its so easy to say that amy is a nihilist and make fun of her for being an emo teenager but i think if you actually examine her actual behavior and compare it to the things she says, there comes apparent another side to her that no one really talks about
amy is actually trusting and hopeful to a fault
shes been alone her whole life but then
we hear that she has at least attempted to reach out to others in the past. i think the assumption we are supposed to make here is that they all either left her or died, probably while trying to protect her
she says hope only leads to despair but on some level i dont think she actually believes this.
she is so quick to decide to go with raphael, not questioning for a second if this adult man would hurt her the same way the adult men of the slums have been her whole life. she is known to be this paranoid and untrusting person but has a pattern of latching onto p much anyone who treats her well, raphael, past adults, and then even later in life Z.W.E.I. after she loses her memories
for this reason, i dont think she actually believes that hope only brings disappointment, i think its something she says aloud as an attempt to convince herself of it
amy is not closed off, shes actually just incredibly lonely and desires human connection more than anything else
i know this isnt that deep but when i think about it like this, it makes me wonder if amy saying "hope only brings disappointment" after a battle means that shes sad bc she was hoping to make a friend
