okie.trash

violent. little. thing. spicy books. cameras. rodeo. hockey. milf.

[southerntransient]

For the first time in a long time I'm going to re-read the Hobbit. It's time.

[southerntransient]

When I was 12, my first boyfriend was 16/17. He ended up throwing a TV at me and pushing me down some stairs because I didn't want to have sex with him in a closet.

[wovi]

*

joy sullivan

[midnightportals]

[southerntransient]

Eat. Sleep. Feel something. Feel nothing. Repeat.

[lamignonette]

[fuckingsushi]

[icaseybaybee]

[ruslanfedotenko]

Philadelphia Flyers @ Pittsburgh Penguins ⤷ April 27, 2026 | First Round Game 5

[powerplaypressure]

MARRIED \\ penguins vs flyers

[heartbeatline]

game four | pens @ flyers (25.4.2026)

[vietnamgp]

Connor Dewar's first career playoff goal — 25.04.2026

[kawiza]

[mournfulroses]

Katherine Mansfield, from a diary entry featured in The Letters & Journals of Katherine Mansfield

[boysonthebench]

he said \o/

[southerntransient]

This room has been a lot of things over my lifetime.

I took my first steps in this room, I climbed the door jams with my sweaty palms, I did summersaults across the green carpet that is no longer there. I spent many mornings on a different couch watching cartoons on an old TV and wiping my syrup covered hands down my Barbie nightgowns.

My granddad sat in his recliner sewing patches into my ripped knees, and cracking pecans for baking. My Sittie recording Jeopardy on a timed VHS so she never missed an episode, chain smoking cigarettes in front of the fire place.

I experienced my first bowl haircut, my first birthday party, my first sleep over, and my first heartbreak in this room.

There were lasts here too. The last breath of my granddad. The last goodbye before they took him away. The same goodbye said to my Sittie when her time came. The last time I cuddled my childhood dog.

Now, 33 years later I get to watch my son start many firsts of his own in this room.

New couch, different paint, no carpet, same floors. New memories. Old memories. Past. Joy. Grief. Life. Loss. Love. Faith. Future. Home. Always consistent.

Navigation of being a parent without my "parents." Navigating the new grief that comes with that. All the healing reopening to new wounds I never knew could exist. The isolation, the loneliness, the long nights with new tears. New fears. Unspoken thoughts spiraling late into the early mornings.

I'm making it. We're making it. I'm trying. Really fucking trying.

[ruslanfedotenko]

Pittsburgh Penguins @ Philadelphia Flyers ⤷ April 22, 2026 | First Round Game 3