september 9, 2017 || 8:47p:
it’s days like today that i can’t believe what has happened in my life over the past 902 days, or 2 years 5 months 2 weeks and 4 days.
the day was march 22, 2015. that was the day every started, and everything changed. this cute guy, who also loves Jesus that i followed and secretly had a crush on began a conversation with me. he answered a random question asking what his favorite flavor of jellybeans was, it’s buttered popcorn for the record. to which i comment something like “no way buttered popcorn is my favorite flavor of jellybeans too!”. after that this guy sent me a series of messages just asking what else i like, to see what else we had in common. i was so nervous trying to say the right things and not sound too basic, especially not like “a basic southern californian girl”. we went from tumblr pals, to snapchat friends, when suddenly he made the move on a friday night, and asked for my phone number. i panicked, what do i do?! i caught my cool and decided that REALLY liked this boy, so i give him my number. from that point on we talked pretty much every day all day. he quickly became one of my best friends. we talked about anything and everything, always a constant support for each other through everything. i kept telling myself not to get too attached, or to get my hopes up because there was no way anything would happen with this boy on the other side of the country, although he did seem a bit flirty at times. there were times i wanted to give up on this guy because i couldn’t handle how much i liked him and the fact we were just friends. i’m so shy i could never say anything about liking him because i didn’t want things to get awkward and i didn’t want to lose him. one day he made a comment saying he was going to come to california for vacation, and that he wanted to visit me while he was here. i FREAKED OUT. what was i going to do, what if he got here and hated me, what if he got here and everything was weird?! my local best friend talked me down and said it would be fine, and maybe he’d realize we were meant to be. fast forward a bit as he was with me through my lowest lows last summer. he was my rock through some of my hardest times physically and mentally. one september day i was sitting in a doctors office completely terrified of what might happen to me and i was feeling so poorly. he was at the airport and on his way back home. he decided to leave me a voicemail to help me get through my day, and hopefully ease my anxiety. i listened to that voicemail in the waiting room at the doctors office and nearly cried, okay i cried a little, i couldn’t believe how loving and encouraging my be friend was, i was such a lucky girl to have such a great friend. that night after my appointment, and after he arrived safely back home we facetimed. after facetiming i got a text message from him, something along the lines of “i’ve got a serious question, and it terrifies me to ask”, to which i responded something like “yes?! 😬🙈”… then the “…” typing bubble appeared for what seemed like forever. finally i received a long text message… finally this guy that that i had seriously liked for a long time told me he had felt like there was something more between us, and he didn’t want to deny it anymore. he was scared just like me, but he also knew that our closeness was something special. i let him know that he was not alone in feeling that way. i was so happy to hear, and finally be able to tell him how i felt. from that point on things were going to be different. we began the journey of a long distance relationship. the past 11 months and 21 days of my life have been some of the hardest and some of the best. i am so lucky to call this guy my best friend, my boyfriend, my now fiancé, and my future husband. i can’t wait to do life with my best friend for the rest of my life. i’m longing to be home. i want to be home with him in va, even though i’m longing to be home in socal. my home will always be socal, but with him i am home, no matter where i am. i couldn’t ask for a more loving, caring, or supportive guy to have by my side. he laughs at me and laughs with me, he tells me what i need to hear, he always wants what’s best for me, and he’s always willing to take care of me. he has never given up on me no matter how hard it has been. i’m so thankful for him.
okay, i’m sorry for the long ramble, but i just want to say that sometimes you find people in unexpected ways and they become the most important people in your life. don’t give up y'all, something amazing may happen right before your eyes!
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