Soulstace 👻

Artist|Gamer|Blanket Fort Overlord Mind is absent because it is bound to space. She/They 🏳️‍🌈

[soulstace]

I’m back

[miyavji]

Photo By: @iamtheswimreaper

[soulstace]

This album though 🙌🏾😩 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bokvx5pFwAB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=nab14h2ozdb9

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“The highest form of human intelligence is to observe yourself without judgement.”

—

Jiddu Krishnamurti

[michellepsychologist]

💎💙💎 for more: https://instagram.com/awakesociety 💎💙💎

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[tired-gay-deactivated20160526]

i wish there was more talk on tumblr about hypersexuality as a response to trauma, tbh. i see a lot of talk about asexuality and sex-repulsion due to trauma, but i rarely see people talk about the opposite. idk, its a difficult subject i suppose

[lilbittydragon-deactivated20241]

Hypersexuality as a result of trauma can happen because you start believing you’re not good for anything else but sex. Because you believe you can’t expect love without it. Because you believe sex is the only way anyone could possibly connect to others. Because sex is the only kind of intimacy you’re “any good at”. Because you don’t know how else to get attention. Because it’s easier to get sex than love. Because cuddling after sex is the only way you know how to get nonsexual physical touch. Because you’re high/drunk all the time. Because you have no libido/desire/attraction anymore and keep hoping that having sex will kickstart it. Because you’re good at sex and it’s the only way to get recognition and respect. Because you were told that you’re “bad at sex” and you feel ashamed and are trying to “get better at it.” Because you have flashbacks if you abstain from sex. Because you feel wordlessly desperate/scared/anxious if you don’t have sex for a certain period of time. Because you associate sex with danger and you don’t believe you’re allowed to be safe. Because you feel so bad so much of the time that sex/orgasm is the only way to calm down or feel good anymore. Because you’ve been re-targeted by other abusers/perpetrators who can tell you don’t know how to say no. Because you’re still with your abuser/rapist/perpetrator and the only way to prevent “worse” violence is to initiate sex. Because sex is physically or emotionally painful for you and you’re using sex to self-harm. 

Hypersexuality after trauma is way more common than anyone wants to believe, and it can happen for so, so many different reasons. These are just a few. 

[xmagnet-o]

Yeah this

[nicejewishguy]

this is the most depressing video game easter egg of all time

[null507]

https://www.houstonpress.com/arts/the-spider-man-proposal-easter-egg-has-a-darker-side-10842784

“Even the proposal which he thought was the save all of our relationship was never the way I would have like to be proposed to. I never liked video games, but I sat through them because I loved him. Our relationship turned into a mother and son relationship where I had to remind him about things, I had to deal with his financial mistakes, his violent outbursts etc. We never did things normal couples would do like go out, dance, parties, sit under the stars.

I told him in July that he had a month to change my mind and it didn’t happen, so I broke up with him. I have big prospects in life and I am a highly motivated individual, but it was extremely challenging to have to be someone else’s motivation to simply get out of bed or get off of his video games. As far as his half-brother goes, Tyler had asked him to check in on me and ask me how I was doing after I broke up with him, so of course we got close. And our relationship just built from there. I did not leave Tyler for his half-brother and I have never been unfaithful to Tyler.””

The Other Side of the Spider-Man Proposal Story

You might have seen a headline recently like “Wedding Proposal Hidden In Spider-Man Becomes World’s Saddest Easter Egg.” Apparently on

[cranewived]

Okay, yikes, it’s a lot less sad now.

[purplebuddhaproject]

“There’s a difference between interest and commitment. When you’re interested in doing something, you do it only when it’s convenient. When you’re committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results.”

— Kenneth Blanchard (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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[thingsfromthedirt]

[soulstace]

Don’t get your feelings hurt expecting things from people 🤷🏽‍♀️ #expectations #motto #dontdoit https://www.instagram.com/p/BoU-cjTlD-_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=uyfesabmc7k4

[soulstace]

Good reads tonight 📚👌🏾 https://www.instagram.com/p/BnKatuRlrw1/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=aksuuaha0p8c

[soulstace]

Mini golfing 🏌️‍♀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm9cGOkFHUP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gmc497vzus0o

[soulstace]

Took forever but finally found it #nesclassic https://www.instagram.com/p/BmqvTf4Fjtk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1deab1eqojqst

[soulstace]

🏖 Vibes

[soulstace]

You Did A Bad Thing

You did a bad thing

You did a bad thing and did not think about how it would effect those around you. 

Now you think i’m fragile because of the decisions you made. 

How naive of you to think i’d waste another tear on you. 

How stupid do you have to be to think i’d inflict pain on myself because i somehow couldn't live without you. 

What’s the point of checking up on me through my family when you've made the final decision of our relationship for me?

You did a bad thing now you want me to freeze my life like you froze yours?

You truly are delusional... 

Self serving...

Manipulative... 

It was always clear. 

I thought i added value to your miserable life but you still did a bad thing.

I thought that my advice was something to take but there’s nothing anyone can tell you. 

I cant mourn something you already treated as dead. 

I can’t feel for the situation you put yourself in. 

I can’t do anything for you because you did a bad thing. 

And i won’t be around to watch your self destruction.