The Adventures Of SpaceBoy Wan and SpaceDog

Wan. Genderfluid. 20. Queer Melbourne space child.

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Hey babes. You’ve probably noticed that I haven’t been around much! Tumblr got a bit overwhelming, and I was getting some uncomfortable messages and I had too many gross porn blogs following me. SO! I have made a new account! There are a few people on here that I don’t want to follow me (mostly the porn blogs and the creeps sending weird messages ) so if you are interested in following my new blog, shoot me an ask or a pm on Facebook, and I’ll let you know my new blog name! Stay safe friends, its been good here. Time to move on to new things and new blogs. Xx

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Hey babes. You’ve probably noticed that I haven’t been around much! Tumblr got a bit overwhelming, and I was getting some uncomfortable messages and I had too many gross porn blogs following me. SO! I have made a new account! There are a few people on here that I don’t want to follow me (mostly the porn blogs and the creeps sending weird messages ) so if you are interested in following my new blog, shoot me an ask or a pm on Facebook, and I’ll let you know my new blog name! Stay safe friends, its been good here. Time to move on to new things and new blogs. Xx

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Hey babes. You've probably noticed that I haven't been around much! Tumblr got a bit overwhelming, and I was getting some uncomfortable messages and I had too many gross porn blogs following me. SO! I have made a new account! There are a few people on here that I don't want to follow me (mostly the porn blogs and the creeps sending weird messages ) so if you are interested in following my new blog, shoot me an ask or a pm on Facebook, and I'll let you know my new blog name! Stay safe friends, its been good here. Time to move on to new things and new blogs. Xx

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*Gets $1200 ambulance bill for that time i tried to kill myself* My brain: hmm.. if I KILL myself.. I won't have to pay it!

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I arrived home last night to the happiest little Ukrainian grandma waiting for me ♡

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Hey i wanna die but look how good i look today

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Money and mental health is so bad I've resorted to selling myself again. Does anybody know any sex worker jobs that dont have long hours that are fairly safe? Really strugglinnnggf

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Hoping things go well today. Back to work again after my weekend breakdowns. But this morning I woke up early, made coffee and a healthy smoothie, took my meds and didn't cry. So although I don't want to try to be alive, I somehow did it today and I hope I can get through work without crying. Although my piercing is swollen and making half my face radiate with heat. But Imma take a bunch of panadiene to deal with it and just try to keep workin without passing out haha.

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Fuck that manipulative cunt. He has literally no right to talk to you like that. He is not the victim. When someone tells you how you hurt then you dont get to say that it ruined your life when its YOUR FUCKING FAULT

THANKYOU. THANKYOU SO MUCH. I'm glad someone understands how wrong it is to be like "i fucked up your life but DONT WORRY I FUCKED UP MY OWN LIFE TOO but at least i got like 8 months of fun in the middle ha ha : - )"What a fuckhead."Now I'm alone again...back in my hole of sorrows..."You dug your 'sorrow hole' now go fucking lie in it.Thankyou friend ♡

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Today is horrendous. I am going from feeling wholesome and valued to feeling like i want to kill myself and banging my head against the walls until i can only concentrate on pain and not dumb thoughts I can never get used to moodswings But this is probably worse than ive ever had And nobody is at home to help me and i couldnt ask for help from them anyway And helplines do nothing for me And i do nothing for myself And today is just a constant stream of tears, red eyes, and then tears again Im sick of it

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What i want more than anything in the world right now is to go to Confest but its making me feel so awful at the same time. I want to swim and drink and have fun and do yoga in the mornings and go to meditation workshops and learn to love myself and have a fun and nice time. But I dont really have a way up there and even if i did, i dont really belong to any "group" anymore so i dont even know if i would make the most of the week, or if i would spend the week in my tent by myself and end up trying to kill myself or something dumb like that Nobody who is going is really... close to me or anything,and they all have their tight knit group which is fine, i love that they love each other. I just wish that i knew people going that i really felt comfortable with (which is dumb because i dont have anyone i feel comfortable with anymore) so i dont even know what im thinking. Im just scared im gonna get so stressed and so sad that im gonna end up spending the week here by myself Or spending the week there by myself Every choice is depressing I keep thinking it would just be easier to bot have to make any of these decisions and to become a hermit and a bitch and nwver see anyone so that if i were to kill myself i wouldn't have to hurt anyone because nobody would know or care about me enough to notice

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Its ok tumblr void i didnt kill myself tonight even tho i rly want to I just drank too much coffee and had a few j's and now my heart is beating too fast and its hard to breathe but im too stoned to do anything about it so my brain is imploding and im too fidgety and i cant sleep and i cant stay awake

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I dnt feel good n i wish my drugs n meds werent taken from me

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Im not sad but im crying and i dont want to hurt anyone but i want to die life is full of scary n confusing things

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Proud of you for wanting to confront him. You're so brave

Thankyou ♡It is so much harder than i ever thought it would be.

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What the fuck have i done to deserve this disgusting message.

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He messaged back but all he could say was how sad it had made him and how e wished we could have still been friends and all this fucked up stuff and its not fair that hes complaining to me about how he broke up with his girlfriend today so hes even more sad and im stuck in a broken fucking used body that makes me feel sick to look at And i dont even know what i want to say to him i just want him to have to go to court and get a mark on his record or whatever saying that hes a rapist so no girl ever falls for his fucking disgusting words again.