Ghouls, Gods, and Psychic Powers

—————————-He/him-————————A place to be where nobody knows me

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It’s always rain.

Everything is rain.

Everywhere I go, I see rain.

And everywhere I go, I see home.

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I desire a boyfriend who will make me soup.

But alas,

I am the soup maker

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I dream of boys

And I dream of love

In the dark and quiet,

I can pretend you’re real and holding me

I dream that someone out there looks at me

And dreams about me too

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Your birthday was on Mother’s Day last year.

How was that? Did you get to see her?

Chances are you’re somewhere getting worse

But I hope you’re somewhere getting better

And one day you’ll come back

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I cry because I love you

Because I missed you

Because I’m back

For a short time

Because I love you

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☆Everything Feels Bad☆

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I don’t want to be your favorite

Don’t think about me

Let me sit alone and scream

Be reckless and irritating

And fall off the perch you’ve all placed me on

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How do I find you?

There is something inside me that tells me I will find you out in the world. On an adventure. Overseas. That I must travel, and you will be there. That by pure chance, our paths will cross, and I will know you when I see you. That things will go fast, but naturally. And I won’t need to find anyone else. And you will have your little flaws, and that’s alright (I’ll have mine too). And we will live some fantasy life, going where we please.

But perhaps that’s just the romantic in me.

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If you were a boy

You would be perfect

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I don’t care if we slowly rot

And dissipate into the sound

Let the ferns and grass take over

Keep your money

And build your house somewhere else

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In every universe,

In every timeline

Destined by fate

Doomed by the narrative

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I don’t know why I try

I’ve given you everything

And when I finally call upon you,

You’re nowhere to be found

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All of my most important memories happened here. All the friends I’ve made. All the celebrations, tears, and firsts.

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I hated the rain because I was surrounded by it

But nothing felt more like home

To wake up,

So early after falling asleep on the couch

And be greeted by the light misting

I could only catch in the street light

I finally felt at peace in Los Angeles

And in that moment I realized that I didn’t hate the rain

I hated the things it meant

But now I find comfort

In what I used to think trapped me, suffocated me

And all I want to do is go home

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I am left feeling hungry,

Craving,

Something I didn’t know I could have

How badly I want to rejoice and embrace

In the arms of a boy like me

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The sky cries in paradise

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Sometimes

I wish I didn’t have the need to be independent

To live out in the world and be on my own,

So I could have stayed home

Waking up to the birds