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i miss onion so bad... i really need to finish up some graphics.

#dusk falls. ( ooc )#irrelevant //#i miss him. i miss here. i miss you guys . coughs up blood

well, today has been a good day. whilst not the biggest fairy fan compared to some others, you can't complain about something as nice as catching a shiny swirlix. it's cute...

#whispers. ( ic )#coughs up blood. hi.

ohhh im going to be sooo annoying after i rework some shit here.....

#dusk falls. ( ooc )#i have GOT to stop being mentally ill. i miss roleplaying. i need to lock in.#also what happened to the ui. guys im scared.

"today is really warm..."

#whispers. ( ic )#coughs up blood everywhere . hi guys

hiiii

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I GOT A NEW LAPTOP. HOLY SHIT. i missed it here. hey guys

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coughs up blood. hi. i miss it here so bad but my keyboard is so fuckin busted

#dusk falls. ( ooc )#hi.#i miss it here soooo bad its unreal but i literally have to massage some of my keys for them to work

my m key and spacebar are kinda fucked rn help girl

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spectershy

like this for an ask<3

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like this for an ask<3

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spectershy

for those of you still here after the uh. 2 year absence. like for a starter. i’ll get to it some time today because right now its . 6am.

#q.

one day ill make a proper promo for myself...

#dusk falls. ( ooc )#irrelevant //#i hate her [ making banners ]

not sure if i’ve said this but you can call onion “allister” or “onion”<3 allister’s his middle name so. eheh.

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@drakule | continuation of...

raihan’s voice is comforting in your time of need. he’s always been nice, and perhaps that’s why your first instinct was to call him. and it isn’t like he’s never been concerned about you before. you remember multiple instances, actually, but that isn’t really important right now. what’s important right now is the fact that raihan picked up, and that he promised. he promised, and you trust him. raihan wouldn’t back out of a promise, right? right. ah, you’ll spiral if you stay silent. you’ll probably worry him if you do. you need to say something, anything, and yet you can’t. you feel like there’s a froakie in your throat. if you speak, you fear you might start crying. the words are on the tip of your tongue, and yet, whenever you try to spit it out, you can’t. it’s agonizing. you try and try and try and try, but all that comes out are noises. and then you realize: you’re scared. you’re scared someone, somehow, will overhear and that you’ll get in trouble. you feel sick. your skin is crawling and you have to stop yourself from scratching all over. that’s no good, and especially not now. this isn’t good. you can’t stay quiet, though. something, anything will work.

“i can’t tell you,” you whisper, voice shaking, “i’m sorry. i’m-- i’m just wasting your time. i’m sorry. i just--” that’s not what you wanted to say, but the dread you feel makes it’s way from your heart to your stomach. you can’t. you want to, but you can’t. you’re so scared. and then an idea pops into your head. maybe you can say it then. maybe. “can i-- can i come over? i think then maybe i can tell you. sorry. i’m sorry. i must be bothering you. sorry.” you must be so visibly stressed, so visibly anxious right now, because your swirlix is sitting on your lap now, licking away at your fingers, trying to comfort you. arceus, you feel so incredibly stupid right now. you shouldn’t have called, shouldn’t have panicked, but it’s too late to back down now. you don’t really know what to do, nor what to say. so, instead, you just start apologizing again. you must be annoying raihan. you should really hang up. you’re not saying anything, really. this was a mistake.

#drakule #whispers. ( ic )#[ scratches the back of my head ] sorry for the emotional meatgrinder im going to put these two through .#also not to sound like a little freak but ehrm i really liked the interactions between your rai and onion... shout out to big bro rai #god . i love your rai. the swag he has....

@ultdete liked for a starter !

oh? oh!!! it’s shuichi. what’s he doing back in galar? this isn’t his home region, and besides, isn’t he busy? you think he is. still, you’re excited to see him. he’s nice, and the two of you are.. similar enough. he’s a little more outgoing, but all in all, you both are relatively timid. you wonder if you’ll ever be able to be more outgoing. you don’t need a bunch of friends, but it would be nice to talk to other gym leaders without feeling a deep sense of dread that comes out of nowhere. but this isn’t about that. your fellow gym leaders aren’t here, and if they are, you certainly don’t see them. this is about shuichi, and how he’s in galar for some reason.

your feet move before you can think, and suddenly you’re right in front of the older boy. not that it’s a bad thing. you wanted to talk to him anyways, because it’s been forever since the two of you have last spoke face to face. he also made a promise to you, and even if it’s not a particularly serious one, a promise is still a promise. you hope he remembers.

“can we go get soft pretzels... y.. you promised. the last time you were here, you said we could, s.. so...” you really want that soft pretzel.

#ultdete #whispers. ( ic )#LEONNNNNN [ kissing you passionately ] hey my little yaoiling . can we go to the mall and get a pretzel again soon

@gamenu asked: ❛ i care about you and i’m here for you. ❜

ah. now that’s unexpected. completely and utterly unexpected. it catches you by surprise. things like this always catch you off guard, though. doesn’t matter who says it or when they say it, somehow, it always throws you off. it’s not like you don’t feel as if it’s deserved ( because you try your best, you really do, and that alone is enough to deserve being cared for, isn’t it? you’re still a child, and that alone should be enough, right? it’s well-deserved, you think. you’re 12, and yet you’re a gym leader. a child, a powerful pokemon trainer... isn’t that enough? it must be. it has to be, ) but somehow, it still feels strange. it’s nice, though. it makes you feel all warm on the inside. it’s a nice, happy feeling. nicole can’t see it, but you’re smiling.

you find yourself squirming, with your arms crossed as you rub at your elbows. you lean to the left, then to right, and so on and so forth. you’re not really sure what to say in response. is there even an appropriate response to say in the first place? really, you’re not used to this sort of thing. some form of praise, sure, but this isn’t praise. this is someone saying they care for you, and that’s something you’ve only heard from a handful of people before. granted, you don’t really have relationships with anyone who isn’t a gym leader, but still. maybe this is why people like to be with each other. really, it’s a nice feeling. genuinely, you don’t know what to say, but you can’t just stand there. standing there and staring wordlessly is impolite, right? it isn’t like your smile is visible ( this is one of the few times you regret wearing your mask, ) so you must look pretty rude right now.

“ um, i... that’s... thank you.. i.. i appreciate it. ‘m sorry, i just not sure what to say. sorry..” still as awkward as ever, huh? but you’re 12, you’re still growing, and it’s hard to interact with people. even within your family, you can’t hold conversation. still, you’re trying, and that’s what matters, right? you hope nicole can hear your sincerity and gratitude. you’ve never been good at expressing yourself, but... that doesn’t stop you from trying.

#gamenu #whispers. ( ic )#thanks nicole you made him feel a little emotional<3

spectershy

for those of you still here after the uh. 2 year absence. like for a starter. i’ll get to it some time today because right now its . 6am.

#[ breakdances ] heyyy #dusk falls. ( ooc )

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