âIâm a 35-year-old virgin. Iâve never even kissed anyone. My journey began when I was in high school, and I felt like I was in a tempestuous oceanâthere were cycles of intense depression mixed with cycles of insatiable lust and hormones that would overwhelm me.
I was disgusted with myself that mere ounces of fat on the chest and mere millimeters of bone on the face were guiding who I was and what I wanted. I didnât think that thatâs what I found most beautiful, and I was trying to understand what is beauty at its core.
As I began to examine the world, I started to see people who were wrecking their lives with affairs and relationships. One of the ideas that came out was that before you can balance multiple variables and have a working relationship, you have to master happiness within yourself. So I set out to detach from pretty much everythingârelationships, good food, comfort, and just focus on my soul so that I can generate happiness from within.
It was a battle, but by the time I hit 25, I was happy not being in a relationship, and not having too many material possessions. I could respect anyone else who had a relationship and I saw that as a beautiful thing, but I didnât need to be in one myself.
In our society, it seems that romance is key to living a healthy and happy life. From my experience as a 35-year-old guy who has never had a romantic relationship, itâs not essential. Itâs an important and beautiful part of life, but if you donât have a relationship, it doesnât mean that you canât find life beautiful and pleasurable.â
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