A LETTER TO ONESELF
Dear me,
Im sorry i cant be perfect, but i try. Im sorry that i cant meet your expectations. Im sorry that im letting you drown. Im sorry you have to feel like this all the time. Im sorry for not always being there. Im sorry for letting you get out of hand. Im sorry for allowing you to do things that you regret. Im sorry, as sorry as one could ever be.
Dear me,
I am proud of you. I am proud that you know your faults. I am proud that you are able to see what is wrong and right. I am proud that you keep pushing. I am proud that through everything, you haven't given up. I am proud that although you feel like you lack purpose, YOU PROVIDE PURPOSE FOR OTHERS.
Dear me,
It might seem bleak right now. You might feel like giving up, but remember those that love you. Those in your corner. Those who care, even if they cannnot show it. Those who would die for you, and those you would die for. You are strong. You are brave. You have purpose. You have love, as you have loved. You have happiness, as you have given. You have meaning, as you have provided.
Dear me,
Please hold on. Its hard, being as you are. This is the reason why you have to become better. In your pursuit you have come across obstacles that seem to be to big to overcome, but, always remember, this is only happening because the universe has a plan for you. These scars, bumps and bruises are nothing but armour and reminders of what you have been through. This armour will protect you from what has harmed you before. You are protected, by the armour pain has provided.
Dear me,
Its okay to not be perfect. It is okay to make bad decisions. This doesn't make you a bad person. What will make you a bad person is when you refuse to realise you're wrong. When you refuse to apologise for your mistakes. Except yourself and others. With all your flaws and theirs. Nobody is perfect. Some may have more flaws than you. They might even be the opposite of what you want to be, but never judge them. Never be the person you despise. Never develop the qualities you hate. Always stay true to yourself and your beliefs.
You are loved. It will get better