, thinking fast. Travel. Content capture on the road. Access limitations. Opposing arena rules. A rivalry game meant fans would devour anything even remotely interesting. The potential for numbers was huge. So was the pressure.
âYouâre serious,â you said.
âVery.â
You huffed out a laugh that was half nerves. âThatâs a terrible idea.â
âWhy?â
âBecause road content is a logistical nightmare, the game will be chaos, and if anyone asks me to get one more âday in the lifeâ clip at baggage claim, I might simply walk into traffic.â
Danny gave you a long look. âSo thatâs a yes?â
You pressed your lips together, fighting the smile threatening to break loose. He knew you too well.
âItâs not a yes,â you said. âItâs an extremely reluctant, professionally burdened, heavily conditional maybe.â
âThatâs basically the same thing.â
âIt absolutely is not.â
But it kind of was.
The rest of the day moved around you in fragments. The game. The content queue. A quick postgame locker room clip. A last-minute graphics swap. By the time you finally sat at your desk upstairs with your laptop open and your hair half-falling out of the clip that had been pretending to hold it together since noon, the building had shifted into that postgame exhale you always liked best. The loudest part was over. What remained was the humâwheels rolling over concrete, muted voices, a vending machine clunking somewhere down the hall, the scratch of your own fingertips against keys.
You should have been finishing the recap package. Instead, you were staring at the team schedule.
Philadelphia at Pittsburgh. A Saturday game.
National eyes, rivalry traffic, a whole audience beyond your usual followers waiting for anything remotely compelling to latch onto. Good road content there could hit hard. Especially if you handled it right. Especially if you found the balance between funny and polished and just candid enough to feel intimate.
Your phone buzzed on the desk.
Olivia: Heard you might be going to pittsburgh
You smiled and typed back.
Y/N: rumors are dangerous
Olivia: omg you ARE
Y/N: i said rumors are dangerous
Olivia: bring me back something from the gift shop
Y/N: absolutely not
Olivia: fake friend
You tossed the phone aside and tried to focus.
Once you got home to your apartment and kicked your shoes off by the door, you found yourself opening notes on your phone and drafting ideas before you had even changed out of your work clothes.
Travel day fit check. Plane card game content if players were willing.
âWho on this team would survive a zombie apocalypse?â
âMost likely to forget their passport?â
A rivalry edition of quick-fire questions. Maybe a âdescribe Pittsburgh in one wordâ bit. Maybe something with playlists.
Maybe something a little more cinematic tooâcity shots, loading into the arena, skates on concrete, gloves being tightened, the kind of moody footage people ate up before big divisional games.
You sank onto your couch and stared at the ceiling, phone balanced on your stomach. You reached for your laptop again and started building a rough Pittsburgh shot list before common sense could stop you.
By the next morning, you had three separate content concepts, a proposed travel schedule, and a color-coded document titled PIT ROAD GAME POSSIBILITIES, which was probably either deeply impressive or slightly unwell.
Danny responded to the email in six minutes.
âThis is exactly why Iâm sending you.â
â
By Thursday, your travel had been confirmed.
You would leave with the team the day before the game, shoot arrival content, get a small window after the team meal if players were available, then film morning skate and pregame pieces in Pittsburgh. Youâd have limited access in the visiting arena compared to home, but enough to make something good if you moved fast. You spent half the day charging batteries, labeling equipment, checking storage space, and making sure your portable hard drives werenât about to betray you at the worst possible moment.
At some point in the middle of all that, you caught your reflection in the black computer screen at your desk and laughed quietly to yourself.
You looked exactly like what you were: tired, busy, slightly over-caffeinated, and deeply in your element.
â
Friday came fast.
Travel day always made the whole organization feel looser around the edges. More duffel bags. More movement. More scattered conversations in hallways. You arrived before sunrise, coffee in one hand and gear slung over both shoulders, and found the loading area already alive with staff and players filtering in.
The air outside bit at your cheeks. Philadelphia in winter had a way of feeling gray all the way down to the bones.
The team bus to the airport was exactly the kind of controlled disorder you expectedâplayers half awake, headphones already on, staff juggling bags and coffee, somebody in the back loudly insisting they were not playing cards on the plane this time because last time someone cheated and âeveryone knows it.â
You boarded with the social shooter assigned to travel with you, a quiet but incredibly competent freelancer named Sam, and slid into one of the front seats reserved for staff. Your camera case went by your feet. Your phone was already open to notes.
You watched players in reflections more than directly. The familiar shapes of them. Hoodies, ball caps, long legs wedged awkwardly into seats clearly not built for hockey players. A few nodded hello to you. One immediately asked whether you were filming anything yet, with the air of a man hoping the answer was no.
The airport transfer, the private terminal, the boardingâit all happened in the quick, well-practiced blur of team travel. You caught what you could without being annoying. Bags getting loaded. Players stepping off the bus into the brittle morning air. A few clean shots of travel fits. Nothing intrusive. Just atmosphere.
On the plane, things settled.
This was where you had to read the room better than ever. Travel content could be great, but only if it didnât feel invasive. Some guys wanted to disappear into sleep or music or whatever ritual got them ready for the weekend. Others got restless and started chirping each other fifteen minutes into the flight.
You got lucky.
About halfway through, a loose cluster of players toward the back started a card game. Someone else was already recording little clips on a phone. The mood had tipped toward playful. You looked at Sam, tipped your head toward the aisle, and the two of you moved quietly.
â
Pittsburgh greeted you with cold air, low clouds, and the sharp, practical rhythm of road arrival. From the airport to the hotel, from the hotel to check-in, from check-in to quick room drop and back downstairs again. The city outside the bus window looked steel-gray and river-cut, winter light catching on glass and bridges in a way that felt a little cinematic if you were in the right mood.
You were in the right mood.
Not because it was Pittsburgh, specifically. Though even you had to admit the rivalry of it all gave the trip extra charge. More because this was new enough to feel exciting and familiar enough not to be terrifying. You could do something with that combination.
The hotel content went smoothly. Arrival footage. A few lobby shots. One player who tried to duck the camera and got caught smiling anyway. Another who fully posed despite claiming thirty seconds earlier that he hated being filmed. You collected moments the way some people collected receiptsâevidence that the day had happened, evidence that the mood was real.
By evening, after the team meal, you had a small window to grab optional content from the lounge space the players were filtering through. Nothing intense. Just quick stuff if anyone felt up for it.
Tomorrow would be the game day.
Tomorrow, youâd be in the visiting arena, working in tighter spaces, moving faster, trying to get content good enough to justify why theyâd sent you at all. You should have felt overwhelmed. Maybe you did, a little. But stronger than that was the hum you always got before good work. The anticipation.
â
You were up before your alarm.
Not by much, but enough to make it annoying.
For one disorienting second, you didnât know where you were. The hotel curtains were still mostly drawn, leaving the room dim and gray-blue, the kind of early morning light that made everything feel a little unreal. Then the shape of the unfamiliar armchair by the window registered. The hard-shell camera case near the desk. The laminated credential hanging from the lamp. Pittsburgh.
Right.
Game day.
You let out a long breath and rolled onto your back, staring up at the ceiling for a moment while the day arranged itself in your head. Morning skate content. Arrival shots if the bus timing worked. A few interviews, maybe. Practice-day atmosphere, even though âpractice dayâ was never really what morning skates wereâit was lighter, sharper, more controlled, the kind of routine that looked casual if you didnât know enough hockey to see all the tension underneath it.
By the time you made it to the hotel lobby, you had your hair pulled back, your credential clipped on, and enough energy to pass for a functional adult. Olivia was already there, somehow looking more awake than anyone had a right to at that hour, one hand around her coffee and the other scrolling through emails on her phone like she was personally at war with them.
âYou look tired,â she said.
âYou look judgmental.â
âI am judgmental.â
âI know.â
She handed you the second coffee without argument, and the warmth of it seeped into your fingers in a way that felt briefly life-saving. Around you, the hotel lobby had that strange, muted hum team hotels always seemed to have on travel mornings. Staff moving with purpose. Players filtering in with headphones on and hoods up, looking half asleep and six feet taller than the furniture around them. Equipment personnel wheeling cases through the polished floor space like they owned the building. Everything quiet, but not relaxed. There was always a pulse under game day.
You and Olivia took seats near the windows while you waited for bus call.
âDid you sleep?â she asked.
âEnough.â
âThat answer means no.â
âIt means I had content ideas at one in the morning and had to write them down or risk becoming unbearable.â
She took a sip of coffee. âYou were already unbearable.â
âYouâre so supportive.â
âIâm consistent.â
You smiled into your cup and looked down at your phone again, skimming the dayâs rough plan. Nothing too ambitious. Capture the guys arriving at the rink. Some clean morning skate visuals. Maybe a few quick questions if the mood was right and the team staff didnât need everyone moving too fast. A little atmosphere, a little personality. Enough to feed the game-day machine without getting in the way.
It should have felt routine.
Instead, your nerves were just a little louder than usual.
Not in a bad way. Not panicked. Just alert. Like your brain knew this day mattered a little more than most. Rivalry game. Bigger audience. Road environment. More eyeballs on every post. Even the smallest clip could overperform if it caught the right energy. You were already thinking in edits, already hearing caption ideas in the back of your mind, already sorting through what might look good in vertical and what might need to be held for later.
Across the lobby, one of the players noticed your camera bag and grimaced theatrically.
âNo weird questions today,â he said as he approached.
You looked up at him. âGood morning to you too.â
âIâm serious.â
âSo am I.â
He pointed a finger at you like that would strengthen his case. âNo âwhoâs most likely to cry during a movieâ or any of that.â
âThat one is actually excellent, thank you.â
He made a betrayed sound and kept walking toward the elevators, and Olivia leaned closer to you, lowering her voice.
âYou know youâve won when they start pre-complaining before youâve even asked anything.â
âI prefer to think of it as trust.â
âThat is not what that is.â
But it kind of was.
The bus ride to the arena was quieter than the day before. More inward. Less chirping. Guys looked at their phones or out the window or nowhere at all, wrapped in their own routines. You took a couple of skyline clips through the glass, though the morning was overcast enough that the city looked all steel and river and pale winter haze. Still good, though. Especially for moody transitional footage.
Pittsburgh had a way of looking cinematic even when it wasnât trying. Maybe it was the bridges. Maybe the water. Maybe the fact that hockey cities always seemed a little sharper around the edges in the cold.
When the bus pulled into the arena, everyoneâs energy shifted without anyone saying anything. That was one of those details you only noticed after years around teams. The invisible click. Public space to work space. Hotel mode to rink mode. Whatever looseness had existed ten minutes earlier tightened into something more focused.
You and Sam got off with the rest of the traveling staff, the air outside crisp enough to sting the inside of your nose. You adjusted the strap of your camera bag and fell into your usual rhythm almost immediately. Arrival shots first. Players stepping off the bus. A couple of clean walking clips. Gloves tucked under arms, headphones still around necks, coffee cups, garment bags, the endless repetition of duffels. You moved fast, careful not to clog any pathways, stepping sideways around rolling equipment trunks and arena staff with the practiced awareness of someone who had spent years learning how to be present without being in the way.
Once inside, visiting access was exactly what you expected: tighter than at home, more controlled, more narrow in its freedom. Still workable. You got a few warmup-room atmosphere shots, some skates being laced, sticks lined along a wall, a trainer adjusting gear on a table. Nothing too intrusive. Mostly details. It would cut together beautifully later if you had enough coverage.
âLooks good,â Sam murmured, checking playback on one clip as the two of you stepped back into the hallway.
âKeep grabbing texture stuff if you see it,â you said. âTape, gloves, hallway skates, anything that feels like road routine.â
He nodded. âGot it.â
You checked your phone and frowned at the battery percentage.
Fifty-one.
That wasnât terrible, but it wasnât great either considering how early it still was and how much you relied on the social phone throughout the day. The team-issued phone was where quick vertical clips lived before they got sent off, where stories got posted in real time, where you could review what you had and keep track of platform needs without juggling too many devices at once. It also had the unfortunate tendency to drain like it had a personal grievance against electricity.
You tucked that concern away for later and headed toward the rink entrance for morning skate.
Practice-day shooting was always a balancing act between rhythm and patience. Morning skate didnât have the dramatic frenzy of game warmups, but it had its own kind of clean energy. Less noise. More glide. Coaches in conversation near the boards. Players taking one-timers with sleepy precision, stretching against the glass, leaning on sticks in small clusters between drills. The ice still looked fresh in a way it never did later in the day, bright and untouched beneath the lights.
You loved filming on ice days like this.
There was room to breathe in the footage. Room for the little things. The scrape of edges. The casual toss of a puck from glove to glove. A goalie rolling his shoulders before dropping into the net. You and Sam split the workload without even needing to talk much about it by that point. He covered a wider angle from one corner while you worked your way along the permitted area, switching between the main camera and the social phone depending on what the moment called for.
A player tapped the glass in front of your lens in mock offense after you caught him missing a shot.
âOh, thatâs going up,â you called back.
He shook his head immediately. âNo chance.â
âYou canât stop me.â
âWatch me.â
âYouâd have to catch me first.â
He laughed and pushed off toward the faceoff dot again.
That was the nice thing about practice-day content. Lower stakes. Enough time to get human moments without anyone feeling too scrutinized. A few of the players leaned into it more than usual, maybe because the rivalry game had everyone a little keyed up and this was the last easy breath before it all tightened. You got one fantastic clip of two teammates mock-arguing over who had the better tape job. Another of someone tryingâand failingâto chirp a coach who shut him down so efficiently that even you almost laughed out loud behind the phone.
Perfect social stuff. Easy, real, useful. By the time the skate wrapped and players started filing off the ice, your social phone battery had dropped to eighteen percent. You stared at the screen for a beat, offended.
âNo, actually, thatâs insane,â you muttered under your breath.
Sam looked up from packing one of the lenses. âWhat?â
âThis stupid phone is dying.â
He checked the time. âAlready?â
âYes. Itâs acting like Iâve committed some personal offense.â
âYou have a charger?â
âIn my bag. I think.â
That was the problem. You had multiple bags, multiple cases, and at least three places the charger could be depending on which version of yourself had packed the night before. Wonderful.
You glanced toward the hallway leading back toward the visitorsâ room. Media flow had loosened a little now that morning skate was done and there was a short window before the next scheduled obligation. If you moved fast, you could run back, find the charger, plug the phone in for a bit, maybe dump a couple clips, and get back before anyone needed you elsewhere.
âIâm gonna go grab the charger,â you told Sam. âCan you stay here for like five?â
âYeah.â
âIf anyone asks where I am, tell them Iâm being held hostage by battery percentage.â
He snorted. âWill do.â
You slung the social phone into your jacket pocket, adjusted your credential, and headed down the corridor at a brisk pace.
The visiting route through unfamiliar arenas always felt vaguely like navigating a dream someone else had designed. Too many similar hallways. Too many gray doors. Too many turns that looked like they should lead somewhere obvious and instead dumped you out beside a storage alcove or a security checkpoint or a staircase you definitely werenât supposed to be near.
At first, you thought you were fine.
You retraced what you were pretty sure had been your route in. Past the equipment carts. Left at the corner with the framed arena signage. Straight down a narrower hallway. Then another turn. Thenâyou slowed.
This didnât look right.
There was a long concrete corridor ahead with darker flooring than the one you remembered, and the wall signage here was for home locker facilities, not visiting. You stopped walking entirely and stared for a second, willing the arena to reorganize itself into something more familiar.
âOkay,â you whispered to yourself. âCool. Love that.â
You turned back the way you came, only to realize the last two turns had blurred together in your head. Great. Amazing. Perfect even. You had been in the building less than three hours and were already lost in enemy territory because a phone battery had personally betrayed you.
You pressed your lips together, trying not to laugh at the absurdity of it. There were worse problems. Plenty worse. But there was something uniquely irritating about being a grown adult with multiple credentials clipped to your jacket and still somehow wandering around a professional sports arena like a confused substitute teacher on a field trip.
You started walking again, this time slower, checking each sign as you passed.
Hallway. Training room. Staff access. Another hallway. A corner. A staircase. None of it looked familiar.
You dug the phone out of your pocket to maybe text Olivia or Sam for help, only to see the battery flash red at eleven percent.
âUnbelievable,â you muttered.
You were too busy looking down at it while turning the next corner to notice someone coming from the opposite direction until it was too late.
One second you were stepping around the bend with your attention split between the dying phone and your rapidly diminishing patience, and the next you nearly walked straight into a broad chest in a dark team-issued quarter zip.
You startled hard enough that your sneaker skidded against the floor.
Everything happened fast after that. A clipped breath. A flash of instinctive panic. The sick little drop in your stomach as your balance tilted the wrong way. The phone slipping in your hand.
And then a hand caught your arm. Another at your elbow, steady and firm and immediate.
You didnât hit the ground. Didnât even come particularly close once the hold settled you. But the surprise of it still sent your pulse jumping.
âWhoa,â a low voice said. âEasy.â
You blinked up and for one profoundly humiliating second, your brain supplied absolutely nothing useful, because standing in front of you, one hand still loosely braced at your arm like he was making sure you were actually steady, was Sidney Crosby.
Not on a screen.
Not in a media scrum.
Not from a distance while you were working a game and trying to stay neutral because that was your job.
Here. Right here. In a concrete arena hallway in Pittsburgh while you were lost, annoyed, and probably making the dumbest expression of your life. His brows lifted slightly, somewhere between checking that you were okay and maybe suppressing a laugh.
âYou good?â
You became aware of several things all at once.
One: you were still half-leaning into the recovery of your balance.
Two: your phone was somehow still in your hand, miracle of miracles.
Three: you needed to speak immediately before your silence turned this into the single most embarrassing moment of your career.
âYep,â you said, much too quickly. âYes. Iâm good. Totally good.â
His mouth twitched. Cool. Great. He thought you were an idiot. Understandable.
You straightened fully, smoothing one hand against your jacket like that could restore dignity. âSorry. I wasnât looking where I was going.â
âThat much I figured.â
The delivery was dry enough that it took you half a beat to realize he was teasing.
You looked at him again properly then, which maybe was a mistake because now your brain had time to register details. Taller up close than people always swore he was, even though everyone knew his listed height and apparently still liked making it a whole conversation. Broad shoulders. Practice hair still slightly damp around the temples. That familiar face that hockey fans had spent nearly two decades reading like weather. Calm, watchful, a little amused now.
You swallowed back the first eight weirdly fangirl things that tried to rise up.
Because no.
Absolutely not.
You worked for the Flyers.
You were currently wearing team gear.
You had professional self-respect, at least in theory.
âSorry,â you said again, more normally this time. âIâm just trying to find my way back to the visitorsâ room and apparently your arena is built like a maze.â
That earned you a small, immediate smile.
âOur arena?â
You folded your arms, clutching the dying phone against your side. âYes. Yours.â
âSo youâve already decided itâs not user error.â
âOh, it is definitely user error,â you said. âBut Iâm choosing to blame the building.â
He glanced down the corridor youâd just come from, then back at you. âVisitorsâ roomâs the other way.â
âSee?â you said. âMaze.â
He made a soft sound that might have been a laugh. âYou took, like, three wrong turns.â
âThat feels excessive to point out in my time of need.â
âYou seem okay.â
âPhysically, sure. Emotionally, Iâm being humbled.â
That got a real laugh out of him, brief but unmistakable, and something in your chest gave an irritating little flip in response.
Unhelpful.
Very unhelpful.
You cleared your throat. âThanks for catching me, though. That wouldâve been a really tragic way to go.â
His expression went lightly skeptical. âTragic?â
âYes. Imagine the paperwork. âLocal social media employee taken out by poor directional instincts in rival arena.â Horrible look for everyone.â
He folded his arms now too, posture easy. âI think we couldâve spun that.â
âYou think the Penguins PR team couldâve spun me eating it in the hallway?â
âOh, for sure.â
You narrowed your eyes. âThatâs evil.â
He shrugged one shoulder, still looking amused. âOccupational hazard.â
There was something unfairly disarming about how casual he seemed. Not guarded exactly, but measured in that way some athletes were after years of being observed. Still, there was warmth there too, and curiosity, and just enough playfulness to keep the whole moment from tipping awkward. It helped you relax by degrees.
A little.
Not much.
Your phone buzzed weakly in your hand and flashed the red battery indicator again, like it wanted attention.
You looked down at it in betrayal.
âLet me guess,â he said, following your glance. âDead phone?â
âDying phone,â you corrected. âWhich is somehow more irritating.â
âThatâs why youâre lost?â
âI was going to grab my charger.â
âAnd got sidetracked.â
âI got aggressively sidetracked.â
He tipped his head. âWho do you work for?â
You held up the credential clipped to your jacket instead of answering, because if he hadnât seen the Flyers logo by now that wouldâve been impressive.
His eyes dropped to it, then lifted again with clearer recognition.
âSocial?â
âYeah.â
âFor Philly.â
You gave him a look. âI feel like the logoâs doing a lot of the heavy lifting there.â
He smiled again, slower this time. âJust making sure.â
âWell, yes. Flyers social.â
That seemed to amuse him for reasons you couldnât entirely read. Maybe just the situation. Maybe the irony of running into the opposing teamâs social media admin while she was lost in his hallway. Fair enough, honestly.
âYouâre the one always doing those pregame questions?â he asked.
That caught you off guard enough that your brows lifted. âYouâve seen those?â
Now it was his turn to look faintly caught.
âSome of them,â he said.
You stared at him for a beat. âThat feels a little traitorous, actually.â
The back-and-forth was coming easier now, helped by the fact that he seemed perfectly willing to keep it going. There was something surreal about it, enough that a small part of you felt like youâd blacked out and wandered into a fanfiction prompt written by a particularly unhinged version of yourself. But mostly, standing there in the hallway, you just felt alert in that bright, sharpened way that happened when someone unexpected met you at your own level.
You shifted the phone in your hand. âWell, for the record, Iâm only here in a deeply professional capacity. Any alleged admiration for your teamâs facilities is false.â
âOur facilities?â
âDonât make it weird.â
âYouâre the one insulting the building.â
âBecause it deserves it.â
âIt doesnât.â
âIt absolutely does. This place has the directional logic of an escape room.â
He chuckled under his breath, then nodded down the hall. âYou need to go left at the next corner, then through the double doors. Visitorsâ side is back there.â
You looked where he indicated, trying to map it mentally. âLeft. Double doors. And if I somehow end up in, like, the Zamboni garage?â
âThen you took more than one wrong turn.â
âThatâs not helpful.â
âItâs accurate.â
You huffed a laugh.
There was a beat after thatâsmall, not awkward exactly, but noticeable. The sort of pause where either one of you could have ended the conversation cleanly and moved on. You probably should have. You had a charger to find, a phone on its deathbed, a job to do, and just enough self-awareness to know lingering in a hallway with Sidney Crosby while wearing Flyers gear was maybe not the most professionally neutral thing in the world.
Instead, because apparently your survival instinct had left the building long before your sense of direction, you said, âSo what exactly does your research on Flyers social involve?â
His eyes flicked back to yours, amusement returning instantly. âLooking for weaknesses.â
âThrough rapid-fire snack preference videos?â
âYouâd be surprised what people reveal.â
âThatâs a terrifying thing to say.â
âItâs true.â
âYou sound like a spy.â
âMaybe I am.â
You angled your head. âThat would honestly explain a lot.â
âLike what?â
âThe mystery. The overly calm energy. The fact that half the hockey world talks about you like you materialize out of fog whenever Team Canada needs saving.â
That one made him laugh properly, shoulders shifting with it, and the sound of it cracked something lighter through the whole strange situation.
âOut of fog?â he repeated.
âYou heard me.â
âThatâs dramatic.â
âI work in media. Itâs an occupational risk.â
He glanced down at your credential again, then back at your face. âSo are you actually a Flyers fan, or are you just paid to be one?â
It was a good question. Better than most people realized, actually. Working for a team changed the shape of fandom. You couldnât engage with it the same way anymoreânot fully, not without blurring lines you needed to keep clean. But there was still pride there. Investment. Protection, maybe. The sort of loyalty that came less from childhood posters and more from proximity, from labor, from knowing the people behind the logo.
You smiled a little. âI work for them. That kind of answers itself.â
âThatâs not exactly what I asked.â
You narrowed your eyes at him. âAre you trying to get me to defect in the hallway?â
âDepends how convincing you are.â
He nodded like he was considering it. âFair.â
You tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear, mostly to do something with your hands. âFor the record, Iâm not saying anything nice about the Penguins.â
âYou already blamed the building. I think I can live with that.â
âGood.â
Another beat.
It was ridiculous, the ease of it. Not because he was Sidney Crosby, though that part of it remained surreal enough to sit in the back of your skull like a blinking sign. More because the conversation itself felt natural. Quick. Dry. That clean little verbal tennis match where each return came easy. You hadnât expected that. If youâd expected anything at all, it wouldâve been polite distance. A nod, maybe. Directions. End scene.
Not this.
Your phone buzzed again and this time the screen dimmed so aggressively that you sighed aloud.
âOkay, wow,â you said to it. âYouâre being a diva.â
He looked at the screen. âYou should probably rescue that.â
âI know.â
âYou need the charger that badly?â
âItâs the social phone. So yes. If this thing dies, I basically lose the ability to post half my day in real time, and then my boss starts using phrases like âworkflow disruptionâ and I have to pretend not to find that threatening.â
He smiled. âSounds serious.â
âIt is serious. This tiny rectangle owns my life.â
âBrutal.â
âThe worst part is I probably packed the charger in the dumbest possible pocket and now I have to dig through three bags like Iâm on some kind of scavenger hunt.â
âI can walk you back.â
The offer was simple, easy, like it hadnât occurred to him it might land with the weight it did.
You blinked. âYou absolutely do not need to do that.â
He shrugged. âIâm going that way.â
âYou are not.â
âEventually.â
A laugh slipped out of you before you could stop it. âThatâs not a real argument.â
âItâs enough of one.â
âIt really isnât.â
He tipped his head, patient in a way that somehow made the whole thing worse. âYou said it yourself. Maze.â
You looked down the hall, then back at him, suspicious mostly because accepting help from Sidney Crosby in the middle of a rivalry-game morning felt like exactly the sort of thing that would one day sound fake when retold.
And yet.
Your phone was at six percent.
You were absolutely capable of getting lost again.
And he was already turning slightly, as if this had been decided.
âFine,â you said. âBut if I end up on Penguins propaganda by accident, Iâm blaming you.â
âI think we can avoid that.â
âThat sounds like something propaganda would say.â
He gave you a dry look and started walking, and because apparently this was your life now, you fell into step beside him.
The hallway felt even more surreal in motion. Your sneakers on concrete. His stride easy, unhurried beside you. The two of you passing arena doors and equipment cases and bits of signage while your brain screamed intermittently about the sheer absurdity of the moment.
You kept your face composed anyway.
Professional. More or less.
âSo,â he said after a few steps, âwhat kind of stuff are you getting today?â
You glanced at him. âFor socials?â
He nodded.
âMostly morning skate atmosphere. A couple funny clips if I can get them. Road-routine stuff. Probably some game-day content later. Depends what the guys give me.â
âWhat they give you?â
âYeah.â You lifted one shoulder. âSome days theyâre chatty. Some days they look at the camera like Iâve ruined their lives.â
âThat sounds familiar.â
âYou get that too?â
He gave you a look. âMediaâs media.â
âFair.â
You passed a staff entrance, turned left at a junction you definitely would have missed on your own, and continued down a corridor lined with framed photos from various eras of Penguins history. You caught sight of one from early in his career and looked away before it seemed too obvious youâd noticed.
âYouâre pretty good at it,â he said after a second.
You looked back at him. âAt getting lost?â
âAt the content.â
That stopped you for half a step.
The compliment was delivered easily, casually, but not thoughtlessly. There was no joking edge to it this time. Just straightforward observation.
You recovered quickly enough, but still. âThanks.â
He shrugged. âYou get guys to answer stuff without making it look forced.â
âThat is maybe the nicest thing anyoneâs ever said about my work.â
âItâs true.â
A weird warmth spread through your chest, deeply inconvenient and entirely out of proportion to the situation. You swallowed it down.
âWell,â you said, aiming for lighter, âI appreciate the cross-divisional validation.â
âDonât let it go to your head.â
âToo late.â
That pulled another smile from him.
By the time he led you through the double doors and into a more familiar stretch of visiting-side hallway, relief washed through you so fast it was almost embarrassing.
âOh, thank God,â you said. âI know where I am.â
âSo youâre safe now.â
âDebatable, but closer.â
He slowed to a stop near the point where your routes would obviously split, one way toward the visitorsâ room and another back toward whatever part of the building heâd actually meant to be in before your near-collision rerouted his morning.
You looked at the door, then back at him.
âWell,â you said, tightening your grip on the dying phone, âthanks. For the directions. And the catching.â
âNo problem.â
âIâm serious. That couldâve been deeply humiliating.â
âI think you wouldâve recovered.â
âThatâs generous.â
He seemed like he might say something else, then only nodded once. âGood luck today.â
The words were simple enough. Generic, almost. Something anyone might say.
Still, the way he said them landed a little differently.
You smiled before you could stop yourself. âYou too. I meanââ You caught yourself and narrowed your eyes. âNot, like, too much luck.â
His expression shifted instantly. âThere it is.â
âThere what is?â
âThe Flyers fan.â
You lifted your chin. âObviously.â
He laughed softly. âRight.â
âRight.â
For half a second neither of you moved. Then your phone screen went black. You stared at it in horror. Pressed the side button. Nothing.
âOh, you have got to be kidding me.â
He looked at the dead screen and then at your face, openly amused now. âThat seems bad.â
âIt is bad.â
âYou should probably find that charger.â
You pointed at him with the dead phone. âThis is partially your fault.â
âHow?â
âYou distracted me.â
His brows lifted. âI gave you directions.â
âYou also participated in banter.â
âThat sounds voluntary on your end.â
You opened your mouth, then closed it again because annoyingly, he was right.
âThatâs not the point,â you said.
âIt kind of is.â
âYouâre impossible.â
âIâm not the one who got lost.â
You laughed despite yourself, full and helpless and a little disbelieving, because reallyâwhat else were you supposed to do with this? With him? With the fact that ten minutes ago youâd been cursing a hallway and now you were standing there trying not to smile too obviously at Sidney Crosby while your work phone lay dead in your hand like a tiny casualty of circumstance.
âOkay,â you said, backing a step toward the visitorsâ room. âI have to go save my career.â
âThat seems wise.â
âAnd just so weâre clear,â you added, âif the Flyers win tonight, Iâm blaming this whole interaction for throwing off your routine.â
His smile sharpened at the edges. âThat how that works?â
âYes.â
âConvenient.â
âI believe in accountability.â
He nodded once, like he was accepting the terms of a deal. âThen if we win, Iâm blaming the building for confusing you.â
You pointed at him again. âSee? You do admit the buildingâs confusing.â
âThatâs not what I said.â
âIt basically is.â
âIt really isnât.â
You were already grinning when you turned away.
âBye,â you called over your shoulder.
âSee you.â
The words followed you down the short stretch toward the visitorsâ room, and the stupidest, warmest little thrill went through you at the sound of them.
Absolutely not, you told yourself.
Nope.
Hard no.
You pushed through the door and immediately got hit by the familiar bustle of your own teamâs space againâstaff talking, gear shifting, someone asking where an extra roll of tape had gone, another player halfway through changing out of practice gear. The normalcy of it was almost jarring after the surreal quiet of the hallway.
Sam looked up from near the equipment table. âThere you are. Did you find it?â
You held up the dead phone. âTechnically no.â
He frowned. âWhat happened?â
âI got lost.â
âFor that long?â
âI was very committed to getting lost.â
He stared at you for a second. âAre you okay?â
âYep.â
â
By the time game time rolled around, the whole arena felt alive in a way that had almost nothing to do with sound alone.
It was in the air first.
In the tightness of it.
The current running under every hallway and stairwell and concrete corridor. The way even regular movement seemed sharper somehow. Faster. More deliberate. Rivalry games always had a different kind of charge to them, but the Battle of Pennsylvania carried its own particular electricity. It was old, deeply felt, and impossible to fake. Orange and black scattered like sparks through pockets of the crowd, drowned out but never erased by the black and gold surrounding them. Every Flyers jersey in the lower bowl looked defiant just by existing. Every Penguins fan seemed half a second away from either starting a chant or a fight.
From your spot near the glass, camera in hand and credential swinging lightly against your jacket, you could feel all of it pressing in from every angle. This was why sports content hit differently on rivalry nights.
Even through a screen, people could sense it. The tension. The noise. The immediacy. The way every check landed harder in the building than it ever could in a replay clip. The way a routine save drew a reaction that felt almost disproportionate, because in games like this nothing was routine, not really. Every shift meant a little more. Every goal meant a lot more.
You were already working before warmups had even properly settled in.
Quick vertical clips of the Flyers coming onto the ice. A pan of the crowd as boos rained down at the first hint of orange and black. A close-up of skates carving through fresh shavings near the boards. The way the lights caught helmets, visors, breath. You kept moving, adjusting angles, crouching lower by the glass to get cleaner shots, then rising again to catch a wider sweep of the rink.
Your replacement social phoneâfreshly resurrected after the morning disasterâwas finally fully charged and clipped to your side with a portable battery attached like a life support system. You were not taking chances today.
A few rows up, the fans were already loud enough to rattle the glass every time a Flyer drifted too close. Someone behind you yelled, âCrosby sucks,â with enough passion that you almost admired the commitment. Another voice shouted back something about the Flyers that you definitely werenât repeating in a work environment.
You stayed focused on the ice.
That was easier during warmups.
Warmups had structure. Purpose. Players moved through familiar arcs and patterns, taking shots, stretching, joking lightly when they could. It gave you something to work with. Game time itself was harder because you were always balancing. Capture enough to feel present without becoming a distraction. Keep your angles clean. Stay aware of pucks, players, officials, staff, and the hundred small variables that could turn one second of inattention into a disaster.
Still, your mind kept drifting.
Not too far.
Not dangerously.
Just enough that when the Penguins took the ice and the crowd volume swelled again, your eyes found Sidney without meaning to.
It happened instantly and involuntarily, like your brain had marked him as a point of recognition now whether you liked it or not. He glided through warmups with that same contained energy he always seemed to carry, not showy, not overstated, but impossible not to notice once you were looking. He exchanged a few words with a teammate near the blue line, then turned toward center and joined a passing drill, movements crisp and economical in a way that somehow made everything else on the ice look slightly louder by comparison.
You should not have been aware of him this much.
It was deeply inconvenient.
The worse part was that you couldnât even fully blame yourself, because he had, in fact, walked you back from getting lost that morning, and then somehow managed to be funny and disarming and entirely too easy to talk to in the process. Since then, every time you remembered the conversation, some embarrassing little warmth lit under your ribs all over again.
Unhelpful.
Wildly unhelpful.
You crouched lower at the glass and focused your lens on the Flyers instead. That was your team.
Your job.
Your side of the content feed, literally and metaphorically, everything else was noise and for a while, once the game actually started, it was easy to let the action take over.
The first period was chaos in exactly the way good rivalry hockey should be. Fast, ugly, sharp-edged, loud. Every hit got a rise. Every whistle got opinions. The crowd swelled and dipped like a living thing, and the benches looked keyed up enough that even line changes carried a little extra bite. You bounced between camera angles and social clips, filming where you could from your designated space near the glass, catching quick reaction shots after scrums, the Flyers bench leaning forward after a near chance, the raw rhythm of the game in fragments.
You didnât have time to think too much.
That was good.
The Flyers struck first midway through the opening period, and the tiny islands of orange in the arena erupted like someone had set off flares. You caught the celebration from the far side as cleanly as you could, then whipped toward the bench to get the players slamming gloves and yelling. Your phone buzzed immediately with internal messagesâclip that, send that, story that now, great angle, need replay if you have it. Normal game-day chaos. You moved with it, fingers flying, adrenaline already steady in your bloodstream.
Pittsburgh answered before the end of the first.
Of course they did.
The building detonated around you, black and gold suddenly in motion everywhere at once, and you instinctively kept filming even as the noise punched through your chest. That was your job too. Not cheering. Not reacting. Capturing. Documenting. It didnât matter that it was the wrong celebration for your feed. You still needed the atmosphere. The scale. The emotional contrast. Rivalry content only worked if it felt real.
By intermission, your notes app looked like a battlefield.
Post later: crowd shots
Use bench reaction after Flyers goal
Need moody b-roll from end boards
Possible caption: hostile environment etc etc
Olivia leaned over your shoulder while you were sending a few quick selects to Mason. âYou look like youâre fighting for your life.â
âI am.â
âGreat. That means itâs going well.â
You shot her a flat look. âI hate the way you phrase things.â
She smiled. âYou love it.â
The second period somehow came out even hotter than the first.
That happened sometimes in rivalry games. Everyone spent the opening frame pretending it was still just hockey, and then by the second the game remembered what it actually was. Checks got heavier. Whistles got meaner. Every net-front battle turned into a negotiation with violence hovering just beneath the surface.
You moved lower along the glass during a stoppage, re-centering yourself for a better angle on the Penguinsâ zone if the play came your way. The arena was so loud now that individual sounds were harder to isolate. Everything blendedâmusic, chanting, glass rattling, skates cutting, the raw roar that rose every time the puck got near either crease.
The score was tied 2â2 when it happened.
The Penguins broke through neutral ice fast off a turnover, the kind of sudden transition that made everyone around you rise half out of their seats before the play had even fully formed. You were already tracking the rush with your camera, instinct taking over. Pass up the wing. Quick give-and-go. A lane opening just long enough to matter.
Sidney took the return feed near the circle and snapped the puck past the goalie before anyone in orange could close the gap.
The goal light flashed.
The building exploded.
Your camera kept rolling.
He curved away from the net in celebration as the arena came apart, teammates converging, gloves lifting, the glass around you vibrating beneath the force of thousands of people losing their minds all at once. You got the shotâclean enough, steady enough, electric in that live-wire way only raw game footage ever was. He peeled past your side of the ice during the celebration route, close enough to the boards that for one disorienting second it felt less like watching and more like being caught in the same current.
And then he turned his head slightly.
Toward you.
Just enough.
His mouthguard shifted at the edge of a grin, and over the roarâfaint but clear enough that you knew you hadnât imagined itâhe threw out, âYou get that for social media?â
You stared. It was absurd. Ridiculous. So specific you nearly laughed on instinct.
But before you could even process the fact that Sidney Crosby had just chirpedâor maybe teased, or maybe whatever the hell that had beenâyour social media job in the middle of a live rivalry game, two Flyers on the ice clearly noticed.
One of them snapped his head in Sidneyâs direction immediately. The other skated over with the kind of offended energy that suggested whatever he thought heâd seen or heard, he had interpreted it in the most aggressively loyal way possible.
âOh my God,â you muttered under your breath.
The next shift was ugly.
Not out-of-control ugly, not yet, but the tone had changed. The Flyers were already physical when they got angry; now there was something personal layered into it. A harder finish on checks. More shoving after whistles. One of the defensemen jawing visibly every time he passed the Penguinsâ captain near the boards. You didnât need to hear it to guess the general message.
Your stomach sank.
No.
No, absolutely not.
There was no way they thoughtâBut then during the next stoppage, one of the Flyers skated near enough to the glass to throw you a quick, heated look that all but confirmed it.
Message received.
They thought Sidney had chirped you. Not in the ordinary rivalry sense, either. Not generic nonsense. Specifically you. Their social media admin. One of theirs.
Your grip tightened on the camera. âGuys,â you muttered uselessly to the glass. âNo. That is not what happened.â
The glass, shockingly, did not respond.
The period went on, and with every shift your discomfort grew teeth.
Because now you were trapped in the worst possible positionâaware of something maybe no one else had caught correctly, unable to do anything about it, and watching the consequences play out in real time on the ice while thousands of people screamed around you. Every heavy hit involving Sidney made your pulse tick up. Every scrum near the boards made your shoulders tense. Once, during a commercial timeout, two Flyers near the bench said something to each other and then glanced your way, and the guilt hit so hard and fast it made your throat feel tight.
This is stupid, you told yourself.
You did not cause this.
These are professional hockey players in a rivalry game. They do not need a personal excuse to go after each other.
And logically, you knew that was true.
Emotionally, though, every time one of your guys took a run at him after that hallway memory of his laugh and his easy, âGood luck today,â your chest squeezed in a way that felt awful.
Late in the second, it got worse.
The puck got rimmed deep into the Penguinsâ zone, and Sidney went back to play it near the boards on your side. One of the Flyers forwardsâthe same one who had looked ready to commit emotional arson on your behalf earlierâcame charging in on the forecheck.
You saw it before it happened. That was the horrible part. The angle. The speed. The line of contact. Enough time to know it was going to be hard and absolutely no time to stop it.
The hit slammed Sidney into the boards with a crack that echoed even through the arena noise. The crowd sound warped instantlyâpart outrage, part excitement, part that sick jolt every building gets when something tips from aggressive to dangerous. Players converged at once. Gloves in faces. Officials rushing in. The Flyers bench up and yelling. The Penguins bench exploding right back.
And SidneyâSidney stayed down for one beat too long.
Then two.
Your breath caught.
He pushed up eventually, but not cleanly. One hand braced awkwardly against the boards, the other tucked in too close to his body, and even from where you stood you could see it in the line of him immediatelyâsomething was wrong. Not dramatic enough to collapse the whole game, but wrong enough that your stomach dropped straight through the floor.
The officials were still sorting bodies when he turned, escorted by staff toward the tunnel.
And as he passed your side of the glass, he looked at you.
Not for long.
Just a second.
But long enough for it to register. Long enough that the guilt already clawing through you sharpened into something meaner.
Then he went down the tunnel.
You forgot to breathe again.
The Flyers bench was still loud behind you, players leaning over the boards in the aftermath, adrenaline high and tempers higher. You shifted automatically toward them to grab some post-sequence atmosphere because that was still your job, but before you even lifted the phone properly, you heard one of them say, âServes him right for chirping our social media admin.â
Another voice answered, âYeah, keep her name outta your mouth.â
Your whole body went cold.
For half a second the arena seemed to tilt. They really had thought that.
Not abstractly. Not as a joke.
Actually thought Sidney had been taking a shot at you and now he was hurt. Your skin flushed hot and cold all at once, shame and panic tangling so tightly you almost couldnât separate them. You lowered the camera immediately, the sounds of the game around you suddenly muffled and wrong.
It wasnât your fault.
You knew that.
You knew that in the rational, objective, adult way.
But it felt like your fault anyway.
If you hadnât talked to him that morning. If he hadnât skated by. If he hadnât said anything. If the players hadnât seen. If, if, ifâ
âHey,â Olivia said, appearing at your side with a hand lightly against your elbow. âYou okay?â
You swallowed hard and nodded too fast. âYeah.â
She looked unconvinced. âYou look pale.â
âIâm fine.â
That was a lie so obvious it barely qualified as language.
The rest of the second period passed in a blur you only half inhabited. You still filmed when you had to. Still moved when needed. Still sent off a couple clips because muscle memory and duty overrode whatever was happening in your head. But inside, all you could think about was the tunnel. The line of his shoulders as heâd left. The look heâd given you. The bench comments. The sinking, impossible feeling that somehow a stupid, playful line about social media had turned into a body check hard enough to send him out of the game.
By the time the horn sounded to end the period, your nerves were shredded.
The Flyers headed off in a cluster of agitation and momentum, still talking, still keyed up. The Penguins disappeared more quickly on the other side. Staff moved. Arena music crashed in over the break. Fans surged toward concourses. The usual intermission chaos.
You stood still for maybe three seconds, then made a decision. It was probably a terrible decision. Possibly insane, and definitely not in your job description.
But once it landed in your brain, it became impossible to ignore.
You turned to Olivia. âI need, like, five minutes.â
She stared. âFor what?â
âI just need five.â
âThat is not an answer.â
âI know.â
She studied your face once, saw enough there to stop pushing, and only said, âBe smart.â
You gave her a look that probably did not inspire confidence and hurried off anyway.
The back hallways were even busier during intermission, but you moved through them on pure nervous momentum. You ducked into a quieter side corridor first and looked around until you spotted a discarded Penguins warmup jacket hanging on a rolling rack near a laundry cartâprobably left by some support staff in the rush of the period break. You hesitated for exactly one second.
Then grabbed it. âThis is insane,â you whispered to yourself as you shoved your arms into it over your own clothes.
The black and gold swallowed your Flyers gear just enough to pass at a glance, especially with your credential flipped inward against your chest. It wasnât perfect. It wasnât remotely official. But it was better than walking toward the Penguinsâ medical area in orange and black like some kind of cartoon villain.
You moved fast before you could talk yourself out of it.
The training and medical area outside the home room was guarded loosely by staff who were too busy and too accustomed to people moving in and out during intermission to scrutinize every face with equal intensity. You kept your head down, your pace purposeful, and clutched the phone and small camera to your chest like you belonged there for work.
One of the staffers near the door glanced at you. âNeed something?â
Your mouth went dry.
Think.
âI was asked to check if mediaâs getting any update,â you said, pitching your voice into that bland, competent tone that made people ask fewer questions. âJust for internal.â
He looked tired enough not to care. âTrainerâs with him. Make it quick.â
Relief hit so hard you nearly swayed.
âYep. Quick.â
You slipped inside before anyone could reconsider.
The room beyond was quieter than the arena, quieter than intermission, quieter than your heartbeat deserved. Not silentâthere were low voices, a cabinet door closing somewhere, the rustle of medical tapeâbut contained in a way that felt almost intimate after the violence of the game outside.
You spotted him near the far side, seated on the edge of a training table while one of the medical staff finished checking something at his shoulder. No pads now. No gloves. Just black baselayer gear half peeled down and a towel draped nearby. He looked up at the movement of the door opening.
And saw you.
For one impossible second, neither of you said anything.
Then the trainer stepped back. âTry not to move it too much. Weâll re-check between periods if youâre staying out.â
He nodded once. âYeah.â
The trainer turned, noticed you lingering, and frowned faintly. âYou needed something?â
Your courage nearly failed on the spot.
But Sidney answered before you could.
âSheâs with me.â
You blinked.
The trainer, apparently deciding that was enough explanation for now, gave a distracted nod and moved off toward a supply cabinet.
That left you standing there in a stolen Penguins jacket, looking at the captain of the Pittsburgh Penguins like you had not lost your mind but had in fact come here for a totally normal reason.
He glanced once at the jacket, then back at your face.
A smile touched the corner of his mouth despite the situation.
âWell,â he said. âThatâs a look.â
Your throat tightened with something painfully close to embarrassment and relief all at once. âI panicked.â
âI can see that.â
âI didnât want anyone to stop me.â
âSo you stole a jacket?â
âI borrowed a jacket.â
âThatâs generous.â
You took two steps closer, then stopped, suddenly aware of how absurd and vulnerable and real this all was. Up close, he looked a little paler than before, jaw tighter around the edges. Not wrecked. Not catastrophic. But sore. Pulled somewhere between adrenaline and pain. Your guilt surged all over again.
âIâm sorry,â you said immediately.
His brows knit. âFor what?â
âForââ You broke off and gestured helplessly. âFor all of this. They thought you were chirping me. I heard them on the bench. They thought you were being a dick to the social media admin and now youâre hurt and I know itâs not exactly rational but it feels like this is somehow my fault and I justâIâm sorry.â
The whole thing came out too fast, tangled and breathless and humiliatingly sincere.
He stared at you for a second.
Then, very gently, âHey.â
You stopped.
âItâs not your fault.â
âButââ
âItâs not,â he repeated, firmer now.
You looked at him, trying to argue, and found absolutely no room in his expression for the idea.
âThey didnât hit me because of you,â he said. âItâs a rivalry game. Guys get worked up. Stuff happens.â
âThey literally saidââ
âI know what youâre saying.â His voice softened again. âStill not your fault.â
You let out a shaky breath, folding your arms like you could hold the anxiety in place physically. âI feel insane.â
âYou look a little insane.â
That startled a laugh out of you before you could stop it.
He smiled, quieter this time. âThere you go.â
You shook your head. âYouâre injured and youâre still making fun of me.â
âIâm not making fun of you.â
âYou are a little.â
âMaybe a little.â
Your eyes dropped involuntarily to the shoulder heâd been favoring. âHow bad is it?â
âNot too bad.â
âThat sounds suspicious.â
âItâs hockey.â
âThat is somehow even more suspicious.â
He gave a small shrug with the uninjured side. âBanged up.â
You pressed your lips together. âIâm still sorry.â
He leaned back slightly against the table, studying you with that same steady, unreadable-open look heâd had in the hallway. âYou really came back here just to apologize?â
When he said it like that, it sounded far more unhinged than it had in your own head.
You glanced down at the black and gold jacket around your shoulders and winced. âIn my defense, I did realize halfway here that this was a terrible idea.â
âAnd you kept going.â
âObviously.â
âWhy?â
Because I felt awful. Because you looked at me when you left. Because this stupid little thing between us stopped feeling little about ten minutes after you caught me in the hallway.
You did not say any of that.
Instead, you said, âBecause I wanted to make sure you knew that wasnât what happened. This morning. At the glass. Any of it.â
Something shifted in his face thenâsmall, but unmistakable. A warmth maybe. Or satisfaction. Or just the confirmation of something heâd already suspected.
âI knew,â he said.
âYou did?â
âYeah.â
âHow?â
He looked faintly amused by the question. âYou donât exactly seem subtle when youâre panicking.â
You stared at him. âThatâs rude.â
âItâs observant.â
âThat is the same thing said by a meaner person.â
He laughed softly, then tipped his head toward your borrowed disguise. âStill, I gotta sayâŚâ
You narrowed your eyes preemptively. âWhat?â
âI like you in black and gold.â
Your breath caught so stupidly hard that you were grateful no one else in the room was close enough to hear it.
He had said it lightly.
Maybe even teasingly.
But not empty. Not casual in the way casual comments usually were. There was something in his expression when he said it that made the whole line land low and warm and dangerous.
You recovered just enough to say, âThatâs actually a deeply offensive thing to say to someone in Flyers employment.â
His mouth curved. âAnd yet.â
âAnd yet nothing.â
âThe jacket looks good.â
You folded your arms tighter, painfully aware of the heat in your face. âI am literally stealing from your organization.â
âBorrowing.â
âDonât use my words against me.â
âI think I will.â
You laughed again, quieter this time, the tension finally starting to leak out of your shoulders in pieces. The room still felt strange and hidden and too close somehow, like time had narrowed just around the two of you while the rest of the game continued somewhere else entirely.
Outside, the period break would be ticking down. You knew that. You should probably go. Should probably hand back the jacket, slip out, get your head back in the game, pretend none of this had happened until you had the privacy of your hotel room to lose your mind properly.
Instead you stayed.
And he let you.
âYou really watch the Flyersâ socials?â you asked after a moment.
He looked unbothered by being caught on that again. âSome.â
âWhy?â
âI told you. Research.â
âThat answer gets less convincing every time.â
He smiled but didnât argue.
You shifted your weight. âSo what, you score and decide to chirp me personally from the ice?â
âI wasnât chirping you.â
âYou absolutely were.â
âI was asking a legitimate media question.â
You stared. âA legitimate media question.â
âYeah.â
âYou want me to believe that in the middle of scoring a goal in a rivalry game, you were concerned with my content strategy?â
He looked you dead in the eye. âMaybe.â
You laughed helplessly. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âSays the one who broke into the medical room in disguise.â
âOkay, first of all, that is a wildly dramatic way to describe what happened.â
âYou stole a jacket.â
âBorrowed.â
âAnd came back here during intermission.â
âWhen you say it like that, it sounds weird.â
âIt is weird.â
You exhaled through a smile, then shook your head at yourself. âI cannot believe Iâm in here.â
âI can.â
âWhy?â
He looked at you for one steady beat too long.
âBecause you wanted to see me.â
The words landed softly. Not smug. Not joking. Just clear.
And because there was no easy way around that kind of honesty, all you could do for a second was look back at him and feel your pulse leap right into your throat.
âMaybe,â you said, which was not a denial at all.
His expression warmed into something that made the whole room feel smaller.
âMaybe?â he repeated.
You lifted one shoulder. âYou did save me from eating it in the hallway.â
âSo this is gratitude.â
âPartially.â
âOnly partially?â
âDonât push it.â
He smiled again, then glanced toward the closed doorway before looking back at you. âYou know, most people wait longer than a day before sneaking into the back hallways to flirt.â
You blinked. âI was not sneaking in here to flirt.â
His brows lifted.
You held his gaze for a second and then sighed. âOkay, maybe a little.â
âThatâs honest.â
âThatâs humiliating.â
âNot really.â
âIt is from where Iâm standing.â
âFrom where Iâm standing,â he said, voice lower now, âIâm glad you came back.â
The warmth that moved through you then was so immediate it was almost dizzying.
You looked down, just for a second, collecting yourself. When you looked back up, he was still watching you with that maddeningly calm focus, like none of this felt strange to him at all. Or maybe it did feel strange and he just wasnât running from it.
Either way, it made it very hard to think.
âYou should probably be focusing on not being injured,â you said weakly.
âI can do both.â
âThat sounds arrogant.â
âItâs efficient.â
You laughed under your breath. âThat was my line.â
âI know.â
Of course he knew.
You were in trouble.
The realization arrived fully formed and weirdly peaceful. Not dramatic, not catastrophic. Just true. Whatever this was, whatever had sparked in one hallway and somehow carried itself all the way here, it was real enough that neither of you was pretending otherwise now.
A noise outside the room shiftedâfootsteps, a voice, the beginning of movement that meant intermission was thinning. Reality, returning.
You straightened slightly. âI should go.â
âProbably.â
Neither of you moved right away.
Then he tipped his head toward the jacket again. âYou can keep that, you know.â
You looked down at it. âAbsolutely not. I think this is already ethically murky.â
âItâd suit you.â
âThere you go again.â
âIâm just saying.â
You slid one arm out of the sleeve. âYou are impossible.â
He watched you shrug off the jacket, amusement still sitting easy at the edge of his mouth. When you stepped forward to hand it back, he took it with his good arm, fingers brushing yours for half a second longer than they needed to.
It was such a small thing.
It still sent a spark straight up your spine.
You cleared your throat. âWell. Glad youâre okay.â
âIâm okay.â
âAnd for the recordââyou tilted your head, fighting a smileââI still hate your arena.â
He laughed softly. âI figured.â
You started to step back.
Then he said, âWait.â
You stopped.
His expression changed, just enough to tell you this next part mattered.
âWhen this tripâs over,â he said, âlet me take you out.â
Your heart kicked hard.
The room went very still around the words.
Not as a joke. Not hidden in banter. Not softened into something you could politely dodge if you wanted to. Just there. Honest and direct and impossible to misunderstand.
You stared at him for maybe a second too long.
âA real date?â you asked, because apparently your brain had decided clarification was the best it could do under pressure.
His smile came back, slower this time. âYeah. A real date.â
âWith a Flyers employee.â
âWith a Flyers employee.â
âThat seems dangerous for your reputation.â
âI think I can handle it.â
You felt your own smile break loose before you could stop it, bright and helpless and probably giving away far too much.
âOkay,â you said.
His eyes stayed on yours.
âOkay?â he repeated.
âYes,â you said, laughing lightly now because the happiness of it was suddenly too big to hold quietly. âYes. Iâll go out with you.â
Something in his face softened then in a way you knew you would remember later. After the game. After the trip. After all of this. The kind of look that settled into memory before the moment had even ended.
âGood,â he said.
âGood?â
âGood.â
You shook your head, still smiling. âVery smooth.â
âIâm injured. Give me some credit.â
âYou know what, fair.â
A voice called from outside the room, something about timing, something about updates. The spell of the moment loosened just enough to let the rest of the world back in.
You took one more step backward toward the door.
âI should really go now,â you said.
He nodded once. âIâll text you.â
You blinked. âYou donât have my number.â
His mouth curved. âIâll get it.â
âVery confident.â
âUsually works out.â
You laughed under your breath and reached for the door. âBye, Crosby.â
âBye.â
You slipped back into the hallway with your pulse still racing and your face warm and your whole body humming with the kind of adrenaline that had absolutely nothing to do with hockey anymore.
The sounds of intermission flooded back in all at onceâstaff voices, skate blades clicking somewhere nearby, the deeper thud of arena life resetting for the third period. You leaned briefly against the wall just outside the door and covered your face with one hand.
This was insane.
Actually insane.
You had started the day filming rivalry content at the glass and ended the second period accepting a date from Sidney Crosby in the Penguinsâ medical area while disguised in stolen team gear.
No one on earth could know.
No one.
You pushed off the wall, fixed your credential, and headed back toward your side before anyone started asking where youâd gone. By the time you reappeared near the Flyers media lane, Olivia took one look at your face and narrowed her eyes.
âWhat happened?â
You forced your expression into something that you hoped read as normal and not like your entire internal life had just been rearranged. âNothing.â
âThat is the least believable thing youâve ever said.â
âPlease,â you said, lifting your camera back into position as the teams prepared to return, âout of respect for our friendship, donât ask me anything right now.â
Her stare sharpened with immediate interest. âOh my God.â
You looked determinedly toward the ice. âOlivia.â
She made a tiny, delighted noise of horror. âOh my God.â
The third period was about to begin, the arena roaring back to life, the rivalry still burning hot all around you.
And somehow, against all reason and all timing and all professional logic, all you could think as you lifted your camera toward the ice again was this:
Later.
After the game.
There was a real date waiting for you on the other side of all this.
And for the first time all night, the electric feeling in the building no longer belonged only to the rivalry.
Summary: the one where Connor Bedard doesnât care that you have a boyfriend, but he really really should
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The thing about All-Star Weekend is that itâs equal parts hockey event and social circus.
Youâre learning this in real-time, sitting at the bar of The Garden City Hotel on Long Island, watching the lobby fill with NHL players, their families, league officials, and what appears to be every sports journalist on the Eastern Seaboard. Itâs barely six PM and the energy is already chaotic â kids running between furniture, wives catching up, rookies looking starstruck, veterans looking tired.
Sidneyâs sitting next to you, nursing a beer and texting with Nate about dinner plans. Youâre on your second glass of wine, enjoying the people-watching and the rare opportunity to see Sidney in full social mode. Heâs been stopped four times in the last ten minutes â twice by fans who somehow got into the hotel, once by a rookie who wanted to introduce himself, and once by a league official confirming details about tomorrowâs skills competition.
âThis is insane,â you murmur, watching a group of players you recognize from TV walk past, their kids in tow.
âThis is tame,â Sidney says, putting his phone down. âWait until tomorrow when the events actually start. Thisâll look like a library.â
âPromising,â you say dryly.
He grins, reaching over to squeeze your knee under the bar. âYou doing okay? I know this is a lot.â
âIâm fine,â you assure him. âItâs actually kind of fun. Very anthropological.â
âDid you just compare All-Star Weekend to a research study?â
âIâm observing the social dynamics of professional athletes in their natural habitat,â you say, completely serious. âItâs fascinating. Like watching a nature documentary.â
He laughs, shaking his head. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âYou love it.â
âI really do,â he agrees, leaning in to kiss your temple. His phone buzzes again and he checks it. âMarchy says theyâre almost down. Theyâre running late because Brad is trying to wrangle all three kids by himself and itâs apparently not going well.â
You smile at the mental image. Youâve met the Crosby-adjacent players a few times now. Theyâd welcomed you warmly once Sidney made it clear you were serious, though Genoâs wife Anna had pulled you aside at the last gathering to whisper, âGood luck with this one. Very stubborn,â while gesturing at Sidney.
Youâd whispered back, âIâm getting my doctorate. I know how to handle difficult subjects,â and sheâd laughed so hard sheâd snorted wine.
âI should probably hit the bathroom before everyone gets here,â Sidney says, already standing. He pauses, looking at you with that protective expression youâve come to recognize. âYouâll be okay for a few minutes?â
You raise your very full wine glass. âI have alcohol and entertainment,â you gesture to the lobby chaos. âIâll survive.â
âIf anyone bothers you-â
âSid.â You give him a look. âI can handle five minutes alone at a hotel bar. Iâm a twenty-three-year-old woman, not a small child.â
âI know, I just-â He stops himself, running a hand through his hair. âOkay. Yeah. Five minutes. Iâll be quick.â
âTake your time. Iâm not going anywhere.â
He kisses you quickly, then heads toward the bathrooms near the lobby. You watch him go, smiling to yourself. The protectiveness would be annoying if it wasnât so clearly coming from a place of genuine care rather than control. He knows you can take care of yourself; he just doesnât like the idea of you having to.
You turn back to your wine, pulling out your phone to check the group chat with your cohort. Theyâre still losing their minds about the fact that youâre at All-Star Weekend. Hannah has sent approximately forty messages in the last hour, most of them variations on SEND PICTURES and IS MCDAVID THERE.
Youâre typing a response when someone slides into the seat Sidney just vacated.
âThis seat taken?â
You glance up, ready to politely explain that yes, actually, your boyfriend just stepped away, and-Â
You stop.
Because sitting next to you, flashing a smile thatâs probably devastated its fair share of hearts, is Connor Bedard.
Connor Bedard, the Blackhawksâ newest golden boy. First overall pick. The generational talent everyone wonât shut up about. The kid whoâs been on magazine covers since he was sixteen and is somehow living up to every bit of the hype.
Heâs also, you realize with mild alarm, definitely flirting with you.
âUh,â you say eloquently.
âSorry, that was presumptuous,â he says, and his smile gets wider. Heâs got that confident-but-not-cocky thing down, which you imagine works very well for him. âIâm Connor.â
âI know,â you say before you can stop yourself.
His eyebrows go up, pleased. âHockey fan?â
âSomething like that.â Youâre trying to figure out how to navigate this. On the one hand, you should probably mention Sidney immediately. On the other hand, thereâs something deeply funny about Connor Bedard hitting on Sidney Crosbyâs girlfriend and youâre kind of curious how long this will go before he realizes.
Youâre a terrible person. Youâre going to let this play out for at least a minute.
âCan I buy you a drink?â He asks, nodding at your wine glass.
âI have one, thanks,â you say, lifting it slightly.
âAnother one, then. For when you finish that.â
âIâm good, really.â
âCome on,â he says, leaning an elbow on the bar. Heâs got that easy athlete confidence, the kind that comes from being told youâre exceptional since you were a kid. âBeautiful girl alone at a bar during All-Star Weekend? I canât just walk by.â
âIâm not alone,â you point out. âIâm with someone.â
âI donât see anyone.â
âBathroom,â you say, gesturing vaguely. âHeâll be back.â
âSo Iâve got a few minutes to change your mind about that drink.â He grins. âIâm persistent.â
âIâm noticing.â
The bartender comes over and Connor orders a beer without breaking eye contact with you. Itâs a smooth move, youâll give him that. If you werenât completely in love with Sidney Crosby, you might even be charmed.
âSo what brings you to All-Star Weekend?â He asks. âYou donât look like press.â
âWhat do I look like?â You ask, curious.
âLike you should be at Fashion Week, not a hockey game,â he says, and okay, thatâs actually a pretty good line. âOr maybe studying. Youâve got that smart vibe.â
You nearly choke on your wine. âHow did you-â
âLucky guess?â He looks delighted that he got it right. âWhat are you in school for?â
âPhD,â you admit. âSociology.â
âNo way. Thatâs actually cool.â He leans in closer. âSo youâre here studying the social dynamics of hockey players?â
You laugh despite yourself. âNot exactly. Iâm here with someone.â
âRight, bathroom guy,â Connor says dismissively. âWhatâs he do?â
This is where you should tell him. This is the perfect opening. You can feel the moment hanging there, ready for you to say, âHeâs a hockey player, actually. You might know him.â
Instead you hear yourself say, âHe works in sports.â
What is wrong with you? Why are you like this?
âOh yeah? What sport?â
âHockey,â you say, taking a long sip of wine.
âPlayer?â
âMmhmm.â
Connor doesnât even pause. âWhat league?â
âNHL.â
That gets his attention. His eyes sharpen slightly, competitive instinct kicking in. âYeah? Which team?â
âPenguins,â you say, watching his face carefully.
He doesnât connect the dots. Why would he? There are twenty-some guys on the Penguins roster. The idea that youâre dating Sidney â that youâre dating the Sidney Crosby, the captain, the face of the franchise, the guy whose jersey Connor probably had on his wall as a kid â doesnât even cross his mind.
âCool,â he says. âThatâs cool. Long distance must be tough though, right? With you doing your PhD?â
âWe manage,â you say. âActually, we live together.â
âIn Pittsburgh?â
âYes.â
âHuh.â He processes this, then appears to dismiss it as not being a significant obstacle. The confidence is truly astounding. âWell, if things ever donât work out, you should let me know. Iâd treat you right.â
Youâre saved from having to respond to that by the bartender delivering Connorâs beer. He takes a sip, then tries again.
âSo, thereâs a dinner thing tonight. Bunch of us getting together at this steakhouse down the road. You should come.â
âI have dinner plans,â you say.
âCancel them.â
The audacity is actually impressive. âIâm not going to cancel plans with my boyfriend so I can have dinner with you.â
âYour boyfriend who plays for the Penguins,â Connor says, like heâs trying to piece together a puzzle.
âThatâs the one.â
âIs he here? At the hotel?â
âIn the bathroom,â you remind him.
âRight.â Connor takes another drink. âWell, when he gets back, you should tell him youâre going to dinner with me instead.â
âI should tell him that,â you repeat slowly.
âYeah. I mean, no offense to the guy, but itâs All-Star Weekend. You should be having fun, not sitting at a hotel bar waiting for him to get back from the bathroom.â
âI like hotel bars,â you say weakly. âTheyâre very ⌠hotel-y.â
He laughs. âYouâre funny. Come to dinner.â
âI told you, I have plans-â
âBring bathroom guy,â Connor offers magnanimously. âIf heâs a player, some of my teammates probably know him. Itâll be fun.â
The mental image of Connor Bedard inviting Sidney Crosby to dinner as an afterthought is so absurd you have to press your lips together to keep from laughing.
âThatâs very generous of you,â you manage.
âIâm a generous guy,â he agrees, completely serious. âSo is that a yes?â
âThatâs a âmy boyfriend and I already have dinner plans with friends.ââ
âAfter dinner then,â he pivots smoothly. âThereâs a party in one of the suites. You should come.â
âI donât think-â
âOr we could skip the party,â he says, and his voice drops slightly, going for smooth and landing somewhere near suggestive. âMy roomâs actually pretty nice. Great view of the city. We could order room service, have our own party.â
You blink at him. âDid you just invite me to your hotel room?â
âIs it working?â
âNo.â
âYou sure? Because Iâm told Iâm pretty charming.â
âYouâre very confident,â you correct. âThereâs a difference.â
âConfidence is charming,â he counters.
âIt can be,â you allow. âIt can also be presumptuous.â
âIs that your way of saying I should back off?â
âItâs my way of saying I have a boyfriend who I love very much and who should be back from the bathroom any second now.â
âRight, Penguins guy.â Connor doesnât look particularly deterred. âWell, when he gets here, Iâll introduce myself. Maybe we know each other.â
âMaybe,â you say, fighting a smile.
âWhatâs his name?â
And this is it. This is where you should just say it. Where you should put this poor kid out of his misery and tell him exactly who heâs been hitting on for the last five minutes.
âSidney,â you say instead, because apparently youâre committed to this bit now.
âSidney,â Connor repeats. âSidney âŚâ
You watch him think. You can actually see him going through his mental roster, trying to place a Sidney on the Penguins. And you can see the exact moment it clicks. The way his eyes go wide, the way his beer pauses halfway to his mouth.
âWait,â he says slowly. âSidney as in-â
âAs in,â you confirm.
âCrosby,â he finishes, his voice climbing slightly. âYouâre dating Sidney Crosby.â
âI am,â you say pleasantly.
âSidney Crosby,â he repeats, like saying it again will make it make more sense.
âThatâs the one.â
âHoly shit.â
âYeah.â
âI just-â He stops. Runs a hand through his hair. âI just hit on Sidney Crosbyâs girlfriend.â
âYou did,â you agree, trying very hard not to laugh. âQuite persistently, actually.â
âOh my god.â He looks genuinely panicked now. âHeâs going to kill me.â
âHeâs not going to kill you,â you assure him.
âHeâs Sidney Crosby. He could kill me and the league would probably help him hide the body.â
Now you do laugh. âHeâs not going to kill you,â you repeat. âHeâll probably think itâs funny, actually.â
âYou didnât know,â you point out. âItâs not like I was wearing a sign.â
âYou said your boyfriend plays for the Penguins!â
âI did say that.â
âYou didnât say it was Crosby!â
âYou didnât ask for specifics,â you say reasonably.
He stares at you. âYouâre enjoying this.â
âA little bit,â you admit.
âYou let me keep going.â
âI tried to tell you I had a boyfriend.â
âYou didnât try very hard!â
âYou were very persistent,â you remind him. âSomething about being told youâre charming?â
He groans, dropping his head into his hands. âI invited you to my hotel room. I invited Sidney Crosbyâs girlfriend to my hotel room.â
âYou did,â you say, grinning now. âAnd you offered to buy me multiple drinks. And you asked me to dinner. And you suggested I cancel my plans with my boyfriend â who, again, is Sidney Crosby â to hang out with you instead.â
âPlease stop,â he mumbles into his hands.
âThis is what you get for hitting on random women at hotel bars,â you tell him, not unkindly. âLesson learned?â
âLesson learned,â he agrees miserably. He lifts his head. âIs he actually going to kill me?â
âProbably not,â you say. âBut he is standing right behind you.â
Connor goes very, very still. âYouâre joking.â
âIâm not joking.â
âHow long has he been there?â
âI donât know,â you say honestly. âBut Iâd guess at least a minute.â
Connor closes his eyes. âPerfect. Great. This is exactly how I wanted All-Star Weekend to go.â
Youâre trying very hard not to laugh as Sidney â who has indeed been standing behind Connor for at least a full minute, watching this entire exchange with barely concealed amusement â finally makes his move.
He reaches out and claps a hand down on Connorâs shoulder.
The effect is immediate. Connor actually jumps, his beer sloshing slightly, and spins on the bar stool to find himself face-to-face with Sidney Crosby, who is looking at him with an expression of polite interest that doesnât quite hide the laughter in his eyes.
âHey, Connor,â Sidney says easily. âHowâs it going?â
âSid,â Connor manages, his voice slightly strangled. âHi. Hey. Good. Itâs going good. How are you?â
âIâm good,â Sidney says. He squeezes Connorâs shoulder once before letting go, then slides into the seat on your other side, effectively boxing you in between them. His hand immediately finds your knee under the bar, possessive and warm. âThanks for keeping my girlfriend company while I was gone.â
âYour girlfriend,â Connor repeats faintly. âRight. Yeah. No problem. Happy to help.â
âI heard,â Sidney says, and now heâs definitely smiling. âSomething about dinner? And a party? And âŚâ He pauses, raising his eyebrows. âYour hotel room?â
If itâs possible to die of embarrassment, Connor Bedard is about to be the first documented case.
âI didnâtâI wasnât-â he stammers. âI didnât know she was-â
âDating me?â Sidney supplies helpfully.
âYes! I didnât know she was dating you. She didnât sayâwell, she did say, but she didnât say it was you-â
âI told him you play for the Penguins,â you interject, taking pity on him. âHe didnât put it together.â
âTo be fair,â Sidney says, âthere are a lot of guys on the Penguins. You canât be expected to know all of our relationship statuses.â
âI shouldâve known yours,â Connor says miserably. âEveryone knowsâI mean, there were pictures in the press-â
âA few months ago,â Sidney acknowledges. âBut youâve been pretty busy. Iâm sure youâve had other things on your mind besides my love life.â
âStill,â Connor says. âIâm sorry. Really. I wasnât trying toâI didnât mean any disrespect.â
Sidneyâs expression softens. âHey, you didnât know. And you were respectful about it.â He glances at you. âRight? He was respectful?â
âVery,â you confirm. âPersistent, but respectful.â
âIâm persistent,â Connor admits. âMy coach says itâs one of my strengths.â
âIt is,â Sidney agrees. âOn the ice. Maybe less so when hitting on taken women in hotel bars.â
âNoted,â Connor says. âFiled away for future reference. Donât hit on Sidney Crosbyâs girlfriend.â
âOr anyoneâs girlfriend,â you suggest.
âRight. Yes. That too.â
Thereâs a beat of awkward silence, and then Sidney laughs, clapping Connor on the shoulder again. âRelax, kid. Iâm not mad. Itâs actually kind of funny.â
âFunny,â Connor repeats, looking between you and Sidney. âYouâre not going to tell anyone about this, are you?â
âWho would I tell?â Sidney asks innocently.
âThe guys. The team. The media. The entire hockey world.â
âIâm not going to tell the entire hockey world that you hit on my girlfriend,â Sidney assures him. He pauses. âI might tell Geno though.â
âOh god.â
âHeâll think itâs hilarious.â
âPlease donât,â Connor begs.
âIâll think about it,â Sidney says, grinning now. âDepends on how nice you are to me during the skills competition tomorrow.â
âThe nicest,â Connor promises. He looks at you. âI really am sorry. YouâreâI mean, obviously youâre with the right guy. Sidney Crosby. Legend. Icon. Much better option than me.â
âMuch better,â you agree, leaning into Sidneyâs side. âNo offense.â
âNone taken,â Connor says. âIâm just glad heâs not actually killing me.â
âThe nightâs still young,â Sidney says mildly.
Connorâs eyes go wide and Sidney laughs, holding up a hand. âKidding. Iâm kidding. Youâre fine.â
âYouâre enjoying this too,â Connor accuses.
âA little bit,â Sidney admits. His hand squeezes your knee under the bar. âItâs not every day I get to come back from the bathroom to find a player trying to steal my girlfriend.â
âI wasnât trying to steal-â Connor stops. âOkay, I was maybe trying a little. But I didnât know she was yours!â
âAnd now you do,â Sidney says pleasantly.
âNow I do,â Connor agrees fervently. âLoud and clear. Message received. Sidney Crosbyâs girlfriend is off limits.â
âGood talk,â Sidney says, raising his beer in a mock toast.
Connor raises his own beer, looking relieved that this interaction is ending without bloodshed. âGood talk.â
They both drink, and you shake your head, finishing your wine. âYouâre both ridiculous.â
âYou let him keep going,â Sidney points out. âYou couldâve mentioned my name at any point.â
âWhereâs the fun in that?â
âI canât believe you both think this is funny,â Connor mutters.
âIt is funny,â you tell him. âYou invited me to skip dinner with my boyfriend to have room service with you instead. Thatâs objectively funny.â
âWhen you put it that way,â Connor allows. âYeah, okay. Itâs a little funny.â
âA little?â Sidney raises his eyebrows.
âFine. Itâs pretty funny.â Connor takes another drink. âIâm never living this down, am I?â
âProbably not,â you say sympathetically.
âDefinitely not,â Sidney corrects. âBut hey, could be worse. At least you didnât know who she was. That would be really embarrassing.â
âHow would that be worse?â Connor asks.
âBecause then youâd know you were hitting on my girl specifically,â Sidney explains. âThis way you just have bad luck. If youâd known, youâd have bad judgment.â
Connor considers this. âThatâs a good point.â
âI have those sometimes,â Sidney says.
âSo what do I have to do to make sure this stays between us?â Connor asks.
âBuy us dinner,â you suggest.
Connor blinks. âSeriously?â
âSeriously,â you confirm. âYou offered to buy me dinner multiple times. Expand the invitation to include Sidney and weâll call it even.â
âDone,â Connor says immediately. âAbsolutely. Where do you want to go?â
âWe actually do have plans,â Sidney admits. âBut you can get the next round of drinks.â
âI can do that,â Connor agrees. He flags down the bartender. âAnother beer for me, whatever theyâre having, and put it on my tab.â
The bartender nods and Connor turns back to you and Sidney. âSo are we good? Like, actually good?â
âWeâre good,â Sidney assures him. âReally. No hard feelings.â
âAnd youâre not going to tell everyone?â
Sidney grins. âIâm not going to tell everyone. Just Geno. And Brad. And probably Nate. Maybe Flower.â
âThatâs telling everyone,â Connor protests.
âThatâs telling my friends,â Sidney corrects. âThereâs a difference.â
Sidney considers, then looks at you. âWhat do you think? Should we keep Connorâs secret?â
âI think,â you say slowly, âthat depends on how good Connor is in the skills competition tomorrow.â
âIâll be nice to all the old-timers,â Connor promises.
âOld-timers,â Sidney repeats, looking offended. âIâm thirty-nine, not sixty.â
âAncient by hockey standards,â you tease, patting his arm. âItâs okay, baby. Youâre a very spry thirty-nine.â
Connor is trying very hard not to laugh.
âYouâre both terrible,â Sidney declares, but heâs smiling. âAnd for the record, I could still outskate most of the guys in the skills competition.â
âSure you could, dear,â you say in that patronizing tone that makes Sidney narrow his eyes at you.
âYouâre lucky I love you,â he mutters.
âVery lucky,â you agree, kissing his cheek.
Connor watches this exchange with visible relief. âYou guys are actually really cute together.â
âWe are,â Sidney says. âWhich is why you should probably go find someone else to hit on.â
âWorking on it,â Connor assures him. He stands, grabbing his beer. âBut for real, thanks for being cool about this. And sorry again. I honestly had no idea.â
âWe know,â you say kindly. âGo enjoy your All-Star Weekend.â
âI will.â He starts to walk away, then turns back. âHey, can I ask you something?â
âSure,â Sidney says.
âHow did you guys meet?â
You and Sidney exchange a glance. Youâve told this story before, but it never gets old.
âCharity gala,â Sidney says. âShe was there with her dad, I was there for the team. I saw her across the room and-â He pauses, smiling at the memory. âShe was arguing with someone about hockey statistics. Very passionately. I was intrigued.â
âI was right, for the record,â you interject. âThe guy was wrong about Gretzkyâs career plus-minus.â
âShe was very right,â Sidney confirms. âAnd very confident about it. I liked that.â
âSo you just went up and talked to her?â Connor asks.
âEventually,â Sidney says. âAfter I watched her win three more arguments and drink two glasses of champagne like they were water.â
âI was nervous,â you defend. âThose galas are intimidating.â
âYou told the mayor his economic policy was short-sighted,â Sidney reminds you.
âIt was!â
Connorâs grinning now. âAnd then what?â
âThen I introduced myself,â Sidney says. âShe knew who I was-â
âIâm not an idiot,â you interrupt.
â-but she didnât care,â he continues. âTreated me like a normal person. We talked for two hours. I got her number. Asked her to dinner the next week.â He shrugs. âRest is history.â
âWeâre very sweet,â you agree. âNow go away so we can be sweet without an audience.â
He laughs. âGoing, going.â He takes a few steps, then calls back, âHey, for what itâs worth? You guys make sense together.â
âThanks, Connor,â Sidney says, and he sounds genuinely touched.
Connor disappears into the crowd and Sidney turns to you, shaking his head. âWell, that was entertaining.â
âYouâre not mad?â You ask.
âMad? Why would I be mad?â
âHe hit on me pretty aggressively.â
âHe did,â Sidney agrees. âBut you shut him down. And you didnât hide the fact that you have a boyfriend. And you let him embarrass himself just enough that it was funny but not cruel.â He leans in, kissing you properly. âIâm not mad. Iâm actually kind of flattered.â
âFlattered?â
âPlayers hit on you all the time and you always come home with me,â he says simply. âThatâs pretty flattering.â
âPlayers do not hit on me all the time,â you protest.
âThey would if I let you out of my sight more often,â he counters.
âPossessive.â
âObservant,â he corrects. âYouâre beautiful. Smart. Funny. Of course people are going to hit on you.â
âPeople like Connor Bedard,â you say, still amused by the whole thing.
âPeople like Connor Bedard,â he confirms. âWho is a very talented hockey player with terrible timing.â
âShould we actually tell Geno?â You ask.
âOh, absolutely,â Sidney says without hesitation. âThis is too good not to share.â
âYouâre evil.â
âIâm competitive, thereâs a difference.â He grins, standing and offering you his hand. âCome on. Letâs go meet everyone before Marchy decides weâve abandoned them and eats all the bread at the restaurant.â
You take his hand, letting him pull you up from the bar stool. âYou know heâs going to tell literally everyone, right? Once Geno knows, the whole league will know by tomorrow.â
âThatâs the plan,â Sidney says cheerfully. âConnor Bedard trying to steal my girlfriend during All-Star Weekend? Thatâs going in the group chat immediately.â
âPoor Connor.â
âHeâll survive,â Sidney assures you. âAnd heâll learn an important lesson about checking whether someoneâs taken before trying to get their number.â
âYouâre enjoying this way too much.â
âI really am,â he agrees. He pulls you close, wrapping an arm around your waist as you walk toward the lobby. âBut can you blame me? The kid tried to invite you to his hotel room. His hotel room. Like I wasnât going to find out.â
âHe didnât know,â you remind him.
âStill funny,â Sidney insists.
You lean into him, smiling. âStill funny,â you agree.
And as you walk through the lobby of The Garden City Hotel, past NHL players and their families, past rookies and veterans and everyone in between, you catch sight of Connor across the room. Heâs talking to someone, laughing at something, looking young and confident and completely recovered from his earlier mortification.
He catches your eye and gives a little wave, sheepish but good-natured.
You wave back.
Sidney notices the exchange and squeezes your waist. âYou know,â he says thoughtfully, âin a few years, when heâs not so young anymore and the embarrassment has faded, this is going to be a great story.â
âFor us or for him?â
âBoth,â Sidney decides. âBut mostly for us.â
âMost things are,â you point out.
âTrue,â he agrees. âBut this oneâs particularly good.â
summary: everythingâs been so complicated for sidney lately.
an: the highly requested part 2 to itâs never over is here!! so sorry for the wait <3 this originally didnât have a part 2 but you guys wanted one so here it is :) this is where sidney and the readerâs story ends btw so sadly no part 3!!rachel mcadams was used as a faceclaim for the first part but you can imagine the reader as anyone!!
warnings: use of y/n :( (also i never specified what made sid and reader divorce so you can use your imagination with that lol)
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Milan was an absolute dream. Penelope had been to Italy twice. One trip was for a family vacation while the other was to attend her uncle Nateâs wedding. Now she was back to attend the Winter Olympics with her mother. Y/n had excused herself to find Sidney. She had been meaning to talk to him and each day they would see each other, their conversation would be short or Y/n couldnât bring herself to talk to Sidney about the current state of her life.
She stayed outside the locker room area waiting for Sidney. Occasionally Canadian players would greet her and make small talk. Soon, Sidney came out the locker room in his team Canada gear.
âHey,â Sidney greeted. âIs Pen okay? She texted this morning that she wasnât feeling good.â
âSheâs feeling better. Itâs all the pasta sheâs been eating since we got here,â Y/n replied. She fumbled around with her ring. It wasnât the wedding ring Sidney had given her, that was in her home back in Cole Harbour. Sidney insisted she keep it rather than give it back.
âDo you want to goââ
âI wanted toââ
Of course they talked at the same time.
Sidney let out a muffled laugh. âYou go first.â
Y/n hesitated. Sidney immediately noticed. That was the thing about him, he always noticed.
Her fingers left her ring and started fidgeting with the sleeve of her jacket that Lauren Kyle had made. Despite not being together anymore, Lauren still made her a jacket. Even Penelope got one. âI . . um. . I wanted to talk to you about something really important.â
His expression didnât change much, but his attention sharpened. âOkay.â
âItâs not bad,â Y/n added quickly. âI just didnât want you hearing this from Penelope or . . anyone else.â
Sidney waited patiently for her to finish talking. It was killing him.
Y/n took a deep breath. âIâve been seeing someone.â She finally admitted.
âOh,â he said. It didnât sound angry or cold.
âHis name is Daniel,â she continued carefully. âHeâs good, heâs kind and patient. And he knows about . . you and me, and that we have a daughter.â
Sidney nodded slowly, his eyes dropping for a second before meeting hers again. âThatâs good.â He said. And he meant it or at least he wanted to mean it.
Y/n gave a small nod. âI wouldnât bring it up if it wasnât getting, you know, serious.â
There it was. The word that Sidney didnât want her to say. Serious.
âI want him to meet Penelope,â Y/n continued, her voice getting quieter. âBut I told him I wouldnât do that unless you were okay with it.â
Her words made his brows crease slightly.
âSheâs our daughter, Sid. And if youâre not comfortable with it then it doesnât happen. I mean it.â She said, her tone full of seriousness.
For a moment, Sidney didnât answer. It wasnât because he didnât understand. A part of him had been holding onto the idea that maybe they would find their way back to each other. Maybe the divorce was a huge mistake. Maybe they could be a family again. But it seemed like life had other plans for him.
Y/n was moving on with her life, moving on with someone new.
âIâm sorry,â he said suddenly.
Y/n blinked. âWhat?â
âIâm sorry that I made you feel like you needed my permission for something like that.â
Her expression softer immediately. âSidââ
âNo, I mean it,â he continued. âYou donât need my approval to live your life.â
She stepped a little closer. âYouâll always have a say when it comes to Penelope. That doesnât go away just because weâre not . .â She trailed off, not wanting to finish the sentence.
Not together.
Sidney took a breath. âYou trust him?â He asked.
âYes.â Y/n nodded.
âIs he good to you?â
Her answer came without hesitation. âYes.â
Sidney gave a small nod. âThen Iâm okay with it. But you didnât have to ask. If you think heâs good, then heâs good.â
Relief flickered on Y/nâs face. Sidney noticed a hint of sadness in her expression. âThank you.â She replied.
He forced a small smile. âYou donât have to thank me.â
But she did anyway.
They noticed the team start filling the locker room again. It was almost game time which meant Y/n had to soon go back to her seat. Before Sidney could speak again, Macklin had passed by the once married couple. The teenager didnât know if they were on actual good terms or if they just played the part for the sake of their daughter. He didnât want to be caught up in the middle of it so he awkwardly waved.
âHi Mrs. Crosby,â Macklin greeted. He swears he didnât mean to disrespect anybody. Sid and Y/n could see the second it hit him. âIâm so sorry! I know you guys are divorced, I mean separated. Uh. . maybe you havenât finalized it I donât know!â
Sidney pressed his lips together, already trying not to smile. He had never seen Macklin act this panicky before.
Y/n let out a soft laugh. âHey, itâs okay. Really,â she said gently. âI donât mind being called Mrs. Crosby. I was her for a long time.â She added, still smiling.
Sidney felt like someone had stabbed him when he heard her words.
Macklin exhaled. âYeah, okay. Um. . sorry again. I didnât want to make it weird but I totally failed.â
âYouâre fine.â She assured him.
He glanced at Sidney, who just shook his head slightly, amused by Macklin and his slip up. âYouâre good, kid.â
âOkay,â Macklin nodded. âYeah, okay. Cool. Iâm just gonna. . . yeah.â He slipped into the locker room before he could embarrass himself anymore.
Y/nâs eyes followed him as he entered the room. âHe seems sweet.â She smiled as her gaze returned back to Sid.
âHe is,â Sidney replied. âHeâs great.â Y/n hummed in agreement.
They remained in a comfortable silence. There was something on Sidneyâs mind, something that would haunt him.
I was her for a long time.
Sidney glanced at Y/n, like he wanted to say something about it, but didnât. He couldnât. He truly didnât trust what might come out. Instead, he just remained silent.
âWell, good luck with the game.â Y/n spoke again.
âYeah. . thanks. You know, i appreciate you coming all the way out here. And bringing Penelope too. I know you didnât want her missing school, but it means a lot that you and her are here.â Sidney said softly.
That caught her a little off guard. She wouldnât miss it for the world. âOf course weâre here.â
âYeah, I know itâs not easy. School and everything. Thanks.â Sidney trailed off.
âShe wasnât going to take no for an answer,âY/n said. âSheâs been counting down to this trip for months.â
âStill,â he said quieter now. âYou couldâve said no.â
âI couldâve.â She nodded slowly. âShe wanted to be here for you. . . and so did I.â She added.
The comfortable silence returned. Well sort of. They could still hear the cheers coming from fans, the footsteps of staff and players walking by them. She shifted her weight slightly, glancing down the hallway toward the arena.
âI should go,â Y/n said softly. âBefore I get yelled at for not being in my seat.â
Sidney huffed a quiet laugh. âYeah, canât have that.â
She nodded, but didnât move right away. Like there was one more thing sitting on her mind. âI might not be here for the final,â she added, almost casually.
That made him look at her. âOh yeah?â he said, one brow lifting. âYou think weâre making it that far?â
And then she smiled.
âI know you will,â she said. âYouâre the best hockey player I know.â
It landed somewhere deep, the same way it always used to when she said things like thatâlike it wasnât hype, wasnât pressure. Just belief.
He tilted his head slightly, a faint grin pulling at his mouth. âI hope Iâm the only hockey player you know.â
She rolled her eyes, a small laugh slipping out. âRelax.â
âJust checking,â he teased. âDidnât know if Daniel skated or not.â
She shook her head, still smiling. âHe doesnât.â
âGood,â Sidney muttered under his breath. That earned him a look.
âSid.â
âWhat?â he shrugged lightly. âIâve got a reputation to maintain.â
âYeah?â she crossed her arms loosely. âWhat reputation is that?â
âThat Iâm your favorite,â he said, like it was obvious.
Her smile softened. âYou are,â she said.
And for a second that almost felt like enough.
She glanced back toward the arena again, grounding herself. âBut I do have to go,â she said. âAnd yeah . . I might miss the final if you guys make it.â
âIf,â he repeated.
She gave him a look. âDonât start.â
He smiled a little, but it didnât quite reach his eyes this time. âWork?â
âYeah,â she nodded. âThey need me back at the office. Timing just worked out like that.â
There was a small pause.
âRight,â he said.
That things had changed. Her life didnât revolve around his schedule anymore. She couldnât just drop everything and follow him the way she used to.She seemed to catch that too, because her tone softened just slightly.
âYouâll be fine,â she said. âYou donât need me in the stands to win a hockey game.â
He let out a quiet breath, glancing down for a second before looking back at her. âDebatable,â he said lightly.
She smiledâbut there was something knowing in it now. âSid. . â
He didnât push it further, but the hint of truth sat there anyway. The years they were together, the way things had gone since.
She stepped a little closer, her voice gentler.âMaybe some of your superstitions need to retire,â she said.
He nodded slowly, a small, almost reluctant smile forming. âYeah, maybe.â
It was said like a joke, but it wasnât entirely one. He held her gaze, understanding exactly what she meant. She studied him for a second, like she was making sure he was actually okay. Or at least okay enough.Then she reached out, squeezing his arm briefly.
âYouâve got this,â she said.
He looked at her hand for half a second before meeting her eyes again. âYeah,â he murmured. âI know.â
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hockeyupdates penelope being friends with the us womenâs hockey team? i am loving this!
flyersftw isnât she canadian?
willmackfans and? she can still be friends with them
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yourusername still proud â¤ď¸ love you sweetface
malkinscore SWEETFACE?? ARE YOU KIDDING MEEE
pensnation y/n made an ig and her only post is of sidney. stab me it would hurt less.
sidneyskates imagine youâre sidney crosby. youâre injured and you canât play in the gold medal game. it might be your last olympic games. your team loses the game and gets a silver medal while the us wins gold and celebrates with the fbi director in the locker room and they call the president of the us and laugh at his joke about the womenâs team. you find out your ex-wife made an instagram account and the only post she has is of you and her caption is her telling you sheâs still proud and that she loves you. oh and your daughter lost her canada scarf in milan.
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March was finally here and that meant Penelope was on spring break. She decided to fly to Pittsburgh to spend it with her dad. Even though he was still injured, they spent time together on and off the ice. The dad and daughter duo were currently on their way to get lunch. Sidney stopped at a red light, Penelope kept talking about her friends that were spending their spring break in other places like Florida and Mexico.
âAnd youâre okay with staying here with your dear older dad?â Sidney joked.
âWhere else would I be?â Penelope asked.
âDidnât your mom mention something about going to Italy?â Sidney kept his eyes on the road since the light had turned green.
âYeah, Daniel hasnât been to Italy before but his PTO got denied so him and mom are staying home for spring break,â Penelope explained. She leaned on the center console. âArenât you going to ask me if heâs good or weird?â
Sidney let out a chuckle. âI figured youâd tell me if something was wrong.â He turned the corner only to find very minimal parking.
âThatâs not the same.â She pointed out.
He glanced at her for a second. âYeah?â
She nodded. âUsually dads ask stuff like that.â
âOkay, is Daniel weird?â Sidney asked, holding back a smile.
âNot entirely. I mean heâs left handed, he knows a lot about astronomy. . . oh! Heâs really good at saying words backwards. He told me my name backwards is epolonep. And heâs obsessed with Greek mythology. He asked me if I was named after the wife of Odysseus and I just told him I have no idea.â Penelope rambled.
A silence followed. It was cut short by Penelope speaking again.
âAm I?â She wondered.
âNamed after a Greek gods wife?â Sidney finished.
âYeah.â
âNo. Your mom never told you?â
âClearly not!â
Sidney laughed. âWell we were in the hospital and the nurse had given us a book of baby names and we kept looking then we got to page eighty seven.â He looked over at her with a smirk.
âNo.â Penelope couldnât believe it.
âPage eighty seven, first name on there is Penelope. We both loved it and decided your name would be Penelope.â Sidney finished explaining the name origins.
âIs that why you write my name on your stick whenever you play?â Penelope wondered. She remembered all the times Sidney would text her a picture of her name written in marker on his hockey stick. At one point Sidney also wrote Y/nâs name, but now only Penelope had hers on Sidneyâs equipment.
âYeah. I have you with me everywhere I go.â
That warmed Penelopeâs heart. Then came a hard hitting question that Sidney definitely didnât expect.
âDo you miss mom?â
Sidney stalled by finding a parking space and avoiding giving her the actual answer. âLike right now? Yeah, I havenât seen here since the Olympics. I miss you too. Always.â He backed into the parking space then shut off the engine. The car remained silent until Penelope spoke up again.
âNo, I mean . . do you miss being together? You can be honest with me dad. I wonât tell her if thatâs what youâre worried about.â Penelope assured the older man.
Sidney took a deep breath. âItâs complicated.â
âDad, itâs okay.â She whispered.
Sidney sighed. âYeah, I do.â
Penelope didnât look surprised. She just watched her dad as he continued talking.
âI donât . . .â He paused, searching for the right way to say it. âI donât think Iâll ever love someone the way I love her.â
Penelope stayed silent in her seat, listening to every word Sidney had to say. âShe was a big part of my life,â He continued. âA really good part.â
Penelopeâs expression softened, but still she stayed quiet. The girl felt her heart break. She always heard her dad talk very highly about her mom, but this time it felt way differently
âAnd we had a lot of years together, some good and some bad and some very important ones,â he said, a light chuckle coming from his mouth. He glanced at his daughter, a gentle expression formed on his face. âAnd not just because of us, but what came out of it.â
Penelope tilted her head slightly. âWhat do you mean?â
A smile formed on Sidneyâs lips. âYou.â
Penelope continued to listen. âWhat?â
âYouâre the best thing that came out of that,â he said. âOut of everything.â
Her face shifted immediately, like as if she hadnât expected his words.
âYouâre my greatest win,â he added. âNo game or Stanley Cupânone of that compares to you. You and your mom are my greatest loves.â
Penelope was almost to the point where she was about to start crying. She playfully punched his arm. âI hate you so much right now. I didnât expect to cry today at all.â She joked, wiped away a tear that managed to slip out.
âIâm sorry.â Sidney leaned in and kissed the top of her head.
âNo, itâs okay. I needed it. I havenât cried in a while.â Penelope laughed through the tears.
âYouâre insane.â Sidney shook his head, laughing at what she had just said.
âEverybody needs a good cry every now and then. Um. . . Can I ask something personal? You donât have to answer if you donât want to.â Penelope unbuckled her seatbelt and turned her body so she was fully facing her dad. âHave you dated at all? Is mom your only girlfriend?â
Sidney chuckled at her curiosity. âIâve dated before your mom,â he said quietly. âAnd after.â
Penelope nodded. âThatâs okay.â
âBut itâs not really the same.â It was the truth. His words had no ego in it or no comparison meant to put anyone down. âYour mom . . . Sheâs different.â
Penelope leaned on the seat. She watched attentively as her dad talked about her mom like a lovesick teenager.
âSheâsââ He paused, searching for the right word, then gave a small, almost self-aware smile. âSheâs it for me.â
âRomance isnât dead after all.â Penelope commented. She giggled to herself as Sidney smiled.
âI know people say stuff like that. About soulmates and all that and it sounds . . . unrealistic.â He shrugged a little.
âBut?â Penelope prompted.
âBut I know sheâs mine.â He said.
Again, Penelope was internally freaking out.
Penelope then furrowed her eyebrows. âThen why arenât you guys together?â
The million dollar question. That one didnât have an easy answer.
âUh. . . Well, it doesnât go both ways I guess.â Sidney answered.
âWhat? What does that mean?â She frowned at his answer.
âI think she was mine, but I donât think I was hers.â
Penelopeâs face dropped. âWhat?! Do you know how insane that sounds? How can that be true? You fell in love young and had me!â She looked like she wanted to argue further, but she held back.
âItâs just how it is sometimes.â It pained him to admit. âAnd thatâs okay.â
âNo, I donât accept that. I was fine before this conversation.â Penelope slouched in her seat. She didnât look convinced.
âItâs okay because your mom is happy,â he said gently. âOr at least sheâs trying to be.â
Penelope looked out the window. She avoided all eye contact with him. I shouldnât have opened my mouth and asked a stupid question she thought.
âHeâs good to her,â he said referring to Daniel without mentioning his name. âThat matters more than anything else.â
They remained silent for a few seconds. Then Penelope turned her head to look at him. He could see the sadness in her eyes.
âYouâre really okay with that?â
Sidney didnât answer right away. The truth was complicated. He knew it was wrong to still be in love with his ex-wife who was in a relationship.
âYeah I am.â He nodded.
Still, his teenage daughter wasnât convinced.
Penelope leaned back in her seat, processing the conversation she just had with her father. âI still think youâre her soulmate.â She muttered.
That pulled the faintest smile out of him. âYeah?â He asked.
âYeah,â Penelope nodded. âShe just doesnât know it yet.â
He let out a small breath, almost like a laugh. âMaybe.â He didnât sound like he believed it. He took his keys from the ignition switch.
âIf it makes you feel any better, you two make me believe in love. I wasnât that interested in boys and the whole dating thing, but now I think I want a boyfriend.â Penelope casually said.
âWhen you do, your mom and I have to meet him. Bring him to a game or something then your uncles can meet him.â Sidney replied. He was already picturing how that would go.
âSo a bunch of old men hockey players can scare him off and ruin my chances? In your dreams!â
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A lot had happened when Penelope was in Pittsburgh. What once was a happy blossoming relationship between an ex-wife and her new boyfriend turned into no more. Sidney had flown back with the team to Ottawa, bringing Penelope on the team plane since her spring break was almost over and she needed to fly back to Cole Harbour. He called Y/n and suggested she come watch the game against the Senators with Penelope.
From behind the glass, Sidney moved across the ice, locked in, focusedâlike he always was. Y/n sat beside Penelope, a drink in her hand, her eyes following him for a moment longer than she probably realized.
âHe looks good,â Penelope said casually. Their seats gave them a good view of the game.
Y/n hummed. âHe always does.â Penelope smirked a little at that but didnât say anythingâyet. They watched in silence for a bit before Penelope nudged her.
âSo,â she started, dragging the word out slightly. âMy spring break was pretty great.â
âI heard,â Y/n said lightly. âHockey games, your dad spoiling you, new clothes and stuff.â
âObviously,â Penelope grinned. Then her tone shifted just slightly. âYou havenât said anything about yours though.â
Y/n took a sip of her drink. âThereâs not much to say.â
Penelope narrowed her eyes. âReally?â
âMhm.â
âWhat did you and Daniel do?â
There it was. Y/n didnât answer. What would she even say? Hey I broke up with him!
Instead, she reached for the container of popcorn and shoved a handful in her mouth. âReally good!â Y/n coughed as a kernel went down the wrong pipe. She grabbed her water and drank from it.
Penelope watched her closely.âYou broke up with Daniel, didnât you?â
Y/n froze. It was just for a second, but it was enough.
Penelopeâs eyes widened. âYou did.â
Y/n let out a slow breath, setting her drink down like she couldnât really avoid it anymore.
âPenââ
âYou broke up with him!â She repeated. It sounded like she was surprised, but also she was celebrating in her mind.
Y/n rubbed her temple lightly, then nodded.âYeah,â she admitted quietly. âI did.â
Penelope blinked. And then she stood up from her seat, celebrating the news she just received. âSorry, Daniel, wherever you are, but fuck yes.â
âWhat?â she said, completely unbothered. âIâm just saying!âThen she leaned closer, eyes lighting up with something way too excited.
âMy parents love each other again.â
Y/n stared at her. âThat is notâ thatâs not what this is.â
âIt literally is,â Penelope insisted.
âNo, itâs not,â Y/n said quickly, shaking her head. âWeâ I just. . . it wasnât fair to Daniel.â
Penelope tilted her head. âBecause you still think about Dad.â
Y/N didnât answer, but Penelope took it as an answer.
Penelope gasped softly, like sheâd just confirmed her own theory. âOh my God.â
âDonât make a big deal out of it,â Y/n muttered.
âToo late,â Penelope grinned.
Y/n shook her head, trying to hide the small, conflicted smile tugging at her lips. âIt doesnât change anything,â she said, quieter now. âYour dad and Iâ weâre not. . . â She trailed off. Even she didnât sound convinced.
Penelope watched her like she knew something her mom didnât. Which she kind of did. âYou donât know that,â Penelope said.
Y/n frowned slightly. âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
Penelope opened her mouth. She paused. She had suddenly remembered she told her dad back in the car that she wouldnât tell her mom. She pressed her lips together, then quickly shook her head.
ânothing,â she said, trying (and failing) to hide a grin.
âPenelope,â Y/n narrowed her eyes. âWhat?â
âNothing!â she repeated, suddenly very interested in the game again.
Y/n studied her for a second longer before sighing, letting it goâfor now.
On the ice, the game tightened. Overtime came and went and still no goal. A shootout was next. Lately, the penguins didnât have much luck with shootouts. Penelope watched as some Senators fans were already celebrating the âwinâ.
Penelope leaned forward, gripping the edge of the glass. âCome on, come on. . .â
Ben Kindel had won it for the Pens. Penelope jumped to her feet immediately. âYES!â Y/n laughed despite herself, shaking her head as the crowd roared around them.
Y/n was on her feet, applauding the team that she loved. She had completely forgotten about her conversation with Penelope until the girl spoke up.
âCome on!â Penelope grabbed her arm suddenly.
âWhatâ?â
âWe have to go meet dad before he gets busy!â
Y/n blinked, thrown off. âPen, he just got off the iceââ
âExactly!â she insisted, already tugging her toward the exit. âWe have a window.â
âPenelopeââ
âTrust me,â she said, grinning in a way that felt a little too knowing. Y/N hesitated for half a second, but she followed.
ââŚokay?â
It took a while to get through security for Penelope and Y/n. The Penguins were in the visitors locker room, having already congratulated each other and given the miners helmet to the player of the game. Sidney was on his way to the showers when Penelope called out for him.
âDad!â
He barely had time to react when the teenage girl grabbed his hand and started dragging him in the direction away from the showers. âWoah! Hey, whatâs going on?â He laughed, a little breathless.
âJust follow me, old man.â Penelope didnât do much explaining.
âPen, I gottaââ
âNope,â she cut him off, already pulling him along. âYou can shower later.â
âPenelopeââ But she didnât slow down. She looked very determined.
She weaved through the hallway like she knew exactly where she was going, dragging him past staff, past doors, until they reached a quieter corner of the arenaâless crowded, tucked away.
âPen, I love you, but I have to shower. . .â Sidneyâs voice trailed off when he saw Y/n standing there, arms loosely crossed, like she wasnât entirely sure why sheâd agreed to wait. Of course he knew she was coming, he had invited her after all, he just figured Daniel would also be in attendance.
âWhatââ
Too late. Penelope gave one final shove. And suddenly Sidney stumbled forward, stopping himself just short of running into Y/n. Except not really.
His hand came up instinctively, bracing against a support beam right beside her shoulder, the other catching his balance just enough that he didnât completely knock into her. But it was close.
She let out a small, surprised breath, eyes widening slightly as her back pressed lightly against the concrete behind her.
âPenelopeââ Sidney started, half turning.
But she was already backing away, looking way too pleased with herself. âYou two have a lot to talk about,â she said, barely holding in her grin.
âPenelope!â
âNope!â she sang, already turning on her heel. âIâm leaving now!â
âPenelope, get back hereââ But she was gone. She disappeared down the hallway like she hadnât just completely set them up.
Y/n huffed a small laugh, still a little caught off guard. âSheâs subtle.â
âYeah,â he muttered. âReal subtle.â
They both seemed to realize how close they still were. His arm still braced beside her. Her back still against the concrete beam. Sidney dropped his hand almost immediately, stepping back just enough to give her spaceâbut not enough to break the moment entirely.
âSorry,â he said. âI didnâtâshe justââ
âItâs okay,â Y/n said quickly. âI know.â
A small silence settled in.
Sidney glanced at her, noticing the details he always didâthe way she held herself, the way her hands fidgeted slightly when she didnât know what to say.
âGood game,â she said after a second, nodding toward the rink behind him.
He gave a small shrug. âYeah. Kindel saved us.â
A faint smile touched her lips. âStill counts.â
âYeah,â he said quietly. He looked around wondering if it was okay to ask about Daniel. He still did anyways. âDaniel couldnât make it?â
Y/n let out a deep sigh. She realized she had to tell him something. âNo, um. . . Weâre not together anymore,â She let out a small breath, almost like sheâd been holding it in. âIt wasnât fair to him.â
Sidneyâs jaw tightened slightly. âBecause of me?â His gaze dropped for a second, then back to her, something a little more vulnerable there now.
âI still think about you,â she said. A silence followed. What else was there to say? Y/n thought. She was debating on leaving, but Sidney spoke
âYeah,â he said. âMe too.â
A small, almost disbelieving smile flickered across her face. âI figured.â
âWas i that obvious?â Sidney laughed lightly.
âYouâve always been obvious to me.â
The hallway had gone quiet again. Not completelyâthere were still distant voices, the echoes, doors opening and closingâbut here, in this tucked-away corner, it felt like everything had slowed down.
Sidney leaned back slightly against the wall now, no longer crowding her, but still close enough that the space between them felt intentional. Y/n mirrored him, arms loosely crossed, though her fingers kept fidgeting with the sleeve of her jacket. Neither of them seemed in a hurry to leave.
Sidney rubbed the back of his neck, glancing down the hallway before looking back at her. âI meant what I said,â he said. âAbout you.â
Her eyes lifted slightly. âYou said a lot of things.â
He nodded. âYeah. I know. Youâre still . . . important to me.â
She held his gaze. âYouâre important to me too.â
From somewhere down the hall, a voice called outâdistant, but enough to remind them where they were. Reality wascreeping back in.
Sidney glanced over his shoulder briefly. âTheyâre probably looking for me.â
âYeah,â Y/n said. âYou just won a game. Must feel nice afte all the other games.â
âIt is,â he admitted. Then, after a beat, softer, âThis is . . nicer.â
Her smile faltered just slightlyâbut not in a bad way. She shifted her weight, like she knew this moment couldnât stretch forever.
âPenelopeâs probably waiting,â she said.
âProbably spying,â he corrected.
âDefinitely spying,â she agreed. âText me?â she said. Sidney didnât expect it, but he sure wasnât going to deny the request.
Sidneyâs expression softened. âYeah. I will.â
Another second passed, then she pushed off the wall.
âGo,â she said gently. âBefore someone starts looking for their captain.â
He huffed a quiet laugh. âOh Iâm sure theyâre all listening in behind that wall.â He turned around and saw several heads belonging to Noel Acciari, Bryan Rust and Connor Clifton. They immediately cursed and ran away. Penelope was somewhere behind them scolding them for blowing their cover.
Before Sidney could leave, Y/n stepped in closer. She kissed the corner of his lips. When she pulled back, she didnât go far. Their faces were still close. Sidney let out a quiet breath, like heâd been holding it without realizing it.