hi hello its me again ;o its angel, ur admin, ur mother hello. i bring u all another muse, which i’m really excited for ! ty all to those who helped, u guys really reassured me and gave me the courage to bring ren to life :’) anyway here’s my lotus, n i’ll be using that to refer to him constantly so ur warned sorry abt it. y’all can contact me on any of my muse blogs or since i’m constantly switching accounts, my discord which u can find on somi’s intro ♡
i’ve got his profile, stats, some plots & a cool lil pinterest for him !
↳ ✧˚∗ — welcome to infinite entertainment! it’s MIYAZAKI REN (SOUL), who is the LEAD GUITARIST of TIDAL. i’ve heard whispers that the 28 year old is pretty INDEPENDENT but lowkey RESERVED. also, doesn’t he remind you of NAKAMOTO YUTA?
FAMILY/GROWING UP
ren was born in osaka, japan on february 5, 1997
his parents were firmly business oriented people so they were away a lot
and because of that, he was raised mostly by his grandparents, he loves and treasures them a lot
as time went on being under their care, he learned to take care of them as well
but ren is very closed off from his parents, them being too strict and him not knowing how to handle that
however he wasn’t a lonely child, he was very close with his cousins and had a couple friends in his lessons
he did alright in school, liking his classes but loving his music class
his music teacher taught him guitar at age 10 bc of his potential and he just continued on after that
TIDAL ERA
so he debuted in tidal when he was 18, having been scouted at 17 by golden media entertainment at a school concert
although he was itching to get out into the world, he was iffy about accepting. he felt conflicted as his grandparents were getting older and he felt he had to take care of them in return now that he was able to
his parents overheard his scouting news and of course, was not happy, wanting him to do more with his life rather than music
but his grandparents soon convinced him and he was on a plane to south korea
he trained for a year and a half, eventually getting put into tidal
while training, he was put in dance classes in case the band planning wouldn’t work so he’d be ready in case a boy group was approved instead so he has some skills in that
ren was very timid at first, not used to crowds or cameras or any of the idol life really but he eventually warmed up to everything
but still goofs off for lunas :’) they’re constantly like ‘is this really tidal’s quiet/normal member ?’
and his members too to make them smile or cheer them up, like an introvert who’s only loud around his friends
think jun from seventeen (my man :’))
but he’s gone big brother mode sometimes, giving them water or offering to go first during a photoshoot so they can rest more or u can call him the dad/mom friend, either way he doesn’t mind
ren also likes to participate in lyric writing, it’s his outlet for his heaviest thoughts
inspiration for performance mannerisms ; luke hemmings (5sos) and phantom (ghost)
doing a tiny dance (luke & phantom) and being silly + getting on his knees more than he should (phantom)
PERSONALITY
like i’ve mentioned !! he’s a reserved lil guy
but he frequently has these moments where he wants to have some fun and explore new things, he didn’t really get to as a kid/teen as he was very timid and stuck to only familiar places or basically by his grandparents’ sides
and that being said, even though he may be very shy, he’s all for adventure !!!
take him to get ramen on some far away street or explore an abandoned pool with him, yeah. . idol image who ??
peak raccoon behavior
he was sad when golden media got acquired, he doesn’t like change that much
he’s VERY scared of the higher execs of infinite, they remind him a lot of his parents and that’s enough to make him feel like a kid again
he’s super protective of his members and friends though, holding them close and putting them in his pocket n making sure they’re happy
his quietness can get him in trouble though, getting mistaken for him just being snobby or intimidating but that’s not his intention
continuing on my streak of hoe muses, my son is indeed partaking in that lifestyle (where somi is highkey about it, ren is lowkey)
OTHER
after doing some research, he will be an aquarius as it’s way too fitting
A NERD FOR NATURE
be gay do crimes basically except his crime is just wandering off at random times without telling anyone and collect rocks n lil trinkets or smth
when he can sit still, he’s glued to animal crossing and he totally got that from me
pls don’t ask me his hair color (it’s red, save his scalp)
LOVES PHOTOGRAPHY, he will take pics of everything he finds pretty
tattoos !!!!???? he’s got a good bunch
piercings ????!!!! give it all to him
can speak japanese, korean and learning english
i think ?? that’s it, yes yes pls love this dweeb
okok that’s all i promise aaa<3 i’ve got ideas on his plots page, took all most of them from somi’s but i’m open to anything tbh, im fr not picky about it so let’s brainstorm !! lmk if ur interested or i can hit u up,, ok love u guys ♡
ren wasn’t sure if he was allowed to let in any more animals near seungho’s apartment after his feeding the raccoons habit gone wrong. now he had to feed them at least fifty feet away after they tried to square up with binx through the window. but this time was different. the guitarist was only out to grab seungho some food he was craving from the nearby convenience stors but he couldn’t leave the soggy looking kitten that was following him behind. not when the little meow tugged just so at his heartstrings. so with the plastic bag of his purchases hiked up to his elbow, he wrapped the orange baby in his jacket to dry it off the best he could and keep it warm. it didn’t even give him trouble when he picked it up — maybe it was meant to be. “baby?” he called as he entered the apartment, however he didn’t want to startle the poor thing so he kept the volume a tad softer. “please don’t be mad.”
what is one moment that you'd re do again for any reason?
“i’d probably want to go back to when my no contact situation with my parents thing got out so i could handle it better. lots of things would’ve went better if i did.”
"i know, i know." eden wished danbi could see him rolling his eyes through the phone. "yes i got it all just like you asked." he'd spent the morning going from place to place picking up all the things danbi had preordered. for some reason none of this couldn't wait until noon. no. it needed to be the first thing ren sees when he wakes up. "okay- okay. im hanging up." he doesn't wait for her to say anything else or she'd talk his ear off with specific instructions he had no intention of following. he ends the call and puts it on do not disturb before placing it back in his pocket. with a sigh, he grabs the dozen rainbow balloons and starts making his way to the guitarists room. eden slowly opens the door- making sure the other is still asleep before quietly walking in and letting go of the balloons so they'd float to the ceiling. looking around, eden finds a pen and grabs it along with one of the balloons. he'd seen all the times danbi had done this for ren over the years and had laughed each and every time. never did he think he'd be playing along in her absence. holding the balloon close to ren's ear, eden pops it using the pen. "happy gay month!" @soulfm
you would think because this happens every year at the same exact time on the same exact day that ren would know what’s coming so he would prepare. however danbi was away and maybe that was why he let his guard down enough to forget what month it was. he missed her but he didn’t appreciate last year when he woke up to rainbow streamers in his face. . where he proceeded to breathe one in and almost choke to death. so it was nice to fall asleep unaware, comfortable, unsuspecting.
or so he thought.
the pop had violently brought him out of his slumber, scurrying back against the wall and bringing the duvet over his naked chest as if it were a shield. after his brain caught up and his eyes blinked away the foggy sleep, he threw a dirty look at his bandmate. “what the hell?!”
Seungho can't even pretend to be sorry when such a mistake was now blessing his eyes. He takes a moment to appreciate the beautiful sight of his boyfriend with his shirt off, gentle fingertips reaching out to touch at the butterfly tattoos. "Im sure i can think of something." He drawled as he's pulled closer. Seunghos not entirely sure when it'd happened but Ren has started to show a rather clingy side to himself that the stylist quite liked. He loved always being pulled closer or being within reach of the idol. Before he knew it soft lips start peppering him with kisses, eliciting a giggle out of him. "You're sticky." He says with a playful scrunch of his nose as he pulls away. "I take it back. I'll just buy you another shirt." He says in jest, starting to peel himself away in hopes Ren pulls him back.
the tender touch against his skin had him melting against seungho. every form of contact given to him from the younger man drew him in further. “well yeah because of you.” ren frowned playfully though the expression turned genuine as his arms were suddenly empty. “nooo.” he whined and tugged him closer again. “don’t want a new shirt, want you.” he sulked. the guitarist buried his face in seungho’s neck and breathed in his scent as his hands wandered under his shirt. he could practically hear his members’ teasing voices in the back of his head, giggling about how needy he was. but it wasn’t as if he could fight them about that.
seunghos heart sank when he sees ren had ended the call without saying a word. he wasnt sure what he was expecting but it seemed like ren was going to pretend he hadn't heard anything at all. maybe its for the best. he didnt want to pressure ren into saying it back just because. the idol had only just allowed himself to open up not too long ago…what if hearing those three little words was enough to scare him away? the next few minutes felt like hours as he paced back and forth. his stomach was in knots- food was now the last thing on his mind. he flinches and his ruminating comes to an end when he hears the knocking on his door. he doesnt want to look disappointed but he's not entirely sure he can hide it from the the guitarist. nevertheless, he takes a deep breath and tries his best to look unfazed as he opens the front door. "hey." he greets with the best grin he could muster.
ren tried his best to catch his breath as he stepped inside. he took off his mask and pushed down his jacket hood, his heart racing but he was sure it was because of a totally different reason. upon just looking at seungho, he could tell his abrupt hangup wasn’t received well and he expected it. he was trying to conjure up any thoughts that weren’t those three words. a greeting or more appropriately, an apology or perhaps an explanation. however as ren’s eyes scanned over the beautiful features of the face he would never get tired of staring at, it was deemed to be a difficult task. although he deserved more than just the sentiment. “i just,” he started before pausing to get his words together. “i didn’t mean to hang up like that. i’m sorry.” he sighed, holding seungho’s hand and pressing a kiss to his knuckles. “but i do love you too. so much. more than anything. i thought it would be better to say that in person.” he cooed. “i love you.”
"was too an accident." he reassures, but its one accident that hes most grateful for. seungho grins up at ren after he speaks up. he was far too pleased with himself to heed the idols warning. "i dont know what you're talking about. im just helping clean you up." he feigns innocence, leaning in once more to lick a bit of whipped cream off the guitarist collar bone. he finishes off by placing a small kiss to the same area before gasping. "oh no~" he acts surprised as he looks down to see that ren's shirt had also been a casualty of his clumsiness. "your shirts ruined. you should take it off." he coaxed, already grabbing at the ends of it to help ren take it off.
ren obliged, following the other man’s lead in taking off his shirt. he slipped down from the counter and looked at the shirt with a teasing pout. “i liked this shirt and you ruined it.” he sighed dramatically before putting it to the side. he knew a wash would get rid of it easily but he couldn’t help but play along. “i’d hope to get some sort of compensation.” the guitarist mused, reaching out and grabbing onto seungho’s hips. he pulled him closer and littered kisses along his jaw. now that they had rekindled their flame, it was hard for him to keep his hands off the younger. ren just wanted to keep him within arms reach at all times.
even if he wanted to, seungho can't stay mad for long. not when ren talks to him so sweetly he practically has him turned to mush in the very place he stood.
✆ → berry chan: "no, no- that's okay. i can wait. i guess another couple of minutes won't kill me. but anything more than 15 minutes and all bets are off. you might show up to find i didn't save you anything." he jokes. "just hurry. i love you..."
it came out so naturally, he doesn't actually process what he's done right away. but the second he does his eyes grow wide and panic starts to sink in. he holds his phone away from his ear and stares down at it.
ren stopped in his tracks and he probably looked strange to bystanders since he froze in the middle of a busy sidewalk. he loves him. he loves ren. seungho loves him. he wanted — no, needed to say it back. but what was the point if he couldn’t look into those beautiful eyes that always sent a rush of warmth through him. the same ones that were his favorite place to get lost in.
and maybe the way he reacted wasn’t quite the best with how he hung up without a word. however he needed to run and it would be kind of embarrassing if seungho heard his huffing and puffing instead of the sentiment being replied back. he definitely looked more strange with how he was dodging and weaving around people and luckily, his mask and hood were concealing most of his features in case someone would recognize him. ren soon found himself in the apartment building’s elevator, the slowness not helping his franticness to just. . be there. he finally exited on seungho’s floor and knocked repetitively. “babe?”
it's not often they get the tidal dorm to themselves. there's always the commotion of having the place fully occupied by all members and friends. today is one of those rare times its actually pretty quiet. he chooses to take full advantage of this brief peace to have ren all to himself where the idol probably feels most comfortable. not half bad that their fridge is always fully stocked too. "ooh~ you guys have whipped cream." seungho excited chirps as he takes the cold can out of the refrigerator, giving it a good shake. nothing better to top their freshly made ice cream sundaes with. he playfully points the nozzle at the man sitting on top of the counter. "freeze! hand up!" he demands, accidentally pressing down on the nozzle, spray whipped cream right at the other.
"oh-" seungho can't help but laugh. "m'sorry." he manages to apologize through his fit of laugher. "here- let me help." seungho wipes a bit of it off his face with his thumbs before pressing up on his tippy toes to lick some off the end of ren's nose. it gave him an idea. leaning forward, seungho licks some whipped cream that had, as luck would have it, landed ren's neck. @soulfm
there was a reason he didn’t bring seungho around to the tidal dorm to hang out. and it wasn’t because he was embarrassed. . well okay, maybe he was but not because of the younger man — never. but ren knew his members. he knew they would tease him and bother them. it was exactly what he did with dae and kai so he knew how tidal could be when it came to significant others. so it was refreshing to be able to spend time with seungho without all that. from his spot on top of the counter, he watched him flutter about their kitchen freely with a warm heart, fondness in his eyes as he prepared their sundaes. they looked delicious and it made him excited to dig in.
anything seungho tells him to do, he does without a beat so his hands fly up in a surrender to play along. but it counts for nothing. the guitarist flinches as whipped cream covers most of his face and some on his neck, even on his shirt. “starting to think that wasn’t an accident.” he teased. ren couldn’t even complain though, not when seungho was doting on him. the warmth had shifted into a heat, going south down his body once it was cleaned off his neck. “don’t start something you can’t finish, sweetheart.” ren told him as he held back his urges to absolutely devour the other.
"thank you. have a nice night." seungho bows to the delivery man before closing the door. the food smelled so good especially on an empty stomach. he couldn't wait to dig in but upon a quick glance down at his phone he sees that ren is late. he's not worried but he'd like to know how far the idol is, so he calls. he places the bag of food down on the kitchen counter as he waits patiently for ren to pick up. his impending hanger immediately disappears when he hears the other's sweet voice on the other end.
✆ → berry chan: "ren? where are you?? the food's here and i'm hungryy~."
ren was running late. if he was meeting anyone else, he’d make at most half the effort of getting there quicker. but this was seungho and he wasn’t going to waste a single second. he was ashamed to admit he overslept, having gotten home late last night from work so what was supposed to be a little nap to energize himself for their plans together turned into a deep sleep. “shit.” he mumbled as his phone started ringing.
“hello?” ren meekly answered the call before he went straight into panic mode to reassure him. “baby, i’m so sorry i’m late. i’ll be there in a few minutes but you should go ahead and eat. i won’t be much longer, i promise.”
seungho lets out a content sigh, having reunited with his happy place- ren's arms. it's not often he's able to relish moments like these with the other man. it always felt like something was blocking his better attempts to truly get close. but this time no one else had sabotaged them more than himself. "no- i'm sorry." he mumbles, reluctantly letting go of the idol. guilt had started to seep in, making him feel undeserving of such affection. "i shouldn't have questioned you like that. it was none of my business." he just knew that if he'd kept his mouth shut the doubts of ren's intentions would eat away at him slowly. he doesn't want to be the needy and jealous type but it's not really something he can control. sadly this isn't the first time he'd show this uglier side of himself. "i promise i'm not always like this." he reassures.
he couldn’t help the small pout that formed as seungho moved out of his grasp. but he wouldn’t push him. not when things were so fragile between them right now. it made him more careful, ready to drop everything and pick up the pieces if they break until his fingers bled. “you don’t have to apologize.” he told him. “you’re allowed to ask about things, to know what’s going on. especially when it’s something that doesn’t sit right with you.” ren didn’t want to keep things from the younger man. it felt damaging to do so and seungho didn’t deserve that. “you’re perfect.” he murmured fondly. “i don’t mind though. i’d want you tell me anything and everything that’s on your mind.”
The moment Yoon sat down on the bus, he was out. Only to shaken awake, stumbling off the bus, a key card shoved into his hand by his manager a room number tossed his way before they were off to grab the luggage from the back. Yoon blinked very confused, he glanced around attempting to ask one of his members but they all were heading off in different directions. "What.." Yoon sighed before turning to a voice, he assumed was speaking to him, his confused face quickly turning into a displeased pout followed by a very vocal groan. "You have got to be kidding me."
"Chan.." Yoon whined as his member was dragged off before Yoon huffed and without another word headed to room 108 and opened the door. It smelled funny, and there was only one bed, a large bed, clearly the staff made sure he fit on something, why couldn't he bunk with Chanwoo he was also large. Why did it have to Ren of all people?
Yoon huffed, tossing his backpack on the side of the bed closet to the door. "This is my side." He didn't like Ren, some of his reasons were valid but one wasn't. That was the biggest one and he couldn't do a damn thing about it, or talk about it so he stewed in silence. Yoon pouted pulling out his charger and the adapter he had bought last time he was in the usa, before making quick work of changing into his sleepwear.
ren watched with amusement as he watched the exchange with chanwoo and his manager. he liked his sense of humor. . at least he was pretty sure he was joking — like eighty-five percent sure. he’d rather room with him than with yoon but maybe luck wasn’t on his side that night. so he trudged along after his new roommate, looking around with wary eyes as if someone or maybe something would get him. he was hoping it was just his tired mind making him more paranoid than he usually was.
“what?” he muttered as soon as he saw the single bed in the room. whoever was in charge of his luck was definitely in a silly, goofy mood.
the guitarist frowned as he regarded his assigned side of the bed. he almost wanted to argue but sleep was more of a priority. “fine.” he sighed and placed his bag down. he fished some more comfortable and warm clothes out. why the hell was it so cold in here? it made him reluctant to take off his original clothes but he did brave the brief yet intense goosebumps. “just keep your feet on your side of the bed.” he grumbled, heading into the bathroom to do his night routine.
ren was sure his shoulders were tensed up to the point where they were up to his ears. he couldn’t find it in himself to relax around haneul, he held too much guilt within him to act normally. “yeah, me neither.” he mumbled. he was sure he looked like a lost child with the way he frantically kept looking at the door in hopes his members would return from the cafeteria, having been left alone in the waiting room. luckily somi wasn’t there either, he couldn’t handle that much resentment in one room that was directed towards him.
❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜
“you don’t need to thank me. i’ll always be here.” ren told her gently as he helped guide her down the busy hallway at an event. he’d been protective over the young rapper ever since the first met and it would be hard to shake it — not like he had no intention of doing so anyway. he’d made a promise to himself to always look after her and it was definitely one he couldn’t break. “but you’re welcome.” he chuckled fondly.
ren perked up at that. it’s been a while since they truly felt comfortable around each other. they’ve conversed in private more than in public ever since certain fans started taking their friendship out of context, twisting and forcing it onto them. but even then, it wasn’t the same. he was glad their connection was mending itself back like ren was gaining back his brother. “i think so too.” he murmured, almost shy from the warm feeling in his chest.
❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜
“i promise.” ren responded without missing a beat. he wouldn’t want to be anywhere else as this was the only place he was able to have seungho in his arms with nobody else around. it was like they were in their own world and he never wanted to leave. “won’t move an inch.” he affirmed as he played with the other man’s hair gently in soothing strokes. he hoped to prove that to him in all aspects. he knew he had a long way to go to gain back that trust but it was worth it.
