Letters of Uncertainty

self-reliance is very therapeutic | SBL |

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"Let them dare cut off your leaves and branches, and focus on deepening your roots. No matter how much effort they put in their actions to drag you down, it will be ineffectual." s.b.l.

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taming me

"This is new. I have never seen a person as miserable as she is."

I whispered as my hand is holding the mirror.

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taming me

"I don't understand. She looks nice."

"Oh, bite me. She's just another wolf in our clothing. She doesn't belong in our pride."

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Ignorance-absorbed Metamorphosis

I've become too transparent as I witnessed how my walls crumbled down. These walls revealed a vibrant atmosphere dwelling under the warmth of the hem of soft white silk concealing the precious sensitive skin of a tedious person. A young woman, born with great possession of disinterest among her peers, continuously embracing the shade of paradox and uncertainties, stepped outside her sun-deprived garden from which she finds the utmost comfort for her entire existence. A single drop of the cherished and glowing water fell upon one of her plants' leaves. The rays of elegant colors blossomed from one to another. It was unfamiliar yet astonishing. As she closed her eyes, she felt how the garden was lively, as if it was empowered by an enchanting choice of music, singing her a lullaby to sleep. This ravishing scenery welcomed her soul, and for the first time, she chose the colorful vibe. It was magical.

Little did she know, not all sceneries depict endless beauties of paradise. As time flies, the leaves withered.

The colors faded to nothing. The music was no longer audible. The water showed an absence of its glow. Only the smoke, cold breeze mixed with a stroke of horror, and horrifying growls and sounds circulated in the garden.

The garden attracted numerous untamed and fierce animals. The flowers were innocent - they do not grow thorns, making them weak from the sharp teeth and aggressive behavior of these feral creatures whose hunger for escape from captivity seemed to be satisfied.

She wanted to protect her garden. Her home. But at what cost? She chose to be selfless and hugged her flowers until her last breath. Hug - the only protection she could give despite having her own loss of sanctuary.

The only one that stayed with her, was her shadow. The figure of realization. Her shadow reminded her of how she was peaceful behind her walls.

Of how she was protected and secured. Of how she was safe. She neglected the possibilities of dangers and risks because she was overwhelmed and distracted by the transient charm and bliss brought by a single change.

Is it her fault for choosing to be ignorant in making a distant course of her life, once in a while? Or is the world just too cruel for a sweet, simple, delicate young woman to live in?

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when I say I love you

when i say i love you, i mean it.

I took the risk of falling in love. It's as if in this world abundant of lies, you are the only truth I seek for.

I learned how to see the beauty in everything. I adored the clouds even though it blocks the sunshine of my day.

I hated the color orange but because it is your favorite, I learned how to love a different shade of it.

I never liked taking photos of myself but I learned how to appreciate who I am because you're fond of seeing those pictures.

I have never let people see me wearing the old-but-comfortable clothes, but with you, I never cared how I dress up because you always ask me to be real.

I haven't tried playing mobile multiplayer games, but you are the reason I dared to, and later on, enjoyed.

You changed me in the best way you can.

You helped me grow to be a better person.

And if ever life breaks this glass of commitment, I promise to do all the best way possible to mend it.

If ever the glass is shattered into the tiniest shards that can no longer be fixed, I promise to remember how it became a beneficial and important part of my life.

And if ever a new glass came in my life, no matter how expensive, good-looking, or glossy it is, none can ever replace the first glass I had.

When I say I love you, I mean it.

Despite the distance,

the reason,

and the time,

I will always love you.

Even from afar.

Just like how you are the darkness, and I am the moon. I won't shine without you.

And that is constant.

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I swore upon my grave, despite countless breakdowns, I will succeed.

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Dear Tumblr,

Thank you for being the best friend I haven’t found yet in a person. You are my haven. My peace. My comfort. The messed up thoughts and my echoes of whispers are safe and heard. You helped me build my character despite the presence of disappointments and failures. Of doubts and pressure. Of uncertainties.

If only I could find a person as understanding as you are. 

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online classes be making us accomplish tasks as if they can be done in a blink of an eye like we're 24/7 students.

no we are not, we're someone's sister/brother, daughter/son, friend, we cannot allot all our time solely for acad-related.

don't strangle our necks with your demanding deadlines. you're supposed to be our way towards success. don't be such a path leading to a cliff.

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I am the worst person I know.

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E. N.

those pieces of art inspired me to write my own.

offer me the words of your creation; words that changed the monochrome style to a pastel palette

fill my soul with your amazing craft, I'll be the most gratified

you were brilliant.

are.

and forever will be.

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wip

the moonlit sky is beautified by the abundant stars: delectable, yet dejected by the warmth of a woeful past

i halted. peeked at the footprints in the sand. cried.

countless steps of grief, chains of almost,

whisper, "it's the solace i need"

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Letters I Want to Tell My Younger Self:

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will be updating from time to time

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Letters I Want to Tell My Younger Self:

1. Never limit yourself to doing things that make you happy.

2. Make every day productive.

3. It's not always bad to break rules. That's inevitable in the future. You always have to make a choice and not all choices save you from hurting other people, whether you like it or not or whether the situation needs you to.

4. Never compare your accomplishments with someone's victory. You will succeed at your own time and pace.

5. The best way of love is loving yourself. Never compromise your worth for someone else's.

[jl-harvey]

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and it gets heavier each day

[jl-harvey]

[inspirepositivity]

it's okay if you weren't super productive today, if you didn't accomplish everything you were hoping to, or if you couldn't muster the energy to get out of bed until twelve pm. it's okay if you took a break or two because you weren't able to focus, or if you got distracted and never completed your task. it's okay if making a meal sounded too difficult, so you just ate snack food. it's okay if it's all you can do right now to simply wake up in the morning, because you're trying your best, and your best is enough. you are enough.

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every day is too hectic to the extent that a day like this became a luxury

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IF

I can tell you how much I adore you,

I’d pray so hard for you to be my star. 

And not one of the past meteors who fell into my atmosphere.

only you can;

Be the balloon my hands will forever hold.

Be the abyss I’d be willing to dive in.

fate allows,

what are the odds of having two ends meet?