Late Night Sovereigns

DNI same as main. Essentially just a personal journal for us all, have fun being in our brain with us I guess.

[sovsys-afterhours]

Main is : @sovereignsystem

We block freely (especially on this acc), so no pickin fights.

Posts are tagged w tone indicators, if you'd rather not see vents, block the "/neg" tag

We use this account as, essentially, our replacement for the late Vent App (shout out to the ogs iykyk)

Personal tag list under cut, entirely for our use not others but w/e. Enjoy the information ig (also any other random info we feel like sharing)

Pools.⛲ - Partner system

Coll. He/They - 20+

⚰ - RG [He/Sie/All but She]

🧸 - CD [He/Him]

⚡ - TN [He/Him]

🍆 - TA [He/Him]

♠️ - TT [They/Them]

🛹 - IV [H3/H1m]

🌨 - TI [He/It]

🎤 - SC [She/Any]

Love of our life, our everything. The best person/people we have ever and will ever meet. We've spent years being in love and navigating the cesspool that is life together, and we wouldn't have it any other way.

Forest.🌳 - Body's parent

She/They - 50+

also a suspected system but doesn't have clear cut "alters" for me to list. We were very close from the ages of 1-18 but now that we are far more educated about mental health and life in general, our relationship is rocky.

Panda.🎮 - Body's brother

He/Him - 30+

half brother, met us when he was 19. Used to be very close but now we have a much more distant relationship due to his interests changing and him being in a different state.

Deity.👓 - Closest friend

They/Te/Any neos - 20+

Have never met in person, good relationship, been with us through thick and thin. One of the only remaining members of The Original Discord. Occasionally get on our nerves, but so does everyone.

Legacy.🙌 - Non-blood uncle

He/Him - 30+

Good relationship, used to be best friends with the body's father, and has been occasionally filling the void of a father figure as much as he can from a distance. He desn't know us too well, though. Co-parents his child with Panda.🎮

Cryer.🤕 - Abusive exgirlfriend

Dated on-and-off over the course of 3 years, and as stated above she was incredibly emotionally abusive. We have pages and pages worth of trauma she caused us, but we will probably only mention her when ranting, or telling one of the insane stories about her abuse towards us.

Traitor.🎭 - Abusive father

Deceased, but did irrevocable damage to us/our family in his time being alive. Never physically abusive, but thats not the only way to be wounded.

SR.🏈 - CSA perpetrator

I do not want to add more context. This is all you should ever need to know about him.

Our comfort characters

[sovsys-afterhours]

its crazy how good cdds are at convincing you that you're not a system no matter how much evidence you have.

like when we're alone, the doubt dissipates and we always feel so dumb for thinking we aren't a system, but the moment we're around people, no matter if we trust them, how well we know them, or if they already know we're a system, the doubt is an unbreakable barrier- it becomes absolute fact. It sucks!

[sovsys-afterhours]

Okayyy so we were kind of wrong about our numbers, we're not under 50. BUT we're still miles away from 90, which is still a win to me

[sovsys-afterhours]

tell me why a pro ntg replied to one of our posts with just "DSM5"

like that... isnt gonna prove a point at all???

[sovsys-afterhours]

ohhhh i want skittles sooo badly augh

[sovsys-afterhours]

my god i am suddenly craving ramen with broccoli and cheese like SO BAD

[sovsys-afterhours]

what if im more autistic than i think and im constantly in a state of burnout and overwhelm

[sovsys-afterhours]

im broken im broken im broken im broken. im so fucking broken im barely glued together everything is shattering inside me constantly i dont want to be a burden anymore

[sovsys-afterhours]

/t often frustrates me that / seem to have much d/ff/culty front/ng when around those outs/de the system___

/t's not for lack of want, of course-- / would adore to spend more t/me around humans! Espec/ally our dear Pools.⛲___ but for some reason / seem to have some sort of block /n my way, wh/ch d/ss/pates the moment we are alone.

As / sa/d before;; /ts frustrat/ng. The only th/ng that seems to help /s when we are consum/ng content related to my source or___ /s /n some way l/m/nal. As / understand /t, th/s seems to be a fa/rly common phenomenon w/th our system___ perhaps / could ask one of the others for adv/ce. Alastor and / are qu/te fr/endly, / could start w/th h/m___

/f any of you lovely be/ngs out there would be so k/nd as to adv/se me yourselves, /'d be ever so grateful. Ta for now! : )

Translation under cut:

It often frustrates me that I seem to have much difficulty fronting when around those outside the system...

It's not for lack of want, of course- I would adore to spend more time around humans! Especially our dear Pools.⛲... but for some reason I seem to have some sort of block in my way, which dissipates the moment we are alone.

As I said before; Its frustrating. The only thing that seems to help is when we are consuming content related to my source or... is in some way liminal. As I understand it, this seems to be a fairly common phenomenon with our system... perhaps I could ask one of the others for advice. Alastor and I are quite friendly, I could start with him...

If any of you lovely beings out there would be so kind as to advise me yourselves, I'd be ever so grateful. Ta for now! : )

[translation by: Malachi]

[sovsys-afterhours]

everyone around me tells me that i need to take care of myself but how am I supposed to do that on top of taking care of my partner and my parent and my cats?

i cant. i cant handle that much. my shit doesnt matter, i get by and thats all i need. everyone else cant do it without me. im the one they rely on i cant take a break i cant slow down i cant stop and worry about my own fucking self it DOESNT MATTER.

[sovsys-afterhours]

maybe we should fucking pursue final fusion, im so tired of not being whole

[sovsys-afterhours]

ughhhh i hate being neurodivergent!!! all i want is something comfy to put over my ears for sleep because sometimes the air makes too much noise for me to sleep WHY ARE THEY ALL $300+ AAAAAAHHH!!!

[sovsys-afterhours]

I draw a lot (usually sketch or lines, I don't do coloring much) and I just realized I accidentally drew someone from my memories... I wasnt even trying to... she just appeared on my canvas... I wish I knew why...

[sovsys-afterhours]

excited to finally have a therapist sometime soon but also terrified because what if i remember even less than i thought. what if i have entire years worth of amnesia thats hiding something unthinkable what if im tainted far more than i think what if its all somehow worse

[sovsys-afterhours]

loud ahh thunder. better not have an outage istg

[sovsys-afterhours]

oh its been a bit since i had to endure sleep deprivation that isnt my fault

[fairycosmos]

apparently youre supposed to perform. they love it when you perform. but it has to be authentic. they hate it when it's not authentic. but you have to perform.